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listening-and-type · 5 years ago

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leaves an impression. I think this is almost over. I wonder what the nest one will sound like. I can’t hear it anymore.

I will be starting the next one soon!!

12:31 9/23/20

I’m listening to the disintegration loops. The sound is lovely, but I feel it will drive me insane. The music just cut a little. I got scared like something bad wa going to happen, or like I was preparing tfor something to happen. I am misspelling things, but I don’t want to go back and fixit. The song is becoming more choppy and distant. The static is louder. I don’t think I could every fall asleep to this. To repetitive, and in consistant. Like walking up the stairs until you just can’t. Terrifying. The thing that will stop me is when we run out of time in art foundations. I will try to continue this in my free time yat again. The rules stated no looking at the time, so I only have the sound around me to find out. I took out one ear bud is that cheating? I want to be able to hear everything around me. Sounds are less distince, blending together. Still pretty, but distant. I feel like the loop is swallowing me. I feel like I can never do anything to escape it like it is enevitable, and I’m ot sure if I want to stop. The story behind this s really interesting. I wonder if that one song on tik tok, the one about going fast actually works. It is cutting more frequently now. I can’t even remember what it sound like without the cuts. I don’t know if the loop is as short as it sounds. I wanna try this with a song with words. Like the love’s gonna get you killed, but pride’s gonna be the death of you and me and you and you and you and me and you, etc. The song is no longer smooth. Almost every second has at least one cut or part that has slowed down. Kinda morbid. I listened to everywhere at the end of time, or whatever the name of that 6 hour album is. I couldn’t imagine listening to this while watching something sad. Maybe the guy who did this lost a part of himself. I’m sorry. I should change the name of the playlist I created, and change the way this song is in there. It is out of order. Time is passing a lot slower than I remember. People are finishing art projects. The pauses sound musical and the static has gotten louder. Reading through this in the future is going to be interesting be cause I’ll know exctly what was going on in my head. How long till this is over. It’s so repetititve. I’m shaking. The girl next to me seems to be having a better day than she was a while ago. I have so much home work. I don’t have school Friday. The pencil sharpener is very loud. That guy whispers loudly. I realize that this will sound weird out of context. I think I am disintegrating with the music. It is a lot quieter than it was before. I don’t want the sound to go.i don’t want to be alone. The guy near me is doing really good on his at project. There are a lot of errors on the word doc. I almost never use word. I discovered something new. I know how to hide my task bar. My test score is pretty high. I didn’t get the bonus. Today seems melancholic or maybe that’s just me. I don’t feel like talking to anyone. I’m yping slower. I’m having less thoughts that I need to get out immediately. The cuts are prominent, the sound is slowed and reverbed. I wish the one with all of them wasn’t mixed up, and was in order. Liuckly I found this playlist. For somereason the name of thi one and everwhere at the end of time remind me of Miracle Musical’s Hawaii pt II. Idk know why tho. I’m typing in the same way I text. Ew. Eww isn’t a word haha. My knuckles just cracked. Am I alloed to have audio and visual distractions around me? The guy said I shouldn’t take a break for the best results. How long is this song? An hour? I hope not, I don’t have time for that. I think I am annoying the people around me with my typing. It’s every loud , and , as seen above, prominent. I don’t think I used prominent in the right context. I feel like the loops are taking something from me. I don’t think I want it back. I’m hungry for lunch. You didn’t see it because I deleted it, but hungy. Hahahahha skkskskssksk. Rememeber that? Sksksks. Sksksave the turtles. Metals straws vsksksco girls. I’m so sstupid. Limiting your creativity. Insecurities. I want what ever the loop

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taking. The loop memes. The lamp emems. Should I be putting away me portfolio, or can I wait. I keep on breaking the rules and looking at the clock, and each time I do, exactly 10 minuets had passed. I really want to look at how far into the song I am. There are less crackles. I looked, I’m not even half way done. That sucks. I’m going to stop here. (12:53) 25:14 into the music

2:42 10/2/20

I’m only going to do until 3:00 today

I forgot what this sounded like. The people around me are talking, it’s kind of annoying. I’m think about Vladmere, I think that’s his name. He has perplexed me. I dislike this class. Tax evasion. Macro and micro and amog us. My ideas aren’t really ideas. I bet people think I’m pretty strange for typing when everyone else has the laptops away. I actually really enjoy doing this despite the way this may read further in the future. I wanna try this again with Viator by Jack Stauber. You can tell how fast I’m typing by how many errors there are, because the faster I typre, the less time there is to correct them. She doesn’t realize that I have an earbud in. I don’t hace bothe because I’m still in class and she is talking about some flash card that I’m going to wash. The ending of the song makes me a little anxious. I hope n nie asks me what I’m doing. She is calling on people, I hope she doesn’t call on me. The music has gotton quieter. I wonder if I should post what this is on social media. I doubt people would read it. I wouldn’t etit it, so it would be several bocks of text. I want to finish this so that I can listen to the disintegrations loops without feeling the need to do this. I ever tye on word. Waxy blood. Anyone know simplw carbs? People on tiktok are talking about how happy they are to finally eat some food/ finish a mea, and I am so proud of them, but I don’t know how to properly convey tha. If I share this will people get what I mean. The audio is beginning to skip more. They are talking about tiktok. I forgot to kide the time so I couldn’t see it. I messed up. It’ s ok . It reminds me of mother mother. This going ot sound really sporaattic and vauge. I hate lion king. They are talking about watching tha live action remake. They are talking about Whole graim. They are talking, I wish they wouldn’t. The man, Vladmere seems dangerous. For context, Vladmere is the name of a character in an app I have that is similar to story, but it has a better story. The music has gotton quieter. My ears are ringing. The pauses are longer. I wonder If im annoying people with my typing. Do we eat rocks and soil to get minerals. I’m thinking about the pear. There are so many spelling mistakes that I’m going to leave in so that you can see how fast I was typing. I don’t tend to mess up smaller words, but bigger words are another question. If a banana a functional food? I just heard someone’s snap chat. Some random questions are from the class. Cholestral. I have band after school today, I really don’t want to go. I can’t wait for aother art club meeting. I have a lot of stuff written down. Did the music speed up? They are talking about issues with blood. My cousin has a low white platelet count, so when she starts bleeding, she can’t always stop. I think the issue has been pretty resolved by know, because my family hasn’t talked about it recently. This happened over a year ago, so it makes sence. What is calorie a unit of, energy. I wonder is any one has noticed that I’ve been tping this entire time? A court reporter types faster, good for them. The job sound boring, but I kinda want to be one. I don’t typre fast enough. The music is fading in and out. It is doing what I can only call shuddering. The music sounds like a mental break down. I can’t belive the author of this listened to this while watching his recording. I need to make sure that I take car of my slef. I don’ tknow what to write. My leg hurts. It’s because of band yesterday. My band teacher made me do lunges, and it suke. The music is leaving me. It is getting quieter like a fire dying out. California is on fire. People are trying to address matters that need to eb addressed, but no one is litening. I don’t want the music to leave me. I’m going to have to stop seen, because it is approaching 3. The music is so quiet I eed to pay attention to hear it. Maybe my class is just loud. I need to go soon. I have homework. I have school. I onder if people will read this without context and get worried. I hope not, I’m ot trying to worry anyint, I’m just typing my mind. Gtg.

10/14/20 3:14 pm

It is a lot quieter than I remember. Slower too. I can barley make out the original melody. It is repetitive in a different way than before. This is the first time that I have done this at home, and I hope that I do not get any nfortunate innteruptions. I really don’t want my laptop to die, I haven’t charged it in over a day, and I used it all day yesterday. I can hear my family moving around my house. My back hurtd from the way my posture is. This week is supposed to be a break for me, but I am too busy for that nonsense. The music is filling me with a sense of despair. Word keeps on auto correcting me, I don’t want that, I want to be wrong. I don’t know why, but the music kinda sounds like a sad part in a movie when the music gets muted and slowed down to have a bigger affect on you and you can hear all these explosions in the background. I am changing my postiure because this is uncomfy. I am thinking about a lot fothings today. I don’t remember this being this hard. I do not have ear buds in. Should I? probably but that takes a long time to set up and don’t feel like doin that right now. I made a tumblr accountso I could share my feelings about this with the world. I wanted to be taken seriously, them I make my background picture of the backrooms anf I feel like it has taken any respect I mey have formyself. I don’t know what I should do instead. I wonder what the next loop will sound like. I’ll be posting these in parts. I con’t remember if my tumblr page says that I want to do the album Everwhere at the end of time, but I might do it. I listened to that album once, and it was interestio. I felt although I was pinned to my bed. Recently I think my mental health is declinging again. It got really bad a few years ago, anf I’ve been working to stabilize it, btu recently I feel myself slip into old habits. I found a video that explained that isolating yourself from your friends is a form of bad things, so I have that to look out for. I’m typing this on a school laptop with a filter thing so I hopw I don’t get flagged for that up there. The music is struggling to have different souns, it sounds like it is a bunch of explosions iht sounds. I am not sure what to think. I am afraid to tell people that I like their styles because that is considered flirting and I don’t know what I want . When I clicked on this document again, it was like seeing an old friend again, but filled with typos. There are some cool people that I see on my daily commute, but I am unsure on how to approach them and tell them that I like the way hey look without coming off as weird, ingenuine, or flirty. I don’t what to annoy these people, they just look so cool. I don’t tkknow what to think. I am feeling kinda empty and slow rn. I’ve never understood why people end the entences with …, I mean is it so hard to just type. I’ve heard it was aestetic. There is this one continues note in the tape, it is vaugle threatening. Makes me unsettled because it is a little larger than the rest of the sond. The song has slowed down quite a bit. I rememberd to hide all clocks from myself, so who knows how long it’s been. My room is so loud. It always has a fan running. My sister says she can hear whatever sounds comefrom my room at night, I wonder is she can here the disintegration loops. They are so slow now. My thoughta are slow too. I’m tired. I play piano. My fingers feel heavy, like they should go limp. I wonder if I’m following the instructions for my project. I got an 80% on a project, and now I have to reprint something and do it over again. I don’t want to, my grades can handle it. I’m not doing very good thi school year grades wise. The music seems to be fading out now. That one note is still loud as ever. I don’t know what to say anymore. I want to draw somehings, but I fear how they may turn out. I have almost filled one of mmy sketch books. I hear someone going up the stairs, it sounds like my dad. I hear someone in the kitchen. All other sounds have stopped except for that one note. Like a finality to a movie, or an ending to a story, it arries on and

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