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genya: *shows up to the fête wearing jewelry way too expensive for her servant salary and hoping david will come talk to her*

david: *wants to talk to genya but sees the expensive jewelry and thinks someone is courting her already*

genya: *internally cursing the queen for forcing her to wear the jewelry the king gifted her*

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My Genya is polyamorous. She’s able to love multiple people but she won’t allow herself to be in a concrete relationship just yet because she’s terrified of what might happen to the people she loves. This is why she tends to keep her crushes and lovers a secret for fear the king might hurt them.  

The king already harmed her first love and she doesn’t want this to happen to anyone else. She’s also convinced that she doesn’t know how to love properly because she can’t truly be honest with anyone and it eats away at her. Her first love, Roza (a servant girl), knew about what the king did because Genya told her and she’s the first and last person Genya ever told (beside The Darkling) and Roza mysteriously vanished that same night.

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Ceara Coveney as Elayne Trakand The Wheel of Time Season 2

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CEARA COVENEY as ELAYNE TRAKAND The Wheel of Time: Season Two (2023)

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genya: *shows up to the fête wearing jewelry way too expensive for her servant salary and hoping david will come talk to her*

david: *wants to talk to genya but sees the expensive jewelry and thinks someone is courting her already*

genya: *internally cursing the queen for forcing her to wear the jewelry the king gifted her*

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if genya had it her way, she wouldn’t be on her way back to the palace on a flying ship. but alina and friends had decided otherwise. though they hadn’t been as foolish as to leave her hands untied. alina had tried to talk some sense into her, as if she was but a lost lamb. but genya hadn’t been lost when she left with the darkling. she’d been freed. 

and she knew. she knew what sort of fate awaited her the second she’d set foot on those grounds again. alina, with all her heart and good intentions, had no authority over the crown. and genya was a criminal and a deserter. they wouldn’t hear the sun summoner out. and genya would never apologize for harming the king in any way. the old man had brought it upon himself everytime he’d touched her in a darkened room. 

❛ i believe in him. ❜ genya whispers as she hears someone walks in her cabin. ❛ the darkling. i believe he cares for grishas, so much so that he’s willing to throw one to the wolves if it can win him, win us, anything. and he won’t stop until we have a place to call home. i couldn’t care less for the crown’s pardon, alina. they can send me to my death, if they wish. i will never beg nor apologize for advocating for my rights. ❜ she turns her head only to find the captain @koroldemonov , with a tray of food, instead of the girl.  

she had to believe it. believe in him. because she couldn’t face a reality where her sacrifice, her suffering, had just been in the name of power. It had to be deeper than that. the lessons, the tea, the stories, the sweets. some of it has had to be genuine. at one point. and the name he’d told her when she was still a kid… was it even real? 

❛ this seems to be a lot of trouble just for the pay, captain. ❜ the tailor comments, tilting her head to the side as ambers stare back into those muddy green eyes. the faint seams of tailoring isn’t lost on her — she is an expert after all. and the calculated emphasis on the title just proves she isn’t buying into the guise.

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fuck the ship wars, genyalina supremacy 🤩

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-genya safin aesthetic-

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Genya & David 🧡

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" I've never bought into that "you just know" notion. Love is a tricky thing. Sometimes it feels like an undeniable force that hits between the eyes and doesn't let up. Other times, it's malleable, questionable, it's truth hidden in and amongst external obstacles and internal circumstances that've formed who you are and what you expect in the world, and how you can accept love. Oh... to say the least, it's complicated. And if the mind's abuzz with pressure and deadlines and "what if this and that", I imagine love's truth would be a near-impossible thing to feel. I wonder if, when all's quiet in your mind, you'll find your answer. "

— Anne With An E (2017-2019)

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@korolnichevoya requested some love in the form of a dash starter and gets to confront genya after he found her leaving his bro’s room last night hehe

❛ I do not sleep with your brother, we just—— talk. ❜

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we aren’t selfish

requested by anon

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#mood

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Genya Safin

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#𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐋𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐄. and in the dark, i can hear your heartbeat. I tried to find the sound , but then it stopped and I was in the darkness. So darkness I became.

“𝐈𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐦𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐚 𝐛𝐨𝐲 -𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧𝐭, 𝐛𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐨𝐨 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐩𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐫, 𝐛𝐮𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐝 𝐛𝐲 𝐞𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐭𝐲.”

“I will tell you a story, one I used to tell to a little boy with dark hair. A silent boy who rarely laughs, who listened more closely than I realized. A boy who had a name and not a title”

“With the last bit of his strength, he tore his arm free and lashed out blindly, furiously, with all his terror and rage, with all the hope that had been born and died this day. Let me make a mark on this world before I leave it.”

ind. private & selective aleksander morozova from leigh bardugo's grishaverse. mixed canon. heavily headcanon based. contained by sasha.

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My Genya is polyamorous. She’s able to love multiple people but she won’t allow herself to be in a concrete relationship because she’s terrified of what might happen to the people she loves. the king already harmed her first love, she doesn’t want this to happen to anyone else. She’s also convinced that she doesn’t know how to love properly. Because she can’t truly be honest with anyone and it eats away at her. Her first love, Roza, knew about what the king did because Genya told her and she’s the first and last person Genya ever told beside The Darkling.   

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korolnichevoya​: 

SHE’S HIDING something from him , he can tell . it’s the tightness in her eyes , a shift of her feet , her hands too still . he wonders what it is , but decides not to ask . not yet .

❝ okay . are there places she usually goes ? if she’s upset ? somewhere she can take time to herself ? ❞ he knows he does .

❛ Yes... ❜ Me. She comes to me when she’s upset. But this, she won’t tell either. ❛ The garden, that’s usually where she goes. That’s why I brought you here. ❜ But they are in it now and Roza is nowhere to be found. And yet, she’s still glancing around, picking at her nails, MIND SWIRLING WITH SCENARIOS THAT DO NOT END WELL. She barely looks Nikolai in the eyes. She can’t. If she does, she might BREAK. She can’t break. She has to be strong. Be a good little soldier and endure. Maybe Roza has made it out. Maybe Genya scared her so much that she ran away. Maybe she’s safe now, outside the palace’s walls. 

This is war. And betrayals and deserters happen. Why did she ever think Roza would stick around after hearing her confess that she was receiving gifts from the king? Genya would never forget the look in her eyes that evening… A mix of disgust and fear. But what the redhead didn’t know yet is that Roza hadn’t been disgusted by her friend and she hadn’t believed her to be the king’s mistress either, not willingly, and that, that very night, Roza had sought the king out and confronted him with his actions. No one would ever know what happened. Words would spread that Roza had been caught stealing from the king’s chamber AND HAD BEEN BANISHED FROM THE PALACE. But no one would attest seeing her leaving, apart from King Alexander’s most trusted guards who claimed to have escorted her out themselves. The same who’d turned a BLIND EYE to his late night visits in Genya’s room.