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lilithianintuitive · 4 months ago

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It's scary how ACCURATE this is. Almost like there's a camera in the universe WATCHING ME AT ALL TIMES and narrating a show. A twisted show for their sick enjoyment.

My life has not been normal since these past few years...

I'm not normal too.

I want to be a normal person again, but... I can't anymore. I don't want to, either....

.....

But if that's what the world wants me to be...

If this is what the universe meant and wanted me to be....

Then I'll give them what they want.

😈

(all credits go to the one who posted this originally.

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🍁Essentially, What’s Your Main Aesthetic? ♦︎ Timeless Pick A Card

Aesthetic is anything concerned with beauty or the appreciation of beauty💋Don't you think beauty is essential for human health? It inspires and uplifts the mind and heart, after all. I think the pursuit of beauty whether in things, people(?) or creation makes Life exciting~🎨And the attainment of that very beauty makes Life worthwhile~🩰

Beauty contains an essence of something Cosmic. If you get it, if you live by it, it has the capacity to connect the Human Expression to a Divine Experience. Why religion when there is Art?🎀lmao

What about your Beauty? Do you know where to find it? I think every person's Cosmic Beauty can be found in their Story🎠Your unique blueprint that's just waiting to be expressed whether in writing, in a melody, in a sculpture or perhaps a painting, and in aesthetic décor or personal fashion choices💄

Live and breathe your Art, aliens~🛸

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deck-bottom: 9 of Swords Rx, Gold Historian (Raphael Holinshed), Priestess of Success

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Pile 1 – I’m Hurt, But the Show Must Go On

vibe: HER by MINNIE

poetic suffering – Ace of Cups Rx

Oh, almost your entire Life has been one bloody show—like, actually bloody, figuratively or literally—and you’ve survived it all, although some screws inevitably got loose here and there. You probably identify as having somewhat of a multiple personality disturbance—yeah, just a disturbance, not so much an actual medical disorder, but what do I know? The point is, you’ve developed many voices in your head🍹

I once read something someone wrote on a YouTube comment: ‘The voices in my head make fire podcast.’ I believe that resonates loudly for you and your kind of ‘problem’🥂lmao For some of you, this was developed as part of survival; but for some others, you couldn’t help but develop this ‘disturbance’ simply because you’re high-IQ. It’s just part of the mechanics of your brains. So, it isn't to say you're damaged...

The crux of the matter is that you were always an empathetic child. Creating all these characters or personalities was your way of understanding other people—why they did what they did, what they’d do in a given situation and some such. Like I said, some of you could’ve developed these voices in your head to anticipate chaos, but for some of you, this was simply a philosophical pursuit🎡

aesthetic insanity – Queen of Pentacles

Having said that, it isn’t to say that your whole existence has not been painful. After all, with such a sweet and sensitive heart you’ve had to fight for your place in this cold, cruel, criminal world where you were preyed upon. You were preyed upon because your aenergy was so good. Empathetic people tend to get preyed upon by narcissists not so much because they’re good just like that—but because destroying your sanity and sense of self feels good to a bitter narcissistic monster🤹

You get the difference? A narcmon could target just about anybody whether or not that person’s good. But you were always a much easier target because soft-hearted people can be very accommodating to other people’s wounds. And empathetic people tend to be willing participants in the cruel shitshow created by a narcshit because they want to be a hero in someone’s Story~🎭So, that’s been your shitstorm.

How’s dealing with that supposed to not fuck people up somewhat? But in the grand scheme of everything you’ve had to deal with, you see now that you’ve still got your integrity and sense of humour. That’s all that matters, really. Someone wrote a meme that says ‘You forced me to study narcissism. Now enjoy my educated ass.’ The most ironic iconic outcome here is that now you know how to play up narcissism to get back at real narcmons you meet in society🩰lmao

dramatic scene – Page of Pentacles Rx

So, essentially, if we could summarise what your main aesthetic is: you’re simply INSANE. You were forged in hellfire and came out a little woo woo, but you’re also genuinely superbly intelligent that you know how to use this woowoo to your advantage. The you that has come out of this hellfire is now operating on VENGEANCE🏵Could be for your past; could be for any abuser/manipulator you meet in society; could be for culture, tradition or the establishment.

Simply said, you want to wreck it. Fuck it all up. But with style and humour. You’re going to mirror back society’s cruelty and lack of empathy with sarcasm and a really dark sense of humour. Show ‘em how unintelligently they’ve been interacting with Reality! Either you’re a Gen Xer in your 40s or you’re going to really vibe with this generation’s dark, almost sick sense of irony🤪

Any form of self-expression that showcases your crazy, uncontrollable, unhinged personality would feel most authentic to you. Something deep in your psyche wants to get back at society; for that, you’re willing to play up the villain or menace in society, so long as that re-educates them about what it means to be Human. But deep inside, I know that you know that you’re still the same kind and caring little child with an unchanging loyalty to…Love😘

DIVINE FACT🔻❤️

dream design – Red Alchemist (John Dee)

essence of my identity – Priestess of Magick

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Pile 2 – I Still Dream of Everything I’ve Lost

vibe: Summer Rain by IRENE

poetic suffering – Page of Cups

Ah, you are a poet. A total romantic. Even if your idea of what’s 'romantic' differs from most people. If anything, more than anybody else around you, you seem to be the only one who’s got a saner, purer grasp of what ‘romance’ is all about💞More than anybody you know in your surroundings you want something much more honest and sweet. Most of the time, people just think you’re starry-eyed and unrealistic—but what you feel in your heart cannot be denied❣️

If what you’re feeling isn’t real then why does it exist in your Heart of hearts?💚That’s why you needed to do Art. Maybe poetry was your way to make sense of this clash between your inner world and the world around you. Maybe you devoted massive amounts of time and energy to creating aesthetic collages just to see your beautiful inner world reflected in the physical Reality—even if all of that beauty exists only on paper, illustrations or digital edits💻

Of all the people you’ve ever known, for some reason it always felt like you were the only one with a Heart for Poetry. It could be that your society didn’t much like this type of pursuit. Or maybe it was just your family that didn’t seem to have a high level of appreciation for the kind of Beauty that ever so naturally captures your Heart. In many ways, growing up could’ve been somewhat isolating for this reason…🧸

aesthetic insanity – 6 of Wands Rx

Always the weird one out. All because you have so much feeling. You feel and feel your emotions to oblivion. It hurts to be you, if anyone cared to know. To have your kind of Heart means to be so easily moved to tears by the smallest of things. A beautiful melody, a nostalgic vibe, a display of genuine kindness or happiness, people being unconditionally helpful and patient with each other. Things that may seem so casual in the grand scheme of human greed and ambitions…but you have no such ambition to become like the rest of ‘em🔫

It's hard to be this way from time to time. It’s a challenge to navigate the pond of compassion that exists deep within your Heart. In today’s world especially, it’s so much trendier to be jaded and cynical. For many, of all ages, that seems to be the most acceptable modus operandi🕹Even if you tried you wouldn’t be able to operate well on such a negative and unexciting command. Lucky you, you’re weird enough to not give a little bunny shit about fitting in or, obeying~🐰

You can be really emotionally divorced from the world outside of your imaginations that, to your own surprise, it really is that easy to detach from the expectations of society and drift to Neptune instead—probably dreaming your whole Life away on some distant nebulous fantasies🍄That’s why you identify as an introvert. Your rich inner lives are always far more interesting than any mundane conversation some Normie is capable of conjuring.

dramatic scene – Ace of Pentacles

In the grand scheme of everything that’s wrong with modern societies, you most likely feel that Humanity has lost much of its cherished values that you tend to like things that are either old—very, very old and out of fashion—or simply childish and/or otherworldly. In essence, you’re far more attuned to aesthetics that remind people of INNOCENCE. When things used to be much more beautiful, classy, thoughtful, innocent, and just….my gosh, cute🐶

And yet, you’ve most likely been told that you act motherly, or that, ‘You’re going to be a really good mother one day.’ People can sense that you’re trustworthy and dependable—very Old Soul, you know?👽In spite of how sweet and feminine or even weird you look on the outside, on the inside you’re integritous, and most everybody can see that because you exude this charmingly calm, mature and wise aura🌾

If you’re a creator or have a social media presence, what you put out there—illustrations, poems, edits, fanfics(?), etc.—seems to possess a healing attribute. I’m sure your audience have told you that your channel/page/blog serves as their safe space🚠People who tend to be loners or those who've often been misunderstood in society gravitate towards your vibe in real life and Art on the Internet. In that sense, you really are a nurturer and protector of some motherly sort🎀

DIVINE FACT🔻💙

dream design – Silver Astronomer (Galileo Galilei)

essence of my identity – Priestess of Contemplation

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Pile 3 – Utterly Lost in this Sad Girl Escapism

vibe: Tejano Blue by Cigarettes After Sex

poetic suffering – Knight of Cups

Let’s admit it, you’re constantly drowning in feelings that you escape through obsessive drinking habits, yeah?🥃Most likely anything to do with liquid substances, so this could involve alcohol or coffee, or endless cups of herbal tea with heavy uses of creamer, or you could be the type that smokes obscene amounts of ciggies in a day or snacks violently on crisps all day long or… I dunno, putting yourself through hours of trance on some of Tchaikovsky’s most dramatic pieces?🎻

Perhaps this Reality is just that disappointing for you because the unnatural world doesn’t seem capable of offering ecstatic experiences what would match the feelings you carry since birth—thus your effort to escape into alternate states of feeling. You were born different🌜You feel more intensely, you feel more types of emotions, and you know more of the colours that make up the natural world; but in modern everyday reality, obviously something is missing. Cold-blooded post-war capitalism has made everything ugly…

Human interactions, as a result, become distant and dreary, unspiritual, unempathetic and unkind. And every single day of your waking hour, this awareness tortures and kills you on the inside🥓Depending on how artistic you are and how much Art you’re capable of producing, you may generally feel a sense of inadequacy from not being able to function ‘well’ in modern society. Even if you may appear to be doing just fine on the outside, on the inside you’re melting and flaring and swinging through everything…🌪

aesthetic insanity – XI Justice

If, for example, you’re the type that watches vintage movies, you realise that others your age may watch them for the laughs or other analytical pursuits, but you watch them genuinely for the staggering display of emotions, no matter how theatrical, and you get so involved and your heart aches and you let out a sob or a silent tear…🎭If not vintage films, umm, I dunno, anime, cartoon or perhaps, murder shows? Some of you may have a rather disturbing way of finding ‘materials’ what would let you feel your feelings more vividly🌈

The truth of the matter is, all of these pursuits are fuelled by a desire to find more honesty in the world. You find it vexingly difficult to express your true feelings in society; perhaps because you know this world ain’t ready for your kind of honesty. It feels like tedious intensity to them. And you’ve noticed that most people, actually, truly enjoy shallow interactions🦥Stooping to their level would be humiliating to you.

So then, you just do the best you can to feign normalcy and showcase a temperate disposition when interacting in society. But once you’re in your own company, that’s when you indulge in watching, reading or writing or creating or listening to exasperatingly profound things what would let you shiver from the core of your being☃️You, have a need to gasp and choke by emotions… And that’s intensely insane. And not many people would know what to do with any of it.

dramatic scene – Knight of Pentacles Rx

Well, not many indeed would know how to connect or get through to you. It’s true. And you may have felt very lost in this sad gurl escapism that seems neverending. As if you’d want it to end. If only you could verbalise this accurately and in a succinct manner: you have absolutely no idea how to be a responsible grownup. To begin with, what is ‘responsible’? But at this point, you don’t really give a damn anymore🙈

You grew up watching grownups perform duties and fulfil expectations—and they seemed responsible and sensible and capable. But your little heart always knew that these humans weren’t necessarily responsible in a spiritual sense. Your little sage mind always suspected that a lot of their ‘practical’ choices would sooner or later lead to much more disastrous outcomes🐾So in the end, what’s in being a responsible adult?

It was all too humiliating. And from a rather young age, you decided already that you would avert your eyes from the world of the grownups. And such it was that until now you still don’t know how to be ‘normal’ and ‘temperate’. Actually, more accurately, you don’t really know how not to be a destructive force to yourself. You just, have so much to say, and you don’t know what to say; so much rage, and you don’t even know who to be angry at…💔

DIVINE FACT🔻💗

dream design – Silver Physician (John Dee)

essence of my identity – Priestess of Luxury

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#pile 1 #Going more and more insane after every day goes by. 💀#I am SHOCKED and a bit scared and also tbh a bit sad on how accurate this is for me :(((((#do i need help?

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lilithianintuitive · 4 months ago

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#mayeveryonestaysafe

#march2025

I am also in one of the darkest times of my life right now. I got banned from my own home and ALMOST locked up. Good thing it did not come to that...

Stay safe everyone!

And remember...

The past doesn't define you.

You are more than that.

We are all more than that.

(All credits go to the person who made this post. I DID NOT MAKE THIS. I AM JUST RE-BLOGGING IT.)

ASTROLOGICAL HEADS UP!

I don't know what language you need to hear this, but Venus Retrograde is here and my oh my, shit is getting real, either all the exes are back or you won't be able to handle the heat this time.

This March 2025 isn't going to easy. Given how all the planets except mars and jupiter are conjucting in one sign, from march 28 to march 29. Expect life to get fucked up. I don't know about you but Iam already getting fucked stages of life (channeling, you know weird shit psychics do). Like I sealed away my tarot cards for not facilitating any energy for a month but now it feels like these past affections and luxuries are calling back to me. And damn I am scared not for you but myself. Not gonna release anything in this period. (despite having created some things for you guys) Will post next waxing gibbous phase only. This month is scary already. Iam gone. Plus idk what type of accounts are watching me these days. But Iam definitely trying to keep away from negativity of any kind. This month has a solar and lunar eclipse along with a wierd conjuction of Saturn, rahu and the auspicious planet of sun and moon, causing an apocolyptic astrological eclipse.

plus if you are an Indian, this is the month of Holi, all types of tantric rituals are done at this time. So if you are a vulnerable stay away from negative thinking anything that can get you attached to such entities, protect your spirit guides for yourself and foe other, no matter what beguilling amount of hatred you have for someone or something, don't let it get to you, forgive it, for the samsara moves in cycles of rebirth and regeneration. You don't always have to see the results of other people's bad karma towards you. Forgive it and move on, so that your poor little beautiful and sweet spirit guides may not engage with any sort of disruption in other people's energies. Allow yourself to rest and let your spirit guides protect you.

don't move in fear, move in resolve. Ask God to ground you so you don't end up fighting or engaging with anyone no matter what negatively. Peace peace peace, May Buddha guide you towards mental peace, inner strength and resilience. Disengage completely from the fancies of your ex, because the planets mercury retrograde and venus retrograde are hear. In western astrology its happening in Aries, and mars is in cancer on 28 to 29 march, Expect an emotional blast of anger towards or regarding this issue. Almost like some ram is running to fuck you up in the form of relationships pulling onto the most sensitive, vulnerable side of you, shattering your heart in one go like a swift blow to the chest, at least, cause aries energy wages war ladies and gentlemen. So be ready for what you are about to witness as of 28 to 29 march. Along with a neptune conjuction expect your fancies or fantasies to be at your highest(ecspecially about past relationships)

The sun, moon, mercury retrograde, venus retrograde are all sitting in uttara bhadrapada nakshatra, while saturn aka shani and north node aka rahu sits in the last stages of Purva Bhadrapada making a strong conjuction in the sign of pisces in vedic astrology, on 29th march, so sems like we are getting a solar eclipse, lunar eclipse and this Yog called Pishach Yog according to Hindu astrology. I think this signifies the path you guys are taking must be silent, say what you want to say after careful consideration, give or receive the love you are giving or receiving after careful discernment. Don't stay stuck in the process of your career or finances being stuck in one place, instead look forward to taking wise carefully considered steps. Embody the power and energy of UttarBhadrapada and carefully move on. May the steps you take be blessed. Don't cling to fantasies of moving on, if a past energy pops up, don't react or overeact to your fantasies and whims just lay low, patiently and slowly move on with it. The lord of uttarabhadrapada is saturn which sits at purva bhadrapada, use the lessons you learnt from the process of destruction, penance and ongoing aggravated disorder (rahu is also in purva bhadrapada ) with the patience of uttara bhadrapada while drawing inspiration to make a beautiful outcome from jupiter in Rohini and mars in Punarvasu. hope you have a great day.

Dear western Pisces and Aries and Sidereal Aquarians and Pisces, especially. Also people with 11 th house placements from 18 degrees and 12th house placements cause that's the natural placement of Purva Bhadrapada and Uttara Bhadrapada nakshatras housewise. take care bubye

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lilithianintuitive · 4 months ago

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#goodluck will be guided to me

Good luck Spell

By the light of day and the glow of night, Luck and fortune now take flight. With every step, my path is bright, Doors swing open, clear in sight. Golden energy, strong and free, Draw good fortune straight to me. Luck and joy, now intertwined, Blessings flow, by fate designed. So it is spoken, so it shall be, Luck and abundance come to me.

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lilithianintuitive · 4 months ago

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#Venus: mostly all the women in my life, especially my Mother, and all my mother's bloodline are the ones who love, care nurture, and protect me. This one is the most prominent for me ❤️

#Saturn: because literally... My life is one of the most difficult ones to live by just the sheer amount of trauma and bad things that have happened to me. But all of them were like "there is a reason why" and I believe and trust it. Because... All those events made me the person who I am now. I've gone through significant transformations one after another.

#Jupiter: idk about this one... Either I'm lucky because I have a life that is filled with positive people that are there for me... Or the fact that I am indeed blessed by Jupiter... Just because of the fact that I don't remember working a day in my life to eat good and delicious food everyday, have a roof over my head, and have all my wants and needs granted for me. Like really, at this point... People can call me a prince just because of how I live my life like this, and I am surprised by other people how hard they have it. (No offense)

#Diana: because bruh, why do I have to strictly always follow my routine to shower every after 5 pm to look good? Anything other than 5-7 pm for me to shower makes me look mid or sometimes downright AWFUL. I always wondered why my hair always looked PEAK BEAUTY every 5 pm. (I'm a boy)

#Mercury and Mars (honorable mentions): Now these ones are occasionally, especially mercury. My hands get ELECTRIFIED randomly idk why, by just touching a metal railing in a mall, an escalator... Or even sometimes other people like my mom huhu. Although mercury happens to me REALLY REALLY RARE like, once every 1-2 years. I can't take out the fact that I INDEED GET ELECTROCUTED RANDOMLY FOR UNEXPLAINABLE REASONS.

(idk about mars one, cause I'm a moody guy)

Note: all credits go to servantofthefates (I DID NOT MAKE THIS POST, I JUST REBLOGGED IT)

Signs that the Old Gods Favor You

Apollo

People comment on how warm your hands and skin are. To the point where it surprises them, instead of being comforted by your touch.

Diana

You are more attractive after sunset. Your unruly hair settles down. Your skin glows. You even look taller for some unexplainable reason.

Mercury

Static electricity. You experience a lot of it when you brush up against people or touch metal. The stronger the zap, the more he likes you.

Venus

The beautiful women in your life have your back. Female bosses, mother figures, “it” girls. They defend, uphold or compliment you.

Mars

You cry and/or laugh a lot. More than usual. When watching a movie, when listening to a song. Your heart and your soul are just more awake.

Jupiter

Free food finds its way to you. All the time. The lavish kind. And way more than you need or could eat. So much, you simply must share it.

Saturn

Your tragedies turn into blessings in disguise. Bad things, big and small, that happen to you reveal themselves to be great things after all.

Uranus

You often get jolted awake as you fall asleep. As if you just passed a barrier to another realm. You dream lucidly almost every night.

Neptune

Your dreams come true. You see someone in a dream on Monday night, and they contact you the very next morning. You can see the future.

Pluto

Anyone who harms you gets hurt instantly or days later. The ones who were especially malicious even die. It’s as if Karma came alive and decided to be your friend.

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lilithianintuitive · 4 months ago

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Thank you, universe.

Thank you for sending me this message.

You don't know how much I needed this.

(ALL credits go to: servantofthefates for this post; I DIDN'T MAKE THIS)

The Universe will always provide for you.

Your job is just the delivery guy.

Or maybe your partner is.

Or perhaps your parents are.

So when that job turns toxic, or that partner turns dangerous, or those parents turn abusive... do not be afraid to leave.

They are all just delivery guys. If they fail to deliver your blessings, the Universe will send another courier.

Do not let anyone threaten you with lack. Your abundance is guaranteed. All you have to do is trust and receive.

#Spirituality #faith #Manifestation #Witchblr #Law of Attraction

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lilithianintuitive · 4 months ago

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LONG RANT: Pretty privilege exists. (WARNING 18+: CONTAINS HEAVY THEMES AND TRAUMATIC INDUCING EXPERIENCES)

And here's why:

I'm just here to rant about how pretty privilege really does exist... and even though it "saved my life", I still don't like the fact that this such concept should be true.

Just a while ago, I got into a fight with my neighbors, and we got into our local police station, where I was supposedly about to be locked up.

I was scared.

Really scared.

And they do not care what will happen to me, not even the officials, especially the ones who were filing a complaint. They were so mad at me.

I cried so hard.

It was traumatizing.

I cried so loud and really really sad.

I almost lost my breath and wanted to die at that very moment.

It was very bad... I got banned from our house. And I don't want to go back there.

I let my emotions control me, not the other way around...

But when I cried so hard and bad... I heard....

"Take your son away from your house." They were talking to my family, they said that. My family was there to help me plead my case before it gets serious.

It was the neighbors.

They let me leave at the very last moment of desperation.

Why?

Why...?

I'm not saying that I SHOULD BE LOCKED UP and I WANTED to be locked up... In fact, I'm so f***ing genuinely grateful that I'm not in prison right now, and I'm still sad and traumatized on what happened....

But I'm asking is...

Why did they suddenly change their mind?

They were so determined to lock me up, and then when I cried...

They just let me go?

In my mind, it was a social experiment.

And also a way out...

But then they let me be.

In my head I asked:

"what made them let me go?..."

I can't stop thinking about this question.

Because...

This is not the first time where situations like this to me happened.

When I cry people suddenly are merciful and kind, when one moment... They are really angry at me.

I think it's because of the so called "pretty privilege".

And I don't like it. But it somehow saved me from serving time in jail for a petty fight.

All my life people kept calling me:

"You're handsome."

"You look cute and innocent awwww!"

"You look kind, kid."

I think I have body dysmorphia.

Because, no matter how many times people call me and put out signs that I am "conventionally attractive"...

I still feel ugly.

I don't know why, but I still do.

Like-

Come on. It's not a coincidence...

Do people like seeing me cry and suffer?

Are people kind enough and have mercy when they see me cry, then?

I hate overthinking about nonsense things like these... But it's been bugging me my whole life that I really wanted to talk about it publicly.

I got into a similar situation with my ex (I'm not name dropping.) too. It was a toxic relationship... Wait no, situationship.

Where we fought, and we were in school and we were in the principal's office. This was 2 years ago. And then, I was crying because I was genuinely scared and traumatized I might get expulsion and suspended from school.

But when I cried... My ex then said, that I was not involved onto what happened to our drama, because something happened and a fight broke out.

They lied. So that I would be safe.

But I remember correctly... My ex wanted me to be punished too. Since we'd always hurt each other since it's a toxic relationship. I left ever since, but still again....

Why?

Is it the way I cry that makes you stop?

Do you just wanted to see me cry and then treat it as a reward and then... Suddenly, stop bugging me? Is that what they wanted? To see me cry?

I don't know anymore.

But I think it's "pretty privilege".

I don't like to brag or boast about anything about me.... Especially appearance concerned.

But I'm an 18 year old boy, and I look attractive... Based on what people say, that is.

But I feel ugly, I don't know why.

Is this bad?

Still, I'm grateful for all the officials and my parents and family who helped me plead my case.

If not, I wouldn't be making this note on Tumblr because I'm already in jail.

But the so called "pretty privilege" is really toxic. Like, treating people based on appearance should not be normalized. Appearance is an important thing... But so is personality, traits, behavior of a person etc...

Appearance should not be THE WHOLE BASIS of a person's first impression and overall image.

Appearance for me is a "trait." Not like- "the whole basis" of a person.

Because real talk... Appearance matters.

It really does.

Looks matter.

But.

BUT!

It's not the whole "basis" for a thing or for a person.

Appearance should be treated as a "trait" just like personality and mannerisms and behaviors.

Look; for example...

What if I told you that

You hired 2 people, for a job

One is a jolly good friendly person,

And the other one is a bit shy and somewhat quiet person.

There's a job where two people have to be assigned to a circus show.

One will be dressed for Halloween and for scary-themed shows and scenes.

And the other one will be dressed for a children's show.

Of course you HAVE TO LOOK like what you ARE PRESENTING.

The Halloween one should LOOK scary.

And the children's one should LOOK light-hearted and welcoming....

You have 2 people, with which you hired.... Also has different mannerisms and behaviors and also of course.... Personality.

It would be awkward if the shy and quiet person were to wear and attend to the children's show and the jolly friendly, light-hearted person would attend the Halloween themed one.

Although they would LOOK the part... Which is important.

However...

Their personality is contradicting on what they are presenting themselves to be.

But BUT!

What if it was vice versa?

Let's say the light hearted friendly person were to attend the children's show and the quiet shy person would tend to the Halloween one... BUT THE CATCH THIS TIME IS....

They are STILL wearing the same costume.

The friendly person wears a scary Halloween costume AT A CHILD THEMED ONE. And the quiet and shy person wears the same Light-hearted costume they were using on the Halloween one.

Now.... Although they ACT the part.

They don't LOOK the part at all.

You see?

This is where I'm getting.

Appearance matters.

But it's not the whole "basis".

It's just a "trait" just like everyone and everything else.

And in my opinion... This mindset should be a bit normalized more than just being overall judgmental and judging people off of appearance.

So in conclusion:

Pretty privilege exists.

Appearance matters.

Looks matter.

But.

It is not the whole "basis" of a thing or of a person because it's more of a "trait", just like personality traits.

And even though "pretty privilege" may directly or indirectly; saved me from being jailed...

It should not be normalized.

And also minor note:

Side and love the people who fight for you. NEVER LEAVE THEM. EVER. My family did. And I love them. I love them so much. And since I am 18 and not a kid anymore, they are also getting old and about to hit 50.

I'm afraid that I won't have anyone to protect me from this world anymore.

We should cherish and love those who would care and fight for us.

I don't care if they did it because it's "pretty privilege."

When people defend and fight for me...

Bruh automatic green flag.

Never let them go.

Especially when it is your family.

❤️

Stay safe out there and I hope you learn a lesson from my rant!

Also, for those who have trouble controlling their emotions like me-

Please, think before you act.

I have not been the same since 2 years ago when I was in grade 10 after all the traumatic experiences I've encountered which made me go into witchcraft and become a witch and embark on a spiritual journey.

I'm thinking of giving up and quitting...

But I really don't know what I should do to help me feel better or to BE BETTER.

I hope I finally find people of this generation that I can call "home". I'm genuinely afraid of getting old and dying alone :((((

Once again, stay safe everyone!

I just wanted to rant and let out my pent up emotions and wanted to say in Tumblr that yes indeed, I am a witch.

My family and social circle, I think will not approve and don't know that I am a witch.

Since my family is Christian, and I also used to be a Christian...

It was hard for me to transition to a witch 2 years ago especially when the foundation of my transformation was pain, trauma etc...

Ok that's it for this rant!

If you've finished reading this, well, thank you for listening to my story.

Have a great day/night!

#Rant #Pretty Privilege #Almost got jailed.#need help. please?#what is happening to me? like- seriously my LIFE IS NOT NORMAL. I AM NOT NORMAL.#I used to be Christian until I transitioned into witchcraft because of the events and encounters of my life that has shaped me into “me” now #I dropped out of school 2 years ago. I am gonna go try to go to school this year to complete my education;(#Love and keep those who fight and care for you. ❤️

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