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     DESPITE EVERYTHING, XAVIER still wouldn’t consider his many years of companionship with dahlia a waste. truly –– he thought  –– who KNEW what the future holds ? sure, he was HURT, but he continued to think perhaps he could live to forgive and forget. “ i know a RUSH when i see one and i’m not talking about those hell sorority recruitment videos that i can’t  seem to escape … ” he joked without prying too much. “ but seriously, you’ve got to learn to stop and smell the roses ! ” he huffed frowned in disappointment for her, “ i’m guessing by that it doesn’t mean you want to elaborate ? ” with such a tight-knit friend group, xavier always thought that they knew everything about each other. “ MAYBE. i’ve just heard rumours, that’s all and i figured you could blow off some steam, ” he winked playfully.

             '   can’t seem to escape ? … you know you don’t have to watch them , right ?   '   she knows him better than most , all of the quirks & actions he displays in front of everyone meaning something almost entirely different to her . in fact , she values their friendship more than she cares to admit , however in that very moment , she wants nothing more than to simply disappear .   '   trust me , you don’t want to hear about it .   '   rather than clarifying , she begins to walk again , only continuing to speak when she hears his steps following closely behind hers .   '   it’s just … boring stuff .   '    mentioning the conversation she had with julius minutes prior never crossed her mind . not because dahlia wanted to keep the information from xavier , but because every time she speaks of him , the chat between the two of them becomes stalled , almost uncomfortable , & it’s something she’d rather avoid if possible . she sighs before abruptly slowing her pace to a halt . maybe doing exactly what he wanted would be enough to shift the conversation to anything , everything else .   '   fine . tell me about the rumors … i’m interested .   ’

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     EZRA COULDN’T HELP the smile that automatically painted his face. although she didn’t explicitly confess her affections it was clear ; MESSAGE : received. even in such an instance –– one could argue one of their most UGLY instances –– he could still find beauty in his partner. he could read her every expression and knew what differentiated one glare from the other. he arched his eyebrow with intrigue, “ and WHO would i be if i said no ? ” ezra had to admit that he thought he had TRULY done it all before he met vee, only to quickly find himself proven wrong. as her hands moved, so did his in as a natural response, “ what idea do you have now ? ”  he breathed leaning down and leaving a light kiss on her cheek.

             she's unable to take her gaze off of him , blown pupils almost infatuated with every movement , touch he had to offer her . a part of her knew it was because of the substance they had both just partaken in , but it doesn't stop the almost playful hum to fall from her lips as his touch barely shifts against the exposed skin of her waist .   '   exactly . . .   '   she starts , rolling her head back for a moment to simply maintain a grasp of her bearings . her posture straightens before speaking again ,   '   friendly competition , mon amour  --  .   '   vera doesn't feel the need to further explain as this back & forth is a game they play quite often . whoever takes home the most being the so - called winner & allowed anything they want in return . however even she would never admit she's let him win on more than one occasion for that very reason .   '   except this time , the winner doesn't just get to pick tonight ,   '   she pauses before placing a soft kiss against his jawline ,   '   they get tomorrow ,   '   another kiss ,   '   & the day after ,   '   another ,   '   & the day after that .   '  

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     “ CONSIDERING, ” HE ECHOED after her, “ i’d like to say that i treated you quite well during our year ? i didn’t hear any complaints at the TIME. ” he wanted to be CONTROVERSIAL at the least & he most DEFINITELY wanted to see her fired up again. all because of his phrasing which doesn’t quite tell  the entire story. a normal person would probably feel bad for the humiliation he caused her and the moments that would forever be etched into the minds of their peers, however, he always liked to push the boundaries. his reputation could handle it, after all. he cocked his head, “ my motto is that we must have FUN in this lifetime, don’t you think ? ” he gave a faux pout, pursing his lips together, “ just let me know what to improve on and i’ll see what i can do for you, love. ” he breathes out with an airy laugh, “ now, what sort of question is that ? ”

             '   at the time …   '   she practically laughs at the sentiment , head rolling back as the reaction passes through her chest . she knows the exact game he is trying to play with her , all done to garner a response to further her embarrassment . she believes to know better now , but even she can be proven otherwise .   '   maybe that's because i'm good at holding my tongue .   '   every part of her wants to move on , forget the feeling of degradation which loomed over her in the very moment he made her out to be a fool . but if only it had been so simple . with their social circles , forgiving & forgetting never seemed to be the option most commonly chosen .   '   fantastic . are we done here ? or are you going to give me another recommendation on how you live your life ?   '   jaw clenches then , head shaking as a very menial attempt to maintain an already dwindling composure .   '   you know what i think you can improve on ?   '   she starts , offering a laugh mirroring his from a moment prior ,   '   for you to learn . . . how to leave me the fuck alone .   '   her gaze stays fixated , lips curling into a faux - saccharine fueled smile ,   '   LOVE .   '

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     PERHAPS IF HE had been in this exact situation a couple years ago, he would’ve reacted very differently. maybe it was the bombshell that he discovered about his dad that put family into a NEW perspective or just created a slight sore spot. despite the bump in the road, to the general public, his family showed a SOLID foundation that would continue to act as an unstoppable machine for their community. whether it was all an illusion or a misdirection could only be revealed as time passed, but for right now, they were the ALL-POWERFUL bang family. it wasn’t just this –– normally he wouldn’t be brought down to his knees so quickly. the sense of raw ATTRACTION that he felt towards octavia made him believe that perhaps giving a LITTLE more than usual would not be the WORST thing ever … and in fact … maybe he could BENEFIT from it. “ i have a feeling you already know, ” he barely manages to say, though from them being so close he was sure it was enough. “ people get what they DESERVE, ” although the answer was originally in the framework of the vindictive nature of his family, he had a DOUBLE meaning in this sense. as her grip tightens he sucks in air and leans forward to whisper in her ear, “ people say the same thing about me too. ”

             she has always considered herself to be patient , never one to play or show her cards too quickly . never one to give other’s the satisfaction of a job well done until she came to be sure that the words would benefit her most . in fact , she never enjoyed things that came too easily – . & even now , with all impulses pushing her forward to satiate her ever - growing desire , she forces herself to ignore the warmth growing within her chest , a quickening heartbeat , stalled breath  …  all because of her crippling obsession with pride . -- her family's crippling obsession with pride , that is . one of which she adopted with a force greater than they initially intended .   '   tell me in your own words .   '   the command drops from lips in a soft drawl , yet its tone maintains enough edge to assert her dominance over him . she almost regrets how her control over him , his family , escalated into her satiation of a want ; how a situation of her display of power quickly turned into a back & forth of attraction . almost .   '   what do i deserve ?   '   the flicker within her gaze is almost wicked as patience runs entirely too thin . she inhales deeply when he leans in , stilling her body for a single moment before the hand on his shoulder pushes him a single step back . her hand now rises to slide up the slope of his neck , fingers tangling themselves into raven locks . another pause , & her hold tightens , pulling his hair just enough for his eyes to meet hers .   ‘   if you’re so giving … give me exactly what i deserve .   ’

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     ONE WOULD THINK that with the crimes that ezra commits, he would want to shy away from the spotlight. however, such a train of thought could not be more INACCURATE ; he desired to be seen ( though he knew when was the right or wrong time ). in such a situation where he would consider himself to be most VULNERABLE, he was glad to be in the comfort of the one person he trusted : vera. finally satisfied with his intake, when their eyes meet he can’t help but feel even more euphoric on top of the side effects. the twinge of annoyance ( whether it was fake or not ) had his heart THUD if not just for the cadence of her voice. he widened his eyes and raised his eyebrows in feigned shock, “ didn’t think you came out tonight with the purpose of being cheap. ” his hand reached up to her face before using his thumb to brush just below her eye, “ oui, but haven’t you ever heard of the idiomatic phrase ‘ sharing is charing, ’ mon chéri ?”

              '   i’m never cheap ,   '   she huffs , a soft pout taking over her features . her already inebriated condition forces a hum as his hand meets blushed cheeks , almost desperate for any bouts of affection he would come to offer .   '   & i don’t like sharing what’s mine .   '   the statement offers a clear double - meaning , leaning into his touch slightly as a means of reassurance . she can’t explain it , the warmth within her chest that seemingly grows with every moment the two of them spend together . yet she chooses to attribute the fact to her drunken haze . it only takes her a second to shift her posture , leaning down to finish the line he had started . a breathy cough passes through lips as the bitter taste only grows , & without pause , she inhales another line  –  enough to keep her satiated for the time being . vera shifts again , gaze meeting his with a flicker of roguishness .   '   let's make tonight more fun . . .   '   she begins , only trailing off . it's her very nature to bend the rules to fit her own set of principles , press people just far enough to ensure the outcome of their so - called endeavors would match the expectations she has set for herself . the fact made her unpredictable -- to most . she takes a step forward before speaking again , arms raising from her sides for hands to clasp around the back of his neck .   '   hm ?   '

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     THOUGH HE ALWAYS enjoyed having the upper hand, he would admit that it was slightly REFRESHING to have someone else take the reins. he liked to be kept on his toes rather than sitting idly in his comfort zone ( there is truly no fun in that ). perhaps in just this ONE situation, it wasn’t just the EMOTIONAL games that were played that kept him guessing, but also the moves that she made. julius could never quite ANTICIPATE what octavia was going to do –– that sort of excited him. it was a combination of her threat and the feeling of her nails, but julius felt heat spread across his face and his mouth fall open, “ is there anything i can do to make sure you don’t EVER do that ? ” his words were weak, but THIS was his weak spot. you couldn’t expect anything else from him. “ i would maybe do ALMOST anything … ” he trailed off in a whisper. though, to be fair, he had high standards for himself and his pride was one of the things that he never planned on relinquishing. “ you shouldn’t believe every RUMOUR you hear, ” he glared, his exterior hardening again. “ as for feeling normal … WHO’S to say what i’m into … ” 

               she's known him since they were children , growing up with the same set of morals & instructions towards obedience , power , pride , all with the common goal to mediate a potential threat & grow their already flowered egos . however , even after so many years , octavia has never seen him so willing to give . so willing to protect himself & his family that it draws an open - mouthed beam .   '   i've never seen you like this ,   '   she muses , every glance thrown in his direction offered with a flicker of cruel intention . it's quite obvious how her demeanor shifts as his tone weakens , knowing full well that her blatant threats left him in a place of desperation . a part of her takes pleasure in the control she has over him , but another questions just how far she can press until julius is nothing less than malleable , every word spoken to please her whims .   '   what are you willing to do ?   '   barely a murmur , unsure if he even heard the question despite their close vicinity . tone is considerably softer to her previous words , yet still offering no room for him to gain the upper hand .   '   almost . . . i don't know if almost is enough .   '   palm squeezes atop his shoulder , gently , yet with more force than before .   '   your family isn't subtle ,   '   her grip tightens again , an attempt to maintain a metaphorical hold of the situation .   '   tell me then ,  --  i'm known to be giving .   '

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     JULIUS NEVER FOUND any problems with his life during the time that they were together. though, he appreciated the added attention that it brought upon himself. ALSO, the fact that he would be on the winning side of a bet was enough to bring a smile onto his face ( one of the things he hated most was losing ). at the time he could’ve argued why dahlia was the perfect TARGET –– and he still can. he could hear the venom that oozed off of her words, but he knew her. such toxicity didn’t bother him in the least bit. julius is observant, but not for the better; he relaxed just as she tensed up finding a bit of JOY in the power he still had. “ that’s UNFORTUNATE, ” he frowned slightly. “ i feel like just our occasional passing looks in the hallways isn’t satisfying enough. why WOULDN’T you want to catch up ? ” he had an innocent look on his face though he already knew the answer. he wanted to hear it in HER words. “ i’ve been doing pretty well for myself … ” he trailed off, “ games ? seems like an interesting word choice if you ask ME. ” a small smile crept onto his face.

               the feelings she held towards him years prior were never truly allowed to disappear , with a reminder of her foolishness plaguing the halls of their university every given hour . but it would take far more than a slight vexation for her to come to admission , as far as she was concerned .   '   oh , my apologies . what would you like me to do instead ? because i like to think my reactions are appropriate considering ,   '   eyes roll , & the grasp against books only tightens with every passing moment . it irritated her just how easily he was able to maintain such a vice grip on her emotions ,  -  both then & now .   '   so have i … i’m sorry to disappoint you .   '   it takes every remaining ounce of will - power from walking away then , however the mere idea of giving him the slightest satisfaction , control , forced an obviously fabricated beam to form atop pained lips .   '   you’ve always been fond of them , haven’t you ? from what i remember . --  am i supposed to assume you're suddenly different ? a better person ?   '   dahlia pauses , taking a small step towards him . a part of her wishes to say more , truly break him down to everything she believes him to deserve . but rather she continues to test the waters , see the reaction her accusations seem to garner .   '   am i ?   '

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               slim fingers wrap around a glass cup with a weakened grip , gaze unmoving from the door of the restroom they've occupied . call it inane , but a part of her wishes to be caught . for someone to walk in on them with fingers covered in white powder , hundred - dollar bills littering the floor near an emptied crystal tube on a dirtied counter . the very thought of uncertainty excites her , & she may be able to attribute it to the already subtle drunkenness or her nature of over - defiance ,  -  the almost soft laugh passing through parted lips confirms that the answer is BOTH . head rolls back for a passing moment , finally shifting her gaze to meet his . features soften slightly as a single hand extends out in his direction ,   '   are you done ?   '   faux annoyance slips into her tone , setting the cup beside her in a manner of exaggeration .   '   or do i have to remind you that bill that's currently up your nose is mine ?   '   vera shrugs then , an aggrandized sigh huffing within her chest .   '   s'il te plaît bébé , i thought being greedy was my thing .   '

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     “ UGH, FINE ! SINCE i actually trust you, i won’t do ANYTHING with him. THIS time. don’t get used to it. ” yet as she says this, she’s already onto the next. she’s racking her brain for IDEAS of who her next move should be or how she should meet them. though, rae shouldn’t but much happier as the next is most likely JUST as questionable as the last. “ does anyone else know ? ” the sudden question popping into her head and her jaw drops slightly at the mere THOUGHT of it ( if she wasn’t the first to know though, she would be slightly offended ). olivia raises both eyebrows at rae’s statement, choosing not to further poke into the whole possessive question –– yet. “ oh, GOD. i forgot dani’s all about the plans. do you think that’s a source of their problems ? ” her eyes twinkled with the sort of CHAOS that could potentially ensue. “ how can he even face your parents after that ? you know, i think this situation is sort of HILARIOUS. ” 

               '   i must be drunk because you're actually listening to me … are you okay ? have you felt sick recently ? oh my god , are you dying ?   '   she offers a breathy laugh , even though from experience she knows that her advice will be met with a false promise . she's used to it , probably more than she should be , yet it seems to be in both of their natures to do what wasn't the best for people around them .   '   i don’t know . you’re the first person i told but noah could have told anyone .   '   yet even she questions if he would go as far as to letting this information spread beyond his control . & telling anyone beyond their immediate circle would do just that . head shakes at the suspecting glance olivia passes in her direction , figuring that her denial from the moment prior almost fueled the exact confirmation the other woman had been looking for .   '   or maybe the source of their problems is that she's boring . . . & he's well  --  not ,   '   the sentence trails off as an amused scoff passes through stained lips .   '   are you kidding ? he was at their house two days later picking up wes for soccer practice . i don't think he gives a fuck , liv .   '   she raises the glass to eye level , staring through the red liquid ,   '   which i mean is kind of hot , but . . .   '

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     XAVIER WAS ALWAYS known to be the optimistic one in the school. his life really hadn’t given him a reason to act OTHERWISE –– until that ‘MINOR’ bump in high school. he thought it was funny how a school year could change the way one saw another person and how an attitude was able to completely FLIP without other people knowing. either way, he still bounded down the historic hallways with a goofy smile on his face and a BOOMING voice that could command anyone’s attention. seeing a silhouette that he knew ALL too well after so many years, he lengthened his strides to catch up before slinging an arm around her shoulder, “ what’re you in a rush for ? can you believe another  year has escaped us ? ”  the questioned leaped off his tongue in an attempt to create his usual BUBBLY nature. “ got any big plans coming up ? also –– what’s the frown for ? shouldn’t you be HAPPY to see me after a little while ? ” he teased.

               she has never been able to perfect the art of masking emotions , every feeling of vexation , anger , uneasiness spread across features for those who even bothered to spare a glance to see . dahlia never considered it a flaw , no , but more so it made her ability to tell a realistic lie invariably thin . & normally she'd be more than happy to see him upon hearing his approach ( it's hard to miss ) , ecstatic even , but considering her rather foul mood it wouldn't seem to be the best for either of them .   '   i'm not in a rush ,   '   she counters , tone overcompensating for the very evident anxiety spread throughout her person . instead of attempting to feed him another lie , one that he will surely see through , she secedes . he knows her better than most , & she truly was not in the mood to be prodded about every detail in regards to her recent meeting with a certain someone she didn't want to give attention to .   '   i just had a meeting with a professor . didn't go as well as i thought it would .   '   not necessarily a lie , yet she still offers a soft smile in distraction .   '   of course i'm happy to see you . . . it's just a bad time .  --   nevermind . sorry . . . so , is that your way of inviting me to something or ?   '