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I was on the porch watching the rainstorm that started coming down right after I took the trash to the curb, and I was getting a little rain blown on me so I decided I wanted to experience the rain storm a little more directly. So I chucked my phone and wallet inside to keep them dry and went in the backyard. The driveway was flooded so I think our basement is likely getting a puddle today (the floor isn't graded toward the drains very evenly). Getting rained on directly was unexpectedly more pleasant than sitting on the porch because the porch has an aluminum awning that makes rainfall Loud. I went in the backyard and ate mulberries off of a tree I have a truce with until it stops producing berries this year, and pulled bindweed out of my garden. Bindweed gets the rest of the yard but not the garden! Grapevines (wild grapes, dunno if there will ever be fruit) were clambering over the mulberry tree. The rain stopped and I walked back to the front door, and was greeted with murrows by mr. Orange the feral cat in charge around here. He was a little damp but not as damp as me, so he must have sheltered during the rain. I wonder where he did that.

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running into a trans girl while you're out and about makes the entire miserable errand worth it, whatever it was. like glancing upward at just the right time to see a shooting star. I spot a trans flag and it sincerely ceases to matter that the bus is crowded and it rained unexpectedly and my shoes are soaked through and my headphones are dead. I am happy to be on that specific bus on that specific day, because you're there too.

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my brain handed me the tidbit that Chappell Roan's "Casual" and Studio Killers' "Eros and Apollo" have similar melodies

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Also got a yuge tub of cocoa butter in the mail (it was partly melted before we brought it in but thankfully did not leak) that shit is a fantastic moisturizer but leaves me smelling like chocolate, which you would think would be kind of nice, except I strongly associate that smell with "sugar is on me I need to wash it off" so that's a new thing to get used to I guess

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It's in the 90s here and our window ac is starting to fail and I can't do the shit I want to do and it's pissing me off. We can afford to get a new window air conditioner but it would not arrive until the bad heat wave was over. Probably should order it anyway it's not like we have a car we can't just go run and get one immediately when the one we have actually fails. And I've got multiple medical bullshits that make me heat sensitive so we really can't go without

But, yeah, we made kimchi yesterday out of the pre-heatwave pakchoi harvest, and went out to eat with family today, some things are good but waaaah

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As a bridge between my tumblr scrolling dependence and, like, not having that, I went through all the open tabs on my firefox mobile and bookmarked, otherwise saved, or discarded them until I now have 79 tabs. This took me several hours over the course of two days. When I started my phone would lag for a couple seconds when I opened the "inactive tabs" section. I could not scroll all the way from one end to the other in a timely manner. At least 50 of them were m dot you tube dot fucking com the homepage of fucking you tube. I apparently kept opening it and then let the tab get shuffled into the multitude to be forgotten. There were bits of my personal history bound up in there. A search if tuna was ok for cats. Back when I had a cat to feed tuna to. My life still seems like an empty bucket with the bottom knocked out. but hey I have less than infinity tabs open

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I may be absent from here for a few days. This is pretty much the last social media place (if you don't count youtube, since it's more of a streaming site) I've been frequenting and I need to take a break to re-learn how to quieten my mind. Remember how it was in 2011 when I had no smartphone or internet, reading, listening to music and audiobooks, and crafting in my studio apartment. That said I might make the occasional original post; I'm just trying to pull back from scrolling feeds as a default activity.

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Hast thou thy morning meds consumed?

Off with ye, then, and do so! (And also should’st thou some water imbibe.)

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I know I'm preaching to the choir but like. You know you can wear masks for other sicknesses. Not just covid. If you have the flu or a cold or a stomach bug you can still wear a mask to help prevent the spread of it to others if you insist on going out! I just think it's the polite thing to do

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oh m-...ahhh...my pockages

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I think one of the best things I've learned since getting into fiber arts is that something can be absolutely not my taste and I can still be impressed and delighted for the person who made it and people who love it. Almost every time I look through patterns or projects, I have a thought like, "I hate that and it's magnificent" or, "I wouldn't wear that, but HOLY CRAP it's amazing that you made it."

We need more of that.

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Thinking about the protestors at little town pride this past weekend.

They come to us to preach about jesus, they recite Luke 15: 3-7, the parable of the lost sheep. They tell us to return to the shepherd because we've lost our way. Come with them, lost sheep, and your return will be celebrated.

And it has been bothering me, as someone who used to belong to a quasi-evangelical church, which only did good deeds because it was a way to spread God's word, who left that church as soon as I was given the freedom to leave, who has been putting a lot of energy into helping people because it makes me feel happy...

How do you know for sure that I'm the lost sheep?

How are you so certain that the person who needs the lesson is me?

If God has a plan for me, and His plan is mysterious and no one can know it, how are you so sure that you haven't gotten the roles reversed?

How do you know without a single doubt, that I (nonbinary person in a queer relationship, whose friends are trans people and sex workers and recovering addicts and performers) am not part of God's plan for YOU? How can you presume you know that I'm not a lesson for you in tolerance and charity and creation and the mysterious ways that the Lord moves?

How do you KNOW?

It's not worth it to bring this up to a protester. It will just rile them up- they're not actually here to listen to the lost sheep. I don't argue with agitators. After all- Im no longer part of the church so what do i know about the bible? But sometimes I want this to be brought up in the sermon. I want them to think about God's Plan and why they're so sure that they know their part to play.

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"If you're not american, why do you even care-"

US-based company YouTube just nuked the government funded channel for HIV prevention in Germany. The channel is purely educational and had no prior (or current) violations.

Assuming you guys get elections again; if I see a single person telling non-US-americans to stay out of it, it's on sight.

(german source) As of writing, the channel has been reinstated due to public backlash, but is missing several videos.

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you dont have to be useful to be loved btw

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Nexus Mods was acquired by Chosen, a company focused on growth and monetization of gaming startups.

Reddit thread

Dark0ne, creator and ex-owner of Nexus Mods, stepped down today in an update post:

NexusMods post

Users on Resetera were able to found out more about this sudden change of ownership:

Resetera thread

Victor Folmann, CEO of Chosen, published this "Gaming Startup Monetization Cheat Sheet" on his LinkedIn

Link to the post

Users are already sharing their fear of NexusMods allowing more bigoted mods in the future, and taking down inclusive ones to follow the current "anti-woke" trend in the gaming industry

Reseta threada bout their change in moderation concerning bigoted mods following Oblivion Remastered launch

Another User, this time on NexusMods forum, noticed queer and inclusive mods being removed following Dark0ne's post

Link to the forum post

It is also worth mentioning that Chosen and its CEO are seen using AI generated images on their website (including generated images depicting Tracer from Overwatch) hyping up ChatGPT on his Linkedin account, and are including "rewarding gamers with crypto money"

Users speculate that Chosen buying out NexusMods is to potentially train an AI model that generates mods

More about Nvidia's AI "RTX Remix" and future projects

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Detroit is built radially so this makes some amount of sense. Probably with a ring around the outer rim of these spokes to go between. I think the best we'll get is surface commuter rail. We've got a couple miles of it on woodward (the qline, it's shitty but free to ride unlike ddot) and they keep talking about expanding it. I think ddot could get better faster though if there was more funding or if fare was free (so many fewer conflicts drivers would have to deal with, they'd save so much time, and the fare boxes are busted half the time anyway so why the fuck not, we call that the ddot maintenance discount)

Detroit would be so cool IF they built a subway

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trans bunnies gathering in space 🛸