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Always one sided, everything seems one sided.

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One more step Freedom from the burden of life

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In the darkest times. Hope is something you give yourself. That is the meaning of inner strength.

Uncle Iroh - Avatar the Last Bender

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Uncertainty

In the two months of us been together, his never asked to facetime. Than he asks how I feel this relationship his going.... I should have known something was up when he asked to facetime. He also has something on his mind which he doesn't want to talk about over the phone. I could tell something was wrong that he wanted to talk about but he refused to say anything, until I kept on asking. Yet we haven't made plans to meet anytime soon or I'll have to wait for another 4 more says, With the thought of what's the contents of this conversation. It's only being a hour and my mind has gone to the darkest and horrible depths. I cannot think what my mind will be churning out until Friday.... Time for bed, but I doubt I'll get any sleep, with my mind churning this mysterious conversation over.

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Holding Hands

So I'm seeing this guy ATM, and his very PDSA kinda guy, which is strange for me, I normally hate that kind of stuff, but then my heart is a black hole. However with him, it nice. I like it when he holds my hands, and we kiss in public. My only worry, which shouldn't even be a worry, is that we'll get heckled, or worse could happen to us. I have sly try not hold his hands, by smoking, or being on my phone. At the back of my mind the story of the lesbian couple who were beaten on the bus home after a date plays in my head, I don't what that to be us. I should be able to hold a guys hand without feeling like I'm being judged, hated and that I could be physically hurt for it. To think I like in a city like London where it's a possibility saddens me, and diminishes the simplicity of holding hands with someone you like.

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Train eyes

I was checking this guy out on the train to work, and I'm sure he was checking me out as well, as he got off the train he looked back, I wish I'd got off the train and talked to him. I had enough time to do so before work. My only hope is that he lives in the same area as me, I just hope to run into him again and get some balls to talk to him. I can't get him out of my mind, why does the universe hate me.. To make things worse, I moved away for a month so haven't had the chance to see or try to run into him.

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Everyone on this site:

1. was a superwholockian

2. was a 2000′s emo

3. is gay/lgbt

and/or

4. probably likes Harry Potter

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Stood in my kitchen waiting for my dinner Wondering if I'll ever not be lonely I've tried tinder, chappy, online shit When I like someone, it always goes south, And not in the good south 😏

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September Twelfth, 2001

by X.J. Kennedy

Two caught on film who hurtle from the eighty-second floor, choosing between a fireball and to jump holding hands,

aren’t us. I wake beside you, stretch, scratch, taste the air, the incredible joy of coffee and the morning light.

Alive we open eyelids on our pitiful share of time, we bubbles rising and bursting in a boiling pot.

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When does life get better?

Fed up of worrying & stressing about things constantly.

First it was him.

Then the holiday.

Now money....

Always comes back to money.

I’m so much debt... I don’t know how I’m gonna pay it all off....

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I’m just a emotional black hole

Fake it till you make it

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2019 Goals

Improve myself

Mentally

Emotionally

Physically

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Never felt so lonely and alone this year until Christmas came around

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When they see you.

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