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forced exercise is literally hell 😭 im so sorryyy

LITERALLY THE MOST FUN??

im on season 9 ep 22 but its like my 3rd or 4th time watching 😭

KATE YOU SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME YOU LIKED MODERN FAMILY IH MY FODD

also i swear to god I WAS SCROLLING THROUGH MY GALLERY AND I CANNOT POSE FOR MY LIFE

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pooks i miss u!

also i made an edit today 😭 havent done it in a year but it’s literally so fun????

AAAA I MISS YOU TOOOOO, my cousin forced me to exercise with her since ive been stuck in the house for like 3 weeks and the back of my leg is so sore ☹️

I KNOW RIGHT?? EDITING IS SO MUCH FUN, ALSO OH MY GOD YOURE WATHCING MODERN FAMILY?2?? WHAT EP R U IN?

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THANK YOU FOR TAGGING MEE!!

Yellow - Pity Party(Girls Club)

Cleric Girl - sisyfuss

WANTED U - joji

Parking Lots - Plums

Something About You - Eyedress, Dent May

Money - The Drums

The Basement - Lunar Vacation

Fly Out West - Yot Club

Away - Vacations

Metamodernity - Vansire

TAGGINGG!! : @5ullli @taxidermycat @totheblood @toasty-melons @tlouxobsessed

tagged by @winterscandy (thank you <3)

rules: shuffle your On Repeat playlist and post the first 10 tracks, then tag 10 people!

don't hurt yourself by beyonce

win it all by derivakat

willard! by will wood

freeze your brain from heathers

two coffins by against me

bus money by the chats

fear & delight by the correspondents

scary by megan thee stallion

candy store from heathers

warsaw by lovejoy

tagging: @areus-in-a-little-cave @qjaiden @titsoutfortntduo and i hate tagigng people if you want to do it just say i tagged you <3

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OFC OFC i can only get it from like this one candy shop but its sooo good

oH MY GOD, ITS BEEN SO LONG SIJCE IVE BOUGHT STUFF FROM A CANDY SHOP

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“ive never heard of boygenius” i feel like ive been STABBED

okay so phoebe bridgers?? dk if u know her but shes honestly the most popular of them. basically its an indie (??) band and i love them more than life and they make me sad

OHH, I THINK I'VE CAME ACROSS A PHOEBE BRIDGERS BEFORE BUT IM NOT SIRE, THE NAME JUST SOUNDS FAMILIAR

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did u know that

HUH

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smthn i never even fathomed or thought would be good, blue raspberry bubble gum.

ITS SO ADDICTING

WHAT REALLY?? SADLY THERES NO GUM OF THAT FLAVOR HERE☹️☹️ TELEPORT TO ME AND GIVE ME SOME

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im so sad boygenius makes me sob

OOOHH I'VE NEVER HEARD OF BOYGENIUS, WHATS IT ABOUT?

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PLEASSSSSEEEEE CAN I GET AN ANGSTY ABBY X READER ON MY KNEES

phantom pain

misleading photos ish bc angsty abby!!!!!!!

so tbh abby speaks 0 times in this but idc. ellie and dina r the best tho! also so sorry it took so long to get to this 😭 have not been motivated at all

ALSO I PROMISE ELLIE IS IN THIS PLATONICLY BUT SHE IS ITS NOT IN THE ELLIE TAGS FOR NO REASON TY HAVE A GOOD DAY!

not proofread!!!

lyrics from ‘phantom pain / the rapture’ by leanna firestone !

you weren’t vital to my survival its just what it felt like

the door slamming shook ellie and dina out of their haze, both heads turning to see who walked in.

“dude, watch it the neig- shit. are you okay?” ellie quickly switched over as she saw the tear streaks on your face. both she and dina rushed over, pulling you to the couch.

“babe, what happened? i thought you were on a date with abby tonight?” dina treaded lightly, scared to upset you more. unfortunately, the blondes name only brought more tears to your shiny eyes. she shushed you, pulling you close to her.

“i just,” you pulled away from dina. “i think im gonna sleep this off.” your fingers wiped the salty tears from your face, finding your lap afterwards. “yea, im gonna go to bed.”

“i just,” you pulled away from dina. “i think im gonna sleep this off.” your fingers wiped the salty tears from your face, finding your lap afterwards. “yea, im gonna go to bed.”

“i just,” you pulled away from dina. “i think im gonna sleep this off.” your fingers wiped the salty tears from your face, finding your lap afterwards. “yea, im gonna go to bed.”

ellie and dina watched with concern as you slowly grabbed your bag and headed to your door.

“what. the. fuck.”

it didn’t kill me to lose you i just thought that it might and right when i think i’m finally fine

“welcome back to the land of the living, princess.” ellie smiled, teasing you as you finally ventured out your room.

you’d holed up in bed for days, only getting out for food and the bathroom. dina was close to intervening, but ellie convinced her you’d come out on your own.

you hummed in acknowledgment, eyeing her pancakes and bacon and making a b-line towards it. ellie tried to swat your hands away as you reached for her food, but you hit back. “i’ve barely had any sustenance, you want me to pass out, hit my head, and die, ellie? hm?”

ellie grunted, pulling her plate closer to her as you walked away with a piece of bacon in hand.

“babe ill make you more relax.” dina’s voice rang as you made your way to the kitchen. “hungry my love?” you nodded and she laughed, not shocked in the slightest. “go shower and i’ll have some ready for you. you reek.”

the girls made it their mission to keep you preoccupied from thinking of abby. a movie marathon, a couple pizzas and puzzles, and some reading, and they managed to get you out of the house for some fun.

happy and confident, ellie and dina led you to your favorite spot to go together.

“im gonna go grab a couple drinks, ill be back.” they both nodded with a smile and watched as you headed to the bar.

the healing is done its been enough time thats when, it sinks back in

you ordered all of your drinks, and stood waiting for them. you looked around the room, taking in all of the people and music.

an all too familiar blonde filled your vision. hyper focused on her stupid braid, and stupid arm around some stupid girl.

not even two weeks and she had found someone new?

ellie noticed you out of the corner of her just in time to watch you push out the door. “fuck...” she grabbed dina’s hand and rushed out to you but saw abby first. she nodded at you for dina to go after while she hung back. “hey, abby! what the fuck?”

dina watched you gasp for the breath outside the door. she grabbed your face in her hands, focusing you on her and her breathing.

“what about vermont?” a finger drew small doodles over your chest as your fingers ran through blonde locks.

“vermont?” abby laughed, looking up to you. “what’s in vermont?” she questioned, stopping her tracings.

“i dont know... its stupid but ive always wanted to go. my sister and i used to plan to live their when i got older.” you smiled fondly, pushing her away from her face. “its pretty, lots of trees. could live in the middle of nowhere. nevermind.” you frowned, looking away back to the movie.

“hey, no.” she turned your face back to hers, a smile on her face. “its not stupid. promise. sorry i teased.” she tickled her finger into you. “forgive me? please, oh so kind amazing lover, please forgive me!”

you laughed at her antics and gave in. “mm, fine. no more though.” she nodded, pressing a kiss to your lips and laying back down.

“so vermont it is...”

the invisible and incurable pain of

“fuck me.” you laughed, leaning into dina. “shes so horrible but god, i miss her.”

she nodded, a sad smile on her face. “i know. it’ll get better though, i promise. and y’know... karmas coming for her.” you both giggled as ‘karma’ walked out the door. “what’d you do?”

“ripped her a new one, thats what i did!” ellie showed off her newly bruised knuckles, making dina gasp and rush over while you laughed. “and whats so funny to you chuckles?”

“only you would say ‘ripped her a new one’!”

“hey, you didn’t have joel for a father.”

“... and then she pulled out a chair for me? like what? i mean, what a gentleman but like who taught you that, you know?” dina nodded, snacking on the popcorn you made. “anyways, we had dinner, which sucked by the way, and she’s like ‘wanna get out of here?’ and im just like, ‘what 2000’s movie am i in right now?”

“as much as i love your little commentary for your own story,” ellie teased, “please get this moving, i have class soon.” she checked her watch as she spoke, nudging you to continue.

“anyways. we went to this park i honestly thought she was gonna murder me, and we just like talked. like about everything and it was really cathartic. and then she kisses me! and dude it was like, amazing. best kiss ever. and she took me back to her place and...”

“oh gay people,” dina sighed. “wish someone did that to me.”

“hey!” ellie yelled, knocking her shoulder. “youre so lucky i have class.” she threatened, leaning in to kiss dina as she headed out. “love you, have fun!”

“can i be brutally honest?” you wondered aloud. dina hummed, looking to you expectantly. “i almost hoped for someone like abby. i just... i don’t necessarily miss her, just us, you know? and i wanted that back.” you let out a breath, leaning against her shoulder. “but im so happy she wasnt. she was so, so much better.”

losing a limb.

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POOKIE

RAHHHHH EVE HIII, MISSED YOUR POSTS SO MUCH,,, HOW HAVE YOU BEEN?

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no bc literally crushes make or break my life yk? like its so fun bc “omg new person to like” but then im like “im never gonna talk to them whats wrong with me?” or i just dont have a crush and life is soooooo boring

like idek what to do with myself anymore j dont have any daily crush updates for you and thats so sad

REAL LIKE, CRUSHES ARE FUN UNTIL YOU GET ATTACHED TOO MUCH..😞 like its fun to get crushes that lasts for weeks or even a couple of months

ALSO ITS FINE KATE, I JUST REALLY ENJOY HEARING OTHER PEOPLES LOVE LIFE

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MISSED U SO GLAD UR BACK BAE

i wanna give u updates but ive got nothing OTHER THAN IVE PERFECTED MY PANCAKESSSS

AaAAAA MISSED YOU TOO, MISSED YOU SO MUCH!!!

ne too☹️☹️ ITS BEEN SO BORING WITH MY LIFE RECENTLY.. you know sometimes i wish i had a crush because like, It would make everyhirmg so much interesting

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cher we may have broken up two days later cause she was being mean 😓😓

basically she was very dry all of a sudden and would take hours to reply and when i asked her why she said it was cause she was not over her ex 😐😐😐

wait whay. WHAT???? im so.. shocked AND ANGRY?? IDK IF ITS OK FO BE ANGRY AT SOMEONE I DONT KNOW YET BUT THATS A SHITTY THING TO DO,,, leading you on like that is so...??????

she should've thought about that before getting with you, you'd helped her so much (from what I've heard) and you have been so patient,, you literally do not deserve any of that?? AND LIKE I GET IT THAT THEY HAVE PROBLEMS TOO BUT THEY SHOULDN'T HAVE TAKEN IT OUT ON YOU.. ugh. im sorry, i know its not my place to say stuff but like☹️☹️

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im so gay help

also miss u bae 💔💔💔💔💔💔

that is SO RELATABLE

i missed you too kate☹️☹️☹️ I WANTED GO ON THSI APP AND TALK TO EVERYONE ELSE, ESP U BTU I'VE BEEN SO BUSY

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OMG BAE HOW ARE YOU I MISSED YOU

GASPPOPSPSPSPPP HI ZAHRAAAAA I MISSED EVERYONE ON THIS APP SOSOSSOSOOS MCUH☹️

EVERYHINGS OKAY, IM JSUT SO SLEEPY SINCE OTS LIKE.. 2 AM ATM

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cher :(((((((

honey come home, the kids miss you!!!

KATIE BEAR I MISS U, IM BACK!! **proud** IM SO SORRY FOR GOING INACTIVE WITHOUT ANY NOTICE

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sendin u sum love ! ☾⋆｡𖦹 °✩

AAAAAAAAA THANKU SOVMUCH... ILY..☹️☹️🫶🫶 I'VE BEEN DEALING WITH THINGS AND THIS REALLY MADE MY DAY