lostintheseass

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Three years. I told you I loved you and you said nothing back. Three years. You finally say it back and I can’t say anything.

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You finally told me you loved me.

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I loved you so much.

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I hope I was your favorite crime.

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Being sad about adult things as an adult hits so different.

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Relapsed.

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I keep hearing people say “if he wanted to he would” and “if he treats someone else better he just never wanted you”. I think these quotes have some truth in them..

BUUUTT I think people are making these ideas too much about themeselves rather than focusing on the other persons reasons for not treating them right. Some people are traumatized, lazy, don’t have a good concept of love, or are horrible listeners.

By no means does this mean to use those as an excuse to stay.. you really shouldn’t if you aren’t going to accept those parts of them considering how many people don’t change THAT much. Although do remember that people usually tend to want to better themselves after failure (you leaving them).

So don’t be so hard on yourself and think he hated you the whole time or never loved you. Honestly, you’ll never truly know but what’s comforting is knowing it’s 99.9% not about you and ALL about them and their issues.

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If anyone wanted updates on that guy I was talking about below.. he randomly called me and apoligIzed for the way he treated me. I m learning to forgive and let go but it’s hard knowing I was his reason for getting sober and treating someone right and don’t get anything from it besides some pain and emotional trauma.

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Having anxiety and depression is horrible. You’re fighting two completely different demons

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So I’ve been depressed for 10+ years and have some great advice about coping and living with depression but now I have crippling anxiety and don’t know what to do, anybody have good anxiety tips?

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It’s crazy to think it started out with just an anxiety attack and now I can’t ever sleep or stop overthinking. I don’t even remember my life without feeling this anxious all the time

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Everytime you look at her you think of me.

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Poems & Words

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But, seriously, why does it hurt so much? Why is being in love so painful?

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Is it supposed to be a compliment that she looks like me?