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No one understands

You hold on praying that this time things will change or that maybe.. just maybe you can be enough to make them want to change. You tell yourself this is their last chance and that you know they are better than this, but the next day, week, month from now, where you at? doing the same things you were that day, you know the one that you told yourself you were going to give him ONE last chance. How many one last chances do you give before you walk away and dont feel the pain anymore, or the guilt of giving up, or the let down or the heart break. and even after you try and walk away, how in the world do you just continue on and act like everything is ok, like you havent completely lost yourself in this world that you have become a part of. how do you go form being around drug deals, and everyone you were around being an addict to, being at a family function and acting like everything is fine because you have been hiding the problem and the addiction for way longer that you ever thought you could. No one stops and things how hard it must be for you to have the motivation to get up everyday and be a mom, wife, family member, aunt, sister, and daughter. no one realizes the shame, hurt, stress, anger, fear, sadness, heartbreak, and lost feeling you have been feeling for too long now, and because you hid it to protect him you now feel like you are alone, and that no one will understand, when you secretly want to shout and yell everything that is on your mind! because no one really understands.