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“How do you go back to being strangers with someone who has seen your soul?”

— Nikita Gill

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I don’t know if I’m ever going to find someone like him. He made me feel like I belong somewhere. We have things in common that I’ve never had with anyone else. We talked about the vertical diet, Stan Efferding, traing and lifting and the importance of a healthy endocrine system. Fuck, I could even talk about finance with him because he understood what I was talking about. I found someone that understood me.

He didn’t seem like he cared, he was always too busy or too occupied with something, I never feel like an important part of his life. I shared a lot about myself and I think that is why I am so attached to him. Why are we attached to someone we can’t have. He didn’t make the time or effort, yet, I was willing to drop everything for him. I admire his ambitious goals, and in some light, he reminds me of me. Always vicious after goals and would rather be isolated.

I learnt my lesson, and right now, I feel played.

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I wonder, would you be heartbroken if you were to lose me tomorrow?

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A small spark of uncertainty

Slowing growing to a raging inferno

Burning brightly beneath my skin

I hide it, showing only confidence

Terrified

Because the tiniest crack in my composure

Could loose these flames

And leave me nothing but ashes.

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—

Your sympathetic smile

Burns deeply

Your gentle suggestions

Hurt more than open hostility

You look so satisfied

At helping my pitiful self

Despite leaving me more broken than when you started.

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So please leave me to save myself

Stop adding fuel to the flames that consume me

Despite the best intentions

Your compassion is too heavy of a burden for me to bear

But I don’t want you to know how far I’ve fallen

So I silently conceal the truth

You can go on pretending to be a savior.

Never knowing what I truly feel:

Indifference would be preferable to this

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“I told myself that I would feel what I feel. I promised that I wouldn’t try to fight my feelings. But I can’t do it anymore. You make me so happy, yet loving you makes my heart hurt so much. I want to cherish what we have, even if I’m just another friend to you. But it’s so difficult letting myself fall for every little thing you do and say. It’s so painful being the only one falling. And as much as I care about your happiness, it kills me to watch you fall for someone else, to see you only see her. So I’m stopping myself. I won’t melt at how soft your eyes become when you face me as we talk. I won’t become excited when I look for you in the crowd and find you. I won’t think anything of the random moments when you hold my hand or touch my face. I won’t tell myself every excuse just to see you or talk to you. I won’t think we’ll become anything more.”

— i’ll let you go.

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“Sometimes, all you can do is lie in bed, and hope to fall asleep before you fall apart.”

— William C. Hannan

[lianntangfromthewutangclan]

Sometimes when people decide to leave you for good you have to let them no matter how much you don’t want to. There are few things that are far beyond our control. Even if you have strength to fight for them you have to accept the cold harsh truth that

“The people you can’t live without, can live without you.”

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Hey you, you are an amazing human being. Have a great day. 🙋

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How does one get over someone who stabbed your heart and messed your head https://www.instagram.com/p/BrULognBa_D/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1t2vvtp9sa96w

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