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My comic is at 892 downloads!! Please Please help me get it to 1k

DOWNLOAD IT HERE!!

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My comic is at 892 downloads!! Please Please help me get it to 1k

DOWNLOAD IT HERE!!

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This is lilacbombsart now. Feel old yet?

Okita Souji has found genuine peace with his partner, "Yankee." But when he hears a rumor about him visiting the red light district, he fears he may be alienating him with his lack of experience. What's a young, (barely) chaste samurai like himself to do? A sex worker named Shino may be able to "teach" him something.

Night Lessons is my second attempt at a fancomic for adults. I'm really proud of what I was able to accomplish, and want to thank all the people who've supported me thus far. The comic is technically free to download, but any kind of financial support would be greatly appreciated! If you can't pay, please give me a review/feedback! I am always trying to improve.

Bakumatsu Yankee is a 1977 comic by Kazuhiko Kato, a.k.a "Monkey Punch". The series was later adapted into an anthology series of his work, called "Manga Katsudou Dai Shashin," a.k.a "Mankatsu". The anime series is owned by TMS entertainment and any similarities of this comic to it or the original manga are purely coincidental and based on artistic license. This is a piece of fan art (doujinshi) and any profit I make is a donation for support of its creation, and does not reflect my ownership of it or the characters.

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my new blog is @neonyankee! this one won't be deactivated or anything I just felt like starting over.

my apologies to all the mutuals I've lost touch with here. feel free to refollow! although it's mostly me talking about this really niche series I've gotten into

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it's actually pretty nice here, xkit does make it easier but it kind of feels like I'm at sea without a paddle if that makes sense

sigh fine I guess I'll use this site more

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I'm looking around this blog like a space that needs to be cleaned out

a part of me just wants to restart but its so much fucking WOORK

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I should move blogs...

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sigh fine I guess I'll use this site more

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reading old posts on this blog is wild it's like the prude/internalized shame jumped out

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namely that I think like... we think we live in a sex positive enviroment and we don't. I don't know what's in the drinking water or what changed but we got to a point where we started projecting our insecurities and dislikes of sex onto other people, to the point that anyone with interests deemed socially "unacceptable" are ok to joke about as freaks and weirdos because it's "haha funny!!"

and I'm 100% guilty of this. I used to kind of scoff at mutuals with sexual interests and outspoken personalities as "strange". Despite being at the saged age of 17 where I not only hadn't had sex (ok, still haven't but. I'm wiser now.) but I was actively denying and hiding a lot of my natural feleings

I totally agree that some people can come on a little strong in the way they present themselves. Namely idk vore day or whatever. But the mute button exists. The block button exists. Disengage and consider why someone living their life, comfortable expressing themselves bothers you.

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I really want to make a video essay it makes me look dumb

like over time I think I've really adopted a motto of "don't say your opinion and you won't encounter discourse" which has seriously worked for me. but I'm also fucking smart and have a lot to say so I think I'm gonna start speaking my mind more look out girlies

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It’s kinda hard to pinpoint exactly when it happened—maybe it was right before the first grade? No —maybe it was during the first grade. Nah. Oh! maybe it was the summer before the second grade?

See, it’s hard to say exactly when it happened, but somewhere in between kindergarten and the second grade it’s stopped being ok to like things. I mean, really like things. Like really really like things

When you were in kindergarten, everyone liked things. No, everyone loved things. Everyone seemed to have their own thing too. You had Hannah who was obsessed with flowers. So much so that all of her school supplies; notebooks, pencils, scissors; were covered in flowers! You also had Lamont who was so into race cars that for his 6th birthday, his mom got him a Disney Cars cake. There was also Michaela, who just really thought bugs were neat. She even knew the names of at over 50 species. Very impressive for a kindergartner!

Everyone loved something. A lot. Even you had your thing.

Then, one day, it suddenly stopped being ok to like things. Somewhere along the way you noticed that things changed in everyone around you. Hannah who wanted to be a florist when she grew up, suddenly stopped caring about the dandelions and the daisies blooming in the cracks by the jungle gym. Lamont still liked race cars for a bit, but he started talking less and less about them. By the 6th grade, he had completely forgot about his nascar dreams. But Michaela still liked bugs. A lot. She got made fun of for it. A lot. Soon even she stopped talking about the ladybugs crawling on the window during science class that left trails of tinted dew.

You saw what happened to Michaela. Would you want that to happen to you? Of course not! I mean, she was teased so hard she had to switch schools. So you gave in to the apathy; afraid to declare your love for the simple things that brought you joy. Only enjoying them in secret when you were by yourself; away from the unenthused cool kids and their disapproving looks for those who reveled in their pleasures.

Let’s face it, you either express your enthusiasm openly and face scorn, or you suppress it and be accepted by your peers. The answer is pretty simple, so you give into the indifference.

The years go by and you still fear wholeheartedly indulging in things. You only allow yourself a few pleasures under the guise of ironic enjoyment. You are not alone though; everyone around you is doing the same thing. Everyone is afraid to admit that they love something. Even afraid to admit it to themselves.

Soon, it starts spilling over. You’re afraid to love someone wholeheartedly. You’re afraid to commit to someone. That fear binds you. Your relationships are distant; with each person afraid to feel. Afraid of being judged for showing too much enthusiasm.

The flowers, race cars, and butterflies we left behind have now become people we leave behind.

You are afraid to feel.

Fear plagues your love.

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promo your girlmutual ARSENIA!  i just finished watching madoka magica for the first time

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"Country by boys is trucks and country by girls is about killing your husband XD and country sux now but it used to be good and about fighting your boss"

Please just admit you only know like three country songs. I would almost rather you just dismiss country entirely than this corny shit.

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that's oversimplifying obviously, I still believe absolutely that trans people's opinions of genderbends should be respected but personally I'm just having fun putting big boobs on your favorite characters and making them lesbians. girls just wanna have fun

ntm the funny scenarios I think that come with just like. oh gosh I have a (etc) now.

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genderbends are dumb and transphobic unless I'm the one doing it, who's incredibly sexy and nonbinary and loves women,

my 2022 character arc has been about throwing logic to the wind and just having fun