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been watching a lot of Shoot From the Hip and I'm starting to suspect that comedy improv may just be a front to kiss your friends

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biggest L i've had to take from morning people is that the hours between 5 - 9 am really do have 7x as much time in them than the ones between 9 pm - 1 am and you can get your whole day's worth of shit done by noon

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i hope luigi mangione is proven innocent & gets to sue a ton of companies for slander and win & i hope he gets enough money to rebuild his life and get any help for his chronic pain that he needs & i hope he’s able to disappear from the public eye entirely if that’s what he wants

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this is simply the greatest video i have ever seen

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everything sucks right now. im going to [remembers suicide jokes only worsen my mental health] go up to someone and go OOS YER DAD

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(some) fanart (there’s more it’s just not done yet. i made the mistake of working on 3 things simultaneously)

the accessories they gave each other match the other’s colours :]

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:)

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Okay I adored the new longform

Also vesper mention in the Q&A yesterday 😭

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Happy pride month to my dad. When I came out as bi to him, this man googled what it ment, look at me and said "ohh. Yeah. You get that from me. You'd have far more siblings of I only shaged women." And went right back to his work emails.

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It's impressive how Neil Gaiman vanished from the internet. Wish Rowling would do the same.

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Finally finished it!

Longform - Never Give Annabelle A Gun

Song - They Both Reached For The Gun // Chicago the musical

Requested tags! @herbss-world @not-an-idiot @ilikeasstrology @very-confused-alpaca @jaxyapsalot @cerealistlover @randomfangirl32

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I'm thinking more about Annabelle's confrontation with Henry, because the way Luke (and AJ too) play it means so much to me. It's so realistically scary. So many details I adore in that short minute, because it says so much to me as a queer semi-woman:

Henry calls Annabelle "darlin'" straight off the bat. Of course darlin' is a common stereotypical southern term of endearment, but compounded with Henry's affection for Annabelle, and Annabelle's confused, "oh shit does he mean me" reaction, there's a sense I get that he's already verbally claiming her as his beloved. Without her consent. She's very much not endeared.

The very third thing Henry says is "give me your foot". With zero context. He brushes aside Annabelle's denial ("that's not mine"), and when she doesn't want to, he forces it on her.

Annabelle's reaction throughout this is constantly trying to diffuse the situation, downplaying her reactions. Forcing the shoe on her is already harassment, but she just says "I don't like this". She only pushes Henry's hands away as much as necessary so he wouldn't touch her in an act of very understandable panic, and then she puts her hands down like she's trying to calm them both down.

Because the reality is that historically, queer women face violence from cishet men, as both queer people and as women. Annabelle's reactions scream to me that she's aware that Henry, a man and a police officer, has so much social power over her, an eighteen-year-old young woman. It's not about being a bank robber or not (Henry clearly doesn't care either), or that she can shoot well; it's that she's a woman and he's a man, and the common sentiment was (and still is, in many circles) that women are men's belongings. Queer women aren't queer to those men, because queerness gets in the way of their "rightful" claim over women. Henry doesn't have to explain himself, because he feels entitled to have her even though she doesn't know who he is. He refuses to listen when she repeatedly says she's not interested out of entitlement and arrogance. He doesn't even consider that she might not be into men at all!! He forces the shoe on her, like putting shackles on her to claim her as his. He can be as violent as he wants, and she knows it'll be his word against hers if she makes a scene. So she tries not to.

Just. I really love that they didn't shy away from the realities of being queer women. So far most gay couples in sfth are in settings where being gay is accepted, like Ditch, like Bubbamiah. But Annabelle and Butch both don't get to be queer women (or non-men) in an ideal setting with zero homophobia and sexism, and those two intersect very nicely (and realistically) here.

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i will never stop giving luke characters crazy bushy hair. in fact i think im physically incapable of stopping

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Also the speedpaint cuz why not

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Ok but can we take a second to appreciate Luke and AJ’s acting in that final confrontation?? Like the way AJ was playing that character was setting off so many alarm bells for me, I’ve absolutely had the misfortune of encountering men like him before, and it’s even worse when they actively disrespect your sexuality. And Luke REALLY nailed this scene. Like the clear discomfort in the body language, that hint of fear in his voice, the careful and calm navigation of the situation so as to not escalate things further. Like holy shit I’ve been in that EXACT position before. I had a sudden wave of fear and discomfort just wash over me watching that, and I really do mean that as a compliment because it’s a testament to how GOOD that acting was. AND THE WHOLE THING WAS IMPROVISED!!!

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Truly I hate to do this to you all but; you can watch all the videos and read all the blogs in the world but you cannot learn to sew without at some point picking up a piece of fabric and fucking it up. No tutorial exists that will stop you at some point ruining this poor piece of cloth. The visceral act of holding a project and wondering where you went wrong is the only way to learn sewing; you cannot escape it. I’m sorry

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i got SO emotional here, i think this is the most emotional i've ever gotten watching sfth (maybe a tie with "it appear i colourful troll after all") (i guess i just love seeing queer characters accepting themselves😭)