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⠀⠀THERE WAS A SHARP CRY — and the dagger dropped gleaming upon the sable carpet, upon which instantly afterwards, fell prostrate in death the prince prospero. [ . . . ] one by one dropped the revellers in the blood - bedewed halls of their revel, and died each in the despairing posture of his fall.

⠀⠀AND DARKNESS AND DECAY AND THE RED DEATH HELD ILLIMITABLE DOMINION OVER ALL. — #INHEROT. an independent , private & selective PROSPERO USHER of netflix's the fall of the house of usher , by COLE. general warnings for blood , gore & usfw topics apply.

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and what if i also wrote for prospero. what then.

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⠀can anyone tell me what the fuck was the point of madeline's wig-bangs. why the dramatic reveal. this honestly keeps me up at night

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affiliates? spare affiliates?

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success is everything. ... and in order to succeed, we just need a better... heart.

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RODERICK USHER : ’ i’m not here to be the savior you long for. ’ @inheritable

⠀FATHER, SAVIOR ; SON, SACRIFICE. maybe there's something to roderick's god complex after all. in the end, were they all not made, molded, in his name? even those tainted few with blood not fully aligned with the usher name were welcomed, housed and fed, though with open arms might be a bit of a stretch. and one by one, they changed, the family's collective rot taking hold and corrupting them from within.

⠀he's always been the outlier, he feels. the least obsessed with sucking up to daddy dearest for a few proud words or a figurative pat on the head. he doesn't care about having his work hung on the family's proverbial fridge, and he's not shy about saying it. ego aside, leo knows he's too valuable an asset for roderick or madeline to ever pull the plug or truly punish him. the punishment, he often thinks, was getting involved with this family to begin with.

⠀❛  awh, well, 'scuse me, then. must've misread the holier - than - thou act. ❜ disdain drips from his tongue like acid, dark eyes focused on the man before him. he wants to toss his hands in the air in frustration, yell, throw something. he wants to take one of these chairs and put it right through roderick's fancy glass table and leave him to clean up the mess. but he's not going to do any of these things, because he's too high, too subdued by the coke he'd snorted off the back of his hand on his way here. and even if he were to smash that table into a million tiny pieces, he knows roderick wouldn't lift a finger to pick it up. and that ruins the satisfaction.

⠀❛  look, i'm not asking to be saved or whatever; i just fancied a bit of goddamn advice. so forgive me for thinking that, for once, in either of our lives, you could just be a fucking father. ❜

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You have GQ, USA Today, and PC Gamer tomorrow.

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⠀god i'm just.. so enamored with leo. he's arguably the most.. human? of the family? imo, at least. like no he's not a standup guy; he charms and bribes his way into anything, uses his social media infamy to get what he wants, but out of everyone in the family, he's the most visibly upset / emotional over each death, even refusing to be their spokesperson after camille dies because he doesn't think the statement is genuine enough

⠀also that pep talk he gives prospero before the party? that's some brotherly shit right there. building him up when all the siblings usually do is tear each other down. and god as much as he fucking hates freddie he realizes he's grieving too and helps him out with no strings attached. and so many of the other family members are incapable of recognizing just how kind-hearted he can be

⠀which is another reason he's become so reliant on alcohol and drugs; they keep him numb. not just to these losses in the family, but to the family itself. he's known for a long, long time that he's the only one with a dash of empathy in his bones, and it's probably come across as weakness countless times over the years, particularly with roderick and madeline

⠀so he plays their games and keeps his emotions under wraps because he'd rather coast through life knowing about their underhanded shit but unable to care. he's come to enjoy his life of luxury, and openly flaunts it on the regular, but there's still that pesky heart of his that can't help but be reminded of all the lives that get ruined to maintain his

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⠀⠀YET , MAD I AM NOT — AND VERY SURELY DO I NOT DREAM. NAPOLEON "LEO" USHER , of netflix's the fall of the house of usher , with headcanon influences. by COLE. private & highly selective. mature themes ahead.

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Sorry I can’t hangout tonight I’m due to descend into madness

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𝐒𝐋𝐄𝐄𝐏 𝐓𝐎𝐊𝐄𝐍 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒. ↪  feel free to change wording, pronouns, etc. as necessary.

’ i’m not here to be the savior you long for. ’ ’ show me where the delicate stops. ’ ’ show me what you’ve lost. ’ ’ how much did they hurt you? ’ ’ you will never be the same. ’ ’ i’m whole again, for just a moment. ’ ’ say my name again. ’ ’ your name is a sin i breathe like oxygen. ’ ’ you don’t really love; you just hate to be alone. ’ ’ i know for the last time, you will not be mine. ’ ’ so take a bite of me, just once. ’ ’ my arms belong around you. ’ ’ forget that you know me. ’ ’ i miss the man i was. ’ ’ don’t you feel alive? ’ ’ you know i’ll be yours; i just want to be worth it. ’ ’ you want to watch me bleed? ’ ’ i’m still your favorite regret. ’ ’ i want to be forgiven. ’ ’ anything to get me to sleep. ’ ’ wash away the blood on my hands. ’ ’ take from me, leave nothing left. ’ ’ you will be mine. ’ ’ did you not say we were made for each other? ’ ’ i fall into your eyes like a grave. ’ ’ your heart is locked up and i still get the combination wrong. ’ ’ i am yours in the end. ’ ’ i feel like i’m losing touch with what i am again. ’ ’ it’s too late for me now. ’ ’ i won’t let you fall. ’ ’ i’ve been left no choice.  don’t you see that? ’ ’ i can’t hold myself together. ’ ’ i’d give anything to borrow your indifference. ’ ’ you’ve got me in a chokehold. ’ ’ it’s all the same to me. ’ ’ it makes no difference. ’ ’ you’ve got my body, flesh and bone. ’ ’ did i mistake you for a sign from god? ’ ’ you were more than just somebody i was destined to meet. ’ ’ you gave me nothing whatsoever but a reason to leave. ’ ’ you say you want mе, but you know i’m not what you need. ’ ’ if you had a problem, then you should’ve told me. ’ ’ you have become the voice in my head. ’ ’ i wanna have you to myself for once. ’ ’ you take what you want and leave. ’ ’ who made you like this? ’ ’ tell me you met me in past lives. ’ ’ you make me wish i could disappear. ’ ’ i want to help you, but i don’t know how. ’ ’ i cannot fix your wounds this time. ’ ’ no matter what i do, this scar will never fade. ’ ’ do you wish that you loved me? ’ ’ my reflection just won’t smile back at me. ’ ’ i would turn into a stranger in an instant if i could. ’ ’ there’s something eating me alive; i don’t know what it is. ’ ’ i’ve tried so hard to fix it all, but nothing seems to help. ’ ’ i cannot hope to give you what i cannot give myself. ’ ’ i need you to see me for what i have become. ’

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ㅤNAPOLEON "LEO" USHER , of netflix's the fall of the house of usher , by COLE. primarily canon - based , with headcanon influences. will include heavy themes such as (but not limited to) alcoholism , drug abuse , depression , unhealthy coping mechanisms , self - destructive behaviors & hallucinogenic paranoia. A STUDY IN : social media infamy , the bastardization of a bastard , the dangerous art of staying numb at any cost , & the staggering hp drop after taking fall damage.

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