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Hehehe, another month went by and I only just woke up to the spooky season… ooOOOooOOohhh!

I wonder if I'm starting to blend with other people here and there, perhaps yes… but how would I know now when we all know that we lose track of ourselves in the heat of the moment and we temporarily feel like one person?

Ah well… looks like the host found something new to cling on to, and I find that a win honestly… it's been a very long time since I've seen them get this excited over original characters (even if they're from Roblox of all places XD)

I think they have some sweet ideas… now if only they'll put them into reality so that it can be permanent! That would be the next step.

Perhaps it will help if I were to view them myself… the way their storage website works is if they get someone to make an account from their link, they get more space… sooooo… why not?

So anyway… I don't know when will be the next time I'm able to walk around but hopefully I'll get to see what Halloween is all about.

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how i draw bgs (featuring my ocs) ^_^

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Is this anything. was thinking about it while doodling and this happened. may as well post it ig

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*sigh*… pk;member new

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this reminds me of a certain person that lives with us… (his name is hyde)

"Endogenic systems don't exist!!!1!1!1!!!!" Oh yeah? What about Jekyll and Hyde???

(NOTE: i actually do not give a fuck about Endo discourse. Interact, don't interact, just don't cause a debate and we're good)

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sometimes i wonder if i'll ever be able to join a discord server… on one hand, i want to be a part of a server that the host is not a part of… but at the same time, i'm not quite as active enough to warrant trying to become a member of a server… let alone an active one.

i kinda just wanna feel what it's like to be a part of a community, but how long can i last as a person before i need to go back into the darkness and try to reform myself because i overexerted too hard?

i don't really wanna talk about it, but i can't get it out of my head that the way things have been going wouldn't let me do these things. i'm conflicted between being a separate island and converging with the chain of others in the ocean… man, loneliness is a screw over.

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Systember

We have aphantasia, and can't visualize our headspace/each other

We could've done a "group picture" like drawing, with each of our internal perceptions, but it didn't feel accurate to who/what WE are

We sense each other in vibes and concepts

If we were to have an ACTUAL group hug in headspace, this is what it'd "look" like

Just a collection of non-physical entities, wrapping around each other, offering warmth, safety, and love

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Hey, if you're going to fakeclaim endogenic systems, don't use their fucking tags.

Many traumagenics don't want endogenics in their tags, and I fully respect that. Just don't go into theirs. You're giving them the right to go into yours.

It's insanely simple.

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hhhhh god it's been a WHILE since i got back to actually feeling like myself

it's like i was in a tub full of water and only now could i grasp the surface and see the the clear sky, but the water is still turbulent and i'm still being tossed all over the place.

this feels exactly like dissociating super hard… dunno how dunno why but this is definitely happening.

*sigh* i'm going to take a look at things since my unprompted sleep, glad to be back for a bit though i like being here

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Man I wish so bad there wasn't this stupid divide in the plural community between pro endo and anti endo. This is so stupid, there is so much community right there and it's unaccessible because they put a Berlin wall in the middle of it.

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had a vivid dream where there was a "play as Kim" mod and I was super excited

after like 2 mins gameplay Harry just turned around looking scandalised and was like "Ohgod... It's me, Kim. *I'm* Grandpa Piss!"

he refused to elaborate even after I savescummed and exhausted all dialogue options

then a notification flashed like "THOUGHT GAINED: GRANDPA PISS" and I went to the thought cabinet screen. all it said was "What the fuck does he mean by that."

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you failed a skill check so bad that Kim has to take you aside to ask you what the fuck.

based on this tweet

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Sometimes I remember that "I'm so fucking normal right now" is a line from disco elysium. like that's such a sentence from a tumblr post to me but no. harry du bois said that. out loud. he would do numbers on here

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me when i recommend something to someone and they end up not liking it

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holy fuck that took a long time

i'm going to live happy now that i actually know how to set up a tumblr tag system in the start instead of the middle of nowhere

i don't draw myself with a tail usually but i'm really tired from doing all of that…

also found a palette i wanna use :0