little-meowyao

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hualian are so camp if you think about it. you have one utterly ripped cis man who nevertheless is so pretty he repeatedly passes as a women even without makeup. and who walks around the house roleplaying a sitcom 1950s housewife burning down the kitchen and making inedible food. and his wife, a 7 foot tall assless trans dude who is actually a demon/ghoul/ghost king with the vibe of a 17 year old highschool mean girl. “eyeliner so sharp you could kill a man” and all that. they were both virgins for 800 years. they were each others gay awakening, centuries apart. they moved in together the same day they met. elderly gay men who are lesbians, actually

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....a number of years ago, at the time I developed POTS, pins and needles went from neutral and kind of fun to deeply painful, on the level of my chronic pain issue. I'm curious how many people also have this (also, if you have POTS or know why)

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Fanvid

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You have transmigrated into a random Nirvana in Fire character

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three years postcanon, jin guangyao comes back to life!

jin guangyao is then approached by a genie. the genie says that, due to the hardships he has endured, jin guangyao has been awarded with one miracle: he can choose to bring 1 out of 2 dead candidates back to life.

jin guangyao can only choose 1 person to revive from the provided list of 2 candidates. he also must make a decision in the next 24 hours.

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good smut is really a character study and that is final. i need it to be about vulnerability i need it to be about trust or lack thereof and most of all i need it to be emotional agony. thats what sex is for

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Li Lianhua saving a bird with the last of his energy.

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i love having the hubris to go 'sure i'll try that, how hard can it be' about every creative skill under the sun. jack of all trades master of shit fuck but who says you have to be a master??? maybe i want to sew a mediocre plushie and code a janky mod and write a bland song. im having fun. im in my lane. im learning and im thriving.

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well personally i like it when there’s incest and necrophilia and murder and cannibalism and abuse and torture and gore and mutilation and body horror and sexual depravity and death.

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TGCF Reversed AU: Not Gege? Not interested

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✨SPIN THE WHEEL TO GET YOUR CHARACTER✨

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i think what really sets me off is that poetry, literature, and calligraphy were not only masculine pastimes to have (+ the scholar class was male-only, famously), nie huaisang focusing so much on them is reminiscent of chinese dynastic succession struggles. in the past, unambitious siblings would throw themselves into the arts, poetry, music, etc, while eschewing politics and power plays so their siblings who DID have ambitions for the throne wouldnt kill them. having martial and military power made you a threat, and with how the cultivation world at the time looked geopolitically, it was crucial for him not to attract too much attention (esp with what type of cultivation qinghe nie is known for). it's such a small detail but makes perfect sense, especially taking into account how he is meant to be a frivolous second young master and not the heir like his brother (where such a sentiment would be much more frowned upon). there is sm nuance to his character but western fans see his fans and how he has no idea how to pick up a sword and go "ok hes the effeminate limp wristed artist lol"

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jin guangmouse

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when you are losing the last of your cool trying and failing to get your manager/team lead to acknowledge reality

mood

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He got his fathers genes

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I firmly believe that Jin Guangyao and Jiang Cheng have no beef with each other for the majority of the timeskip. They both have traits that the other values in allies, if not necessarily in friends:

Jin Guangyao is extremely appropriate, considerate, hardworking, and never makes social situations worse than they have to be. I don't think Jiang Cheng would care that he has schemes or a fake smile because that's just everyone in the political world; it's not as if he has any delusions that the other high-ranking gentry are being fully honest and sincere with him either. On the contrary, he would pretty much respect the work ethic and understand that sometimes you have to do shit to get your dad to like you even when you know it won't work. In short, Jin Guangyao is unlikely to do anything to piss Jiang Cheng off, and at least is very kind to Jin Ling.

On the other side, Jiang Cheng is a man who is just not very dangerous if you understand him. You can say he's a man with a predictable temper, or you can call him easy to manipulate; either way, this works in Jin Guangyao's favour. Jiang Cheng is aware of Jin Guangyao's various social disadvantages, but is too pragmatic to try and exploit them, and is too single-issue to be a significant political opponent. While he does come from privilege, his personal life is so tragic that I don't think Jin Guangyao would feel moved to envy or resent him for his social standing, and at the same time he's a sect leader who actually does work instead of foisting it off on his servants or onto Jin Guangyao himself. In short, Jiang Cheng does not pose a threat to Jin Guangyao, and at least is very kind to Jin Ling.

Does this make them besties? That depends on how deep I am in the Chengyao sauce on any given day, but for sure they are not enemies up until the shit has hit the fan post-timeskip.