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something something memory is a monster and how somehow the two ppl who are the most on claudia’s side are the guy who killed her and the guy who never met her

bc while her fathers are so stricken by grief and guilt and their own emotions that they are constantly sidelining her neglecting her projecting onto her making her play a role, on the other hand!!!!!! armand knew exactly what he was doing making her be baby lulu!!!! but lestat did the SAME EXACT THING to her treating her like a doll except HE was totally sincere and couldn’t even comprehend why she was unhappy

and daniel being the one to stand up for her and say no claudia would not have hesitated to burn lestat!!! even while louis’s guilt will do anything to block out his memories of how he failed her daniel won’t let him, even tho daniel himself is a deadbeat dad who was constantly failing HIS daughters

like. in some ways armand and daniel are able to see her with the most clarity bc they have the least grief. and for louis and lestat their grief over losing their daughter actually is the epitome of memory is a monster like OK BUT THAT ISNT UR DAUGHTER. THATS A MIRAGE. THATS A FANTASY. THATS BABY LULU.

also obv armand being the only one who can understand her on the level of “child vampire” and how a lot of his hatred and disdain for her doesn’t come from a place of actual hatred but more like. the detached contempt of putting down a sick dog that doesn’t know it’s sick. it’s not about her either. it’s about the laws about how he believes she’s a mistake just like he was a mistake and she will suffer just like he’s suffered and he’s putting her out of her misery. he’s able to write off taking her life bc “oh well it’s a mercy killing, she’s inherently broken (like i am)” instead of seeing her as a fully actualized person who HAS AGENCY AND CONTROLS HER OWN NARRATIVE AND DOESNT HAVE TO FOLLOW THE CYCLE!!!!!!

like. insanity. her parents should have protected her but they didn’t. the person who probably could have understood claudia the most in the world (armand) and therefore SHOULD have protected her from what he went through decided to repeat the cycle and that taking away her agency was for her own good and her death didn’t really mean anything bc she was doomed anyway. the guy who’s reading her diaries and scavenging between the lines for hints about who she was is too late to ever hear her voice

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shes such a cutie 💎

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damn chat i think i'm a pony fanartist now

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Cool so when louis is the protagonist the show is about exploring memory and relationships and whatnot and when lestat is the protagonist its the lestat show.... cool cool cool

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Ok so a predominantly white writing staff didn't think about how most of the especially gruesome deaths are given to women of color.... i said oh im sure

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At the core of Armand is a little boy who is screaming and beating his fists at how unfair it all is. His ugly tendancy for painting himself as a victim even in times when he's clearly the abuser is directly related to him never being seen as a victim when he unquestionably was one (ie: in the brothel, the Palazzo, the catacombs etc.) There's a seed of resentment buried in his heart that has been growing for 500 years over this. What about my pain cries the boy as he burns ants under a magnifying glass. After all, isn't he just everything he was made to be? Isn't he owed the right to cruelty, after all that was done to him? What an insult it is to him that we would worry about the ants and see him as a villain.

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Thinking about the potential yellowjackets season 1 + 2 had.... and crying

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im baaaaaaaaaaaaaack *begins coughing up blood*

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i will never stop loving sheepdogs we truly do not deserve them

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Gabrielle de Lioncourt

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My favorite couple in IWTV but high fashion

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Calling All Cars

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