lizwyn

[lizwyn]

Alpas

a filipino word means to be free.

In every tomorrow we spent, we always tend to think about our future. Being afraid of not reaching our goals or not meeting our success. As our age increases we tend to realize alot of things in better way. Past decisions that we tend to think too much up until now and questioning ourselves by our actions. As we continue on our journey, we summarize that all yesterday's action must be forever yesterday.

The first way to form yourself as adolescence is acceptance. Problems come and go, but enable to help your self grow, you need to accept every single flaw that you made for it is the only way to move forward without the heaviness feeling. Accepting the fact that not all time you will win in every battle because losing is part of our life and it help us realize and learn. Accepting that sometimes you commit mistake and it perfectly normal. And accepting words from others for it will help you grow as an individual.

As we form ourselves in becoming adolescence, controlling emotions and attitude is one of the steps. We tend to make rational decision or impulsive decision just because of our emotions. Those decisions lead us to result that we never wanted. It will only make us suffer and repent. We are getting older, so we must learn to respect not only ourselves but also other person. Always choose to understand for it will help you continue your journey peacefully.

When we grow up, realizations hit us hard and we must learn to move forward. We may run to an obstacle and problems but be sure to not stop and to continue looking forward. Looking at our past is like drowning our own selves. Our past will never explain our future for we also experience making impulsive decision that we truely regret. Always choose to move forward and never discourage yourself because we deserve every good thing that we received.

Then, always know your priorities. Always use your time intelligently, so you will not regret on the actions that you decide. Prioritize those events that will affect your future or will give big impact in your current situation. Make decisions by the rank list of your priorities for it will help you to make good decision. Having fun will be always part of our journey and there is nothing wrong with that but be sure to finish first your priorities to avoid thinking too much on a certain obstacle or work.

Learn to be independent because not all the time there will be someone to look for you. Help yourself to stand up at your own and continue your journey with your own pace. Being independent does not mean you cannot ask help from others, but you should learn to not depend on them, for we all experience facingt different problems. Independence also opens the way of having freedom on what we want to do, it will also help you to trust yourself along the journey. It will also let you realize and learn you a lesson in every step that you made. Independence is the big step to form yourself as an effective adolescence.

Being adolescence is a very long journey and full of obstacles that you may face. Being independent does not mean you will not seek advice or ask help from your parents or family. At the stage of adolescence, we will seek again for the advices or help from our family. In terms of making decisions like choosing degree in college or even about your work, those events that will be your starting point in stepping a new path of your life. Apart from ourselves, it is our family that knows what is the best for us. And, they also experience some of the event that we may face. They already know what is the best solution to make to those events. Following some of their advice will help you to choose a better decision to make.

And lastly, always make your goal be the center of your mind. Never get lost in the journey without thinking what you want to achieve. Our goals and dreams will keep us in pace to continue and to strive harder. Other than making our family proud, one of our inspiration to continue is the goal we want achieve, the success that we want to step on. The bigger the dream, the harder you push yourself to achieve those goals. Because in your long run of hundreds of trials, the end will be the best part for you probably step on the success that you want for a long time.

[lizwyn]

--Compañero--

A spanish word means comrade or associate

As we grow up and develop as an individual, we encounter not just a different obstacle, but we also meet people who will make a change and help you grow as an individual. Those people who we treasure and some of those are just temporary, and an open obstacle for us. They are not deserve to be with us in our long journey, for they are only mistake that we chose to love in the past. By those people, we learn a lesson and we also learn to forgive. But do not be discourage to open the door for others, who wants to be with you. For there is always a place for growth. Those poeple who have pure and lovely intentions, are like angel sent from above. And those people are our significant others.

One of our significant other is our parents, they are the one who mold and develop us as a person. They contribute a big part of our development and they guide us to the right path. They let us realize our own mistake for us to grow as an individual. They only want the best for us. My father died at my early age, growing without father is surely hard. But my mother never fails us to amaze. She may always at work but, she never forgets her responsibility as a mother, she always checks upon us, teach us for the things that we need to learn and give some advices in what we are experiencing as a growing teen. We never experience hunger and difficulties in our home. My mother is really special person whom I can always rely into. She helps me to become who I am today and she never fails to encourage us to explore new things, because those experiences can also mold us to be a better person. I cannot imagine myself on what I have become today if I don't have the guidance of my mother.

And also, one of relevant other is our siblings, who are the first people who we can rely on. They are our first friends and rivals for we live in the same roof. As for my stage, I am the only girl in the siblings. I have an older brother and a younger brother whom I can rely whenever I am in trouble. When i reach in my teen stage, my oldest brother help me more to understand the run of our society. He never fails to advise me in terms of a growing student, that i must not be discouraged by just failing some event in my life. He also helps me to gain the confidence that I loss when I fail my entrace exam in a certain university, he did not fail to always remember me that I shine differently and I can do all my dreams for i have the potentials in me. Those advices that help me to stand and continue my journey. Then my younger brother who always supports me to have the confident to show the beauty in me, that I must not be scared to face those circumstance for i can surpass because i have my own empowerment. Sometimes, we may argue for some problems but at the end of the day we know that we got the back of each other.

The teachers are our second mother, whom we live at school. I cannot forget my grade 10 adviser who encourage me to be a better me. Because of my grade 10 adviser, I develop some talents that i never expect that i possess. She let me trust her in developing those talents, for she knows that i have the potential to do those kind of things. Also, she always gives me advices on how to cope up those obtacles that i may face in my senior high school journey. She help me molds myself as a better individual. She never fails to advise that i can surpass those problems by having wise solutions. And whenever i have personal problem, she also encourages me to talk it over and i must not be wavered by those circumstance for I am a strong person. Ma'am Ailyn, help me explore the world of a student, she develops me to be this kind of student-leader.

I have bunch of friends who help me in different kind of problems that I face in my journey. I have this friend that I cannot forget in my whole life, because legitimately I am not productive and active student as I am today because of her. Gwen will be forever part of my student journey, she is the one who encourage me that I can be a honor student through hard work and full of diligence. She helps me through my difficulties in school and helps me to adjust by guiding me to a right path. She has given a big impact in my life, if not for her, I must say I am still one of those student who does not care to work harder for better future. Gwen let me see the true meaning of world if I will not take seriously my studies. And also Enrico, whom I can rely on not just in school works but also in my personal problems. Rico let me feel that I deserve to be love and care. He keeps me safe in my long journey; he is always there to check upon me. He molds me to think positively and never give up easily. My friends never fail to amaze and lecture me some lesson that I can face in the future.

The journey with my friends does not end there. I have three different squads whom change me as a person differently. I am super happy for I choose those kind of friends whom I can rely on my personal problems, school works, my safety and especially we have bunch of happy memories. They help me to show the real me and help me let out the talents that I posses. They never fail to encourage me to continue and never face the past mistakes but instead make those mistakes as an inspiration to work harder on my future. I cannot see myself without these people; i cannot imagine if i can pass through those obstacles without their guidance.

We may run to some people who are only temporary in our life, but at least, they bring a lesson that we cannot forget. With those, we learn, and we learn to forgive, enable to continue with a peaceful journey. And to our significant other who will never get tired to help us develop as an individual until we can fly high with our own wings. And also, be open minded for our mistake for we also make wrong decision that we cannot avoid in our life. Always have a place for growth and development and never forget those people who help you achieve for the growth that you aim. We are all friends, but we still not met some of them.

[lizwyn]

--Padayon--

A cebuano word, which means to continue. >>>

There are numbers of embarrassing moment we experienced, those moments that you don’t want to remember anymore because it gives you so much pain whenever you thought about it. Some are those you want to cherish because you laugh it with your love ones. Those experience that you wanted to forget but irritatingly you would not forget those because those memories will also serve as your guide to be not blind in the present. Those moments that you cry because you know you can do much better than that but it end up with humiliating yourself in front of others. And those moments you cherish the most because in those moments even you fall, the smile of the people that surrounds you makes you stand.

Back then when I was a little kid, I used to visit my grandmother, the mother of my father. They just live in the same barangay of ours so, we can visit anytime we want. I already made friends there because I often go there in weekends. While I was having fun with my friends, suddenly, I feel that my stomach aches really hard and i want to reduce constipation but i also dont want to go to the comfort room because i am not comfortable to use their comfort room for it is different from ours. So I was suppressing to reduce, so mainly, the dirt that I subdue suddenly smell. My dad and grandma was not around that time, so I was force to run away and do my stuff alone, crying at the scary comfort room and force to clean my own dirt. Thinking about it now makes me laugh, which I wont let happen to my nephews. Its so embarrassing yet, it is so gruesome to think.

Alson one of the embarrassing moments that I experienced is when I was hit by a ball in the face. I was so shocked to recover immediately and there are so many people that was looking at me and my body just won’t respond quickly. It was mixed emotion feeling. I wanted to cry not because I was hurt by the ball but because the people that surrounds still looking at me, some are suppressing their laughter, some looks so sorry and etc. After a moment of silence, I run fast as I could and after that I did not go out in the house for how many days just to comfort my self for experiencing that horrible moment.

Next one is, when I’m happily walking with my friends in the pioneer avenue then my other feet was slipped into the ditch, and knowing in the pioneer avenue numbers of people were there. And my friends didn’t help me immediately, they just watched me and after they burst out into a laugh. In that moment I just want to teleport immediately and but before teleporting I want kill my friends first for laughing first before helping me. I was so embarrassed that I was quiet after that long laughter. My mind did not function quickly, and I just want to shout my humiliation in front of everybody. But nevertheless, I enjoy seeing my friends’ smiles even though they are laughing about me.

The most common embarrassing moment we experience is when you saw someone you know in a certain place and then you smile brightly and even wave your hand to say hi but they just ignore you. You would not feel just embarrassed, but you feel so belittle in the eyes of others. That is why I learned about it, and after that I never greeted someone in public first, unless they say hi and smile at me first. Then now, most of the person I know told me that I'm such a snob person when they saw men in public. That i do not approach even though i saw them. But little do they know, i have past experience about that common momnet, that's why, I carefully read that person face, in order to know if it is okay to approach them first in public place.

Those embarrassing moment may lead us to question ourselves why we are so clumsy. But honestly, when you think about, even you yourself laugh about it. Those moments that we will reminisce, and surely you will laugh about it. Those moments that you trip out of nowhere just because of yourself. You burn your tongue when you eat a hot kwek kwek then after, you look around with a teary eye to check if any one saw that. Those little moments, that will surely cover up the anxiety you are feeling every day. Instead of overthinking about past decisions that di not succeed, it better to think those embarrassing moments that you yourself only seen. That your personality, even trips, you always stand up to face those people who just laugh and did not believe in you. Do not look back anymore to regret, but instead look back for inspiration to continue and strive harder for your future.

[lizwyn]

--krasivaya--

a russian word means bravery and beautiful.

After a moment of breakdown, here I am facing a mirror and thinking who I really am. I’m still in the middle of my expedition and still exploring different things. It’s really a long roller coaster ride and still I’m in the middle of the long run. I, myself have not fully discover myself, and still investigating my own development. It takes big step and lot of encouragement to grow, or is it just me who is still thinking about all this stuff? I mean are students who is at my age, still think about this stuff? Are they also having hard time on choosing in which path should they take?

Let me just start to introduce myself formally to expound the elaboration of my personal detail. I’m an ambivert Lizziewin Otero, still exploring to the world of reality. A 17 years old girl who doesn't know how to manage time clearly. I have different personality whenever I face different type of person. I am optimistic and carefree sometimes, but I can also be type of person with the same personality of a mother: who really take care of the others, give advices, and getting angry with them whenever they chose some actions that can hurt themselves As for my physical appearance that honestly I don't have enough confidence to call myself a beautiful one, I am petite type of girl who has shoulder length hair, morena type of skin with a poker face every time dealing with new people. Most of the time, people dislike me for I am so impatient and I’m so straightforward to those people who engage the personality I dislike. And honestly, I'm such a moody person that we can be friends for an hour and after, I do not show anymore my interest befriending with you. I myself also, do not like my attitude personally for I always hurt other people unintentionally by having hard time to control my verbal expression. I’m still working on how control and manage this emotions and attitude, to be more considerate for others. But also, by this trait, I can easily let go of toxic people in my life that add up the burden of my problems and definitely I don't need those kind of people.

I do balance my academics, I'm not thatgenius type and I'm not also the type of person who does not care about their academic performance, I’m a grade conscious student who have standards on aiming at my grades. I always work hard not just to reach my standard but also to transcend my capability. If I can manage to be one of the honors in the classes then I will do so, but I’m not the type of person who push myself to the edge to myself to become one. All of us has different time to shine, maybe not now but someday. And I still have more to feed up on my mental system to learn and master more knowledge. Addition, I can also do sports but I'm not the type of person who makes it as their part of life ritual, I play for fun and for reducing stress. I can play basketball, badminton, volleyball and swimming. But I'm not that good to compete with others. In the past years, I can say that I'm socially active but when I reach the age of 16 I lost interest on those. In my 17 years of existence in a family who are very good at singing and painting: I only learn in my todays' age that I can draw, that it only take alot of time to develop a skill or talent. Even though I'm still not that good, the important thing is I'm learning and always ready to accept criticization in my subject because it may help you grow and learn as an artist. In every stage of life, I correct all my wrong doings and proceeding to change it, with a better purpose that will able to help me in my entire career.

Furthermore, I love watching movies and series. And I’m not that type of person who listen to music but music do help me to forget the cruel reality, it gives me chill and bring me to another dimension that is more peaceful. I also love to travel, to experience different kind of things that will probably help me to know myself better. Seldom, whenever I’m fed up with my emotion, I express it by writing some poems. I’m still expanding and finding out my overview in life.

And my biggest advantage among others, I have friends who can understand my attitude. The one who is my support system whenever I have problems that I’m not comfortable enough to share with my family. Who are always available throughout my long journey and whom I can get along with. Those people who give effort and making me smile and happy throughout the difficulties and problem in the long way. I’m so blessed to have them in my life, I may have not so good personality but they care for me and treasure me. And especially to my family, I’m beyond blessed to my mother who always support me, not only financially but also emotional support. I could not imagine myself living nor breathing without my mother. After my father had died, my mom was the all-around father and mother who do not forget to always check upon on our needs. The Almighty God do really have reason on everything. I’m such a daddy's girl, and at the age of eight, I lost my all-time favorite person. And up until now, my inside demon still mourn of my father's death. And I’m sure in my long journey, those demons will never leave for I always treasure my father and honestly, talking about my father is my weakness

I may have different kind of traits and personality. But, one is I am sure of, I am a softie person, I may be brave outside but I'm really a crying baby. And my friends really know, I'm such a clingy person. I do still love to kiss the cheeks and hug the people I'm really comfortable with, like: My cousin, friends, and family. In this stage of age, other may feel awkward but I'm really different because those are my favorite part to do whenever i see them. I am still learning how to control my emotions and how to handle problems without easily giving up things. And I tend to overthink about my past decisions which is not good, I'm still in the run on how to ignore those ideas. I am not me right now because of those decisions. I wouldn't grow as this particular person right now if I did not pass through those trash decisions I made. I also have anxiety which I'm not proud of. But I know to myself that I can make a progress in this journey because I have myself. And I’m sure that the future Lizziewin will make everyone shock to the result of the progress that I made by that time.