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i love you fetishes, especially the dark and uncomfortable ones, i love you kinks, especially the gross ones, i love you pleasure, my life and body are a monument to u 💖

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youch!

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i feel like people forget that sometimes characters in fic are written like that because it's a reflection of real life.

people have sex without setting boundaries. people have unprotected sex without talking about their sexual histories or producing recent sti tests. people play with kink without discussing it ahead of time or establishing a safeword. they have anal without 'enough' prep or lube—they may even prefer it like that.

and none of this is really a fantasy. it's all pretty normal. you can feel that it's inappropriately normalised, and you'd probably be right! but it is normalised: one study found that 58% of female undergraduate students on the campus studied had been choked during sex. 20% of those students said that they'd never been asked if it was ok; another 30% said they'd only sometimes been asked if they consented. fully half! (non-paywalled journal article on choking during sex here, including these numbers.) despite a rise in stis of all sorts, condom use is declining. (pdf link to the full text of this study about declining condom use in the us; aidsmap article about an australian study with similar results.)

even when people do talk about things—sex or anything else—they communicate imperfectly. 'yeah, but don't go too far' is consenting and setting a boundary, and also relying that the person you're talking to has the same metric for 'too far' that you do. for some people, 'the trash needs to go out' is a neutral, factual observation; for others, it's a request that the person they're speaking to take out the trash.

even when people understand each other perfectly, people react unpredictably to things sometimes! we behave irrationally! people laugh uncontrollably at funerals, or get angry at the straw that broke their back rather than the enormous load they were already carrying. they get scared and lash out at people trying to help them. when hurt, most people do not instinctively reach for therapy-approved grounding exercises and 'i feel' statements.

pretty much any bad choice that characters could conceivably make is a choice that people make in real life, on purpose, all the time. people do things that can have catastrophic, life-changing effects because it felt like a good idea at the time, or they're leaning into the vibe, or they just didn't think about it all that much, or an infinite number of other reasons.

fiction isn't intended as a guide on the best, safest, and most responsible ways to live your life, and fanfic isn't any different. it's not a narrative flaw to let characters do things that are messy or harmful or downright stupid—it's a reflection of what people are actually like, and not something that authors should feel they have to apologise for.

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The biggest secret I discovered about writing, and you can see the quality jump between early Curse Words and late Curse Words/TTOU based almost entirely on this, is that you can just go to the next thing. Very early on I used to be all "ok but we have to properly bridge and pace things, we can't jump from the important classroom scene to the important beach scene" yes you can. If nothing interesting or relevant is happening between those two things you can just say "ten minutes later, at the beach" and keep going. If the bridge between them is boring you, it's also gonna bore the audience, and you don't have to write it. You can jump straight to the next interesting or important part and so long as you don't actually jump over any important parts it's fine. The audience wants to get straight to the next thing too.

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the anti lgbt sentiment goes that lgbt people were formed by their perverted & psychologically disordered life experiences, going against their original ontological hegemonically sexed self, so the pro lgbt narratives commonly go "this is actually our ontological self too! we were not formed by our life in anyway" when truth of the matter is everyone was formed by their perverted traumatic life

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computer show me chubby men with thick, hairy thighs in tiny shorts. computer can you hear me

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Obsessed with your interpretation of corestrings. Like could you imagine if we could actually interact with wing gaster? After nearly ten years of him being a complete mystery? And now learning he was searching for us too? Honestly I would be quite flattered about the mutual interest thing. But like- I can't help but feel shame also. In what reality can this be? Not the one we exist in. Not the one he exists in either. The screen divides us. (Player and gaster) yet is so wkj4fjjajwjrb when he does try to reach out to the fourth wall ya know?

different planes of reality should not stop homosexual activity

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unfortunately i do love pompous and pretentious characters. ☝️ WHO get their asses handed to them this is pivotal to my enjoyment of them

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I love characters whose kindness is futile I love characters who are punished for caring. I love characters who trust when they shouldn’t. I love characters who try to be good despite their situation only for that goodness to betray them in the end

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i love having the hubris to go 'sure i'll try that, how hard can it be' about every creative skill under the sun. jack of all trades master of shit fuck but who says you have to be a master??? maybe i want to sew a mediocre plushie and code a janky mod and write a bland song. im having fun. im in my lane. im learning and im thriving.

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i love jake and cassie together in theory, but it just feels so so comphet, (as someone who was in a HS relationship with a guy who turned out to be gay, and im probably a lesbian)

jake just strikes me as the kind of guy who cannot tell when anyone likes him (he is dense and autistic, and has a lot going on, forgive him). and the second the war is over, him and cassie don’t work, because it was the forced proximity that brought them together to start with. i feel like if Marco just kissed him, he’d understand.

cassie is a lesbian. no further argument

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Does anyone have really funny Draw Your Squad memes? I want to try and doodle some Thirteen Storeys shitposts. I might fail. But I want to try.

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animorphs up to book 14 or so: who let these babies fight a war?!

animorphs book 15 onwards: trolley problems are too simple. let's get messier.

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shout out to the doctor who looked at my physical results and said 'you will live to 100!' and then looked at my mental health results and said '...if you want to'

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joining the war on kids reading any book they want on the side of kids reading any book they want. simply you will be fine. it's even good to be confronted with things you don't understand and even find upsetting, uncomfortable and difficult. it's a surprise tool that will help you later.