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same

"how have u been”

bro i want to disappear forever without a single explanation

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“Trust can be so easy to lose, But so very hard to gain back”

~SuicidalTeenageNightmares

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Anti anxiety.

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I hate getting so sad to the point where my body completely shuts down, and all I can do is just lay there and think about all my problems

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Why can‘t I allow myself to believe that others do care for me and want to help?!

Instead I’m sitting here crying and thinking that I’m all alone even though I know there are people I can talk to.

But in spite of everything I still just can’t because my goddamn brain won’t let me.

Not kidding. This feeling of loneliness and the blockade is seriously gonna be the end of me one day.

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“I’ve stopped wanting things because wanting leads to disappointment.”

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People say, if you feel lost and don‘t know what to do, ask someone who might know the answer.

But when you ask, and they treat you like you‘re the dumbest person on earth, you instantly feel like you will never be good enough.

You lose all the will, motivation and passion.

And you’ll never ask or talk to anyone again, no matter how desperate you are.

It’s the worst.

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"It feels like I'm not doing anything with my life, it feels like everything I do is just a waste, Like I'm just a waste of space, Like I'm just wasting everyone's time and energy BUT IM NOT! IM TRYING SOOO FUCKING HARD!! IM TRYING MY FUCKING BEST!!! But yet everything I do feels like nothing"

~SuicidalTeenageNightmares

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I feel completely dead inside right now. Not just dead inside in the sense of having no emotions, but dead inside in a way that seems like my entire mind body and soul have given up. I feel like I’ve been fighting so much and for so long and I simply don’t have the energy or motivation or hope or willpower to carry on. Frankly right now I couldn’t even kill myself because I simply can’t be bothered. It feels like every spark I had has gone out and all I want to do is stare out the window or sleep.

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“I don’t care anymore. I tried so hard to be good. I tried so hard to get better for years. Yet, I’m still exactly where I started. Except, this time.. I know that happiness, friends and love doesn’t last. Not for people like me.”

— D.D

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do you ever feel embarrassed to be in your own skin like please just dont look at me i wish i didnt exist sometimes like i want to disappear because i cannot handle being me