livinginsunnyhell - Tumblr blog

[livinginsunnyhell]

Reblog if you love AO3 and appreciate their volunteers who are working harder than God, fighting battle after battle, making sure the place that is a safe space for every fandom is staying up and running for all of us

[livinginsunnyhell]

[livinginsunnyhell]

[livinginsunnyhell]

Buddie soft morning

The first light of dawn crept through the half-open blinds, casting a warm glow across the room where Evan and Eddie were nestled under a cocoon of soft blankets. The world outside was quiet, the usual hustle and bustle not yet begun, allowing them a few more precious moments in their sanctuary.

Buck's eyes fluttered open to the sight of Eddie's peaceful face, his breathing deep and even in sleep. A smile tugged at Buck's lips as he watched the man he loved, the rise and fall of Eddie's chest a comforting rhythm that he had come to cherish. With the utmost care not to wake him, Buck inched closer, closing the miniscule distance between them, until his forehead rested gently against Eddie's.

It wasn't long before Eddie stirred, the sensation of Buck's warm breath against his skin coaxing him from the depths of sleep. His eyes opened to meet Buck's soft gaze, a silent greeting that filled the room with an unspoken affection. "Morning," he murmured, his voice rough with sleep but tender with emotion.

"Morning," Buck replied, his hand finding Eddie's under the blankets, fingers intertwining as naturally as if they were made to fit together. They shared a smile, and then Buck leaned in, pressing a chaste kiss to his lips. It was a simple gesture, but it held all the love and history between them.

The kiss deepened as Eddie responded, his hand cradling Buck's cheek, thumb caressing the skin there. They took their time, savoring the intimacy of the moment, the way their lips moved together in a dance as familiar as it was exhilarating. There was no urgency, no need to rush through the affection they so freely gave one another.

Eventually, they parted, but only just, their foreheads still touching as they shared soft breaths and quiet laughter. "We should probably get up," Eddie said, though he made no move to leave the warmth of their bed.

"In a minute," Buck replied, and that minute turned into several as they lay there, wrapped up in each other, exchanging lazy kisses and soft touches that spoke of a deep, abiding love.

When they finally made their way to the kitchen, it was with a sense of contentment, their hands still joined. They moved together with an ease born of countless mornings just like this, making coffee and breakfast with shared glances and small touches.

[livinginsunnyhell]

eddie and chris having a whole convo about tommy, and then eddie's feelings realization when chris starts talking about buck after in comparison (bonus: buck walks into the house and overhears)

thank you for the prompt! i hope you like it :) you can request one here!!

Eddie smiles tenderly as Chris recounts the time he spent with Tommy, while Eddie was out doing groceries. In the forty-five minutes that he had been gone, it seemed like he had a lot to say on the matter, going on and on about how fun he is, and how awesome he is, and how much Chris loves spending time with him.

"I'm glad you like him, kid," Eddie chuckles, moving around in the kitchen while Chris works on his homework at the table. "He's pretty cool."

"Well, not as cool as Buck, but yeah, pretty cool." Christopher agrees.

"You shouldn't compare Chris." he replies, looking over his shoulder. He's in the middle of making them enchiladas, which Chris is weary about, but Eddie is determined to make just right. Buck is coming over for dinner, and Eddie really wants to impress him.

Once, Frank asked him why it was so important to do these little things for Buck, the way Buck does for him. Eddie remembers feeling uncomfortable about the question - he doesn't know why that comes to mind right now.

"I'm just saying," Chris mumbles - Eddie hears a noise, making him frown, but Chris continuing his chatter makes him think he imagined it. "I really like that you have a new friend, cause you need them but-"

"Hey!"

"-buuutt," he stresses. "I don't want you to forget about Buck. I already miss him."

"I won't," Eddie promises, as if it were even possible. The idea of being without Buck is just about the worst thing Eddie could think of. Those times in the hospital, when Eddie didn't know if he would live or die...Eddie still has nightmares about it. "Buck is part of our family, that'll never change." He's warm just thinking about it - Buck is comfort. Buck is easy. Buck is knowing that no matter what he does, Buck will be waiting for him.

You're avoiding your feelings, Eddie, Frank says in his head.

"Well, you're with Tommy 'cause he does things with you that Buck doesn't, right? But Buck does a lot else for us, and he really loves us."

Sometimes, Chris will come at Eddie with these types of sentences and he never knows what to say back. The thing about kids, no matter their age, was that they were so honest. That type of honesty made Eddie uncomfortable.

Frank again, and why is that, Eddie?

"I know he does," Eddie says quietly. "You know I love him too."

"More than Tommy?"

Eddie sighs and turns around, looking at him.

"Of course more than Tommy. Buck is..."

Looking at his son, he opens his mouth and is about to say something about friendship, something about how there are different kinds of friends, and that's okay. But Chris' eyes undo something in him, and all Eddie thinks in his head is...I love Buck more than anyone but you, Chris.

Frank taps his pen on his notepad, irritated, What is Buck to you, Eddie?

Everything.

Eddie feels his chest constrict with uncomfortable realization - Chris looks at him strangely, not satisfied with an open-ended answer, but sighs, seeing that this conversation may not go further, and gets up from the table, grabbing his book to make it to his room. When the door shuts, Eddie sighs, going back to his cooking. He barely has a moment to process the fact that he's just admitted to having very big feelings about his best friend when-

"You gonna finish that sentence?"

Eddie whips around, eyes widening when he sees Buck standing there with a six-pack. He's looking at Eddie with such an endearing, soft look, gently placing the beer down on the table. He almost looks sad - Eddie knows that he's heard everything he's said to Chris without having to ask. He can see it in his eyes.

"You're early," Eddie says stupidly.

Buck laughs a little. "Well, I haven't been able to spend much time with you lately, seeing as you've been with Tommy so much."

"Buck, come on," Eddie laughs, turning back around. His hands shake a little as he goes back to chopping something, he has to take extra care to not cut off a finger. "He's just a friend. It's no big deal."

"Eddie,"

Eddie sighs and turns, backing up against the counter when he sees how close Buck is to him.

He's not an idiot - he isn't blind to how Buck has been acting lately. But now, with his own feelings at the forefront of his mind, and Buck standing so close to him, he is afraid.

What are you afraid of, Eddie?

Eddie's eyes glance down at Buck's lips for a quick moment, before they meet his eyes again.

"I'm going to say something to you," Buck says, his eyes soft, vulnerable. Asking Eddie to do the same for him. "I've been...kinda trying to get your attention for the last couple of days."

Eddie grins, "You're about as subtle as a car crash, Buck."

"With Maddie's help though," he continues with a smile, spurred on by Eddie's sarcasm. "I realized why. And it's about a whole lot more than feeling like you'd replace me."

"Buck, I'd never--you're..." Eddie puts a hand where it always goes, right by Buck's neck, feeling his pulse. He does that often, to remind himself that Buck is here, in front of him, alive. Because once, for three minutes and seventeen seconds, he wasn't.

Buck smiles sadly, putting a hand over Eddie's. "If you can't finish the sentence, Eddie, then I don't think--"

"You're everything," he whispers. "Everything Buck." And then he moves forward and kisses him.

As far as kisses go, it's the best one that Eddie Diaz has ever had. It's gentle, the kitchen bathed in soft light, Buck's hand still over Eddie's. Eddie swears that he feels Buck's pulse skip a beat.

Buck's lips are so pleasantly soft against his as they move, and Eddie feels himself release a shaky breath into the kiss, not quite being able to believe that this is even happening.

He pulls away, looking at Buck from under his lashes.

Buck smiles, tugging Eddie in for a hug, and Eddie hugs him back tightly.

"Sorry it took me so long." Eddie whispers.

"It's okay," Buck whispers back. "We're here now."

[livinginsunnyhell]

I’ve recently lost a close friend due to not viewing Israelis as all bad people. It was unexpected and totally random, especially because I didn’t share my true views on Israel, I just said I don’t believe Israelis should be getting hate. And that was enough to throw away 5 years of friendship. Can you say something to make me laugh or might make me feel better? I’ve been feeling numb since this happened.

oh easy, u didnt actually lose a friend, because friends dont dump u over some lukewarm opinion on a conflict that doesnt even remotely personally affect them. what u lost is a placeholder NPC <3

[livinginsunnyhell]

I hate when people imply that you can't love others before you love yourself, when actually most of us learn how to love ourselves through being loved by others. Which means that if you haven't been loved properly by others, the solution to that trauma usually isn't to try to fix yourself in isolation

[livinginsunnyhell]

That's who he is, and I love him either way. And there's no competition for Eddie.

Watching Buck trying to compare himself to so many people rather than just seeing how special he is. And that's a lot of the messages that Eddie's been giving Buck. "He's like, 'No, man. You are an incredible individual. You're worth all the love in the world. And you need to stop doing certain things. And I'm not going to tell you how to do what you got to do for your life, but allow yourself to be great." - Ryan Guzman

[livinginsunnyhell]

I have been waiting all year to post this.

[livinginsunnyhell]

the best and most excruciating ending for season 7 would be going full circle with Eddie unconscious in the hospital due to a very close call, with all the trauma of nearly losing Eddie in the season 4 shooting resurfacing for Buck. maybe there would be a scene where Buck isn't allowed to go visit Eddie while in ICU since he isn't legally family, really nailing into him that's what he wants to be for Eddie, even more than already being tied to Christopher. because Eddie is his person.

once out of the worst of it, Buck is alone with Eddie in a hospital room, Eddie still not conscious but improving. Buck is sitting by the bed holding his hand, while no longer on the edge of death, Buck is still really upset.

finally Buck releases, "I can't keep doing this. not just seeing you like this but not being able to be there every step of the way, because-"

he chokes on his word and pauses.

"there is something I want to tell to you. something that I've probably wanted to say for a while now, and I promise to tell you again when you wake up. but I need to say it once while I know you're breathing because I'll hate myself forever if I don't."

Buck stands up and leans over Eddie. he goes in close, lips hovering over Eddie's forehead, "I'm in love with you Edmundo Diaz" in the softest, most vulnerable volume possible before pressing a soft kiss on his temple, "and even if you don't love me back in the same way, I needed to say it."

there's no response. Buck knew there wouldn't be but he wanted one so bad, somewhat hoping for a fairytale moment. he pulls away but keeps talking to like they were having a conversation, "I need to go to the cafeteria for a drink, I'll be right back."

as his hand is slipping away, suddenly there is a squeeze back.

Buck nearly jumps out of his skin, on top of wondering if Eddie heard him just now. he is still too exhausted to open his eyes, but then Eddie sighs, "I love you too Evan Buckley". Buck is pale, looking terrified, and then the lightest smile.

and then BAM the scene cuts and the credits begin.

imagine the chaos of confirmation at the very last moment. the fan reaction. the interviews. everything, but also that being all we get story wise for some period of time. would be the best and worst thing to ever happen to me. I doubt it will go that way but it would really signify "we are picking up where the story should have gone in season 4" which i think would be beautiful.

[livinginsunnyhell]

Buck and his “I’m in love with my best friend” smile throughout season 5

BONUS:

[livinginsunnyhell]

HEATHERS (1988) dir. Michael Lehmann

[livinginsunnyhell]

“old habits die screaming” except its remus and every time he smokes he thinks of sirius and he wants to quit cause it’s killing him but it feels like he’s quitting the last piece of sirius that he has and death would feel better than having to live without him but sirius wanted him to live a long and fulfilling life

[livinginsunnyhell]

mickey just moving in with ian one day is so fucking funny because officially 2 people in the house (out of 5) know that ian is gay and only one of them knows that he had had a situationship with mickey so to the rest of them ian just randomly brought home this dude that tried to kill him once and then became his coworker

[livinginsunnyhell]

[livinginsunnyhell]

the buckley-diaz family 🫶

[livinginsunnyhell]

GILMORE GIRLS | 3.19 "Keg! Max!"