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DADS DREAM

my dad always wanted to be a doctor ...he couldnt bcoz of some family problem.so he wanted me to be......he dint pressurise me at all but i wanted to do it for my dad.....so after three years i cleared my pmt exam and got into  a medical college..everything was good i was still hard working and studying...bt later i realised i was made fun of by ppl when they saw me studying this hard in starting of the year..i was made fun of and was seen as unkool..i dont knw what butthis time after so many years i dint want to be unkool...i dont remeber how but i left studying slowly and went with friends here and there and quiet surprisingly made many...but another problem i noticed i had was if i come to know a person is bad in actions or heart i couldnt talk to that person comfortably and left talkimng to him or her..so from a whole class full of friends i was left with just a few......then i learnt everyone is mixture of good and bad,,,including me...i was bad for so many maybe........thenm i met this girl..who was in my group...but she already had a boyfriend,,i was ignored by her bt i wanted attention from  her idk y,,,i couldnt help it go off my mind..she would talk to cool guys and talk abouit guys who used to propose to every single girl they found..i dnt know y bt still i thouht maybe i dnt knw how to live life,,,i started doing things that i never would just to see if i can b cool by doing it...started drinking,,,started skipping classes...tried to show off that i can study at last moment....on and on.....learned to dance and everyuthing,,and one day she was my gf .we remained together for four n half years.........and then when we had to leave college she left talking to me and found a new bf...

#samebullshiteverywhere #ordinary #nothingknew #wastingyourtime

then started the longest lonliest part of life

with that heart broken ,,,as suggested by many i thought of having a new gf ,,,,,,got into so many relationships in a small span of time....bt ended up coz of one reason or the other....

the main reason i started this blog is not to bitch about life that this happened that happened to me...the main reason is i was so heart broken recenly did something that i never thought i could..i dissapointed my mom my dad......my wife,,her dad and her mom,,my friends,,,,that eventually this led to fight between my parents and hers....when i was about to commit suicide i just realised one thing i have learned so much soso much i cantg let it go to waste.if i can help anyone out there struggling in anything and i can help that person i would consider one more reason of staying alive accomplished...my only reason was my dad,,,he believed in me so strong that i cant ever lose to anyone,coz he said all the losings of his life and my life he has already done ,,my part was to win,,,keep falling but continue winning EVERY OBSTACLE IN YOUR WAY

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i was always a normal quiet boy who never had fights with anyone in his class,

teachers considered me a good boy,good in studies,with good manners

had very few friends to talk to...but good hearted friends only

avoided talking to bad people(bad at that time for me meant who talk abt bad things and commenting on girls)

life was going ok,i always got good marks,loved flying kites and playing with marbles..nothing else on my mind

then when i eneterd my class 10,one day my favourate maths teacher asked everyone a question what do u want to be and why?

when my turn came up i said i want to b a scientist,he laughed and said do u even know what a scientist does,,i said no..

i kept thinking abt it and thought and thought and just one thing used to be on my mind that was so nonspecific but i couldnt find the answer on my own what i want to be.....my brain my heart just said one thing...THE BEST..I WANT TO BE THE BEST IN WHATEVERI DO AND  WHEREVER I GO....this went on and on and i buried it inside my heart coz it doesnt mean anything,,a dream or a goal has to be specific if u wanna achieve it