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I don't think I love you anymore

That gold mine changed you

You don't have to hold me anymore

Our cave's collapsing

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"You need to move around and loosen up"

Right, right, sorry my bad. Can you tell that to my cells? If I shake em up they'll stop attacking themselves? Because an autoimmune disease can be cured by moving around?

I'll tell my bloodwork to stop lying.

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Depressed? Go outside!

Vitamin D and B12 deficient? Go outside!

Inflammation markers doubled in a month?

GO 😬🥴 OUTSIDE 😬🥴😬🥴😬😬🥴🥴

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I can't control my emotions and I don't know how to use my words

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Hydroxychloroquine

Methotrexate

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Did I buy the wrong crystals? I ended up in the hospital.

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April

Pains begin

May

Zoloft follow up with Dr. Selassie moved forward because of joint pain. Was taken off 150mg zoloft cold turkey.

June

Urgent care - joint pain, low fevers. Blood test for lyme, negative. Other blood panels flagged for autoimmune issues.

Selassie - follow up urgent care, see a specialist

West chester hospital - headache, CT scan, went home

Selassie- headache, "sinus infection"

July

14th-16th hospital admittance

14th had new pcp appointment at lg health Parkesburg. Explained my joint pain systems and previous doctor visits. New pain in the side. Recommended to go to er.

Hesitation but later went to er. Side pain was actually blood clots. Another blood clot found in leg. Admitted to hospital. Put on Heperin drip to manage blood thickness thinness for clots.

Put on blood thinners and steroids for discharge.

18th-20th 2nd hospital admittance

High fevers, 104.8 Sunday morning. Went back to er. No new diagnosis, lots of blood work for rheumatology issues.

23rd

Follow up appointment with pcp. Horrible headaches. New medication given. Seems to help.

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Blood clots in your lungs is a great way to stop smoking

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It's almost 130am, I CANNOT SLEEP HERE.

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I can't be mad at him for not knowing,

I can be mad at him for not asking.

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When he said, "senioritis" "you don't move much" and then today, "maybe it's just stress"

I knew I was done

Who wants a partner that doesn't believe your pain.

Who wants a partner that didn't even care to see your blood work results.

I'm done.

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Constantly in pain. Whether mental or physical. Though no one believed my physical pain anyway. Let the inflammation go to my brain and take me out. Just fvcking end me already. I'm done.

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A lonely ghost desperate to give itself playmates

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Lasted down in bed around 430, while up around 7 wondering what day it was, woke up around 10 and here I am. Depression nap.

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Marina, Lana, grimes, aurora

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Do not engage in Facebook drama