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There is a word I’m not allowed to use. I love it. I love it so much. But my darling beloved wife hates it with a fiery passion.

I came across it from Anne Lister’s diary, where she says that she would “grubble under women’s skirts” and honestly. The word perfectly encapsulates the fumbling feeling of fighting your way through layers of fabric to reach the promised pussy land.

However the word has been forbidden, reviled from the first moment my beloved heard it. They shuddered and it’s truly one of the only restrictions they’ve ever placed on my vocabulary so I don’t say it. But I do think it, on occasion.

Sometimes the word will pop into my head and I will think it too hard and my wife will turn and glare at me and accuse, “I know you’re thinking it!”

“But I didn’t say it!” I protest. But they’re always right. Even with no context they always know when I’m thinking it.

Today I told my wife, “I shared the unmentionable word with Astrid today and she quite enjoyed it. She repeated it several times.”

They bellowed liked a dying wildebeest and said, “I can go months without remembering that word exists and then it comes up again. It’s so disgusting, it’s what Sméagol would do on the ground digging for worms!”

I was laughing and protested, “It sounds like fighting through skirts, the groping around.”

“No! That is something that happens in the muck and the filth. It’s negative sexy.

“Bet you're gonna take to Tumblr and share it and some people are gonna be like, ‘Oh what a great word! We should definitely use that in our lexicon. Top tier word!’ And you know what? THEYRE WRONG. GARBAGE WORD. GROSS.”

I listened to their impassioned hatred while cuddled in their arms and radiated love at them and remorse for having reminded them about the existence of grubbling. But now you get to hear about it. As a treat.

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people have already said tumblr is the moral ocd website in that so many people on this website are constantly obsessing over our every thought and word to be as "pure" as possible but i also offer that tumblr is the moral ocd exposure therapy website in that the same userbase makes posts like "in fact if you ever made this specific mistake that i personally find worse than other mistakes i'm willing to forgive, your are irredeemable and going to hell."

we have the whole process here i think that's beautiful

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A surprisingly large part of media literacy boils down to being aware of a given genre or medium's canon of titles that creators love to reference and nobody else remembers. This is true of everything, not just literature; like 50% of what retro platforming video games are doing these days instantly becomes explicable the moment you watch an LP of Shatterhand (1991).

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"irreversible side effects of HRT" all of life is irreversible. i cannot go back a single second in time

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Touring the patio with mama

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i actually think it's criminal that i have not yet seen a single opossum post in this "with mama" trend. they carry their babies on their backs!

let's explore with mama

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(guy who isnt beating the ocd voice) i know! maybe if i spend all night ruminating on something i feel guilty about until i’ve considered it from every possible angle and made myself physically ill, then i can finally forgive myself and i’ll feel better! 99% of morally abhorrent people stop self punishing right before they’re Absolved

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(guy who isnt beating the ocd voice) i know! maybe if i spend all night ruminating on something i feel guilty about until i’ve considered it from every possible angle and made myself physically ill, then i can finally forgive myself and i’ll feel better! 99% of morally abhorrent people stop self punishing right before they’re Absolved

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This girl is an actual hero and we need to donate to her defense fund please

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Boyfriend photobombs girlfriend with engagement ring for a Month without her knowing

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THE FLY (1986) dir. David Cronenberg

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Before and after yep hes mustard gravy

Didnt smell good so i poured it down the drain without take a bite

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Trying to divine someone's mental state based on their favourite media is always a bit silly, but it's especially silly if you were around for the first wave of popular webcomics circa 2000. "If you're a guy and favourite media is about a mentally unwell teenage lesbian who was grown in a tube by a sinister government agency, you might need to check your pronoun situation" like, I cannot emphasise strongly enough that that's just what every other webcomic was like during that period. I can even think of a couple of two-dipshits-on-a-couch gamer comics from that era that ended up going the teenage-lesbian-science-experiment-on-the-run-from-the-government route once they grew a plot – it was basically inescapable.

(Now, if you'd instead proposed that the ubiquity of this premise implies something about the authors, based on a survey of artists who were doing webcomics circa 2000 who are still active in 2025 vis-à-vis the whole pronouns situation, you might have a stronger case!)

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they need to invent somewhere where I belong

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Reblog if you’re polyamorous, support polyamorous people, or think polyamorous people and relationships are valid

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I think “don’t say it, don’t think it” is one of my favorite little memetic phrases to come out of the last few years if only because to acknowledge it is to acknowledge that The Bye Bye Man was an actual movie that was in theatres.

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I don't know how to express how exhausted I am. My friends are all starving and I can't help them. If I send them money, there won't be any food to buy. I fear losing them or their loved ones soon. Unfortunately this isn't the first time I've had this feeling but this is the first time it has felt so completely hopeless with no end in sight. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm at a complete loss.

Nothing short of extremely efficient attacks on the occupation's forces on the Egyptian border will change this situation. Nothing short of the toppling of the Egyptian puppet regime will change this.

But the people who can act to change this situation will not do it due to the personal risk.

I'm very close to giving up on this world and the people that belong to it. I've given so much of me to an uncountable number of people. And this is my reward... Dying, starving friends, and a world too cowardly to act against the entity killing my friends with starvation and thirst.