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lately i’ve been missing everyone i’ve ever held close

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i love commitment. i'll be here until my body gives out

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no it doesn’t bother me at all (eating my own heart out)

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I just want passion but it’s like no one wants to be passionate anymore and then life feels so terribly meaningless and i can’t get out of bed

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i say "godspeed, soldier" way too much for someone who puts their faith in neither god nor the military

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love "et cetera" like... theres soooo much more. beyond your wildest imaginations. Not gonna tell u what tho. Move on

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wish i could go missing for a little bit and no one would freak out and then i could come back and they'd be like "did you have fun going missing" and i'd be like "yeah, thanks" and then i could do that every couple of months or so and it wouldn't be a big deal

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Born to be a girl who’s curious about everything forced to be a girl who’s scared of trying anything new

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being paranoid is funny bc like well what if i'm right

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girls will be like hm this song reminds me of the most tragic thing that has happened to me I think I'll listen to it on loop

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and i will write you a song, retell our story, capture you in painting, sketches, pictures. for the moment when we realize we’re destined to be apart will come, you and i will be immortalized. in etched papers, the twang of the guitar, and the gentle strokes of a brush

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once you disappear, may you come back again into my life like the moon waxing after disappearing into the night sky

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just watched videocity, be kind please rewind. it was ok but one line stuck to me.

"Rewind lang, rewind, tapos play. Tapos, magugulat ka dahil napakaganda and napaka-exciting ang takbo nang buhay, ang ganda ulit nang kwento."

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book/story idea: a retelling of my first wlw situationship but where we actually get together becuz itll be the only thing thatll cope me once this ends

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ayun dalawa na sina cha and sandrae

i went to visit my friends on our outing (couldnt come cuz of my broken arm) cuz i needed to give back my costume and i talked to Minmin about how Tinang and her crush seemed to move so fast. like Tinang confessed and the next night, her crush confessed as well.

“yknow, u and swei’s probably the slowest slowburn i have ever seen”

ok yeah, i know we havent gone to the next stage even though weve been talking for almost a year now. but what can i do about it. i mean, im just waiting for her go signal but ugh it fels like its never going to come. but then again, it was my decision to wait even if we talked about how slim the chance i have with her because of alot of reasons, internal and external stuff.

i dont want to say i wasted my time, i hate saying that, but i cant seem to let her go. even the thought of liking another girl doesnt come into my mind. no past, no future can change my view. my present is her and there is where i stay.