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Toxic

I was in a toxic relationship for 4 years. Constant fighting, physical fighting, constant verbal abuse from both ends, and constant lies. I lost myself, I lost friends, I lost hope, I lost faith, I lost everything. He was jealous, angry all the time, never showing me he cared or loved me. I will BEG for him to communicate with me, BEGGED to feel loved, cherished, appreciated. For 4 years I was the only one working. For 4 years I was struggling to make ends met. For 4 years I was stressed, I lost so much weight. I went from 130 to 99 in about 2 years and stayed 99 for the remainder of the relationship. I didn’t love myself like I wanted too. Or like I needed too. I loved him more than I loved myself. I cared for him, cherished him, appreciated him, was loyal to him to the end.

Now after 4 years I’m done. Done with the lies, cheating, fighting, verbal and physical abuse. Done with hating myself. It’s time for me to flourish, grow and glow into the women I know I’m suppose to be a should be. Start taking time for myself. Making friends, making money.

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A heart in the ruff

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What’s happening on Twitter? 😂

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Wtf?

Anthropologists and decent humans alike! Please help report this. This is the first thing that comes up on google and it’s unacceptable!

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If it’s

Breaking you

Down

Everyday,

It is really

Something

Worth doing

Your whole

Life?

-gazergirl

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I’m That Girl

Yes admit I’m that girl who loves romantic movies and with it can all come true. I’m that girl who thinks fairytale princess love exist somewhere. I’m that girl who tries to fit in to be accepted. I’m that girl who pretends to have her shit together but really doesn’t. I’m that girl who lost everybody trying to make 1 person happy. I’m that girl who lost herself trying to make other people happy. I’m that girl who thinks she does good but really fucks everything up. I’m that girl that can’t find happiness so she settles into what she thinks is happiness. I’m that girl that loves to hard and cares too much about the wrong people. I’m that girl who lets others take away her happiness. I’m that girl who takes life and it’s situations hard to the core. I’m that girl who doesn’t even know herself and doesn’t know where to start looking. I’m that girl who disappoints everybody including herself. I’m that girl who wants a perfect life so bad she looses herself on the way. I’m that girl who think she knows what true loves is but gets heart broken everytime he does something she doesn’t want him to do. I’m that girl who keeps putting herself in situations that just keeps fucking with her. I’m that girl that is afraid nobody would love her for her.

I’m tired of being “that girl” but how?

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