linnlavendel

[linnlavendel]

In the end, all talks lead to just one thing: the realization of a shared fear. And fear is not an option—not for me, not now. I've lost too much to let fear take hold of me.

Was digging through my old screenshots and found her. My favorite sims OC, from a dystopian legacy challenge I played back in 2013. I really didn't care about mods then, except for skin and eyes. Rosemary lived in Oasis Landing and Lunar Lakes (I was absolutely in love with glowing mushrooms everywhere)

So I thought: why not edit it? Ended up spending the next two hours in photoshop.

So here she is, Rosemary Fesseln 💜

Funny how I still have her .sim file. Maybe I'll play her a little. It's interesting to see how different she looks now with all the DRs I've got.

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Sorry, this isn't sims-related. My cc-finds account was shadowbanned. I need to rant. If you're not in the mood, feel free to scroll past, I get it.

I don't know if Tumblr holds a personal grudge against me, but I'm starting to wonder. I wanted this website to become a safe space for all my fandom-related content, just like it claims to be. Apparently, that's not an option.

I have like four accounts besides this one, and every single one has been randomly terminated. Tumblr eventually unblocked all of them after my constant complains. Except for one, which has now been banned for over a month. Support? Radio silence.

"Security system issue"

Cool, thanks.

And it's not like I'm breaking rules. I don't post anything inappropriate or violate community guidelines. Meanwhile tumblr is overflowing with bots posting shit. And yet instead of fixing their security system, improving moderation and making the platform better for us, they're implementing some random and useless features nobody asked for.

Right now I don't feel safe posting here.

Use the same tag twice? Banned. Change your blog theme? Banned. Post too often? Who knows.

It’s ridiculous. I’m tired of it. I just want to have a fucking blog in the world of twitter and instagram.

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Hard to look at lips you can't kiss? Try looking at the old and long lost cc you’ve been hunting for, only to finally find it on a chinese site and realize you can’t download it

[linnlavendel]

— Hi, my name is Linn and I'm in abusive relationship with Sims 3 for sixteen years.

I created my simblr blog two years ago and posted ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. Even this post was started on December 6, 2024. The one before that? May 16, 2024.

My relationship with TS3 feels toxic. It's this endless on-and-off cycle: gaslighting yourself into believing the game can handle the basics, when it absolutely can't. Nothing works, yet here you are, desperately trying to patch things up, convincing yourself that tomorrow it’ll be different. That maybe, just maybe, it’ll finally… work.

At the end of last year, I discovered I’d been playing with an incomplete store for YEARS. Finding all these random, mysterious objects I’d never seen before? That was surreal.

Later I stumbled across an unexplainable memory leak. I had to reinstall the game, because upgrading my PC somehow messed up something in the registry.

Before reinstalling, I moved my perfectly organized, fully functional mods and overrides folders to my desktop (without any backup, of course). Then, I zoned out for no reason, deleted the whole thing and emptied the recycle bin.

Why?

NO IDEA.

Instead of playing I got stuck redowloading everything, because recovering utility left me with bunch of broken mods and cc. I had this nagging feeling that one day I’m just going to turn off all my cc and go full vanilla.

Of course I haven't played since. Of course I haven't recovered shit. I'm just stupidely gazing into my mods folder now.

What's even funnier, I found my Mods folder from 2013. It's a complete mess. Mods conflicting, cc broken… and yet I remember the game working perfectly.

Why?

NO IDEA.

I upgraded my pc again. Reinstalled the game this week. Realized I didn’t even like the cc I had.

I suddenly understood that I don't need 30GB of content and 200+ hairs. So I started from scratch.

I hope I will spend the next week playing my dynasty. Or just playing. And posting something here.

But for now, thanks to ADHD, I'm recovering dead links and old cc for shits and giggles, so stay tuned!