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some bunny misses you

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Just because you can take the pain doesn’t mean you deserve to. You don’t have to prove your worth through what you will tolerate. Those who know your worth will be delighted at the opportunity to treat you well and fill your plate.

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Through has got to be my least favorite way out

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part of a recent reflection

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"I do not want to become stronger anymore. I'm weak from all this strength. I just want to be loved."

— Joseph Escobar

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49(안경만두주인장)

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i don’t think people understand how much of life is grief. not just people dying, but losing the version of yourself you thought you’d become. grieving the city you had to leave. the friends you lost not in argument, but in silence. the summer that will never come back. the feeling that maybe you peaked at 12 when you were reading books under the covers and believing in forever

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happy Barely Keeping It Together Wednesday to all who celebrate

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forever celebrating the little things in life because there was a time when i never wanted to wake up

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1P STUDIO 2025SS 𐙚˙⋆.˚ ᡣ𐭩

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Onitsuka Tiger Tai-Chi tigress via kikokurative

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they should invent a being in your twenties in which you do not feel your life is unsalvageable and ruined

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you're not quite an emergency, is the thing. you're just having a bad spell. so what if you can't ever really catch your breath. can't ever really feel at ease. a buzzing, terrible feeling.

but emergencies are loud, and passionate, and hit the floor. you are not a lion or a hurricane, you just live in a pretty okay apartment and your back hurts. you wake up and drag yourself out of bed and banish what if i was dead thoughts like cobwebs. you pick out your clothes and try to stay active. you apply for jobs on the internet.

the anxiety is a wave, and the depression is a spiral. the other stuff keeps things "colorful." you mitigate your symptoms and take your meds when you have them and you try to hang out with friends. you go home and your head is full of riverwater. no matter how much you sleep, you still stay tired. you journal and practice gratitude and build from the bottom upwards. and still, the haunting.

you're not a 911 call or a shriek. you're just staring up at the ceiling and feeling the house settle into your bones. you feel you are playacting as a wolf when you're only a sheep. not quite dry and not quite drowning.

over and over, you slog through the creek.

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to be seen without performing. to be heard without screaming. to be missed without disappearing. to be enough without proving it. to be held without falling apart. to be understood without explaining. to be wanted without conditions. to be. to be.