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“All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.”

— J.R.R. Tolkien

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Reason to Live #4740

  To eventually go to med school and become a psychiatrist to help other people who’ve gone through the things I have. – Guest Submission

(Please don’t add negative comments to these posts.)

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Imagine if a psychiatrist opened Tumblr and saw the cocktail of mental illnesses we all carry

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A comprehensieve list of advice I was given by teachers and professors throughout my life:

A mistake repeated enough times becomes the norm.

Life won’t change to accommodate your fears.

Style is the stuff you do wrong.

If you gamble with the devil, be prepared to bet your soul.

To think outside the box you must figure out what’s inside of it.

Reality is fiction.

To look like you didn’t prepare for something, you need to be 10x more prepared than they expect you to be.

Smart people and dumb moles are easy to work with, the problem begins when you have to deal with dumb people and smart moles.

A villain is a hero in his eyes.

Whenever you need to enter a room where there’s a dead body, make sure you have a menthol soaked cloth to cover your nose and mouth with.

Eat your ego before it eats you.

Principles are always more important than rules.

Intentions accomplish nothing.

Importance is arbitrary.

You blame society, but you are society.

Talent is overrated.

Work until you don’t have to intruduce yourself. But than do it anyway because I taught you better than that.

Try to say something positive when everyone else is complaining.

People photograph what they want to immortalise.

No matter what your job is, do it to the best of your ability.

If your ever feel full of yourself, remember you are the bad guy from someone’s point of view.

Always pay attention to the direction the bus is going. You don’t wanna end up in the wrong town.

Morse code is more useful than you might think.

If things in the distance seem to float, you are either hallucinating of there’s a temperature inversion.

If you lower the bar you will eventually trip.

The biggest difference between real life and fiction is that cars rarely combust after an accident.

The great thing about being -40° is that it doesn’t make a difference if you go by fahrenheit or celsius, you are freezing the same amount.

Your feet are the thermostat of your body.

All guns are loaded until proven otherwise.

Always prepare for the worst case scenario.

Life is just a convoluted web of lies.

Proper etiquette is what keeps disasters from happening.

The more languages you learn the broader is your horizon.

Notice the world arround you.

People don’t see things nearly as well as they se motion. If you wanna disappear, just stay still.

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being a child can be absolutely magical & I wish I could’ve realized that before I wished it all away

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Basically my Dad and Mom

Thanks again Dad for saying you didn’t want a relationship with me when I came to you after my ex-fiancé cheated on me and broke up with me. Your lack of effort to be present in my life as a child. Your abusive nature and hatred for life tainted my home everyday. All of that you will not dare own up too.

Thanks to my Mom who threw my pain in my face and shamed me for it. Who made me feel emotionally overwhelmed and isolated. You broke an emotional boundary which lead to a bunch of pain and issues. Your instinct for self preservation is so toxic you would rather throw your children under the bus. I watched you stay silent when harmful things happened before your eyes. You say you own your truth, but the moment you hear it you deny it.

At the very least thank you for giving me the voice to stand up to your shit finally…

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do y’all ever miss your mum then get around her and be like damn ✨n e v e r m i n d✨

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“For those who are stuck in shit homes: don’t worry. We’ll live our 20’s as we want. The things we missed out on as teens, we’ll get to do throughout our 20’s. It’ll be the greatest decade. Don’t worry about not having a proper teenage experience. Don’t think you’re missing out on your ‘coming of age’ stuff. We’ll do that stuff when we’re adults.”

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My whole life until age 28...

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It can still be abuse even if you have good memories of them.

It can still be abuse even if they've stood up for you against other threats.

It can still be abuse even if there were moments of gentleness.

It can still be abuse even if they once felt safe.

It can still be abuse even if they offer you gifts.

It can still be abuse even if they fed you, clothed you, and provided you a roof.

It can still be abuse even if you still feel love for them, even after the things they've done.

And it can still be abuse even if they love you.

Abuse isn't always an endless torment with no breaks in between. There are often moments of peace, and words of comfort, and times where they protect you.

And it's the good things they do that make it hard to leave. That make you feel guilt, or even nostalgia, at times.

But no amount of positive interaction can make up for it if your loved ones hurt you, repeatedly, for all your life.

If they beat you down, scream at you, judge you, hit you, emotionally manipulate and guilt trip you, neglect you, or any number of harmful acts that leave you wounded and scared, they are abusive.

And it's good to be mindful that both the positive and the negative can exist in the same person.

If you think abuse is just an endless stream of the negative, then you won't recognize it as abuse if your abuser isn't always cruel.

If you think abuse requires an absence of love, then you run the risk of seeing love from an abuser, and missing the harm they've caused.

And the most important step to escaping abuse is to realize you're being abused in the first place.

Abuse is still abuse, even if in the presence of positive experiences.

You shouldn't have to suffer to be loved.

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“Manipulation is when they blame you for your reaction to their disrespect”

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I came forth as a warrior, forged in the fires of my own internal hell.

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Valentine’s day (do not repost)

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Everything Okay?

If you or someone you know is struggling, you are not alone. There are many support services that are here to help. 

If you are located in the United States, consider reaching out to the National Alliance on Mental Illness HelpLine.

If you are located in the United Kingdom, The Mix is here to help you with any challenge you are facing.  Reach out online, on social or through their free and confidential helpline.

If you are reading this from in any other country in Europe,  Mental Health Europe has compiled a list of helplines and other resources in your country. 

For more resources, please visit our Counseling & Prevention Resources page for a list of services that may be able to help.