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Cool, yeah... and if you hate it-- then I probably will too, and we can leave.  Nothing ventured, nothing gained.  We’re just dipping our toes in or whatever.  Trying to be-- normal human beings and stuff.  Oh man, I’m gonna have to start warming up or something.  How often are they?

See!  Hah, I think everyone’s pretty lame to start. We just gotta figure ourselves out.  Oh... uhm-- y-yeah... I-if you... if you want me to, definitely!

You know – I think you’re right, Lucas. It uh, it wouldn’t hurt to try something out, you know. I mean, as long as I’m not there by m-myself and I know at least one person that would be great. Yeah I uh, y-yeah let me know next time you’re thinking about going and I’ll let you know when the next open mic night is.

I am m-me, yeah. I’m lame, but I’m me. I’ve played for my parents and maybe a friend or two, but n-never a whole audience. If I try it next time will – will you come?

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“That’s a fair fair point." He admitted, studying her features a moment; a small grin faintly teasing his expression. “Fine.” Standing up, he wiped his palms on his pants and looked down. “I’ll get over my trust issues long enough to get out the door, how’s that?  Do I have to change?”

“’but it’s hardly unknown, when ya know me.” She replied with a giggle. “but tha would ruin the surprise. we’re gonna go out and tha’s all i’m sayin’.” 

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“I have faith it’ll come over time.” He said dryly, nodding confidently, completely countering her flirtations. “Uh-- sure, if you want to, I’m all for it.  I’m not actually much of a drinker though.  So, something light will do.” It wasn’t a lie but he realized that drinking a low percentage of alcohol was probably counterproductive. “What’s there to handle?”

“I can teach ya” Bo joked, giving him a playful wink. “Well, fine. Can I buy you a drink then?” she asked, giving a loud sigh. The situation to her was becoming tedious but she felt determined. “Well I’ve been coming here for like ten years, I know it’s a cool place but I’m not sure I could handle living here.”

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“Ahh, but does the ‘do you mean’ feature really stand up against the power of drunk texting? -- These are the pressing questions.” He said, narrowing his eyes as he grinned. “Rocks or-- I dunno, anything that isn’t exactly edible-- none for me, thanks.”   Chuckling, he shook his head, lifting his hand as a way to lessen her guilt. “Y-you... you did the right thing.  If anything your warning would have encouraged him and that’s even worse.  We’ll just stick with being thankful you got outta there.”

“Good thing Google has that do you mean: feature, hmm?” She tried to make a point, but there was no point to be made, sadly. “I don’t know, man. Kids these days don’t make any sense. I don’t understand how you could accidentally swallow things that don’t look or taste good like rocks. Maybe, the poor kid couldn’t wait to see the great things in the search. Anyway, it was a mess waiting to happen and I feel like it would’ve been my fault to not have stopped him. Goodness, I’m horrible.”

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“It’d probably be a good idea to just take a while to relax, Mill.  Adding alcohol to the mix’ll just be a temporary solution-- probably even make it worse.”

“LOOK. I’m fine now. I’m not screaming anymore..and I’m not panicky. Now can you just let me go and have a drink? Please.”

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Hey, you should!  I mean, I wouldn’t really recommend the dances but sometimes they have low key events going on around here that you’d probably find okay.  Maybe if I see something I’ll let you know?  Then maybe you know you won’t be going into it alone. Heh, you’re so kind.  I’ll seriously consider it... I guess.

Uh, no, it’s still pretty cool.  --You’re you, that’s something. Yeah?  I think that’s a normal thing to worry about, but you could try it out.  It seems like a ‘you never know unless you try’ kinda thing.

The gala. So I uh – I h-heard. I mean, I was trapped in the comfort of my room so I suppose it wasn’t so bad. Glad you guys all g-got out okay, though. Maybe next time a dance or something comes around, I’ll uh, I’ll show up for a little while. I’d say don’t worry about those guys, I think it’ll be really nice to hear what you’ve got – even if uh, I do inevitably lose my hearing.

I – yeah, you know, it’s not that cool. I’m not Paul McCartney or Jennifer Hudson, but it’s really relaxing. I’m – it depends on who’s listening, I-I guess. I’m just a bit worried no one’ll want to hear it.

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“Hey, don’t even worry about it.  I’d say it’s a pretty valid question.  --If I’m being honest, I’d say there’re a few but the closest one to here is just up the road.  YoYo’s.”

“Excuse me? sorry to bother you, I was just wondering if you could tell me where the best place to get fro-yo from?”

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A sure grin quickly lifted the edges of his lips. “I guess I’ll start with reliable... independent, confident...” he trailed off, scanning around the dark bottom floor as he considered her question.  Lucas pointed into the abyss of an unlit hallway before taking the lead.  He made sure to keep a slow pace, not wanting to lose her on the way.  As he continued, he tried opening each door along the way. “Adventurous, beautiful, easy going, fearless--” he stopped, almost overlapping his next words with his list “--you are going to be returning this favour right?  I’m not just sucking you off for nothing?” Laughter in his tone, he tried the last door. “Finally!” They reached the kitchen.

“Well now that I think, there’s no problem if you just start as we look for food.” She smiled, walking in front of him. Getting away from the crowd, they headed downstairs and waited for him to walk next to each other as it was dark. “So where from here?” She look up at him, he was still a lot taller than her.

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Uh, yeah-- the gala.  It wasn’t all that bad before I thought I was never gonna get to see my family again.  Probably, your intuition is better than mine.  Then again, I suppose I got to meet a few interesting people on that journey, so... Eh, maybe I’ll swing by and see how judgey the people look.  If I do end up getting up there, just remember that you’re the one who invited me when everyone’s exchanging looks of dismay and inevitable hearing loss.

No way, that’s awesome!  I mean, that you write.  You should really try to play one.  I-if you’re into the idea of sharing them.  There’s gotta be somewhere around here that’d let you.

I suppose, yeah a little bit. I at least get uh, get out of my room. I go from my home to the hotel, hotel to my home – so I definitely understand that. The gala, right? Yeah I uh, I decided to kind of – steer clear of that, for whatever reason. You’re uh, hah, you’re more than welcome to come open for open mic night if y’want. Well yes, I do, but they rather me perform covers, I think.

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“Yeah, I’m not sure how accurate your search tactics would be to type some o’ that stuff whilst intoxicated. I could see the stupid ideas coming out around then though, definitely.” He laughed, almost dismissing her need for justification. Nodding, he squinted in thought, grinning. “All the places you could go to search that kinda stuff, I don’t get where ‘public bus’ came in on the ‘good idea’ side of the spectrum.  It’s probably for the best-- secondhand embarrassment is bad enough not being forced to sit there and wait for it to happen.”

“I don’t know, you could be like drunk or something and accidentally do it… Although, that just sounds stupid. But curiosity and the Internet go hand in hand so it’s way too easy to be tempted, right?” she justified while indirectly defending herself for being one of those curious people. “I was really close to wanting to miss my stop to see the kid’s reaction, but it was clear to imagine it. So it wasn’t really worth it.”

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“Yeah, I never really got a proper lesson on spontaneity, if I’m honest.” He revealed, sarcasm only dampened his tone.  A faint laugh slipped between his grin. “That’s what I’m saying-- a drink first would have been nice, maybe.” Only partially serious, he dropped his gaze back to the floor. “Yeah, that’s what they all say.  We all sort of find a reason to stay here, honestly.  Once it starts to grow on you.”

“Where’s the fun in that?” Bo replied, rolling her eyes playfully. “Missed opportunities my friend.” She was starting to realise that this wasn’t going the way she wanted and was tempted to just walk away but instead she decided to wait. “That’s cool…literally. Uh, I have no idea yet depends on when I feel like leaving. It’s only been like two weeks so I got time.”

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“Alright.” He said, squinting at her, almost as if it were a challenge.  Lucas nodded slowly. “Just give me the go and I’ll start firing them off.” He paused, lifting a finger for the extra measure. “Once the food is found, of course.” Almost on cue, his eyes followed Faye down the hall as she decided to take the lead.  Turning his head back toward the crowd of strangers once more, he laughed before running after her.

“Well I can definitely sit around just for you to boost my ego.” She chuckled playfully. “But right now food is more important.” She lead the way, after finding just a closet. “Well lets go.”

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“Oh god-- y’know, I think it’s safe to say you’re not going to accidentally google any of the things you should avoid googling. Going out of your way to find out is just--” he trailed off, a look of discomfort surfacing momentarily. “You live and learn.  Wait, did you have the misfortune of having to sit through and watch him go through them all or did your stop save you?”

“I was feeling so many levels of uncomfortable today when the kid next to me on the bus googled ‘things I shouldn’t google.’ Poor kid. He’s in for a rough ride. I didn’t tell him anything because a person’s gotta learn and it’s hard to not be curious.”

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Well, at least you get out for your shows or whatever, right?  I’d say that’s pretty far from being lame.  For me, it’s between the ski shop and home, detours are pretty limited.  I don’t really know yet.  I mean, besides this last one-- usually when I get dragged out it’s not as awful as I imagine it.  As long as it’s every once in a while. -- Hah, well, that’s no fun-- watching from afar isn’t nearly as cool as getting up there and showing off.  Especially if you have something worth sharing.  Do you write your own stuff?

That’s – that’s good to know. Feel bad? Yeah, yeah I understand that. It makes me feel even more lame that I-I already am. I don’t think I could r-really ever get used to going out every night, definitely not for me. I’m sure they’d – they’d let you visit, watch from afar. Maybe not sing, though.

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“Eh, I dunno how often I uh-- go nameless into a hookup, really.” He managed as nonchalantly as possible; even surprising himself. “Or implied ones, I guess.” He could sense the girl losing interest, which didn’t exactly put him any more onto the idea of accepting her offer.  Far too many scarily familiar experiences to make any sort of parallel decisions now. “Yeah, I’ve lived here for a couple years now.  How long would you say?”

“Trivial details that could have waited to be known but your name is lovely.” Bo sighed as she started to grow increasingly bored with the conversation. “I’m actually on a long vacation here, do you live here?”