lilyflower69

[lilyflower69]

[lilyflower69]

First one if ocs count, 2nd one if not, I think I’m fine but I’m fucked if it’s the first one.

the og post was way too long so I'm making a new one

thanks for the tag @lombolica !! :D

You're stuck in a room with the last character in your gallery how safe are you

very safe

the worst thing that could happen is him being clumsy, so I think I'm alright (unless monsters find him I guess)

tagging (no pressure): @flaretheidiot @lemonic-whimssyy @wibbly-wobbly-blog @cryptidanathema @virtualunease @aurlworthfightingfor @angrysheep @sugarplumanderson @time-travelling-chaos @fateisnotafactor @monstrousmaws @sinfulauthor @idkaguyorsomething @vampireopossum and anyone who wants to do this!

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I’m having a particularly bad episode of OCD today and wanted to remind everyone as well as myself.

Your intrusive thoughts and urges do not reflect who you are as a person.

Your intrusive thoughts and urges do not make you sick or evil.

Your intrusive thoughts and urges do not mean you are a despicable human being.

They do not mean any of the above, or any of the other lies your brain might conjure. (You’re twisted. You’re perverted. You deserve death. You deserve to never be happy. To always be alone. To always feel guilty. And the list goes on).

What your intrusive thoughts and urges do mean is that you’re struggling, and it’s hard, and sometimes you want to give up and disappear forever.

But your intrusive thoughts and urges do not define you. They do not have control over you, they do not have charge of your brain. They are not going to drag you under for the rest of your life, even if it feels like that right now. You will overcome this, and you will pound those stupid thoughts into the earth, no matter how long it takes.

You are not your intrusive thoughts.

Your intrusive thoughts are not you.

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You know sometimes I am even convinced myself

Maybe I do want to kill. Maybe the urge will stay with me because I am just that. Maybe I am a killer.

Then I need to remind myself that is in fact a thing I’d never do, and sometimes I am even stopping myself to potentially ever doing that with whatever cost

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Having OCD abt super taboo stuff is a different kind of pain bc someone will be trying to talk to me abt extremely normal stuff and I just have to tell them that I don’t care and they just think I hate them when I don’t I swear I don’t but how can I tell them that this conversation is going to give me a flare up of the most disgusting thoughts and imagery imaginable without them thinking I deserve to be locked up???

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I honestly just don't think people understand how quick and easy it is to fall into some kind of ocd. It's so easy. It's so fucking easy. One day it's just having a stupid thought about cutting your finger and just keeping going while cutting a tomato and suddenly it's "if I move this this this this this this this and this will happen to me but also I'm horrible because I can even think of these things I'm horrible person"

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🌿✨ A Little Reminder for My Fellow Warriors ✨🌿

Hey, lovely souls! Just a gentle nudge to those battling contamination OCD. Remember, it’s okay to have those thoughts—they don’t define you! 💖

Imagine your mind as a garden. 🌼 Sometimes, weeds might pop up (hello, intrusive thoughts!). But you’re not alone in pulling them out. You have the gardening tools of self-care and support! 🛠️💪

Try this: when those pesky thoughts creep in, visualize them as clouds. ☁️ You can’t control the weather, but you can choose to dance in the rain! 🌧️💃

Also, let’s celebrate the small victories! Did you touch something ‘contaminated’ and not wash your hands immediately? 🎉 That’s a win! Each step is progress, and you’re doing amazing things every single day. 🌟

Let’s support one another and share our little victories! 💌 Drop a 🌻 if you’re with me ! ________ Highly Recommend this ERP Workbook :

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I want to give everyone who regularly says “my intrusive thoughts won 😜” as a silly quirky thing Pocd, harm ocd, morality ocd, and crippling intrusive thoughts for 24 hours. There would be no survivors but for the ones who live maybe it would make a positive difference in the world

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Harm OCD is great because it targets the thing you love more than anything in this world and suddenly you don't wanna be in the same room as your dog because you have intrusive thoughts about hurting her and it terrifies you

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moral ocd is like "why haven't you solved world hunger and brought about world peace completely by yourself without a single person helping you and without acknowledgement for anything that you did or the fact that you did it because if you did you'd be a bad person? and if you ignore the shame you are even worse? also if you talk about this to anyone you're attention seeking!! okie byeeeee!!! now go do your allotted activity to make you not bad™ anymore."

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hint for everyone who has real fucked up sexual/violent OCD obsessions: it feels real for everybody. yes, that real. you might have have unnerving sensations in your groin, in your fingertips, in your lips that make you feel like a set trap. you might understand the emotional logic of why somebody would like and do the things you're thinking about. in your hysteria, you might generate justifications for the act in your mind, unsure of whether you actually mean them. after however long you've been thinking about this one thing, you might feel completely numb to its horror, and let your festering imagination play out beside you with no opposition. you might have thought so many bad things that you know you have crossed a line where now, things forever cannot be undone or unknown. knowing you're horrible, you might not care.

and still, none of it is true.

in a year or three or more, you may know that the roiling mess of your brain isn't what you are, that you do not have that awful secret, and that you are never going back to believing it.

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nobody:

me: *likes a post*

my ocd: was that post you liked actually good? what if that person is secretly bad and people find out and then you're a bad person by association because you liked their post? what if this post has secret dogwhistles that you don't know about? and by liking it that means you agree with it! reread it 30 times until all the words don't even seem like words anymore and the meaning is mush! what? you can't tell if it is a bad™ post? see, you actually are a bad person because a good person would be able to tell. you are going to hell now! you need to think at least 5 'good' things so you can counteract your eternal damnation!!! now now now now NOW NOW NOW!!!!

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dunmeshi doodles

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🚨dangerous🚨

A report on the suffering of water in the Gaza Strip.

My family is suffering to obtain drinking water, and is between the fire of pain and the fire of danger.

Time is catching up with us and we urgently need to purchase a submersible generator and a water supply network.

For the sake of humanity, in order to protect my family from danger, in order to support our resilience in surviving this life.

Donate to reach the seventh goal tomorrow, Thursday.

Notes: Since the gfm organizer is based in canada, the gfm will not accept donations from paypal. Please DM @malcriada who is a trusted friend of siraj if you wish to donate using paypal, or are otherwise having any issue donating to the gfm with general cards.

67.007➡️➡️ +3.000↗️

=70.000✅

[lilyflower69]

Nimona but with actual reference this time

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in my most recent game of team defense fort 2 i was banned from a 24/7 hightower pony rp server for screaming ‘incoming gamer!’ into my mic every time i respawned or charged as demoman. and i have to say, nothing really prepares you for the sensation of hearing a grown man say with no hint of irony in his voice, ‘mr sex goblin, if you dont stop saying that im banning you from ponyville forever’

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they posted a full version lol it’s mr Stacy’s dad for me