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Sleep

Where are you?

You evade me at every turn.

I’m lost more than ever without you.

I lay here praying you find me, wrap your warmth around my thoughts and soothe me into beautiful peaceful dreams.

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All I can think is “why wasn’t I enough”.

Why wasn’t I enough? He says “ it’s not you, it’s me. I’m not enough”. It doesn’t make me feel any better. I feel like half a person. First husband was evil, second husband is a liar, cheater, & addict. How can I ever trust myself again? Truly lost in life.

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Lost

I feel so lost in life. How do I start over at 48 with zero savings, no degree, no home and because I took care of the family for so long, my work experience is only so-so.

He broke every promise he ever made to me. Every wedding vow broken & every I’m sorry, was followed by another broken promise. I’ll never love again, I’ll never be vulnerable to another person like I was with him. I’m so lost in this life.