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ANGEL OF ANARCHY KANG YEOSANG!

credit @hugging_99

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Devil In Disguise ~ ATEEZ Ot8 X Reader

Introduction: Emergency

CW: Peril, Panic attack, Supernatural/Horror elements, Mentions of alcohol, Mentions of death

Suffocating heat, stifling and oppressive. That's the first thing that you notice when your eyes flicker open and you attempt to survey what surrounds you. You expect to feel your heart pounding, head throbbing in pain, or your chest tightening in a panic, but there's nothing. In fact, the less you think about the heat and instead try and stare into the abyss, the less it seems to hurt. Nothing hurts, not anymore.

The haze around you is heavy, somehow. You can't figure out if you're standing or sitting, or if you're pointing up or down as you stretch a tentative hand out into the emptiness. You feel light, weightless, untethered.

And then you see it. The door.

In the seemingly endless blackness, the door appears out of place. A mix of wood, concrete and metal, covered in locks and chains. Before you know it you're standing in front of it, although you can't remember taking a single step. It feels heavy under the touch of your fingertips, and the grooves in the brick are rough as they graze your skin. You stroke the surface, pull at the chains, and tap fingernails against the keyholes in an attempt to magically cause it to open. The locks aren’t cold as you run your hands across them. The door itself suggests impenetrability, like a test designed to have no winners. For a dream, this whole thing feels very real.

The first voice comes out of nowhere. It's demanding in its order, making you jump.

"Open the door, now."

This provides you with a reason to panic. With no discernible source, the simple command surely had to be a figment of your imagination. Except you'd never heard anything like it before. Despite its higher pitch there was an undercurrent of roughness to it, seemingly stifled, like the screams someone makes when a hand is forced over their mouth. The strange voice echoed in your head, and it was quickly followed by another.

"You can just turn the handle sweetheart."

A softer tone, equally instructive. Caring, but filled with barely disguised contempt. A third and a fourth soon joined in.

"Come on, it's on your right!"

"The locks are fake, you're free to enter."

The notion of your void being on the outside of something bigger was intriguing, and your hand fell to the door handle. Somewhere you could hear the quiet echoing of applause as you prepared yourself to follow their orders.

"It won't be hard to open, we've made it easier for our fragile little one." A fifth voice said sweetly, but it made you stop in your tracks. Fragile? You'd never felt fragile a day in your life, until the last few weeks when everything had begun to spiral. What about you made you seem fragile to them? And who or what were these voices coming from?

The sixth voice shocked you out of your thoughts, a deep and growled statement that did nothing to soothe your mind.

"Just go through the door, that's a good girl."

You couldn't move, almost paralysed by fear now. The panic you'd pushed aside returned as the heat did, and you began to feel dizzy as you stumbled away from the door. Two new voices made themselves known now, urgent and angry.

"We can't come out, you need to come in!"

"We're waiting for you, don't make us wait any longer."

A cacophony of these voices overwhelmed you, and before you knew it you had begun to scream. No sound came from your throat, but you could feel it burning with how hard you were crying out to try and drown the voices.

"Open the door for us."

"We need you."

"Wake up."

"It's our job to find you."

"Can't hide from us."

"Wake up."

"Wake up."

"Wake up."

You could feel your heartbeat quicken, and the voices began to fade. Instead of the darkness you were met by fluorescent lights, burning from in front of your eyelids. You couldn't move, couldn't open your eyes, but you knew how you ended up here. Everything was flooding back.

The heartbreak, the alcohol, the screaming, the pain, the ambulance, all led you to the hospital bed. The shadows of family and friends surrounded you, but you couldn't meet their eyes. Instead of looking to the light, you seeped back into the darkness.

And instead of running away, you turned back to the door.

“Am I dying?” You asked, your voice muffled in the thick haze. The voices chattered, and then the loudest one answered back.

“What do you think?” It spoke, and you could hear the snarl in every word it spoke.

“I-I am, aren’t I? I’m lying in that hospital bed on the verge of passing away… and you’re going to decide if I’m going to heaven or hell.”

“Not exactly sweetheart. Why don’t you come through that door? Then we can show you what we’re really here for.”

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[A/N: First small part out of the way! This is honestly kinda scary trying to write again, and I known this one wasn’t full of spice, but it’s necessary to lay the groundwork for the rest of the story. Our Captain Hongjoong is up first!]

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[TEASER]

Devil In Disguise ~ ATEEZ Ot8 X Reader

Heaven is in my stare, ain’t gonna take you there.

In which an accident leaves you teetering between life and death, stuck in a dark and hazy fantasy. As you swim in and out of this void, desperate to understand what is happening, you find yourself at the mercy of eight mysterious individuals. All attempt to offer you salvation, but there is something sinister about their true motive. Do you stay strong and resist, or sink into their temptation until you can’t breathe?

[A/N: This is my first fic in a long long time, but when you get given a music video concept like ‘In Your Fantasy’ it would be cruel to not try and do something freaky with it. Expect the first instalment asap :)]

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Okay so maybe In Your Fantasy has given me enough ideas to end my writing drought… Ateez Ot8 multi chapter smut fic may be incoming at this rate 🫢

(And I am going to enjoy every minute of writing it)

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Everyone talks about wanting Seonghwa's gender or Wooyoung's babygirlism or Mingi's princess-ness or San's waist, but you know what I want?

Whatever Yeosang's got going on. I want to be continuously underestimated and doted on. I want everyone to just continuously be going "Oh my god" after I do anything. Or after I don't do something, which causes someone else to just automatically do it for me. I want to effortlessly vacillate between capable and helpless for no other reason than I feel like it. He got the whole squad whipped. He could live the rest of his life never having to open another door for himself if he didn't want to. He could tear a log in half with his bare hands. He could be a delicate flower. He could gouge your eyes out. He's unbothered, in his lane, moisturized, etc.

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Yeosang and Wooyoung's Recent Features & Subverting the Idol Persona

I have so many thoughts about Yeosang and Wooyoung's most recent editorial features for fashion magazine and how each of them sends a message about their growth over the years.

These two former BigHit trainees each dealt with image issues early in their careers: Yeosang's beauty dominated the external perception of him as an idol who was nothing more than a pretty face, while Wooyoung internally struggled with his physical appearance, recently exacerbated by his diagnosis of a skin condition that flares up in the heat.

In response to these pressures, Yeosang and Wooyoung took on different personas when they debuted as Ateez.

In Yeosang's case, he was "a Maltese who insists he's a Doberman." Yeosang's characterization as pure, innocent, and hapless was (and still is) reinforced by the members as part of their fan service. KQ also allegedly overruled Yeosang on his choice of a Doberman as a representative animal for their Aniteez characters and discouraged him from going to the gym, so as to preserve his slim physique.

Yeosang himself has said that he's not too bothered by the Maltese/Doberman bit; yet, at the same time, Yeosang shows his true self in his performance. He is the kind of dancer that takes up space; his movements are filled with unexpected swagger and ferocity. I noticed this during his MMA solo; again during his Sticky dance challenge, and most recently during the concert film. It was his attitude that entranced me, not (only) his visuals. Around this time, he began to bulk up, seemingly in control of his body's appearance for the first time in a while. He has solo music on the horizon and more schedules coming his way.

Whether or not you want to use the Doberman metaphor, the Esquire Korea feature feels like Yeosang reshaping his image.

Yeosang's poses draw attention to his bulging biceps, his large hands, veiny forearms, and exposed forehead. These attributes all signal traditional masculinity and almost aggressively sends the message: this is a man, not a "good boy."

My quote comes from the clip below of Yeosang, San, and Wooyoung on Jaejoong's variety show. It should be noted that Jaejoong is considered the platonic ideal of a center visual. Jaejoong was allegedly blacklisted from entertainment after his lawsuit with SM led to the national elimination of the so-called idol "slave contracts" with entertainment companies, yet SM continues to use him as the visual blueprint with selecting idols. Jaejoong's compliments to Yeosang therefore feelsalmost double-edged: Yeosang fits the Jaejoong type, but there are certain expectations and pressures that come with this role, and consequences for stepping out of line.

Yeosang's Esquire photoshoot therefore feels transgressive and affirming, given how much he's tried to show the fandom how we've continually underestimated him. See his quote in GQ:

I am intrigued by the sudden (or perhaps not-so-sudden) rebranding of Yeosang and I greatly anticipate his collaboration with Hongjoong for the next Ateez: Present installment. The Sangaissance is upon us!

If Yeosang's idol persona served to reinforce our opinion of him as pure and untainted by earthly desires, than Wooyoung's aimed for the opposite. Welcomed last to KQ on the strength of his dancing skills, and who shared the role of main dancer with Mingi and Yunho, I think Wooyoung found a way to stand out through his "sexy performer" concept.

While his loudmouth antics and aggressive aegyo were also his signature characteristics, Wooyoung used his sexy concept as a kind of shield and battering ram. For many years, Wooyoung spoke negatively about his own body and faced unkind comments from the fandom. There was so much scrutiny over his appearance that it makes sense that the sexy concept became his way of seizing control of his own narrative - and good for him. "Sexy Pefrormer" became how he identified himself and how his members referred to him (although you can imagine their tone).

These days, the nickname "sexy performer" is mostly used to affectionately tease Wooyoung. Wooyoung has himself admitted that he's matured beyond his adolescent understanding of "sexy"

I also notice the kpop industry trended away from "sexy" around the same time Wooyoung did, about two years ago. He's too savvy to be unaware.

These days, you'll find him in head-to-toe Chrome Hearts or styled more androgynously, especially with long hair.

And yet, like Yeosang, and perhaps due to watching Seonghwa and San dramatically transform their bodies and gain opportunities in the high fashion world, Wooyoung recently modified his physique and debuted an unprecedented amount of skin at the Couurages show:

Wooyoung's efforts at exercise were downplayed by the man himself, who was a combination of shy, dismissive, and smug in his messages to ATINY.

With his Courreges appearance going viral, Wooyoung's sexiness was once again part of his packaging as an idol, but with this recent feature + digital cover for ARENA Magazine, it's clear Wooyoung is not sticking to the same old rule book.

These photos of Wooyoung are sexy, yes, but they are also bold, weird, loud, unsettling, strange, erotic, camp, and even unflattering (meant as a compliment). His face forms exaggerated grimaces and pouts; his body bends and hunches; his clothes are either too small and tight or overly large and baggy on his form.

It's not at all what we were expecting from Wooyoung. Compare this photoshoot to cover model Hyunjin who is there to serve Blue Steel-"i'm a handsome idol" face (and it's a beautiful face, good for him!) and apparently also sell watches and jewelry.

They are doing very different things, not one better than the other, but I am delighted that Wooyoung took a real risk and embraced the vulnerability and liberation of not trying to look like a picture-perfect idol. According to Wooyoung, the results were due to him doing what felt natural and not studied:

Wooyoung was so impressive that the Editor-in-Chief made a comment on instagram about how they decided to give Wooyoung a digital cover, something that normally only happens with a brand collaboration (like Seonghwa with John Varvatos perfume).

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Yeosang and Wooyoung are not the only members who have altered their appearance to meet new visual concepts. Yet these two recent magazine features suggest that they are making a concerted effort to change/affect our perceptions of them as artists. By embracing different yet not necessarily oppositional modes of sexiness (one rooted in traditional masculinity; the other engaging with queer aesthetics) Yeosang and Wooyoung make clear they intend to move beyond the idol structures and strictures and challenge our perception of kpop visuals through the fearless, transformative, and radical embrace of their own. Bravo!!

I can't wait to see what they do next!

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girls don't want diamonds they want to look like kang yeosang or park seonghwa

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Yeosang the man that you are…

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Yeosang for Esquire Korea

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PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE TELL ME IM NOT THE ONLY ONE

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I think the best way to fight this AI shit is just to support actual creators. The cat's out of the bag with AI; our data's going to be taken and used without our consent whether we like it or not, so maybe we should put efforts into holding up those who create their own stuff. Comment/interact on people's writings and art. Make it worth them posting; make it clear that what the people are interested in isn't generated stuff, but things that people have actually done themselves. It's a drop in the ocean, but showing creators that it's them that deserve the support at least serves to cut off a tiny bit of oxygen to these AI hogs - and make a difference to creatives who are trying against hope to share with a community.

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good things will happen 💫

things that are meant to be will fall into place 💫

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GIRL I WAS AT THEIR CONCERT TOO AND IVE NEVER EXPERIENCED POST CONCERT DEPRESSION THIS INTENSE OMG😭like i cant go back to reality and live my ordinary life again

It’s crazy but it was such an amazing experience and now I miss them so bad 😞 Their concerts are literally life changing

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now that I’ve finally seen ateez live, I completely understand the depression atiny get after they’ve finished the concert 😭 I WANNA GO BACKKKK

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[Special Clip] 'Enough'