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LAYER ONE : THE OUTSIDE

name: aurelia santana verdugo. meaning of name: golden saint-like butcher (lmao... ok). aliases: lia. amelia valdez. place of birth: cadiz, spain. species: blood cursed. race: latinx. nationality: spanish. gender: female. sexuality: pansexual. profession: investor. eye color: dark brown, almost black. hair style/color: long, loose waves. usually worn down or half up. brown-black. height: 5′ 4″. clothing style: form-fitting. jeans & leather or skin-tight dresses. heels, always. best physical feature: eyes. appearance: dark & mysterious. weight: 123lbs. complexion: clear, healthy skin. olive toned. build: petite, but curvy. strong. voice: faint spanish/ambiguous accent. seductive.

LAYER TWO: THE INSIDE

fears: burning to death. ghosts. flying/airplanes. guilty pleasure: top charts pop music. cooking shows. biggest pet peeve: people who don’t know what they want. ambition for the future: to gain as much power as the world will allow. one bad habit: indulgence/over-indulgence. one good habit: regular exercise. one habit they can’t break: lying. one they’ve broken: pushing everyone away. what they’re afraid of: losing control. dying.

LAYER THREE: THOUGHTS

first thoughts waking up: what will today do for me? what they think about the most: people. people she likes, hates, wants to use. what they think about before bed: what did i get out of today? what they think their best quality is: adaptability. appearance. what they think would completely break them: losing her memories. what they think was the best thing in their life: being turned. what they think was the worst thing in their life: ending up in this space. being turned. what seemingly insignificant memories stuck with them: the way her husband smelled.  a walk with leo when she was still human. the face of one of many men she killed in rome.

LAYER FOUR: WHAT’S BETTER?

single or group dates: single. to be loved or respected: respected. beauty or brains: both. never settle. dogs or cats: dogs. coffee or tea: coffee. showering in the day or night: night. taking baths or taking showers: baths. tv or movies: tv. writing or reading: reading. platonic or romantic love: neither, or both. she can’t decide. iced tea or lemonade: lemonade. ice cream or smoothies: ice cream. cupcakes or cake: cake. beach or mountains: beach.

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?

lie: yes. believe in yourself: yes. believe in love: yes, but not in soulmates. want someone: always. work so that you can support your hobbies or use your hobbies as a way of filling up the time you aren’t working: work to support hobbies. have something you’re reluctant to tell people: of course. have an opinion about sex: when it’s great, it’s really great. when it’s bad... have many friends: no. have as many friends as you want: yes. have something to make a scene in public about: always. have something to give your life for: no. have major flaws: yes. no. have something you pretend or try to care about: no. have an image you project: yes. have something you’re afraid of: yes. think you’re polite or rude: depends on the situation.

LAYER SIX: FAVORITES

favorite color: red. favorite animal: none. dogs, if she has to choose. favorite movie: bram stoker’s dracula. song: the weeknd, initiation. band/artist: the weeknd. glass animals. gin wigmore. outfit: any red dress ( x, x, x ). place: rome. cariz, spain. memory: the creation of her first vampire in rome. person: herself. show: chef’s table.

LAYER SEVEN: AGE

age: 1,251. date of birth: november 12. day your next birthday will be: monday. zodiac sign: scorpio. age you lost your virginity: 16. does age matter: no.

LAYER EIGHT: PERSONALITY

moral alignment: chaotic neutral. four temperaments: sanguine. enneagram: type 8. archetypes: the challenger. tropes: femme fatale. the gadfly. tarot cards: the magician; upright. the chariot; upright. the devil; inverted. compassion: 4/10. empathy: 5/10. creativity: 7/10. mental flexibility: 7/10. passion: 9/10. stamina: 10/10. physical strength: 10/10. battle skill: 8/10. agility: 10/10. strategy: 9/10. teamwork: 2/10. strength: 10/10. intelligence: 9/10. wisdom: 7/10. dexterity: 9/10. charisma: 8/10.

LAYER NINE: FINISH THE SENTENCE

i love: being in control. i feel: strong. i hide: my weaknesses. i miss: the way things used to be. i wish: i had more optimismm. i hate: indecisiveness.

LAYER TEN: FAMILY

relationships: mateo barros. leo satellius. chiara alfonsi. parents: cabrera, alejandro & adelita (née de la cruz). siblings: anselmo cabrera. children: none. favorite childhood memory: her brother’s wedding, who was almost ten years older than her. his marriage with his wife shaped her early ideas of romance, and the day itself was like a fairytale. she still calls back to this day and to their relationship as a reminder that love isn’t always bad. favorite childhood toy: a doll made by her grandmother. embarrassing story: when she first met her husband mateo, she tried to make him a romantic dinner. she set the kitchen on fire instead, and was lucky he’d come home early to surprise her and could help put out the fire. favorite family member: her brother, anselmo. a story about that family member: aurelia lost her favourite doll on a family outing. they’d gone quite far, but her brother went all the way back and spent hours looking for it. it was filthy, water-logged, and tattered, but he brought it back for her and cleaned it up as best as he could. their grandmother could have easily made a new one, but he spent another whole day sewing hair back in and painting on what ended up being a lopsided mouth, because he knew a fresh doll wouldn’t be the same.

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NAME: Aurelia “Lia” Verdugo AGE: 27 / 1,251 SPECIES: Blood Cursed OCCUPATION: Investor YEAR OF ARRIVAL: 1845 RESIDENT FOR… 18 years. FACECLAIM: Emeraude Toubia

t i m e  i s  a n  i l l u s i o n,  b u t  n o t  o u r  s t o r i e s…

Aurelia was not born a Verdugo, nor did she marry into the name. It was given to her in Rome long ago —but this is a story for later. In the beginning, she was Aurelia Cabrera, the daughter of a goat farmer. In marriage, she became Aurelia Barros, the wife of an artisan named Mateo. Her husband made vases for the wealthier inhabitants on their town, and she cleaned up his messes and cared for the household. They tried time and time again to conceive, but a child never came. Aurelia chalked it up to fate, but her husband blamed himself, and his guilt drove a wedge between them. In his sadness, Mateo refused to make love to his wife, ate very little, spent more and more time in his workshop, and couldn’t do as much as look Aurelia in the eye. Over time, it felt as if she had been widowed, and her own sadness grew, in turn.

When a strange man came through town, she and her husband were both eager to offer their hospitality. Their home had felt cold and empty for far too long, and they hoped a new face would breathe life back into its walls. For a while, it did. Husband and wife were thrilled by the tales this strange man had to tell, and they listened with open ears and eager hearts. Aurelia was charmed by the man himself, whose name was Leo, though it was clear that her husband was fonder of his stories. He was a good man, Mateo, and though he still loved his wife, she knew that he wanted more. If he could not have a child, he would have seen the world if he could have. Instead, he settled for the stories of Leonitus, the mysterious and well-traveled man. During Mateo’s work hours, Aurelia came to know Leo more deeply than she had ever intended. He was kind and wise, funny and handsome, but what had drawn her in was his attentiveness. No matter how simple her life was in comparison, he never seemed bored by her. By then, this was more than she could say of her husband. Quickly, and without intent, the two fell in love.

He told her what he was, and she was thrilled. It started off simple, asking him to show her the most mundane of magic tricks, but quickly it grew into something that Leo questioned. Before her requests could become too troublesome, the plague swept over Europe and Aurelia fell ill. Amidst innumerable deaths, three other significant players fell ill, too. They would become the Blood Cursed, and Aurelia would learn to resent her lover for turning her into something she never wanted to be. However, she had been granted the kind of power she had always craved for herself, and though she didn’t know what to do with it, she wreaked havoc with the rest of her kind. For ten years, her bloodlust pushed Leo further and further away, until finally, the Blood Cursed were banished. In their banishment, she became the right hand to Ryder Dawson. The two butted heads on nearly everything, but her quest for power allowed her to put those things aside in favour of building a useful relationship.

When she was released from her banishment, she took up in Rome. This is where she became known as Aurelia Verdugo —the butcher. She reigned from the shadows, the source of legends and tales of monsters. She built an empire in the form of her coven, turning powerful men into vampires and pulling the strings behind the scenes. Her mind was sharp as a whip, her tongue made of silver. All this was not enough for Aurelia, though. It would never be enough. So she sailed to the colonies, to America, to expand her territory and take on a new corner of the world. Much to her surprise, she landed not only in a new world, but in a new time. She was alone, with nothing to her name but the clothes on her back and a small trunk filled with things that were useless in this new space. In time, she sought out a man she knew long ago, someone that she hoped could help her. And so Ryder Dawson entered her life once again, much to her own dismay, and he helped her settle into a life she never asked for.

After years of working under someone else’s thumb, Lia is her own boss once again. This is merely a taste of what she used to have, but she’s playing the long game now. As an investor in the city, she has a hand in the cookie jars of several prominent businesses, and reaps the rewards for it. Her life is not so extravagant as it once was, but she lives comfortably and with money to spare. The adjustment was more than difficult, but she’s since become a calmer version of herself. The bloodlust hasn’t gone away, and it likely never will, but with no other choice than to control herself in this version of New York, what’s an old girl to do?

t e l l  m e,  a r e  w e  a  p r o d u c t  o f  w h o  w e  u s e d  t o  b e?

Ambitious: Lia knows what she wants, and she’ll do what it takes to get it. It might take a long time, but as she sees it, she’s got all the time in the world. She’s a ladder-climber, whether it be within business or social circles, and she tends to befriend the most powerful person in the room —or the one most likely to do her a favour.

Intelligent: Not only has she had the time to give herself an outstanding education, she’s also become wisened with age. Though there’s no denying she’s both book and street smart, she doesn’t always make the most informed decisions when her emotions get the better of her.

Playful: Her sense of humour certainly isn’t everyone’s cup of tea, and more often than not the stuff she finds amusing isn’t so funny to the person on the other end. She enjoys getting a reaction out of people, whether it be making them angry, or making them wet their pants in fear. Ultimately though, her sarcasm and wit are quite harmless, though this may be because she’s been told to behave.

Wild: Lia is a thrillseeker in whatever form she can find it. She enjoys a good weekend binge as much as the next girl, and can throw down with the best of them. She’s entirely unpredictable; any given day is a toss-up whether she’s going to want to sleep with you, or punch you in the face.

Stubborn: She’s very set in her ways, and once she’s made up her mind, there’s little to be done to change it. Because of this, she’s usually hesitant to make commitments or promises. It also means that if you’re someone she considers a friend, which are few and far between, you’re stuck with her for the long haul.

Unapologetic: You’d be hard pressed to get an apology out of Lia, even if she knows she’s the one in the wrong —which is rare, in and of itself. She is who she is, and she doesn’t water herself down for anyone.

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Emeraude Toubia — photographed by Christopher Esqueda | 06.09.2018.