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do it 🫵

inspired by @jiraicon (really cute)

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thank youuuuu (｡>﹏<｡)

inspired by @jiraicon (really cute)

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i really want to see it

inspired by @jiraicon (really cute)

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soooo cute (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

Hi hi hi I made an nso sprite of myself!

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inspired by @jiraicon (really cute)

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GUYS look at my model!!! Isn't she kyuuute??

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what do u use to make the costume nso sprites?

ibis paint x with the pixel brush

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i think im leaving tiktok, the comments are so mean, it doesn't satisfy me

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hi I’m sorry but I have to say that I actually love you so, so much. you’re so super awesome and I love your personality. please don’t beat yourself up you’re beating the person I love. love love loveeeeee!!!!!! have a good day darl~

wow i don't know what to say... this makes me so happy ^^.

I will watch over you for as long as you carry me in your heart. 🙏🙏

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today we tryed a new Japanese restaurant and it was good and then we hanged out as usual, but i wanted to go home and be alone all the time (not because of the but because of me)

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awww thank youuu🩷

@abyssfmpfikvp6 @ilovemygfbro @http-ame

@bipedalsnake

favirote moots?

(People you tag have to reblog and say their favorite moots)

Okay wait

@ibrokeurheartbcuzubrokemine @foliverfalls @allyeilishh @addisonraesbaby @emiliesblohsh @bilsslut @noodleswashere @bilsbabyy @bitchesbrokenpromises @billsdollie

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As someone with BPD, I'd just like to try to clear some things up.

People with BPD do/are:

DO have trouble regulating their emotions and their impulses

DO struggle with healthy relationships and attachments to others

DO have an intense fear of abandonment and will do whatever it takes to avoid being abandoned

DO have an unstable sense of self and their identity

DO suffer from chronic self-harming and/or suicidal behaviours

DO experience feelings of emptiness or hollowness

DO have erratic moods and emotions that can change drastically from moment to moment

DO frequently engage in impulsive behaviours

ARE able to feel real love towards other people

ARE able to be treated

ARE able to live happy, well-rounded lives

ARE able to form healthy relationships

DO deserve respect

DO deserve support

DO deserve love

People with BPD do/are not:

DO NOT act the way they do for attention (the self-destructive behaviours people with BPD sometimes engage in stems from a need to cope with our emotions and thoughts, not out of attention-seeking)

ARE NOT intentionally or maliciously manipulative (manipulative behaviour is pre-planned and intentional. People with BPD engage in their behaviours as a reaction to their intense emotions. While we may act in ways that attempt to control how others behave, we are typically doing so to try to ease or prevent our own emotional pain, not to hurt others.)

ARE NOT dangerous or violent (people with BPD are much more likely to hurt themselves than others)

HAVE NOT all experienced childhood trauma (many people with BPD have experienced childhood trauma, but many have not. Childhood trauma is a risk factor, not a cause.)

ARE NOT all AFAB (while a larger percentage of those diagnosed with BPD are assigned female at birth, many of those who are assigned male at birth also suffer from BPD, and some evidence shows that it may be more equally distributed among both sexes)

ARE NOT untreatable (there are lots of treatment options available! DBT is the most common, but there are many other options as well.)

ARE NOT all abusers (abuse is not linked to any one mental illness. People with BPD may struggle to form healthy relationships and this can lead to abusive dynamics, however ANYONE can be abusive regardless of their mental health.)

ARE NOT all the same (BPD is a spectrum and it affects all of us a little bit differently. Not everyone is going to experience it exactly the same as someone else, and it's important to recognize that we're all individuals.)

ARE NOT rare (BPD is actually pretty common. It's estimated that around 1-2% of the population are diagnosed BPD. That's around 156,000,000 people, and that's not even counting those who are undiagnosed.)

ARE NOT horrible, unfeeling monsters (we are literally just people)

ARE NOT unworthy of love (EVERYONE is worthy and deserving of love)

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i took 30 mg of an antihistaminic is that enough to get high?

(the regular dose is 10-20 mg)

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i posted my last video on tiktok and i recived a few comments that told me i wasn't jirai

i was like "huh? jirai kei is supposed to be fast fashion and the outfit what literally jirai" and. what the fuck does "shein jirai core" mean!!!!

this is the video btw

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51, 58, 71 (if im remembering right 71 the last one?)

- ⋅˚₊‧ ୨୧ ‧₊˚ ⋅

51: i love sushi with surimi (｡>﹏<｡)

58: if i have to go outside with a cute dress on i prefer sunny but not too hot, but if i want to stay inside or chill outside i prefer rain and warm (i love rain asmr)

70 (the last one): i think my boyfriend, id easily decide to die > <

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70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?

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my first pink jirai blouse! (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)