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Ida Rentoul Outhwaite | yiexinyi

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Details of foliage in the Unicorn Tapestries

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I should be sleeping. My lover is sleeping next to me. My little one sleeping in her bed, it's possible she will wake up again soon. I should be sleeping. Instead, I am wide awake thinking about how to find a friend. I need a friend. My life has completely changed within the last year and I have completely lost myself. I desperately need a friend.

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“It seems we need someone to know us as we are - with all we have done - and forgive us. We need to tell. We need to be whole in someone’s sight: Know this about me, and yet love me. Please.”

— Sue Miller (via quotemadness)

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It's 3:56 a.m. Awoken by pregnancy hunger, I've been awake for hours. All I want is to fall back asleep or maybe a late night snack. I stumble to the bathroom to relieve my bladder, I wish the baby would find a new spot to hangout. I grab a quick sip of water. I go back to bed hoping to drift off in a deep slumber. I can't. I'm so hungry. I remember what my doctor told me about gaining too much weight, so I fight the urge to visit the fridge. I masturbate. Surely I will find rest after a much needed orgasm. Still I can't find sleep. Maybe a few grapes won't hurt. Now I'm just bored. I cruise my timelines and read articles. I put the phone down, close my eyes and hope for the best. There goes my stomach again. My mind won't shut up. Fuck it. I'll eat a granola bar, that should do it, but it's not enough. I go back to the kitchen, grab a bag of chips and make myself comfortable on the floor. Ozzy joins me. One for me. One for Ozzy. Two for me. One for Ozzy. I don't mind sharing. With the doctor's voice in my head, I put the chips away. Fuck, I'm still hungry. Okay, a bowl of cereal and I will go to bed. I have to wake up in two hours. Now it's 4:18 a.m. why can't I sleep? Why am I still hungry?

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Nothing haunts you like unexpressed feelings.

hedonist poet (via astound)

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