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Indie Bookseller friends! Since Little Thieves won't be stocked in B&N this holiday season, I'd like to offset the hit to sales by offering hand-printed linocut prints for LT copies bought at/through indies. If you'd like your store to participate, please fill out this quick google form no later than November 5. (And interested readers, feel free to send this to your local indie bookstore to see if they'd like to join in!)

The full list of participating stores will go live in mid-November, including some that take and ship online orders, so even if you aren't near an indie bookstore, we'll have options!

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everything you lose is a step you take.

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i’m fucking crying y’all

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me, having stupid thoughts & feelings about fictional characters: ugh. Fine.

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what are your thoughts on judas? why do you love him so much?

The myth of Judas is like every story in the Bible: it depends on how you read it.

There’s the first story, the one everyone knows, in which Jesus is divine and Judas is the betrayer and he is condemned for it. But what isn’t said is that there needs to be a betrayal; that the story hinges on it; the passion can’t play without it. And so the question becomes: if it’s all destined, if it’s fate, is Judas culpable? Was he lead to the betrayal - did he ever even have a choice? The question of Judas is the question of free will. This is why Jesus loves him most, keeps him close, never hates him - he’s part of the godhead. He knows that he’s not the only one who is sacrificed for salvation. And doesn’t Judas get the worst of it - reviled for all eternity, hated by all, written down in the book as The Betrayer? He doesn’t even get a legacy. He doesn’t get worshipped; he doesn’t even get to be forgotten. For someone to rise up, to ascend, someone else has to take the fall, and that’s exactly what Judas did.

The second story is the historical one, the one that says Jesus was just a man, and that he and Judas knew exactly what the fuck they were doing. In this story Jesus is the leader and Judas is his right hand, his zealot, the one who believes that the cause, the salvation of his people, is more important than anything else, more than anything Jesus might want, more important than any human bonds, any love or dedication. They’ve read the book. They know the stories. They know that the only way to make their revolution last is for Jesus to become a martyr. They make the myth because they are just men and the story, the story will last far beyond them. The story lasts forever. 

And so we come to the Gethsemane, only it’s under different lighting. There’s this idea, somehow, that Jesus is the innocent, that the betrayal is a blow - but he knows what’s coming. In every version, he always knows. And that changes things, it complicates things. It changes the two of them from good and evil, profane and divine, into what they were and what it was - two men giving up their lives in the hope that they could bring hope to all the people who came after them. The hero and the villain because they created themselves that way.

I’m partial to the second story - because it’s messier, it’s more devastating, it’s more real to me. It’s a story about loving something so hard you can’t live without it and giving it up only for something even greater, a higher cause - and becoming unable to look at yourself in the mirror afterwards. That’s the thing about Judas - he wants too much, feels too much. And what’s more human than that? He is, all at once, the purest disciple, and the hardest; the most faithful, and the least; the one who loved Jesus and the cause enough to betray them, and sacrifice his own soul in the doing. He is the best of us and the worst of us, all at once, and what that makes him above all is human, in a way Christ specifically is not, in the messy and fallible way that we all are. The church wasn’t built on a rock; it was built on a kiss.

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literally

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We voted! Mail in voting is how Washington votes every year, but we are especially grateful for it this year. A lot of things are uncertain right now, but even in scary times, you still have a voice. #VoteBlue #BidenHarris2020 https://www.instagram.com/p/CGyC36Gg1Ic/?igshid=1xhl5klxf8ege

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I am posting this to be transparent, because that’s who I am. I don’t like hiding my vulnerability and truth from you and the truth is: I am taking my laptop to the pawn shop because it’s the only option I have right now. It probably won’t be enough anyway. Our mask business is the only thing keep us going right now, but it’s barely going. Most of what we make has to be reinvested in fabric, envelopes, shipping, thread, etc. my mom is the only seamstress. I do all website, graphics, and customer service. It’s not enough. My mom has been considering risking delivering UberEats (despite being 63, asthmatic, high risk for the virus) but she can’t do that until we can come up with $350 for car tabs and even then we need to fix insurance because we’ve been so swamped she didn’t even realize we lapsed. The insurance company won’t reinstate my mom’s car/rejected her for a new policy despite the fact she’s been with them for 8 to 10 years because she missed two months payments. So now we have to find a new insurance provider and the lowest new quote we got was $700 down payment. Our phone bill expires today, the internet in five days, I woke up to two late payment reminders on CCs I used to stop the bleeding. CCs I had mostly paid off before the virus hit. I have to do what I can to help my family and right now that means prioritizing them. My writing, even if I could sell something soon, wouldn’t patch these holes for several several months at the minimum. My YouTube channel was demonetized for inactivity. I simply do not have time to pursue creative exploits over immediate financial help for my family. Friend suggested another fundraiser, but what am I supposed to say? “Despite you helping me every winter since 2016, I’m no better off and still yet to accomplish anything?” I don’t feel like I have any social capital left and it is humiliating and exhausting to beg for humanity. I can still write on my phone (and I will, because I can’t not write) but this is where I am. I pawned my camera last week, it barely made a dent. This probably won’t help much either. But it’s what I can do right now, so I will do it. I have to prioritize my family. https://www.instagram.com/p/CGsyLKOAhR5/?igshid=utgj47lrosjt

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At the neurologist for my migraine shots! We brought presents for my doctor and the nurses! Mom made first responder themed masks. We have a limited stock of this fabric if you’d like to buy from the shop (I can add them later this week)! Lauriemakesmasks.com https://www.instagram.com/p/CGnW6h2gsr8/?igshid=1u1yg85g3j79e

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I have 3 signed #folklore CDs, but I only need 1! I’d like to spread the love and awareness about mask safety, so from now until Mon Oct 19 @ midnight, using the code “FOLKLORE” on lauriemakesmasks.com will get you 10% off your order and enter you to win one of the extra CDs! We have lots of designs to choose from, including Pride and BLM designs! https://www.instagram.com/p/CGbCuCpgH3J/?igshid=1hvep1w752asb

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In today’s example of Ways I’m Killing Time Until My Next Migraine Shots, I finally finished up my website redesign! I would love it if you visited and clicked around a bit! It even has a nifty donate/support page with links to our mask website and other ways you can help support my endeavors. Check it out at http://lilymeade.com (link in bio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CGS2fCqBnbt/?igshid=z3w3qrn57cw5

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Happy #MaskMonday! This week we have Batman and Wonder Woman prints, a Glam Girl set, and new additions to our Skellinngton and Space sets! These are new fabrics, but we still have dozens of others to choose from on the website including holiday designs! lauriemakesmasks.com https://www.instagram.com/p/CGQS08tAAHX/?igshid=ej52g19evxn9

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Beyond honored to be a part of the cover reveal for A PSALM OF STORMS AND SILENCE by @rosiesrambles! The cover artist Tawny Chatmon, designer Jessie Gang, and models Tania Toussaint and Aidan Wheeler did an AMAZING job! When I first saw this cover, my first thought was to imagine the excitement my brother would feel at seeing a boy that looks like him on a fantasy cover. Not only is this cover gorgeous, but it also will mean so much to so many young readers. Thank you so much Rosie for letting me be involved in this awesome reveal. Preorder: http://lily.la/aposas (link also in bio) #ASongOfWraithsAndRuin #ASOWAR #APsalmOfStormsAndSilence #APOSAS #roseanneabrown #epicreads @epicreads https://www.instagram.com/p/CGIuzcrgpo9/?igshid=1k98161velcio

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It’s #MaskMonday, my loves! This week we have some more Christmas and Winter sets, plus a Cartoon set featuring my favorite fictional dog #ScoobyDoo, Looney Tunes, and Spongebob! 😍 Shop now: lauriemakesmasks.com https://www.instagram.com/p/CF-fp9IAueG/?igshid=kk65bbfv9i0r

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I SWEAR we created and launched this sale (on Twitter yesterday) BEFORE we heard the news. Any potentially insensitive reminder to a world leader getting infected because he refuses to wear masks is entirely coincidental. ANYWAY... Announcing a weekend flash sale from now until Sunday @ midnight Pacific! 10% off EVERYTHING in the shop, including sports prints and Baby Yoda masks! Political masks now $7.50 to help you Ghoul Out The Vote! https://lauriemakesmasks.com/products/political-masks https://www.instagram.com/p/CF2leF_g0c6/?igshid=lql4sda04hd5

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Halloween profile pic change! https://www.instagram.com/p/CF0tf-kA-vp/?igshid=1peoa91e80vrr