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I’ve been fangirling the whole day. Atleast its kinda worth it! Here are the outcomes! @cryaotic fan art 😁

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“Live your life. It’s yours anyway Don’t try too hard. It’s okay to be a loser”

“불타오르네 (FIRE)”, BTS

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I supposedly doing my homeworks right now and studying but my brain isn’t cooperating with me that’s why I’m here to share my thoughts and experience about what happened during that day, 073016.

It was a blast! At first, I couldn’t believe that finally, I would see my boys (BTS) personally. Before the concert, I put everything (well not really “everything”) in my tiny bag: my giveaways, army bomb (official light stick), extra shirt, wallet and especially my ticket so that I could enter in the venue. I’m so excited that I forgot to charge my phone and bring the most important thing called, “portable charger”. In addition, my sister also forgot to load my simcard that makes me freak since I couldn’t contact my internet friends. Time passed by and I accept that, that day is horrible just like my face because I couldn’t handle the very hot temperature and the feeling it gives to me. I couldn’t show it to my friends but honestly, I want to cry that day because the concert hasn’t started yet but I’m already exhausted. Thanks to my internet friends because they are the ones who gave positive energy to me during that time. So, to those who will attend a concert, always remember to bring your “portable charger” and have a load in your simcard for emergency purposes and so that you have contact with your internet friends.

Now, let’s go to the “giveaways/freebies” story. You all know it sucks to be a small and young fangirl because you have less confidence than those who are taller and older so just act cute and show them that you’re an innocent person and too soft because I swear it worked for me but not all the time because of the “wild” fans. They don’t care if you’re being hurt or not as well as they are getting what they want. Because of that experience, my advice to all of you is to eat a heavy meal so that you have energy to smack everyone and get that precious thing (just kidding) Another advice is if you want to get a more precious giveaways don’t go everywhere and just wait to the “fansites” who are giving best freebies because it’s less hassle and I swear their giveaways are superb. I didn’t bring a lot of money too because I know there are lots of vendors selling bts official and not official goodies that’s why if you are interested with collecting merchandise, girl/boy you better go, open your bank account and withdraw all of it because the goodies that they are selling are so pricey. Can you imagine, just a normal fan with your idol’s face on it costs 700 php? Although it’s very tiring it is also fun so don’t be late whenever you go to a concert and u 'gotta catch them all! I also received my 김태형 cap and hyyh drawstrings and bought a kim taehyung faced headband.

Then, it’s time to enter in MOA Arena, the line is long but we entered quickly because of some “connections” (you know what I mean hehe) AAAAAH I can feel my heart beating so fast but before we finally enter the room, we saw a Song Joongki standee and yes of course, we took pictures with him or shall I say with it? My friends and I went to different direction and I am all alone. It breaks my heart because I wasn’t with them but I think I’m strong enough to face it bravely! I’m in coral 217 then when I saw the door for it, it’s locked, my heart becomes heavy that makes my eyes teary then I saw a beautiful girl and asked her if she’s a 217 ticket holder too, fortunately she said yes! We went to the 216's door and asked the staff what we will do since the door is locked she said we could enter the 216 door! At last, I could smell the concert area! The manager assists me to my seat and you wouldn’t expect what I did next... I borrowed my seatmate’s portable charger and gladly she let me borrow it. The area is crowded with my very supporting fandom. Chanting here, chanting there! My seatmates treat me well, they are my “ate” that night and whenever I cry during the concert they comfort me which I find very awkward because they could just focus on bts and why focus on me?! Anyways, I couldn’t explain further what happened during the concert because I am totally emotional freak that time. All I did is to sing, shout that I love every member’s name, to cry, to jump (yes I don’t care if there’s someone at my back) and lastly, to thank God that finally I saw these dorks that help me to find my purpose here on Earth. They are the ones who stop me in cutting my wrist and lastly, they are my inspiration to face this unfair world. Even though it’s just a short time, I wouldn’t forget that day, the day I met my angels and hear them live.

To those fangirls/fanboys, never lose hope, you would see your idol(s) too in God’s perfect time, but for now, make them as your inspiration to do well in your study/work because everything happens for a reason and there’s a reason for you to see your idol someday!