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Tumblr isn't even a website to me it's like if my diary was a groupchat

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god I dont wanna fuckin go on dates or try to sell myself or expose myself to an unending list of potential heartbreaks i just wanna skip to the part where someone is holding me and i am cozy. fuck this bro

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Okay but like, I hate my arms

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Me acting around people that I like the taste of pure unsweetened green tea and It isn’t, in fact, making me wanna end myself

Update : I found the blessing of mint tea, im in love

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eating dis*rders never really leave you. they just stay dormant for awhile before surprising you unexpectedly with either the biggest binge or the wild idea to restrict again. it never truly stops.

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AJDHAIHDKDNANS GOT THIS FROM DISCORD

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me every second of every day: 

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Drinking a huge cup of green tea after a bad meal like

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My highest weight vs current/lowest weight

Honestly seeing this makes me feel really good. Like the time I've put into this hasn't been time wasted.

250 lbs vs 150.1 lbs

5'8

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F in the chat for my tiddies...........

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Honestly, I’m at my best when my ed is at it’s worst. My room is clean, I dress nice, I wash my face more, I whiten my teeth, I wear makeup, I do my hair. For some reason the only thing that pulls my out of my depression spiral is my ed and the only thing that pulls me out of my ed is my depression. Idk if anyone else feels like that? Idk I just always feel better when I’m losing weight and excersizing and not eating. Idk maybe it’s my body thinks I’m finally being healthy? But I’m not? So… idk, it’s just really weird.

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no offense but mental illness has robbed me of so much

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family member: what are you doing with your life?

me: it’s a surprise

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