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i haven’t really got much going so, like this if you wanna plot and we haven’t already! i also posted an open if anyone wants to jump into interactions as well which would be awesome as well! ♡

[lorehua]

i haven’t really got much going so, like this if you wanna plot and we haven’t already! i also posted an open if anyone wants to jump into interactions as well which would be awesome as well! ♡

[lorehua]

                ALONE  and  LONELY                 are not the same thing.

                                  — but sometimes,                                   I get CONFUSED                                   about which I am.

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coffeesbrb​:

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this wouldn’t be such a hussle every day if he just would give up on them, at least those he must take off for work every day. there’s a reason why his hair usually remains long enough to cover the tip of his ears. it helps to have his helix covered by the dark strains. one day, he will be able to walk into the office without having to worry about it. tho, none of this matters right now and he’s much more amazed by the other’s casual reaction. there’s a little uncertainty but not too much to discover – the moment the guy walked out hwan had been certain he wouldn’t react that way. fair enough, he can’t always guess personalities right.

“ is that an offer to exchange our names? “ he asks and finding himself smiling. ( to his own surprise due it being an actual earnest one. he adopted the polite smile all koreans kept wearing on their lips ages ago ) his own cigarette burnt down at this point, a little bit of a waste but hwan’s fine with that. giving the guy a more proper gaze, he can see that he’s a foreigner, at least in appearance. 

it peaks his interest mostly due to most of his closer friends being from different backgrounds themselves. even he spent half of his life in south korea at this point, in his heart he still also feels european. “ i’m hwan si-woo, i live in complex three. i just returned recently here tho. “ 

now they aren’t strangers anymore. it’s been a while since he did what he’s going for next. “ i didn’t have dinner yet.want to go and grab something together? we can talk about the pains of living with piercings. most people don’t understand the hassle of why losing a piercing ball in the shopping mall is close to the end of the world.  “

lore couldn’t say this was the kind of social interaction he was used to. more often he found himself darting out of conversations and well.. away from strangers as a whole, as soon as he could. even with this time, he could probably blame it on feeling a little more relaxed than he normally did, but he still blinked a little, eyes widening slightly at the offer. he was too used to people not caring enough to speak to him further anyway. 

“um-- oh.. sure?” the smaller smile on his face was sheepish at best, still hesitant as well as the way he spoke. but he at least knew how to be polite, even if this conversation was already taking a turn he wasn’t entirely expecting. “s’nice to meet you. ah-- three? i live in four.. if.. that was probably obvious,” his words trailed off a little into a mumble as he realised what he was saying given he’d just walked out the fourth complex. “m’lore. lore huang. only moved in a couple months ago though.”

the next question definitely through the male often for a moment though, fingers still fiddling with the lighter a little as let it sink in. honestly, it was the kind of question, suggestion.. offer or whatever, that lore would usually turn down. his fear and difficulty in social interaction and the fact he often turned quieter than loud like others were.. usually drove him away from accepting things like this. especially from strangers. but they weren’t strangers anymore. lore had promised his siblings that he’d do his best to try and actually make friends or just-- well be a person. he had to try, right?

“i-- if you’re sure then.. yea, i-- that sounds good. haven’t eaten either.“ his reply qas quieter, a little more mumbled again as he rubbed at the back of his neck a little. “people think it’s easy.. but probably ain’t ever swallowed their tongue bar multiple times before either. or gotten piercings trapped on stuff.. it’s a difficult life.“

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21:34. most people are at home to spend time with family or simply forcing their endless thoughts to stop, just for a little bit. life is always busy, doesn’t matter what time of the day but everyone has different goals and eays to survive. there are those who just want to make it through the days and then others who live from one weekend to the next. hwan isn’t certainw here exactly he fits in, he just knows he tries to appreciate the minute above the year. he has seen how quickly life can drive itself out, he rather wouldn’t have to waste his time wondering what could be when he has this very moment. tsk, what 27 year old spends his evening thinking like that? 

he finally finds the lighter in his pocket and inhales the taste of nicotine. nobody’s flawless, he doesn’t mind to confess his addiction for smoking and coffee. the door of the apartment building opens. right, he stopped in front of the fourth without finishing the steps to his own. it’s a face he didn’t see yet but then he had been gone for almost a year. the one familiarity he can see however, is the search for a lighter. if you are addicted yourself, you know what the annoyed clap of hands over pockets and coat means. 

“ you can have my lighter, if you want. i just got a new package earlier “ he doesn’t yell but speaks loudly enough to be heard. “ you are searching your lighter, don’t you? if i am wrong then just ignore me. i had ten hours of work and then spending an hour to find a store to replace my damn nose piercing. somehow i lost it when i took it off earlier. “ he rambles, it’s intended. people accept offerings easier whenever they feel like it’s not a big topic anymore. 

“ catch. “ hwan doesn’t wait but throws it over to the stranger. 

he’d just finished up a stream, letting himself wind down from it all and relax a little now that it was finally over. he loved doing them, sure, but there was also a level of tiredness and general worry that followed him after those times. but that was just him, and at least now he had the night to rest. in some ways lore knew he should consider himself lucky as well, to have a job that he can work a schedule out just for himself.. or not at all. he could work when he wanted, and the hours he wanted. he was lucky, but even then lore knew he’d never be able to do a normal job-- even that thought alone made irrational fear creep up his back uncomfortably. dealing with so many people face to face, or office work? no thank you.

when the calm finally hits enough though, lore finds himself heading outside, seeking a much needed smoke that he’d been neglecting while working. he could’ve stuck his head out the window or something, but it was easier to just head out-- which is also where comes in the problem of not having his lighter. his other jacket. he’d left the damned thing in his other jacket--

lore’s eyes shoot up a little at the voice though, surprised to find he was being spoken to and by a definitely unfamiliar voice. though, there were many of those given he was still relatively new, he supposed. “uh that’s--“ his voice cuts off instead while his hands dart out to catch the lighter with a little bit of ease. still clumsy though, but he rolls it around in his hands for a moment before glancing back over.

“you.. you didn’t have to do that? but thanks.. appreciate it.“ his smile was small, but he did his best to force it out as he shook his hair out of his eyes. “i get that though-- the piercing problem. um, lose mine a lot, but i got a big supply so uh.. well. if you ever lose it again, i can probably give you one?“ with as many as lore had lost, it wasn’t the biggest surprise he had enough spares, or retainer bars too.

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to say today had been exhausting was probably an understatement. for what reason? probably multiple, but the point of the matter was that lore was practically on the brink of exhaustion. yet at the same time he was sitting outside in the dead cold of winter ( in so definitely not the right kind of warm clothes ) with a coffee in hand. smart. but it was nicer at night, quieter. the people coming and going were just heading home after far too late shifts, or even the rare few heading out for the earliest of mornings. it was the perfect kind of quiet for lore to just try and relax and let the world pass by him. 

that being said, his eyes drifted to another about to walk over a patch of ice that he himself had had the ungraceful time of dealing with earlier, and it was enough to force his mouth to move, even if his words were on the quieter side, “you should watch out-- the ice. um.. you could fall?”

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heyhey! this is me, ya girl, introducing to you your local ( soft ) goth boi. awkward boi. shy boi. that is he, but he sweet.. just visually intimidating at first glance before you get to know him. so yea! this is lore ( or you can come up with a cute lil nickname, tho he flusters easily ), and he is a faceless twitch streamer / youtuber that pretends to be a video / social media editor to anyone that asks his job because he’s scared of being recognised ( doesn’t mean your muse can’t but lemme know! ). but yea, a few months ago he sort of shot up to fame from like a small following to a massive one so he kinda rags to riches rn!

either way, if you wanna plot then like this post!! and i’m gonna summarise below, but would be real cool if you checked out his stuff to!

( tw: abuse & mental health ) background | profile | pinterest | plots ( tbd )

basics: nianzu “lore” huang | 24 | faceless entity on the internet ( goes by ghost ) | gay as hell | goth / punk as hell | tatted and pierced up to hell | struggling through hell

was born to good parents but they died when he was 7 and lore was sent to live with his aunt and uncle whilst his older siblings went to his grandparents ( a very odd predicament they were all too young to really question much ) 

he was born in taiwan, his parents lived and were raised there but his aunt and uncle had moved to korea for business ( and his grandparents were already in the business of travelling back and forth for their kids ) so when he moved with his aunt and uncle he moved to korea, and his grandparents followed so they weren’t all split up too much

long story short ; aunt and uncle were pretty severely mentally and physically abusive to lore. extremely controlling to in anything he did, so it led to him not going to school as much, making friends really ( or many ) or seeing his siblings properly. he was neglected a lot and sort of learned how to do things for himself through that as well

he was 16 when his oldest sibling got him out of it and took him in instead ( he doesn’t remember much of what happened but his aunt and uncle were arrested ). the whole thing really did mess with him though

basically he dropped out of school then too and he went to therapy for a year or two but it got too expensive, but it helped at least a little but he was still left with difficulty in most things social ( like going out much or actually talking to people and making friends tbh )

when he was around twenty his siblings convinced him to start streaming since he did spend a lot of time messing about with games and shit. but they convinced him to because well.. just talking to them and his grandparents wasn’t enough social interaction apparently

so he did and he built up a small but nice little following and people enjoyed his content and just listening to his play or ramble sometimes. he was a lot more comfortable talking to a chat than.. people

that being said, he did become friends with other streamers eventually and does a lot of multiplayer things with them - which is honestly what led to his intense fame explosion honestly

he ended up being invited to stream with a few very very known names in the gaming community and it just shot him up. people liked him and within weeks he’d gone from the smallest number of followers to a couple million and rising

his friends made him make a youtube as well and he already knew how to edit videos from his previous online jobs, so it was easy for him. so really he went from nothing to everything

he went from being basically broke ( any of his money, which was like nothing, went to his siblings to help them out for letting him crash at theirs and do nothing tbh ) to having enough to give full amounts to them and actually take care of himself and his mental health tbh finally. he didn’t have to worry about finance for once

so with that tho boi still refuses to do a face reveal and just brushes over it when it’s asked bcos n o

but either way, the money problem was solved but his siblings didn’t really feel like the social situation was and sorta maybe pushed him into taking a room in the sharehouse bcos well it would be good for him and well here he is now. fucking terrified

personality:

gentle. gentle boi

lore is a very soft muse despite how he can come off ( which by that i mean he comes off as distant, maybe a little aloof and intimidating - this based on the fact he is very much a gothic / punk kid covered in tattoos and piercings who isn’t really use to social interaction or the best at it )

so he’s real soft though, and just really sweet. like he has a very pure heart.. his sense of humour is dark and he can be a piece of shit sometimes, but he has a very sweet soul. like he’s awkward as hell sometimes and tbh he’ll go from looking intimidating to fumbling horribly over trying to say hello to someone and then scoot off bcos fuckin words man

that being said he does have a lot of baggage and a lot to work through that he’s finally getting help for, so it’s another reason he can come off pretty closed off sometimes, especially because like.. his social limit when it hits zero just means he’ll either slink out quietly or curl up and watch everyone and listen instead of taking part in conversation

his anxiety has sort of ruled his life as well, it’s led to him finding social situations really difficult ( like if a conversation goes differently to how he thought it would he !!! panics a bit for a minute ), and he’s working through that now and the complex is sort of a trial for him on that too.. but he gets by

that being said, kinda stated it a little but he can be dark and he’s pretty pessimistic because he finds it hard to look on the bright side of things, so he’d rather joke about it. it’s just hard for him to see the good in somethings and not fear the future either

on stream / youtube he does come off more confident though and more comfortable. like he gets jittery when playing with new people or big groups, but it’s a lot easier for him and he has fun with them. like his streams usually last a long time so it’s just such a change from how he can come off in real life ( which frustrated him a little because he wishes he could be that comfortable all the time )

extras:

he keeps his room pretty much locked all the time bcos well privacy and his streaming and stuff he kinda keeps the set up completely hidden when he can but he has excuses if he needs them

boi got bad insomnia which he combats poorly already but either way just expect to see him slink into the kitchen at like 2am to make coffee then disappear again ( which tbh if he’s streaming he might honestly leave with coffee and an energy drink because he’s a mess ). but like early morning he can nearly always be found in the kitchen at some point bcos well quiet time - which through that, you probably won’t see him again until the afternoon tbh.. maybe

he does spend days without really coming from his room

uh if you want a stoner buddy… have him

he has social and generalised anxiety, depression and severe insecurities ( it’s why he’s pretty scared of being recognised and scared of a face reveal. he struggles to see anything good about himself, be that physical or like in general )

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