lostkidzi

[lostkidzi]

Tahanan ba kamo?

Iba pala sa pakiramdam kapag may natatawag ka na tahanan, ano? Iba sa pakiramdam ang makausap siya, kahit walang kumibo sa aming dalawa sa tawag basta ramdam na’min ang presensya ng isa’t isa ito’y nakakawala ng pagod.

[lostkidzi]

Tahanan ba kamo?

Iba pala sa pakiramdam kapag may natatawag ka na tahanan, ano? Iba sa pakiramdam ang makausap siya, kahit walang kumibo sa aming dalawa sa tawag basta ramdam na’min ang presensya ng isa’t isa ito’y nakakawala ng pagod.

[lostkidzi]

Tahanan ba kamo?

[lostkidzi]

Si Sid hindi makatulog, Si Aya naman hindi pwedeng matulog.

Naghahanap ng makakausap si Sid, naghahanap naman ng pagkakakitaan si Aya. Ang trabaho ni Sid ay ang pasahurin si Aya sa paglilibang sa kanya at ang trabaho naman ni Aya ay ang libangin si Sid hanggang matapos ang tatlong oras. Si Aya ang ‘black swan’ ni Sid, ang isang bagay na hindi niya nakitang dumating ngunit nagpabago sa kanyang buhay sa mga paraang hindi niya naisip. Dahil kay Aya, tinulungan siya nitong malampasan ang mahabang gabi, mapangiti, at magkaroon ng dahilan para ayusin ang buhay. Isa lang naman ang gusto ni Aya, ang makapunta sa Japan para makasama ang kaniyang nanay. Matagal ng nakapag-desisyon si Aya na kapag siya ay naka-ipon, pupuntahan niya ang kanyang nanay sa Japan at dun na mag-trabaho. Ngunit, naging mahirap ang pagde-desisyon niya dahil nariyan si Sid. Wala naman ibang bagay na pwedeng bitawan si Aya, tanging si Sid lang. Madami siyang responsibilidad, hindi lang ang sarili niya kundi ang pamilya niya.

[lostkidzi]

A familiar song that never gets tired of making me look like I'm just a backburner.

I can’t lie, it feels nice that you’re calling

Is it my turn now? Did you call me because, as you know, with just one ring on your phone, I’ll answer it right away?

And for once, I don't care about what you want as long as we keep talking

we shared something special together, but it didn’t have a label.

More than friends, or almost lovers? Or maybe we’re just friends? For you, yes, but for me, no.

I already knew that I’m just a distraction; he only chooses me when he needs me. I don’t know why I agreed to be your backburner.

I tried several times not to answer your calls. But I'm weak when it comes to you; with just one call from you, I answer it immediately.

Hey, are you still there? Good

After all the pain you gave me, it’s good to know you’re still there.

Maybe I’m just not better than this, I haven’t tried, ‘cause maybe you’ll finally choose me after you’ve had more time.

I just wish that one day, when you come back, you will choose me and stay with me.

With so much time, you fade away. I hope you can think that I deserve to be yours, not just your backburner.

‘Cause I don’t feel alive ‘til I’m burnin’ on your backburner.

Never the first choice, never the second choice—just an option. Burning enough to stay but not burnout enough to go.

There are moments when all I want to know is what’s going through your head whenever I’m with you. Can I handle it when you tell me what’s going through your head about me?

This is not a love story. And it’s not a happy ending like the stories we read in books. This is the story of two people who are both messed up and keep picturing what their ending should be if they are not afraid to take a risk. 

[lostkidzi]

A familiar song that never gets tired of making me look like I'm just a backburner.

I can’t lie, it feels nice that you’re calling.

Is it my turn now? Did you call me because, as you know, with just one ring on your phone, I’ll answer it right away?

And for once, I don't care about what you want as long as we keep talking.

We shared something special together, but it didn’t have a label. More than friends, or almost lovers? Or maybe we’re just friends?

I already knew that I’m just a distraction; he only chooses me when he needs me. I don’t know why I agreed to be your backburner.

I tried several times not to answer your calls. But I'm weak when it comes to you; with just one call from you, I answer it immediately.

Hey, are you still there? Good.

After all the pain you gave me, it’s good to know you’re still there.

Maybe I’m just not better than this, I haven’t tried, ‘cause maybe you’ll finally choose me after you’ve had more time.

With so much time, you fade away. I hope you can think that I deserve to be yours, not just your backburner.

‘Cause I don’t feel alive ‘til I’m burnin’ on your backburner.

Never the first choice, never the second choice—just an option. Burning enough to stay but not burnout enough to go.

There are moments when all I want to know is what’s going through your head whenever I’m with you. Can I handle it when you tell me what’s going through your head about me?

This is not a love story. And it’s not a happy ending like the stories we read in books. This is the story of two people who are both messed up and keep picturing what their ending should be if they are not afraid to take a risk. 

[lostkidzi]

Maybe it’s just to keep our distance and stay friends on Facebook, or maybe I’ll get to know you again and tell a sentence from a single look.

In an instant, we are back where we started. If before I felt a thrill every time I looked at your account, now every time I look at your account, I feel nothing but a sense of missing you.

I don’t know what you’ve been up to these days. Probably involves a lot of vinyl and seeking status. I can’t spare the bitter malice, not while you're forgetting me.

I can’t deny that sometimes I still wonder what you’ve been up to since we decided to end what’s between us. Do you still do the things you did when we were together? Are you doing well now? Do I sometimes enter your mind? Are you still the same person I loved? Or perhaps you have changed. Do you still want the dream you were telling me about before?

I wish we met now. I wish you met this me. I’m pretty sure I know what peace means now.

Do you remember how many times you’ve seen me cry? Every time I cry, you call me crybaby, and you always tell me that you will wipe my tears. I didn’t let myself open up to anyone after I lost you. You are the only one who understands me, yet I love this. I love this kind of peace. I love you.

And I can honestly tell you that I’ve really been trying to go and find someone better, but there’s no one better. There’s no one better.

There’s someone better than you, or I can’t let myself go find someone better because you are that someone better. 

[lostkidzi]

Bakit kailangan ko pang isama ka sa birthday wish ko kung nakuha na kita? pero sinama naman talaga kita sa wish ko. Every 11:11 at prayers ko pa ‘yan gabi gabi baby, kasama ka palagi.

[lostkidzi]

Bakit kailangan ko pang isama kita sa birthday wish ko kung nakuha na kita? pero sinama naman talaga kita sa wish ko. Every 11:11 at prayers ko pa yan gabi gabi baby, kasama ka palagi.