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Wins,loss, and still got the victory

My husband cheated on me and got the side chick pregnant not once but twice while leaving me at my 4 month of pregnancy with our fifth child. Yes, I said it and glad it off my chest. Let me start by saying this by no means was ever a part of my family plan or my way of living. I mean my husband and another women! Come on now it hit me like a ton of bricks. Most women have that womanly intuition that alerts than when something isn't right and let me be completely honest with myself that mines had been firing off for so long that life was just easier to continue to take care of our children and me to continue to work towards my goals.

In 2015, I was jokingly told during one of our plenty petty but not serious arguments that "Ill just call my baby mama and she wouldn't care if I do ABC.” Really, was my response! Jokingly, I egged him to do it,Call her and do you was my response.As time moved on my women intuition fired off saying investigate that statement more. So to make a long story short I asked him and than I demand him to have this "baby ma" of his to call me. He proscanated until oneday he brought me the phone with who on it? The other women. What the F**K! Was this nigga serious?

​ I could not fathom was this real. A one night stand from a drunken night was the excuse they both gave me and to sum it up we agreed to await and get a DNA test due to suspension and what I was told to make our family work.

Fast forward to June/July and here I am with a positive pregnancy test in my hand, curl up in my bedroom floor asking myself why why why because the store brought DNA test according to him read the child was his. The air was so thick in my house that the dark cloud in my marriage was hard to ignore or missed but through my state of depression life had to go on.

​ I had five kids to raise just to be hit with she is pregnant again and I am leaving to get my own spot September 2015. I could not believe God let these people do this to me and my children! I could not believe that this was happening and my life. Well he left soon after and I did not stop him either. I begin to confined in any one who could help me put some sense to what just happen; however, as time went on I realized that I needed to go cold turkey which I did. I stop talking and texting him unless it concerns our children about a month after he left and begin to go to my first love God. To be continue...

The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit..Psalms 34:18