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[loverboy-s]

one day you'll wake up and think, "life is okay". it'll happen gradually. you'll start to notice flowers blooming in a new light. your evening shower will be a sweet refuge. your morning coffee will warm your soul. things will seem bright and beautiful, and you'll wonder how you ever wanted to leave such lovely things behind

[loverboy-s]

Yeah applying for jobs feels dehumanizing. Yeah society is crumbling. Yeah we are all oppressed by the ruling one percenters. Yeah the world is full of cruelty. But you Cannot Stop Me from baking fucking bread with my Beloved Friends. And you can't stop me from drawing flowers. And you can't stop me from moving worms out of the sun back into the dirt in the shade. And you can't stop me from asking for help even when my past experiences have tried to convince me to never do so again. I am STUBBORN and I will CONTINUE LOVING

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i need that soft kind of love where we melt at just one look at each other

[loverboy-s]

i want a neverending love. falling in love over and over again, but with the same person. still going on dates after thirty years of being together, surprising each other with bouquets, making coffee and dancing in the kitchen on a lazy morning, even though we both have to get ready for work. i want something that lasts through every hardship, something that feels just right and magical and peaceful. something safe.

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somewhere between no longer and not yet

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i just need to eat a sandwich that tastes like someone really loves me and cares about me and then i think i’ll be ok

[loverboy-s]

love it when you can just tell that a person is going to be a part of your life forever. love the feeling of talking to your best friend and making all these grandiose plans for the future half joking half serious and hearing them laugh and realizing oh. yeah. im never not going to be thinking about you huh. you have permanently changed my life in ways that will never be undone. even if we stopped talking tomorrow youd still be there because i would feel you in the moon and the flowers and the color green and pink and purple. every time i laugh i hear yours echoing close behind. idk i just love knowing that ill always love someone i love being able to feel so certain in at least one part of the future. like. im so scared of everything else but i know in some way youll be there no matter what and that makes everything feel okay for a while

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being debilitatingly touch starved is so embarrassing tbh. like ooo look at me im so big and tough and strong unless someone hugs me and then i completely forget how to function. oooo look im extremely anxious about physical contact and im constantly daydreaming about being held. ooooo look even the slightest touch makes me hyperaware of my skin and i'll cry if someone ruffles my hair. oooooo look i cant sleep without hugging a pillow and being buried under a weighted blanket bc im so lonely that it manifests as physical symptoms. like what??? im literally clinically unloved that's so CRINGE ahdjk

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at least there's gay people

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hold on a second man…

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Id: Heart printed curling ribbon

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Oh, to bite and be bitten

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let’s step carefully into the dark

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yeah they dropped a new love language. yeah a sixth one. its biting

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me n who