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Considering recent events, the moon drastically changing and the continuous trend of throwbacks, I thought I would share a more personal side of me that many of you are unaware of. ‘way back Wednesday’-lol! I tend to write poetry in my private time (when I get a chance to sit down), I thought I would share a poem with you that I had written for a poetry competition when I was in year 12, when my passion had begun. To this day I am forever thankful to my English teacher Miss Taylor and form tutor who supported me throughout my wild school escapades. She was more than a teacher and most importantly a friend to me. I am forever grateful to my teacher who encouraged me to write repeatedly, she saw that I had the ambition and despite my hectic lifestyle, even then she continuously took out the time to persistently stimulate me to write; write your feelings, express your emotions, deal with life- just write! I have so much respect for her and her ability to connect with me and teach me a mandatory life skill- I will never be able to repay her. Life is all about perception, your analysis is based on your own personal life experiences. You can only relate to elements based on those chapters that you yourself have faced. I am personally ever so thankful for every trial and tribulation that I have faced. They have made me the strong and fearless woman I am today. Also a huge Thank you to every single person who has contributed to those hard times, without you I would have been weak. I have a very strong unit but I am always hear for anyone who needs a helping hand, sometimes having an anonymous ear helps. Reach out and I wish you all well :) #limitlessknowledge -Tumblr

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Gone

something is deeply wrong it’s like there is a whole in the ground and it gets bigger and bigger like a vacuum sucking everything in it from the earth and spits out pieces of bringing ash and lava bits which melts through anything it touches it’s like the glue I have to hold it all together is slowly withering away and I don’t have the right sources to make all again and it’s the blocks I put down won’t allow me to walk over it all. Feels worse than the pain of a heart break or death or any sort of pain because it lingers not even nightmares, day time ones instead. As though I’m talking I’m not there not aware in a dream I created that reality won’t touch me nothing is real. I don’t know how to be in touch again with the pain the world brings because I can’t face it. It’s too painful to understand to explain that I can’t go through it I can’t accept it. I’m angry hurt pain deep down I’m sad I don’t know what happiness is now.  It’s gone turned away like in shadows as if at a funeral u feel that emptiness sorrow. It’s constant feeling with me. Something died something great pain something can’t sort it. it’s too deep of a wound that even the most powerful anti-bacterial can’t heel it. It’s not nice. Scared to cry because I feel like it burns. it will cause pain on others. Can’t do that. Don’t know my r motions because I can’t touch them feel them because I act express them. Gone.

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[limitlessknowledge]

Life's Play

Oh how you play with my life

But I assure you I still have my soul

Never underestimate the power of those alone,

You may think I'm rock and my heart is full of stone,

But Allah knows that of the truth of which lies within me, what has grown,

  Twisted soul and heartless fools,

 Demons play never ending war.

 Chapter closed.

Story ends.

Beginning of an error

Despair in their calamity you cry with tears

 I hear your terror.

  Fear you say, in order to repair,

Voices within the darkest myths

Friends are foes and enemies are close.

Emotionless bodies and empty souls.

Seek refuge alone to save your soul.

Those who are fake, guide you

 But with lethal weapons used in order for their jealousy to overrule.

They are thus the wise play in order to corrupt

Oh foolish child. Who you calling wise

Do you not fear the greater divine?

Take a deep breath

Take some time,

Take the next prescription

The scripture sent down from the divine

The truth

The lies become a blessing.

All the pieces were just part of the plan

A puzzle

All to soon unravel

Positively turning the negatives over

Becoming a believe in the darkest corner.

  Act ruthless the inner child as your demon cries.

I hear your soul, as I believe in mine,

I follow the tunnel that shines

Only from the almighty divine,

Allah, the chosen one,

 Guides me through the tunnel of hope

Even those demons that want me to elope

The deeper I weep the stronger I grow.

I see your pain hear your cry

Demons play,

They lead me astray

  Beneath those shaded tears

The woes and foes.

All of you

Feel the envy and the jealousy

But beneath it all I see your fear.

You might take my life.

But chill I have no fear

Ill always have my soul.

No matter how far you tear,

It’s a war out there

A million and one battles

You try and defeat with each angle

But you fail to see

You always regret

That I have upper hand

The control

The life that Allah chose for me is not in your hands as you please

But in the believers who crawl through that narrow tunnel

The journey of a million men

But come out as one.

Taking a life

You may think you have won.

This battle is the beginning

The war is yet to come

 Million more in my place will come

    Consciously thought your doings were wrong

The believer said to me I had to stay strong

I carried myself high in this battle

Had the sword in my hand

All part of almighty’s plan.

So I carried out and continued to fight

No matter how hard you pushed me I was fierce with force with all my might

A series of unfortunate events

But all play a major role

On how one perceives their own, self-control

  Tick tock the clock goes by,

Life is short the struggle just multiplies

Born alone

And die alone

That’s all the words that ring inside my dome

My best friend is the divine

As he the only reason I still shine

I'm in a phase to unravel life

Roaming around till I find myself

Just seeing what is left in his test.

Chapter closed. Begin the next,

All I know is Allah knows best.

My body is cold but soul is alive

Take a deep breath and close my eyes.

No matter how hard you try

My life isn’t over till Allah says so

Try your best to beat me down

No one can defeat me

As I’m still smiling now

So I'm laughing it up as I hold the crown

Yet I pity those who tried to look down

Even if u manage to break me down

Take my life

And get my crown

I assure I will survive

My comeback

When tables turn

And this time ill give you lesson to learn

Wait till u take it now

As ill return this time, I show u how

So you can change for the better now

Allah sees all

Il leave it to him

No matter how much pain

 I have to obey

 Never to let my guard down

Never to be led astray.

      As much as u make me toss and turn

Ill be the reason you will learn

I see how u make me weep and suffer

But when I see u hurt my own ones

You think ill break…It makes me tougher

So I seek the knowledge from the divine

Reading, believing seeking the meaning

While my daemons start breeding

You prey with while I sleep

But when I wake ill hear u all suffer and weep

Ill defeat u all

And in the end with Allah’s grace ill stand up tall

My weapon is like a sword… its my pen

And yours is your sold dignity

When u rise before almighty..What then?

No one saves you, dear old friend

Born alone

Die alone

These words will be engraved on my throne.

  Oh how you play with my life

But I assure you I still have my soul

Never underestimate the power of those alone,

You may think I'm rock and my heart is full of stone,

But Allah knows that of the truth of which lies within me, what has grown,

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If you

If you look into my eyes You will see a loving girl One with dried up tears  Hidden behind oceanic eyelids If you look into my smile You will sense nothing is wrong A simple gesture One with many secrets hidden Within sealed lips. Another smile for a new person Another sorrow for a new problem. If you look into my heart  You will see some pain The truth  Blocked passages with building bricks Filled with Disbelief and dilemma No passages to my brain No signals transmitted The reason why, no one else But me, myself, and only I am able to pursue and see  These emotions hidden within If you look at the path which I follow in life You will see many hurdles Many people have made for me Others I have made for myself If you look into my dreams You will see A happy family  With love, care and stability  One of which many take advantage, one money can’t buy Birds singing, children playing And everyone’s real emotions are displayed. All around are smiles – real smiles No fears If you look at me when I wake You will see regret  Regret that reality is not as the dream I want  The dream I wish for If you look closely The story of a child Who puts a face on, for everyone To hide from reality And wish for the dream  A child with many emotions  Unable to show Not a child But a young woman Acting as a child to show innocence But what innocence does a child have  With secrets No child – if you ask me- none If you look at me  You will see my body trembling  Myself shivering You will hear my heart beat fast If it beats at all With no room, how could it beat? Goosebumps appearing  Terrified of that one question That could make me ‘crack’ Shatter my plastic cover up of a smile The question ‘Are you ok?’ The reply is still very strong ‘Yes’ A lie I can not change A lie I stick with. The fake face I put on The Fake smile I show The fake dry eyes I reveal The fake happiness I display Is it just me Or is it everyone!