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Saturn in the Birth Chart ~ Saturn in the 1st House: Can signify struggles with self-image/self concept, appearance consciousness begins with harsh severity in adolescence and sustains; the body can feel like a prison or costume they wear and as an extension of awareness a sense of self-hatred can endure , struggle to see their own ‘attractiveness’ despite what others say, difficulty feeling/seeing it in themselves 

Saturn in the 2nd House: Can imbed a ‘scarcity’ mindset that changing external circumstances do not alter-sometimes accompanies inherent feelings of worthlessness beginning in early adolescence when the cycle of self-deprivation while providing for others begins, child may also be inadvertently rewarded for being low emotional maintenance. Self worth can equate to sacrifice

Saturn in the 3rd House: May have experienced debilitating anxiety/ sometimes hyperventilation when called upon to answer a question or speak before an audience despite having the skills/knowledge, the nervous system sabotages natural expression, sometimes beneath years of bracing for disapproval, due to being overly corrected and criticised as a child 

Saturn in the 4th House: When ‘mature for your age’ is a misnomer for emotional paralysis and a constantly ‘braced for impact’ nervous system, can be very subject to the effects of hereditary psychological sicknesses mostly in terms of behaviours/conditions/ of family members  , what they thought of as themselves was more a collection of inherited psychic debris, absorbed reactions, and unconscious reenactments.

Saturn in the 5th House: Can be affected/modify their behaviours based on deeply entrenched sexual insecurities, truly the desire to just be ‘desired’/’wanted’, pleasure is earned and not deserved, an inner life and natural expression laced with tension, overthinking, shame, may feel their inadequacies in love or sex reflect their inadequacy in other areas

Saturn in the 6th House: Person may have experienced frequent/chronic/abnormal childhood illnesses which may have only enhanced the potential incessant anxiety they grew into; often develop a private, punishing relationship with their own body. Mental suffering is hidden, compartmentalised due to a deep fear that any emotional disclosure will compromise their image, or make others question their competence

Saturn in the 7th House: Can be subject to repeatedly rejecting secure, honest, and congenial relationships because they can feel unsafe in safe hands/like love has to be earned/inadequate in the connection; choosing uncertainty, avoidance, or at times outright cruelty instead. May feel like love has to be earned through sacrifice and suffering

Saturn in the 8th House: Usually very strategic about what they tell others/private life is cultivated often has kept certain feelings/thoughts secret since childhood, guards inner and outer resources due to early betrayal, often prepares to be stolen from/have something taken from them, Often carrying the pain of being abandoned, betrayed, or forced to let go of a person they trusted completely. 

Saturn in the 9th House: Can experience long, heavy periods of misfortune — especially during the developmental years, learn young that joy invites loss and to distrust promises made, can condition a subtle belief that pleasure and good things are just another set-up,  sometimes a deep existential need shape life’s suffering into a structured narrative that prevents drowning in the cruelty of the world 

Saturn in the 10th House: There can be suppressed emotional development due to premature instances of being confronted with adult issues/conditions as a child; functional before complete, can sometimes be expected to emulate the path of a family member they are nothing like or get programmed as a replacement for one or an unfulfilled destiny 

Saturn in the 11th House: Can be admired by many, but known by few—popularity often masks a persistent ache of alienation, gap between public/romantic partner’s affection and their ability to internalise and trust it, slow to let guards down; suspicious of sincerity in social dynamics, self-isolation resulting in rejecting the performative aspects of social interactions and bitterness toward superficial connections 

Saturn in the 12th House: This child may be the vault for things that were never theirs to carry, may have felt like they had to keep secrets for the family / or keep certain things about their parents/family secret from peers, can develop into lifelong patterns of self-erasure, fear of betraying others when they are emotional honest

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Birthday Sun in the 7th House - Dressed in Her Sunset Best

written by #astrolocherry

The individual with the Sun in the 7th House is here to learn and teach us about the laws of relating to other people in our world. This is a challenging position for the Sun, whose strong archetypal ego and sense of self becomes severely compromised in the House of Libra. The individual is likely to display more qualities associated with the Libra sign than the Sun sign at birth. It can make her particularly difficult for other people - and her own self to pin down and capture a clear image of who she is. The 7th House or the descendent is positioned on the western hemisphere of the horoscope where the sun sets. Aphrodite adorns her rose-coloured glasses here, and in the ideal scenario she is sailing into the sunset with the one that she loves. However, we are crossing the astrological threshold from day into night too, and therefore the 7th House is also the House of shadow work. And no other 7th House placement will experience this archetypal descent into darkness more than the Sun; because until she begins to understand Who She is Really Is, inside it’s like the lights are on, but nobody is home. 

Relationships are equally orienting and disorienting with the Sun in the 7th House. Cool chameleon charisma is part of her style.Duality is part of her dress-sense. Her identity is ultimately indefinable, and she must find a way of finding stability in her external and internal instabilities. It means that adolescence and young adulthood can be significantly challenging for the individual who is ultra-susceptible to feeling like she has no true identity, and therefore, being taken advantage of by negative outside influence. She does a lot of observing and imitating, so she may feel disingenuous or even invisible unless she is reflecting another person. Though with the inner work and the wisdom that accompanies 7th House difficulties, life and the inner space becomes more of a Venus oasis with age. She develops her natural born interpersonal intuition into a level of telepathic interpersonal mediumship. Her ability for diplomacy and discrimination become qualities to admire. Her tendency to imitate becomes emulation, and it rather stems from admiration and personal development, rather than desperation to belong. She is charming and disarming while never permitting herself to be falsely charmed and manipulated by evil ever again. 

The work that is undergone to attain the developed 7th House Sun occurs in the darkness and unseen by others. This is the House of projection. It sends her looking for an exit in a galactic hall of mirrors filled with reflections, perceptions, and projections. Relationships are inherently karmic in nature in the 7th House. She is here to pay karmic debts, and receive karmic payments within the realm of relationships. Upheaval, upset, and broken hearts are promises. Relationships are pivotal for self-development, and therefore become growth intensive and revealing. There are countless inflection points that occur during each relationship phase. Difficult encounters with partners are typically conflicts with part of herself. It can produce strange patterns in relationships, where desires and behaviours seem to change in cycles. Before she completes the developmentally appropriate lessons of self-development, she has trouble not taking things personally. The words and thoughts of other people have disproportionate effects; while she is often too afraid of saying what she truly thinks and feels. Invalidated inner child qualities are projected onto others in order to gain recognition. There can be unsubstantiated envy resulting from constant self-comparison, a debilitating sense of inadequacy, and at worse there’s worthlessness and severely lacking self-value. 

It’s this internal conditioning that leaves her vulnerable to suffer harsh injustices at the hands of others.

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[A white fortune cookie paper with blue text. Front: The best times of your life have not yet been lived. Lucky Numbers 41, 36, 22, 51, 39, 34 Back: August, Chinese text 八 (bā) 月 (yuè)]

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circa June, 1968 Anne Sexton: A Self-Portrait in Letters First published: 1977

[ID: Date — circa June 1968 Text — I am a witch, an enchantress of sorts and have already been worshipped and hung and in the same order. END ID]

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L’été à Paris. Summer in Paris.

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minnie bruce pratt, from sinister wisdom issue 122: How Can A Woman Who Is With A Trans Man Call Herself A Lesbian? spring 2024

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