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This election kinda ripped me apart as a person

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I don’t think I can whoopsie my way out of this daisy

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alsooooo the way that dominate works in that shilo specifically makes people think everything is okay and normal....idk its just so insidious and showcases such a blaise regard for like....autonomy and control that i think is pretty evident in shilo's actions even if its not outright stated.

like when arthur finds the old people (and receptionist) after shilo has left and they all talk about how great shilo is and normal things are but then realize and start freaking out...that realization hits everyone shilo dominates if the situation is abnormal enough. Like he clearly sees dominating people as the humane (hah) way to deal with mortals but like.......

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I love hypocritical characters and no one is doing it like Arthur “told Emizel to learn about self control while almost going into a frenzy and murdering people” Bennett

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Queen and Laz plus some little pages !!!

Lazarus looks kinda bald but there is like nothing I can do about it hes just built like that . ALSO !!! Lazarus is a bigger pony Queen is just an alicorn (big)

I hope we get to see some of grefgore destroying someone with that sword he was given what happened to it even

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emizel tucker and shilo bathroy are sosoososos perfect in my mind. not like, morally, yknow, but they are two perfect characters to compliment each other.

emizel's a kid raised on the streets of LA by his gang brothers and he forced his way up the ranks by being brutal and unforgiving and not showing weakness. he's powerful because he refuses to doubt his own capabilities, and pushes himself past what he should be capable of, because he's cocksure and drowning in hubris. and then he gets turned into a vampire and all of the sudden he's in the middle of a brand new society and it runs on violence. and emizel knows violence! he's good at violence! literally this is all he's ever known!!! he's got this, he thinks he understands how to climb the ranks but in reality, he doesn't get it. at all. vampire society is this strange mix of posh old money and a violent underbelly and to really survive in it you have to manage both ends, but emizel only knows the violent underbelly.

and then shilo. shilo, who only knows the opposite: the grand old money, the power, the manipulation. and he's okay it at- he's better at it than he thinks he is, and he's way out of his depth when it comes to vampire LA. he grew up sheltered from the violence of vampirism- sure, death isn't unfamiliar to him but the really gritty stuff, the blood, even the point of not being able to feed without it being served to him has been withheld. but he knows, theoretically, how vampires are supposed to work. he's not at all confident in himself which is such a detriment because he is a manipulative little shit at his core, and if he wasn't so overwhelmed all the time he'd be pretty good at the politics thing. he's smart! he's personable! the reason he fails in LA like he does is the fact he doesn't understand the violence-

which is where emizel comes in.

they are literally perfect for each other. twin brothers, two equal sides of this fucked up vampire world, and if they worked together (and with arthur, i think arthur is key here for them not losing their humanity, y'know) i 100% believe they could take over the fucking world.

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I HATE HIM.

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replayed mouthwashing and needed to doodle about it… RAH

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Me when my mouth is washed

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Viv Weylin on the mind...

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cringe father son moments on the tulpar 🫶

before you think "will there actually be a next time :(" yes there absolutely will be because this is in my au where jimmy gets fired early on before he does irreversible damage which means i can have all the wholesome found family shenanigans i want on this gatdang ship without threat of The Horrors. yes this is how i cope.

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dental hygiene fluid

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wolf in sheep's clothing

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Tempted to do a version of this with Swansea

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Anyone ask for my renditions of the riptide crew? No?

Okay, okay I'll just-

Oh shit- *falls flat on my face and drops this*

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My viola has felt very wet recently and I hope that means I’m plucking her good

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Posted this so I could reblog it with drawings I made in English of paymper quoting that “HE MANIPULATED YOU?” meme

TW detailed descriptions of abuse Indirect mentions of SA and describing vomit a bit around the end

Guys sorry I thought about the ocs living in my brain a bit too hard

None of this will make sense

Miar and how horrible and abusive and studyable she is my beloathed…….

So Crimson Crosses is ultimately the most banger duo name to have but Estrogen Enmity ends up describing Miar and Morticias relationship way more accurately

Resentment comes from both sides — Morticia being so unwillingly forced into Miar’s radar for her to be as touchy and insistent as possible, which is exactly what sh✦ does NOT need and Miar REEAAALLLLLLYYY wanting to see this woman si finds attractive snap on hyr, getting progressively more frustrated with how much verbal abuse sh✦ can take

That and estrogen being something Morticia does not want and Miar insisting she knows better because she’s an egocentric megalomaniac

It’s so important I talk about the fake buildup in a fake muc season where Miar is intentionally crossing boundaries and making h✦r relive past trauma, the intensity of it increasing throughout the season

Like it starting from Miar jabbing at h✦r way more bluntly, calling h✦r a witch, misgendering h✦r, bringing up h✦r parents and the assault sh✦ endured to DISSECTING h✦r while sh✦’s asleep, and absolutely making sure sh✦’s as uncomfortable as possible waking up until the climax where She fucking FORCES them to make out

Throughout all of these transitions, Morticia at the start just staying quiet as h✦r mind scrambles trying to get this freak of a nurse to stop paying attention to h✦r and using h✦r like this play thing until sh✦ understands h✦rs✦lf what gets Miar to tick, and goes with it in futile attempt, very little options, so they could stop

Giving hyr the attention with the adamant preface that shy’ll never be understood, that hyr actions doesn’t make any sense — something that is Very important to Miar out of the millenniums she’s been alive

WHICH ENDS UP ENCOURAGING HER MORE BECAUSE GORES SO FUCKED UP

Morticia realizing this, having progressively more tantalizing breakdowns after the encounters sh✦’s forced into, becomes despaired

Sh✦ literally cannot catch a break even in the afterlife WHICH IS SO MUCH MORE HARROWING WHEN THE ONE TIME SH✦ TRIED BY MOVING TO OREGAN, SH✦ STILL SUFFERED THE SAME TORMENT SH✦ ALWAYS HAS

Sh✦ just gives up, so utterly lost in the horror of this situation

And MIAR GETS WHAT SHE WANTS IT SUCKS IT SUCKS IT SUCKS…

That being watching the remaining hope leave Morticia’s eyes when sh✦ tastes Miar’s depravity from her mouth. The muffled gagging, pent up from years and years and years outside of control being torn from h✦r splintered hands and body burning with scars. OH MY FUCKING GOSH THE “That’s All I Wanted …” AS MIAR PIERCES OPEN HER FINGER AGAINST MORTICIA’S FANGS AND WATCHES AS SH✦ PROJECTILE VOMITS OUT THE BLOOD, THE ONLY WORDS SPEWING ALONG WITH THE HACKING UP STRINGS OF SALIVA “Why, why, why, why, why, why” I CAN’T HEAD IN HANDS……..

“You’re in God’s hands, now” motif between them!! I’m so normal about that!! 😀😀😀 It’s the