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Pretty much sums up one year celebration ...#whenheismybestfriendand*princecharming* #imisshimalltime

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My speech when asked about you.

They say words aren't enough to describe feelings about a person you love. But never have I ever felt this clear in communicating what one person truly feels to me . Someone who is inexpressible could actually tell this much about her love makes me realize what miracle is . You know you grow in years, keep moving ahead in life, there is appreciation for what you're doing but there is always an incomplete feeling, a hollowness which makes you not relish everything to it's full extent. You just feel life is passing. Am I living it or not never had a proper answer inside me. You don't feel control over things happening to you. But later, luckily by God's grace, you come across someone who is like an answer to a tough riddle, a missing piece of puzzle, a key to a unbreakable lock. Once you have that person you have a 360 degree view of your life.You stay grounded. You want to be genuine. You are at peace. You know how it feels to be really happy, you sense how it is like to be sad , you know what emotions are, what forgiving is, what determination is. Just by looking at that person you get gallons and gallons of motivation which runs you like glucose in the body. That's what is Chetan to me. I have gone back like an arrow on a bow is stretched to hit even a farther bulls eye. Yes that's what my going back is from everything. I've stopped running. I was not ready to sit down. He told it's gonna be great and I trusted him. I've discovered poetry in me, I've discovered myself again without anymore signs of emptiness or hollowness inside. I can really laugh, I can really be sad and this time I got the grant to do it for myself and not for anybody else. It's something his presence has done to my life. He has made me ready for something I've always panicked about . Getting onboard with marriage, loving my new family more than anything understanding myself completely. He knows how to protect me but also knows to let me be myself all the time. One of the most eligible bachelors on this planet is mine now. The search is officially over forever. He is the treasure I've always had around and never realized until I saw love for him in me. You know love really does wonders. Fairytales do exist.

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The Presence

This is a priceless feeling that every partner wants to cater each other. Since I m the writer, I have the previlege to give my side of perception to you. They say cancerians are too much of melodrama category. I don't if that's the reason I crave for the feeling of your presence. Presence which is not just being bodily by my side. Presence which can sense me and understand me. Presence which is worthy than the present of golden rose you gave me with so much love.Presence which calms down even in a huge overwhelming moment and not tries to belt me. I have recently realized that I have a very high quotient to sense the intention of a person I m very attached. You love, I know it. You doubt, I know it. I know how much you're ready to trust me . I know how much you carry your heart in your hands with this whole love thing. I know how much you still need assurance on what I have learnt from yesterday. Sometimes I'm thankful for it because the prick is a reminder of what sort of pain it causes . Sometimes it feels everything infront of me is a lie. I think the first time I saw love in your eyes is my constant boost to not give up. I want you to be always the one who understands me perfectly . I don't need elders or anyone else to be a shoulder to me. It has to be you always and only you. My search for my home has ended . I love my home very very much. I know there is your side of perception in the same way. Because I m a half of you . So I m really sure if one half feels a way the other does too simultaneously. Love you baby .

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What can I say.......

What can I say, when people ask me what quality made me like you It’s not the qualities in you that pulled me towards but it’s the whole nature that made fall head over heels for you

What do I tell, when they ask me how is it so smooth between us I only know that we have made a promise to each other and my duty is to stick to it by crossing my life.

What can I say, how do I see everything so beautiful with you I feel the beautiful souls that we are, are very tender and so much like two little kids who found their own self .

What can I say ,when people ask me how did I choose you.. I have no words to describe the charm of yours. How the molecules around me shape shift from glooms to blooms, changing from dark to light, transforming to millions of fireworks inside me.

What do I say, if it’s fatigue some to wait for you I only know that even though we both are miles apart our hearts beat together. There is sorrow, there is vacuum, there is thought and I take it as an opportunity to feel it all.

What do I say, if it’s painful when there is a bump in our ride I believe to finish a journey the only thing you think of is destination. The destination of being truly madly in love with someone who may not be the same sweet with you all the time sugarcoating things but knows you senses you every single moment through every single expression.

What do I say, if they ask if I m afraid of anything The only fear to be afraid is the thought of fear. The journey with a soulmate, no matter how twined still has a sweet essence in seeing it together.

And I don’t say any of these things

I just want everyone to see it and know it

How much I love you and how much more like you keep telling you love me.

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Honeymoon before wedding alongside family

You never know what life has in store for you until you hold your heart in your palms and step forward in life.

Same thing happened when I was invited to the family farmhouse for Pongal. There was excitement but also a slight tinge of tense atmosphere in me which was not leaving.

Finally stepped out of the airport waiting for him to pick me up. As I wait I wondered how things would go from there on. I ve heard a different set of stories on families. I ve been filled with safety cautions on how to be and how not. But I could only stick to one way ,the way that feels natural and right.

The journey started with usual love and tired mixed emotions as I quietly let it go on.

It was a cute village with lot of greens around and well made houses. Lot of fields with plantations and temples here and there .The sun had set Infront of us and we finally reached the temple he believes a lot in over there. It was beautiful with lot of lingas. More than anything his belief in it is what makes it divine. After meeting the first cousins there we finally entered the route which leads to only the farmhouse . It’s only made for farm house and it’s a great feeling that all has been made from scratch in a village.

The day finally began with whole family as they welcomed me with aarti and made me enter the house with right leg first. I have seen this place in pictures but in real it looked surreal . It’s glows like a royal palace built in middle of nowhere . No other houses or buildings.

It took time for me to get into complete consciousness as it was my first time to their house. Everything was moving in slow motion around me. I was blank. I don’t know if every bride feels the same at that moment. After the formalities, we all sat in the beautiful corridor with a cloudy sky on top hiding moon and stars. We had hills Infront of us creating a virtual shape of beautiful woman sleeping.

We all sat down with the family and as usual I sat down quietly seeing everyone. It was mind boggling to know the place has been made out of uneven rocky uprooted tree area and there was a lot of life risking efforts by my Mamaya. Though it finished in an expression through simple sentence but the efforts that went in weren’t like that.

Hardwork pays off with best rewards and I could see how thankful everyone felt about it to be sitting there and experiencing the nature comfortably.

I had a pompous welcome with fireworks all over the sky. Eversince I was a child I love fireworks to be a part of my life and there they were in the sky throwing all the colourful stars for me . I was speechless. I was asking myself if this is true. I clearly understood how much they value life and living happily meant very important with all the family, it filled me with content. What else would you need when it matches your mindset so well. The joy lies in little things for me and this was one precious thing that stays forever.

The day ended and I was in my surprised and shocked positively mode. We had to be up early tomorrow and I didn’t want to miss a bit.

Day2 started with me getting up on time to see the sunrise. The place was all green and charming. It was beautiful and peaceful with fresh air. I took a walk amongst the coconut trees and roses planted beautifully. I love roses and all were there in beautiful colours spreading their beauty and charm. As I waited on, I sat with my athaya talking about how beautiful the place is, I was made to taste some very different coconut water . It was a different breed of coconut water that tasted like tender palm fruit water. Very sweet. I was too happy to have it in the morning. Not everybody is blessed to experience it and I was thankful for it. I took a walk to grape yard with Bobby and remembered tasting it last night. They were just like mini litchee filled grapes. I know I love plants and I was very happy when I saw grape plantation live. We next finished Pooja rituals with lovely Paati who made yummy Pongal. We ate it by the side of temple on a banana leaf. I gobbled up the sweet and had two servings. We finished breakfast and went to attend pooja at the another home where Athaya and Mamaya stayed earlier. Their neighbour paati brought us home made native chicken curry and rice. It tasted amazing. Foodies had a festival in the tummies. My Athaya fed me first time and I was very happy and nervous . It was a prized moment like taking a Nobel prize to me atleast. Cherishable forever . Under the trees with all people who love you ! After a potential argument I finally got the opportunity to pluck oranges from the trees. We pulled trees selected the tender oranges and plucked all of them. It was great feeling as usual. Farming is a very under rated profession. It is literally giving birth to a new life which shall later shower us with its fruits , vegetables, grains and all that. I m a city person and love everything about greenary. Growing plants is a fantasy to me because I never had the opportunity. I got to taste the all time praised mutton biryani by my Athaya . It was delicious and flavours were perfect. She is such perfect. I was made sure to eat beyond my capacity each meal. I panicked in my head thinking about calories and what will happen if this is the routine in my life . After some rest, I cooked my version of gongura mutton which was not so great owing to the Hyderabadi touch to a native Andhra dish. I was made to feel content though when Mamaya appreciated the way I cooked mutton perfectly and enjoyed it. It’s a blessing. The day ended early and I rested happily waiting for the amazing trip tomorrow. We planned to go to the hill top on Day3. After packing lot of food, we started in a Fortuner. My champ love drove like a pro and we reached to see the beautiful tea plantations all around and lavender flowers . So much of fashion inspiration was ready from the nature around us. There were many exotic flowers. The stay was perfect and we had a nice meal and walked around. We went to view farm house from this height and happy to spot it from 5400 feet . After tiresome travelling, we had a great family time and a joyful giggle amongst the younger ones , we made jokes and pranks and had a good laugh. We woke up for day4 and started our ride to experience sunrise surrounded by foggy air and also try our luck to see some wild animals passing by. We initially thought it’s just the younger ones to go and trek but the elders followed. Their young spirit got them ready in no time and we all started to higher point on the hill. Passing by the fog as we reach the peak feels like passing in clouds. Beautiful sunrise was captured by my accidental photography. We stopped in between took pictures and my lovely Athaya rightly said that is the honeymoon before wedding with all the family. Of course it is. It is a previlege. It makes me feel very lucky. We continued with couple shoot and started walk towards the narrow uneven parts of hilly area. Warm sunrays showered and we reached a stream of water nearby. Asual enthusiasts like me went and had a gulp of stream water and sat beside the little pool that was formed. My Jiju was hell bent upon seeing wild animals and traced some fresh elephants’ footprints. He walked further in to see if he can get any glimpse but only he had a chance of seeing the excreta. If only he had a chance to see one animal but there was always a next time. MC couple sat on rocks for a bit as the other elders took leave for breakfast. The cousins batch waited as we and Jiju headed back and joined him. The elders raced in the hilly area just to reach early than us. We had a filling breakfast alongside tauntings of reaching late and being slow. We took some rest and headed to visit the tea factory. Anything that’s converted from a plant to a packaging is a curious thing to know. I was very interested despite the rocky road and we reached there with the guide. The factory worker walked us through how a green leaf transforms into different grades of tea that millions of people have everyday. 1.2 lakhs kilograms of tea leaves got processed and packed everyday. I of me was thinking that industry owner is minting some crazy money. The hilly area has 50 percent tea plantations and 50 percent is reserved for the wild life and people. I want to remember all these facts and before I forget my blog shall have it forever. As we came, delicious smell of dam fish which is fried welcomed us. It was different than usual fish and juicy to taste. It was packing time and it was leaving time for my Akka and Jiju. They parted with tears waiting for the next time to come soon and have all of us reunited. Such was the hospitality and affection. After they left we started packing and loading the luggage into cars. After a game and tea, Chetan called for the gardener and spoke with him to give us the rare floral plants for us to try and see in the farm house. I was jumping out of joy for what was going on and prayed that the plants sustain in the farm house. We got even luckier when two fisherman passed by who got fresh fish from a lake nearby. What else would we do apart from getting those packed to cook at home. We left in the same batches that arrived. Our Fortuner started and I was praying God to give me and others strength to bear the rocky road which already made our shoulders sore. Our prayers just got answered as we stumbled upon another pathway to the city. I was ready to try that short road as I trust Chetan’s driving and thankfully Bobby and Pedhanana also agreed to go on. The road was narrower yet very smooth as it was sandy. We were happy to have taken that chance as the road led to a closer pool view and it was smooth. Pedhanana was in full praise of Chetan’s guts to make us cross the narrower path. We happily saved 1 hour of drive and felt like marathon winners. Songs were playing in the car as we hummed peacefully and enjoyed the drive. We stumbled upon another surprise when we got the chance to see a herd of elephants. It was a family with two young ones and two elders who were strolling around for food. We were overjoyed with the view and felt that Jiju missed it just by few hours. Photos as usual and the journey continued. Conversation with Pedhanana in the car got us closer. I understood from where all those qualities came from into Chetan. All is well that ends well. I took time to sync with everyone and I feel that’s a good thing as that can only give a lasting impression. It’s a good sign. I waited on what other surprises await before I leave on the next day. The farm has a lot of dogs and the most sensible one was a female name shiney. It was pregnant. As soon as I reached house, it was having pains and I went to shiney and asked if it can finish it’s delivery before I leave tomorrow. As though it understood my pleading it finished labour in the next one hour and gave birth to four healthy pups by next morning. I kept checking on them time to time. Holded those tiny packages of cuteness and thanked shiney of course for giving me an experience . I never had pets, never seen births and having those cute little ones come out was mind blowing. They were cute puppies crying and feeding on their mom’s milk. Love love love . The night before, fish department was taken care by Mamaya and he made some delicious fish curry. I enjoyed like one crazy food monger saying my regular ummm ummm for each serving. Mamaya made another round of fish curry for breakfast tomorrow as it’s told to be a great combination with idly. I loved it so much next day that not only idly, I ate vada also with fish curry. Yummmmmmmmmm. It was leaving time, we strolled in coconut farm and took a lot of pictures. We closed the day with temple visit and came back heavy hearted as it was parting time . I kissed my Athaya good bye awarding her the title of best mother in the whole world telling her I ll be waiting for the next visit. I m not expressive, I don’t cry when I leave normally but that place got me differently reacting. I quietly absorbed each moment and enjoyed every bit of the trip. Yes it was my honeymoon where I got to see how be it good or bad, when you love someone you still love. I got a chance to experience a family movie in real. A chance to understand how a family despite all the odds sticks together in pain and gain. I understood no matter what imperfections or what annoys about someone there is a ray of love in everything when it’s family. I realized how important it is to value all the good things we have already have to welcome more good tidings. There awaits a responsibility which I believe will not be hard if I really put all my heart into it. Many more memories to make and many more moments to make.

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Spoilers for a newly engaged woman ...and opening after waking up from a great sleep...#him💑😘

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He can be the most understanding person

I always wondered if you can decide a person depending on the people you're associated with . I believed it for a while too until he proved me wrong. When you look at him, he knows people almost from around the world and he does it not just for the sake of profession. I can confidently tell from the man that he is and the way he can empathize and also the way he is proactive in supporting everyone around, I felt he is alright everyone the way they are . Doesn't learn anything from them doesn't try to influence them on purpose. Although sometimes he ends up influencing everyone's mind. It's a great quality irrespective of whatever odds a person holds. I feel I should also let go completely of the little shade of judgement that I possess. He is amazing ....

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I just sensed it and how !

Well I m writing this about you because I don’t know why but it’s like someone came and whispered to me about what I felt. I felt it so strong inside me that I can’t stop myself from expressing it and storing it in digital memory if in-case it ever dwindles away in my own memory.

You are a warm person at heart. So warm so white that you could build high walls for safeguarding the ones you love. You’re loud voice or expression of dissatisfaction or anger does scare me sorry for my sensitivity there but behind that thick skin of yours is something very precious only rare specimens could have.

I mean I feel it so impossible that in today’s world people have become more of duh whatever type and there’s you ! You have a deep tinge of love comparatively.

You look after everyone you care like your own child more like how a mother could never be mean to a kid no matter what nature that kid acquires, you are that to the ones you love most. You let them be. You support whatever it is. I feel that’s what make you fully deserving of whatever you’ve achieved for yourself. A pure treasure is what you’re sowing and that’s what you reap.

There were times where I thought why am I having no choice but to be mature and all grown up even though I don’t want to. Universe just showed me in a glimpse of how higher intensity of the same feeling you’ve experienced and grown with it.

I won’t say you’re god. You’re very humanly human. That’s very sweet to me.

The world would take a toll of you but trust me you will stand as a winner with time. I m very proud of you and I shall always be. Minus the times we fight :p sigh !

I believe you have so much to give out to the world. I ll be with you while it happens. Even if it needs many more compromises even if it needs even more perseverance.

It’s alright to be so soft hearted silently. Universe approves of it. I m sure.

P.s : It’s also an indication that you are the one who run a lot in my processor.

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He is a fairytale

You ever wonder that life is too much of a serious shit and there is no chance you can completely be yourself if and only if you want to keep everyone happy. Me being someone who prefers happiness to everyone else I decided that I will make his joy mine his wish as my command and decided to be happy hearted. Coz love is all about loving no matter.

But what I didn’t know was I started missing a piece of myself.I closed the kid in me behind bars and started feeling everything is fine. I was not anything close to fine until he felt it.

He felt that I was more afraid subconsciously but more than that he felt he scared me a few cms away. Now that’s a point which can make most of the guys have the feeling of authority on his woman but he is not the most of men.

He heard my tears staying miles away when I was paranoid on what might make him scream on me during this meet, he called exactly at the same moment to check if I am fine. Sounds too much hype but he seriously heard me and my fears on dot at the exact time.

He worked on liking things that he didn’t like just to make me comfortable with him. He accommodated extra mins out of his draining schedule to patch the cracks. Yes cracks do patch if you have someone like him.

He has to cut out from more half of his world just to be sure he makes a wonderful universe for me when I m going to be around him forever. He misses all of it .The comfort the time the group the track but he took a strong decision and once he takes it without turning back. Sounds a lil like Rajinikanth ! Hehe no kidding about his seriousness though.

After his super pampering moves and subtle efforts to make me happy I have gained back the composure. At the end of the day all you need is someone who cares about you way beyond you expect and he is that. In life we have so many dreams but at the end of the day if you have someone like him it feels home. It feels life. It feels joy.

He has won me all over and he always remembers to make sure his problems are mine. People tell there is nothing called love at first sight but it exists. And he just tells me that he is an ordinary guy. Ask any woman and in proper senses she would tell it's something incredible. To me he is my hero the most handsome and I m glad the sparkle in his eyes is back because of my presence. *That's what he tells :p* So for now it's a memoir of finding a wonderful being all for myself and I m working towards the same as he is giving some hard relationship goals. Love !

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Poetry in practice - it's him

This was meant to happen baby. We both can be the best only if we are together It’s my responsibility to keep u happy I want to surprise you every day Impress u everyday And be ur deepest desire every day And make everyday look like the first day From sunrise to the gloomy moon you will be mine for ever as we are meant to be Thanks for coming into my life. I’m a lucky man now

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My reply letter 💁

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First love letter from him🙈

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His first date note/note to a fan for me😁😂

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The CHENNAI date!

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His first poem for me

I’ll protect you so safely as you’re a pearl form the mighty ocean, i promise to wake you up with a warm morning voice and gentle hugs which will take you to the moon and back. I want to hold you in my arms and whisper “I love you” till you fall asleep. I see the monsoon beauty in your face while you are floating swiftly in your dreams, then i kiss your rosy lips so gently and pray that the dream in your sleep is with me holding your hands.

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He loves me singing 😘

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Floating in the cloud*😂😂