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REMEMBER THAT POST WITH CINDERELLA WHERE HER DRESS CHANGES TO THE COLOR OF YOUR BLOG?

THIS ONE DOES IT TOO!!

I found a bunch more!!

x

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*sitting alone on my bed* *thinks “hm. i can’t keep living like this.”* *keeps living like this*

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not to sound fucked up but i will never be completely at peace until my outer appearance is satisfactory to me

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Anyone else going through a weird time right now? Like you're living between being ok and wanting to die. I'm currently just floating through existence?

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do u ever feel like every single person you care about cares about someone else more

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Honestly one of the worst parts of an eating disorder is knowing otherwise, knowing better. Knowing it’s completely illogical, having that full sense of self awareness and still feeling completely controlled by it. That complete disconnect between facts, feelings and behaviours and being completely unable to consolidate it together.

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I just feel obligated to say this...

… The things I post here are unhealthy. They are bad. If you ever sometimes look at them and think, “That’s crazy,” or “I don’t think I want to do this anymore,” then that’s awesome. And you should hold onto that feeling.

It isn’t weak. It’s strong.

Recovery isn’t fat, or weak. It’s choosing life over death. Because you either recover or die. Ana isn’t forever. 400 calories or less a day isn’t sustainable.

So yes. I am unhealthy. This blog is unhealthy. The mindset required to follow this blog is unhealthy.

You all already know that.

I just wanted to remind all of you that if you ever, ever feel like quitting, it’s okay to quit. Despite the meanspo and the sweetspo, it’s okay. You are not actually a lardass or a fat fucker for deciding to live a real life.

That’s all. 💖

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please please ohhhh my god please please please please please please please please please please

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I don't know who needs to hear this, but if the phrase "self care" doesn't resonate with you, try calling it "system maintenance" and see if that clicks.

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How are you doing?

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i hate it when people ask me to "explain my thought process" like hell if i know

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Nobody notices how sad you are until it turns into anger...........now you crazy and need help

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how the fuck am i supposed to make life decisions i’m not even sure i want to be alive

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it doesnt matter how may people i know, how many friends i have, how many people i talk to… i will always be alone