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I was broken into pieces. I was living my life to the fullest. I thought meeting different guys everyday was ok and enough. I was unconscious of what I am doing by that time. I ruined my life just for a guy who doesn't know how to give me importance.

Until I met you, I didn't expect from you. It was set in my mind already that we can't be more than just friends. Diba ex mo nga kinakapatid ko. Pero wala eh matyaga ka sakin.

Baby, ikaw lang ung lalaki na nagstay sakin kahit alam mo na basag na basag na ako at puno ng putik sa buong katawan ko. Ikaw lang nakakaintindi sa akin ng lahat ng nasa isip ko. Ikaw lang ung ng stay kahit pilit kita pinupush palayo sa akin, pilit mo din bumabalik sakin.

Today I came to realize all of your efforts. But it doesn't mean na ngayon ko lang to napansin ah, araw araw naman. Pero ngayon lang ako ng katime sa sarili ko para makapag-isip isip sa atin dalawa. Sobrang thankful ako sa lahat lalo na ung panahon na dumating ka sa buhay ko. Sobrang daming struggles, problems but you choose to stay and help me. Tipong pati bigat ng buhay ko na pilit ko sinasalo, kusa mo kinuha din para tulungan ako.

I just want to say thank you for being the man I prayed before. Thank you for letting me see my self worth again kahit mismo ako na sa sarili ko sinisira ko na yun. Thank you for bringing back all the broken pieces together.

I will always treasure this picture of ours. Grabe ngayon lang nag sink in sakin na sobrang saya ng relasyon natin kahit sobrang daming struggles na dumating sa atin. I know madami pa darating pero di tayo titibag diba? Sa laki pa naman ng katawan natin. Nako. Haha

I love you baby! You're the best part happened in my life. I can't wait what the future is waiting for us. To more kulitan, asaran, pikunan, kasiyahan at lambingan. 💞

-Ligaya

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Friends like this are for keeps. Thanks menksxs 😊

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The Story of Moira in MMK.

Reminded me of myself way back 5 years ago. I was 3 years single at that time. For that 3 years I always prayed to God na kung may lalaking darating man sa buhay ko, ay siya na ung papakasalan ko. Before I give my YES to him, 1 buwan ako nagdasal sa Diyos kung siya na ba talaga.

2 years and 4 months kami tumagal. At the start of our relationship, I’ve tried drawn closer him to God. I experience going to church with him, we had our own prayer time daily, he never believe in signing of the cross, he also learned to joined in a religous group na dati lahat ng to hindi niya ginagawa.

December 20, 2017, I remembered this day, kamuntikan na kami madisgrasya kay Yuuki (his motorcycle) sa gilid ng Yashano, 1 day pa lang si Yuuki nun. After that insident, he decided to blessed Yuuki sa pari, we attended first the mass. After the mass, saka maga start ang pagbless kay Yuuki. Nabigla ako sa nakita ko, he made the sign of the cross on that day, wala akong ibang nasabi pero “Praise the Lord” lang talaga. I didn’t also know he brought with him the rosary I gave last December 2016 together with his bible which was my gift for him.

At that very moment, sobrang saya ko kasi feel na feel kong siya na talaga ung biyaya na binigay ng Diyos sakin. Nakikita kong future ko sa kaniya happily inlove while serving the Lord.

2018, madaming nagbago. I’ve learned to do things na ginagawa niya. Vices, addictions, not going to mass, no more prayer time. Sobrang dami. I didn’t realize, when I was going closer to him, I already forgot and pushing away myself to Him. Nakalimutan kong dapat si Lord number 1 priority ko, naging siya ang top priority ko.

After seeing Moira’s story in MMK, I forgot the teachings natutunan ko sa YFC. I forgot na dapat lalaki ang nagdadala sayo closer to God. Gaya ng ginagawa ni Jason kay Moira. The relationship of Moira and Jason reminded me of my prayers before I met him. Sobrang nawala na sa isip ko ung pinagdadasal kong lalaki noon, na sabay kaming nagsisilbi sa Kaniya.

Now, nainspire ulit ako simulan sa simula ang buhay ko. I need to draw closer myself to the Lord again. Maybe someday again, the Lord will truly answer my prayers. I know someday, mahahanap ko rin ang sarili kong Jacob/Jason sa buhay ko.

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Dear Palanga,

How can someone tell if a person is truly beautiful? Well in my own description you are the most beautiful being in this world, even in other dimension. Hey sweetheart does your mom know how beautiful you are? I guess yes, why you say? Of course you’re beautiful it is easy to explain that your mother is beautiful, she is the one who give birth to you “mana mana lang yan”. With my love I can do everything to please you.

Certainly I am able to stand beside you, even when I’m barely holding on. Love simply means you can do everything just to make the one you love happy even if it means your life is in the line. This is a very special day for you, with my confessions and introduction I hope you are smiling. Hey you’re turning 21 now. How adorable how time take your life and start new. I need to know how grateful and blessed you are right now. With your friends, your love one’s and family staying right beside you until this time must be priceless. Well with you as a person as a student as a daughter as a lover as an angel, you’re simply perfect in every way.  In many ways you can turn terrible thing into good things. Hopefully you find the peace that you’ve been searching. The peace between your family and everything should be around there somewhere. You’re 21 now, you must be grateful you’ve grown a lot. It is ok to show them who you are.  I will help you go through every bump you encounter in your life. It is your life push it to the limit, but before that remember God is with you every step of the way.

Happy Birthday Kristine Joy Candidato!!!!!!! God bless and Keep smiling till this world turns in to ashes.

Yours truly,

Jayboy A. Briones

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Baby Charm sana kung girl. ☺️

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I didn’t know you had a name in your mind.

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Some people may say that there are days that we argue on small things. Minsan nga nagpaguusapan sa group ung taong nasa group din natin. Minsan naman may mga araw na di tayo nagkakaintindihan. Pero alam niyo yun sobrang tatag ng friendship namin.

Oo, meron samin naiinis sa group namin, may iba naman sinasabi kami kami lang lagi magkakasama. Pero alam mo yun, kahit busy kami, kahit di man kami na kokompleto, basta magkita lang kami ok na kami.

Nakakamiss ang college days. Nagsimula sa konting usapan, hanggang sa dumagdag ng dumagdag ung tao sa group. Tapos ung iba nagkakaligawan na sa group. Ung iba naman kinakantyawan lang, yun pala magkakatuluyan lang pala. Hahahaha

Daming na natin pinagsamahan guys. Pero ngayon ko lang napagtanto na sobrang miss ko na kayo lahat. Nakakamiss ung jamming nating biglaan, ung kila jessa, kakain ng sabay-sabay. Nakakamiss ung mga panahon nung college na kapag nahihirapan ang isa, tutulungan ng lahat.

Hopefully, makapagkita na tayong lahat, walang labis, walang kulang. Nagiging emotional si babajoy niyo. Sadyang miss ko lang kayo, sagad na sagad na. Wala nakong ibang kaibingan na pwede kong ipagpalit sainyo. Kayo na kasi ung best para sakin.

Hayaan na natin kung ano man sabihin ng iba tungkol sa group natin. As long as sama sama tayo. ❤️ love you mga pangit. ❤️ see you soon! Hopefully complete na tayo 💕

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Can't take it anymore.

Frustration, disappointment, pain, sakit sa ulo, walang kwentang tao. Yan ung madalas na nabibigay ko sa ibang tao. Buong 2017 yan ang naririnig ko sa family ko, friends, specially sa boyfriend ko din. Akala ko ngayong 2018, magbabago ako. Akala ko di ko na maririnig yan sa ibang tao. Pero nagkamali ako.

Anong problema ba sakin? Ano pa bang pagkukulang ko? Akala ko ba, uting unti nakong nagbabago? Hindi pa pala? Sobrang depressed at na frufrustrate nako. Napaka desperada ko na. Kahit kanino na lang sinisiksik ko na sarili ko kahit ayaw naman nila sakin. Oo, pati sa family ko nafefeel ko na yan.

Akala ng marami ok lang ako. Kasi I'm not the type of person na kinukwento ko ung sobrang down kong life. Kasi tuwing nagkwekwento ako tungkol sa masasakit at down side ng buhay ko, nafefeel kong di sila interesado makinig. Oo, kahit sa sobrang close kong mga kaibigan. Dati pala kwento akong tao, pero kasi natutunan ko ung di na lang umiimik tuwing nalulungkot ako. Lahat kinikimkim ko. Pinapakita ko sa ibang tao ung super jolly kong buhay. Kaya akala nila talaga ok lang ako.

Di kayo naniniwala? Ito may kwento ako, last friday habang nag grocery kami ni lola may nakita siyang bonakid na gatas,

*convo*

L: ito dapat inumin mo "points at bonakid na box" ta maluya ang utak mo sabi ni mama mo

Then I walked out. I tried to call mama to confirm sa mga sinabi ni lola sakin.

M: maluya pa ba ako? Na ako lang nga magraduate sa magturugan

L: maluya utak mo iyo sabi ni mama mo ta dae ka ngani daa tatao mag contruct ki words and sentences

M: maluya pa ba ako na uni na magraduate ako. Di pa ba sapat ang pag graduate ko para may iprove nako saindo.

L: dae. Kulang pa. Prove to us that we are wrong.

*convo sa phone*

Ako: bakit matotoo su sinabi ni lola na maluya utak ko?

Mama: wala ako sinabing maluya utak mo. Nag casual talk lang kami ni lola mo. Ta nagsabi siya sakin na "o ma graduate na aki mo, ako plano mo dyan" minamadali niya nanaman ako. Ang sinabi ko lang tatabangan ko an makalaog sa dpwh ta may midbid ako. At least ining aki ko dae makasupog ilaog ta graduate. Ta dae man kaan kaya mag apply ta maluya ngani mag contruct ki sentence.

A: bat kasi pinangungunahan niyo ako? Di pa nga ako nakakaakyat ng stage, pinapahanap niyo na agad ako ng trabaho? Wala pa ba kayong tiwala sakin na makakahanap ako ng work without your help sa mga connections niyo? Di pa ba sapat ung pag graduate ko para iprove ko na kaya ko na sarili ko?

M: im sorry kung nasaktan feelings mo. Basta wala ako sinabing MALUYA UTAK mo.

A: buong buhay ko lahat ng kagustuhan niyo nasunod. Di ba pwedeng after grad kagustuhan ko naman ung masunod?

Nag end call na si mama at papasok na kasi si papa sa work. Gamit kasi phone ni papa.

Ung point lang ng pag rarant ko dito sa walang kwenta kong tumblr post is no one appreciates me. Oo maraming taong nagsasabi naappreciate nila ako. Ngayon kasi kada may sinasabi sakin ung tao na positive things feeling ko para lang maging masaya lang ako.

Every night lagi kong pinagdadasal na sana makita ko ung brighter side. Pero hindi eh. Napapadalas na ung araw na gusto ko na itigil buhay ko. Kasi di ko na nakikita worth ko sa buhay. I don't feel appreciated. Siguro nga itong pinag type ko mali mali pa ung sentence. Sorry ah. Kahit sarili kong family di nila magawang mappreciate nila ako.

I know, kahit tapusin ko buhay ko walang magsisisi sa mga maling nagawa nila sakin. Siguro nga pagtatawanan pa nila ako imbes maawa sila sakin. Ok lang at least di ko na mafefeel ung sakin nararamdaman ko ngayon. Kaya kung binasa mong hanggang dulo tong walang kwentang post ko (i doubt na may magbabasa neto sa sobrang haba), wag kayong magdududa na tatapusin ko buhay ko. Kapag napuno pa talaga ako at di ko na kaya absorb, sorry na lang Lord.

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Praise the Lord for the gift of service! 😀 I honor you both for the kasipagan and commitment sa service. From eddie to wils very quick. Haha! Salamat sa walang sawang suporta sa KFC Albay! *tap at the back both* Godbless satin! Padagos man ang misyon brothers! 🤗 (at Redemptorist Church, Gogon, Legazpi City)

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Paano na tayo.

Paano na:

future natin magkasama tayo.

plano natin sa mga gamit na pag-iipunan natin.

mga relationship goals natin.

picture natin pag sabay tayo gragraduate.

plano natin uubusin natin lahat ng kainan dito sa Albay.

plano natin na lahat ng first times natin ay sabay natin iexperience.

plano natin na lilibutin natin ang mundo ng sabay.

Plano natin sa buhay. 

TAYO.

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Ok lang.

Everything went ok after that. I was busy, I had lot of things to do. I was pre-occupied at the same time tired but Happy. Suddenly, for the short time, I’ve been okay. I totally forgot what happened back then. I suddenly forgot the pain. 

After ng last day namin as na “Kami”, I was ok. no crying. As if parang walang nangyari. Pero lately, di ako naging busy. I started to miss him. Yes, consistent si communication namin. As if parang kami pa din pero syempre with limitations. no more calling “Palanga”, “I love you’s”, but adun pa din si “Good Morning”, “I miss you”, “goodnights”, late phone calls, sabay matutulog. 

Sometimes I ask myself, “Is this healthy for me, is this good for me, is this helping me to accept the fact that we broke-up, he isn’t mine anymore.” Pero kasi di ko kaya. Pero diba sabi ko ok lang ako. Pero ngayon ko lang narealize, lahat pala ng ok ko lang ay hindi pala ok.

Nahihirapan na talaga ako sa situation namin. Sometimes I can’t help myself telling him what I really feel. Last December 24, it should have been our 7th monthsary. I already told myself that I won’t greet him. But I can’t help it. 

Akala ko ok na ako. Akala ko ok na ung set-up namin kasi masaya ako, akala ko masaya na ako sa status naming dalawa, akala ko ok na na ako sa lahat ng ginagawa ko. Pero hindi pala ako ok. 

Sabi nila sakin, strong ako na tao, I doubt. Ang strong na tao nasasaktan ba, umiiyak, nagsisisi sa ginawa niya, at lalo na nasasaktan kapag nadadapa. HINDI DIBA. 

Until now, umaasa pa din ako na maayos pa relationship namin. Umaasa ako na magbabago pa isip niya about samin. Healthy pa ba to na situation ko, o sadyang pinapahirapan ko lang sarili ko. I know the Lord has a better reason. I tried to be positive. Diba sabi nila, kapag may inalis ang Diyos sa buhay mo kasi hindi yun para sayo at may malaking kapalit na ibibigay sayo ang Diyos. Pero naisip at natanong ko din, kung hindi para sayo, bakit nilagay o binigay pa sayo ng Diyos kung in the first place ay hindi naman talaga para sayo diba. O hindi kaya, baka hindi lang sa ngayon, but in the future ibabalik sakin ng Diyos. 

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Happy 6th Monthsary palanga! 😉😍 Let's get fat together haha! 🐖🐷🐽 I love you so much to the moon & back! 💕💋😍

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I love you, Goodbye

Nagsimula sa simpleng tawagan na pinsan, sa simpleng paglibre ng mais con yelo, hanggang sa pinahiram kita ng coat, hanggang sa nag assume kang may crush ako sayo. Pero nalaman mong may gusto na pala manligaw sakin. Ahh. Charot lang. Haha! I can still remember the first time you opened up to me. Kausap ko nun si Kim, bigla kang nagtext ng 😭. Tinawagan kita kaagad kasi alam kong kailangan mo ng taong makakausap. Tipong pinapagalitan ko pa nun si kim kasi di kita ma contact at sobrang nag worry ako sayo. Dun lahat ng start, ung di nating inaasahan ay mangyayari pala. Ung “Pinsan”, na “Minsan” lugod. Haha Naalala ko ung panahon na sobrang down ako. You help me get up when I stumble down. You had me at worst, you love me at my worst. You loved all my flaws. Kakaiba ka sa kanila. Naalala ko ung sinagot kita, nasa b4 canteen tayo noon. Sobrang nabigla ka. Your reaction was priceless. Yung relationship natin, lagi tayong nagaaway o nagsusuwayan, remember the Krybbe? Grabe 1st monthsary, worst na agad. Pati si 2nd. Nakonako. Pero ung 3rd syempre, unforgettable, uncle ton’s. Getting fat together ba ito? Haha! 4th & 5th di na nakacelebrate gawa ng busy ako sa YFC. Pati si birthday mo, nadamay na din. Pero ayos lang diba? Nabawi naman. Haha! 6th monthsary, getting fat together nanaman sa poison cauldron. “You’re the poison that I need” ang peg. Haha! 6 months na walang sawang nag-aaway, nag-brebreak, nagkabalikan. Pero walang sawang nagmamahalan. Maraming challenges tayo napagdaanan. Pero sabi kasi ni Lord, “sus, kaya man sana kaining duwa na malagpasan ini. Strong kaya ini”. For the last time, I just want to say thank you for everything. For the care, the kulitan, asaran, kabwisetan, tampuhan and specially the love. I haven’t been happy like this before. Walang masasabi sila bong, jc, mharlou, jc R., mario at si Kim sa lahat ng effort na nagawa mo sakin. Lahat ng efforts mo sakin ay lahat priceless. Simpleng pagmamahal mo sakin ay sobrang masaya na ako. Ni isa sa kanila, hindi matutumbasan ang pagmamahal mo sakin. I know after this day, I won’t call you mine. Mawawala man ang label natin, mananatili ka dito sa puso kong nagmamahal para sayo. You’re my “The one that got away”. Kung may kanta pa ako sayo idededicate, yung ung “All I want for Christmas is you”. Pero sabi mo, pagpinatuloy pa natin to, di ka na magiging masaya. Nirerespeto ko na disisyon mo. Hopefully, this gift may remind you of our relationship that is Christ centered. May you always read the daily gospels, highlight all the messages that the Lord wants you to remember. Kahit wala na tayo, ipagpatuloy mo na maging servant ni God. May you allow the Almighty to guide & protect you always. I love you so much Jayboy Abinion Briones, always. Godbless. Baka hindi ngayon, pero sa ibang buhay, tayo talaga. Thank you. <3   Kristine Joy Candidato 12/16/2016

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November 7, 2016 "Super Parental Guardians" #BitterSweet 💕 Enjoy the moment 😊

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November 22, 2016 Snapping 💕💕💕