lucy90712

[lucy90712]

Ooooooh so we’re in the baby mode 🥺

How about when their child wouldn’t wean and they keep crying for milk it’s a very hard part for parents

A fic or hcs whatever you like

"Amor can we talk about something?" I asked 

"Of course baby what's wrong have I done something?" He asked back 

"No you haven't I just wanted to discuss weaning Milo he's 18 months now and I want my body back especially if we want to have a second soon I want some time to be me first" I explained 

"Ok if that's what you want what's there to discuss" he said 

"I just wanted to make sure we're on the same page it's going to be tough he's not drinking as much milk but he has it to sleep and I know it's not going to be an easy transition so I just wanted to make sure you're ok with it before I make a decision that will affect us both" I said 

"I'll go with whatever you want it's your body if you need to stop I support that and we'll do this together remember we're in this together" he said 

"Thank you I love you so much" I said 

"I love you more" he said 

2 weeks later 

Weaning Milo has been the worst idea I think I've ever had. I knew it would be hard but I thought after a few weeks it would begin to get easier but if anything it gets harder. I want to just give in but Pablo has kept encouraging me to keep strong because he knows that I want to have my body back and be my own person again, at least for a little while. Pablo has been great at helping when he can but I'm always the one up with Milo in the middle of the night so that he can sleep, because he needs the rest to be able to play all the games the team have coming up. He always helps at nap time but it doesn't stop the hours of screaming for just an hour of quiet once Milo actually falls asleep. It's so bad that even when there's no screaming I still hear it and I feel like I'm going insane. 

This week Pablo has been away for a few days as the team had a champions league away game so it's been just me and I haven't slept at all. He calls every night and I tell him how bad it's been but he can't fully understand because he's not here. I know he feels bad for being away but it doesn't help, it doesn't stop the screaming and it certainly doesn't let me get some sleep. I wish so badly that I could get a break just for a little bit, Pablo gets breaks for away games and everyday for training while I'm always here but there's no one else to look after Milo when he's not here. 

Pablo is finally coming back today which I'm so excited about because I think I'll have a mental breakdown if I don't have someone to at least be there for moral support. I'm so desperate to just get out the house I offered to pick Pablo up from the airport so that's what we're doing. Milo didn't want to get in his car seat but once I found him a stuffed animal he liked he settled down. He actually fell asleep in the car so when we got to the airport I didn't turn off the car just in case there being no noise woke him up. It was so nice to have just a little break even if it won't last more than 20 minutes these moments stop me going insane. 

My peace lasted until Pablo got to the car and wanted to see Milo who was happy to have him home too. Milo wanted Pablo to sit in the back with him or he'd start crying so I just told him to sit back there and stop the crying. The whole way home Milo was giggling which normally would make me smile but right now it just makes me angry. I've been dealing with an extremely upset baby all weekend and now Pablo's home he's not crying at all which I think makes it look like I've been exaggerating how bad it's been. I know Pablo doesn't think I'm lying because he's been here and seen the constant crying but it definitely feels like I'm the problem, if Pablo can make him laugh and be happy why can't I. 

When we got home we both played with Milo all day because he was so hyped so there was no chance he was going to go down for a nap. Not having a nap meant he was extra tired after dinner so we did bath time quickly and put him down in his crib. He settled for a bit but he didn't fall asleep and then it started. The screaming started and it was so loud that I'm glad our house isn't attached to the neighbours or they'd call the police on us. I tried to leave him and do what they say in all the books I read on weaning but I just couldn't leave him screaming the house down. I tried to just hold him and walk around his room but it didn't really make a difference not until he got so tired from the day and the crying that he just fell asleep. 

Back in our bedroom Pablo was still awake and waiting for me so we could get some sleep. For some reason that was my breaking point and I broke down into tears. Pablo was expecting it even less than I was but still he reacted quickly and pulled me onto the bed and wrapped his arms around me. He wiped my tears until they stopped falling then he played with my hair to help calm me down as he knows that refocuses my mind. 

"What's going through your mind?" He asked 

"I can't do it anymore" I sniffled 

"Can't do what baby" he said 

"I can't deal with the crying and the sleepless nights anymore it doesn't stop and it doesn't get better like all the books say it will I knew it would be hard but I can't cope anymore I didn't sleep the whole time you were gone he's just been so upset constantly and that hurts me to see because I know what will fix it and I'm not giving it to him" I said 

"You should've told me sooner there's things we can do to make this easier on you I can do more and we can get some help from other people so you can have a break I know it's hard now but it will get easier and you've got to remember when it does get better it means you'll have your body back like you wanted" he comforted 

"I can't ask you to do more you need to sleep well to play in all the games I'll be fine the last few days just got to me" I said 

"No you're not fine and you won't be until we do something how about I take over tonight so you can get some sleep because we only have recovery training tomorrow and then we'll think about what else we can do in the morning" he suggested 

"Thank you" I said 

"You don't need to thank me I just want you to be ok" he said giving me a kiss and tucking me into bed 

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After my breakdown Pablo has done everything he can to make things easier for me which includes what he's arranged for today. After he talked to the boys at training a few of them offered to babysit so we can spend a night away from home. I was hesitant at first but I trust the boys so I agreed, although I did feel bad that they'd have to deal with Milo but Pablo assured me they knew what they were in for and were more than willing to help. Pablo organised everything so all I had to do was pack a bag for one night and be ready to go when he got back from training. 

He arrived home a few minutes before Pedri and Ferran arrived and Fermin is coming later so the three of them will work together to take care of Milo. I showed them where everything is and told them the routine which we try to stick to. I warned them that nap time and bedtime won't be easy but they told me not to worry and that they have everything under control which I'm not sure I believe but I know I have to just let go and relax. Since having Milo this will only be my second night away from him so I made sure to give him lots of kisses and cuddles before saying goodbye but even then I still teared up a little as he waved to us as we drove away.

Seeing as we couldn't check into the hotel yet Pablo suggested that we do things we can't do so easily with Milo. A few of those things were boring errands but then we went shopping because going shopping with Milo means trying to get in and out in record time. Once we entered the mall Pablo decided to tell me he had made a reservation at a fancy restaurant for dinner and of course I didn't pack an appropriate outfit so I had to go find a dress to wear. After I tried on a few dressed and watched Pablo drool over all of them I realised that he didn't tell me on purpose so he could watch me try on pretty dresses and hype me up in the process. By the time Pablo well and truly spoiled me it was past check in time so we went straight to the hotel. 

In the hotel we got to actually relax and enjoy a bit of time together watching tv and I think I fell asleep for a bit too. Then it was time to get ready for dinner, I didn't bring much makeup but I made do with what I had in hopes that the outfit would make up for it. I managed to do my zip up myself but for some reason my necklace was giving me trouble so I went to find Pablo. When I went into the room Pablo was sat on the bed looking as good as ever, he looked so good I had to just stop and stare for a minute until he noticed me. 

"Wow you look amazing that dress looks even better now than it did in the shop" he complimented

"Thank you you look so hot I just want to stare at you" I said 

"You can stare as much as you like I'm all yours tonight" he teased 

"I like the sound of that in the mean time can you help with my necklace?" I asked 

"Of course" he said 

Dinner was amazing the food was good but what I enjoyed the most was just getting to spend quality time together. Our date nights are usually at home and are often interrupted but tonight it was just us which was so nice. Pablo treated me like a princess the entire night too every door was opened for me, he pulled my chair out for me and he got a nice bottle of wine for us to drink even though he's not hugely keen on it. After dinner we went back to the hotel and did the exact opposite of what most people would do when without their child for the night; we both got straight into bed and went to sleep because that's what I needed most. 

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Before going home to our son Pablo suggested we go to breakfast so that's what we did but by the time we were done I was ready to get back to Milo. When we got home Milo ran over straight away screaming mama which just melted my heart. He got all the cuddles he wanted while the boys told us about the night. To no one's surprise they had a hard time with Milo but he did get some sleep and so did they which is about as much as I could ask for. 

We went about our day as normal until it got to bedtime which had me taking a deep breath before doing. Pablo joined me as I laid Milo down and read him a story before trying to leave the room which is when it usually goes downhill. This time there was no screaming or crying instead Milo just asked for a kiss from both of us then settled down. It felt like a miracle but I still wasn't convinced it would stay that way. For the next few hours I just stared at the baby monitor but he didn't stir once he just slept like an angel.

"See love I told you it would all work out in the end" Pablo said 

"I know it feels like such a relief the worst is finally over" I said 

"You did so well with all of this I'm so proud of you not many people would've persevered for so long" he said 

"Thank you it does feel pretty good" I smiled 

"As it should Milo is lucky to have such an amazing mama" Pablo said kissing me 

We spent the night celebrating our little parenting win in our own way which was a night in front of the tv watching our favourite show. To some that might seem silly but for us it was the perfect way to put the last few weeks behind us. 

[lucy90712]

Morning sickness

Gavi: 

My morning sickness hasn't been great during my pregnancy I have good days and bad days. The good days still aren't great as I do spend most of my time feeling at least a little nauseous but the bad days are hell. The bad days are never consistent either I can go a few weeks feeling pretty good and then all of a sudden I feel awful and I don't want to get out of bed.

Pablo is always great at helping me on bad days even when he's busy he always finds a way to help. Today he has a busy day with training and then a shoot with Nike but like he always does he checked on me before he left, but when I didn't answer him and ran to the bathroom instead we both knew today was going to be one of those bad days. He couldn't stay long as he can't be late to training but until the last second he sat on the bathroom floor with me rubbing my back and making sure my hair was out my face. Before he left he helped me back into bed and promised he'd be home as soon as possible. True to his word he was home as soon as he physically could be he was right back by my side. He got me a glass of water and some crackers as I need to eat but I also don't want to as I know I'm just going to throw it back up. 

For the rest of the day we just laid together on the sofa with me running to the bathroom every so often and each time he followed right behind me. He always tells me he feels awful that I have to go through this because of him which isn't entirely true as we both were involved in making the baby and the decision to keep it. Even though I tell him that it doesn't stop him feeling bad and wishing he could take away all the awful symptoms. As much as him wanting to take away my symptoms does nothing I appreciate the sentiment behind it as it just proves that he's going to be an amazing caring dad. 

Pedri: 

My morning sickness has been the least of my worries during my pregnancy there has been so many other things going on and my other symptoms like heartburn have been so much worse. What helps is that most of my sickness has come from food aversions so I know what to avoid so that I don't feel sick. Of course there are times that I develop a new aversion so I feel a bit sick then but generally I have it under control which makes my life so much better. I know I'm lucky not to have awful sickness as a lot of women do so I am very grateful as when I do feel sick it's an awful feeling. 

As I don't have awful sickness I still love to cook dinner. Cooking has always been my thing it's something I enjoy and Pedri loves my cooking so it's something I do for him as he does so much for me. It can be a challenge with his diet but I like that it's fun coming up with new recipes that work with his diet and taste good. For once Pedri is actually home as I cook dinner so he's been helping me as I try a new recipe I found. He was keeping an eye on something on the stove as I chopped up some vegetables, I'd already cut an onion then I picked up a tomato but as soon as I cut into it the smell made me feel extremely nauseous. I tried to keep going but the nausea was too much so I put the knife down and went straight to the bathroom. Pedri was right behind me and he pulled my hair back and put it up in the hairband he keeps on his wrist. He gently rubbed my back until I sat back up against the bathroom cabinet. He made sure I was ok before going to check on the food so we don't start a fire but he came back with a glass of water for me to sip. 

Pedri took over cooking under my instructions and he modified the recipe to take the tomato out so we could both eat it. When he wasn't needed in the kitchen he was by my side making sure I felt ok. He also promised to take over making dinner until my food aversions get better as he doesn't want me getting sick if he's not there to help out. 

Jude:

Morning sickness has been a killer for me so far in my pregnancy. It just seems to never go away whoever called it morning sickness is playing a cruel joke as I don't think I've ever just felt sick just in the morning. I wake up feeling nauseous and I go to bed feeling nauseous it's just how I live my life at the moment. I'd like to say that I'm used to it but I'm really not everyday is a struggle. Doing some simple things like eating is really hard for me as nothing ever sounds good but I know I have to eat for the baby but it can be really difficult some days. 

Jude is really good at helping with my sickness as much as he can whenever he's home he takes over all the things I would usually do including making dinner which makes eating it a bit easier as I haven't been smelling it for the last hour. He also will just sit with me quietly if I'm feeling worse than usual stroking my hair and helping me breathe through the worst of the nausea in hopes that I won't throw up, even though I usually do. More often than not I wake up in the middle of the night feeling incredibly sick and tonight was one of those nights at 3am I woke up suddenly and had to rush to the bathroom. A few seconds later a very sleepy Jude followed behind me but he got straight on the floor behind me rubbing my back and making sure I was ok. He gently kissed behind my ear as I sat back up which made me feel a little better but I still felt awful. 

All of the sickness has really been getting to me throughout my pregnancy I just don't want to feel sick anymore and I hate living my life in a constant state of nausea. Waking up like this most nights and hardly being able to eat just isn't fun any more it's just too much. A few tears left my eyes which Jude quickly wiped up before asking what was wrong so I told him that I'm just done with the sickness. He tried his best to make me feel better but he also just let me be a bit emotional about it as he knows it's hard but he helped me realise that it won't last forever which made me feel a little bit better. 

Joao:

So far in my pregnancy I've been very lucky and I haven't felt sick at all really. Some days I feel a little nauseous but it's nothing awful and it usually goes away within a few hours. I know this makes me very lucky so when I do feel a little sick I never really mention it as I don't want to sound like I'm complaining as I really don't have anything to complain about. I haven't even mentioned it to Joao even though he'd be supportive and wouldn't think I'm complaining I just don't feel the need to as I know it won't be long until I feel better. My odd days of sickness have become my own internal struggle which I'm ok with as I know there will be other struggles later on that I'll share with Joao. 

When I woke up a few hours ago I felt a bit nauseous but I kept going and made myself breakfast which was really hard to eat and then got ready thinking I'd feel better by the end of it but I didn't. I did a few others things around the house but I still didn't feel better even after that and it took me a few hours which is usually all it takes for me to feel fine. Joao arrived home not long after and straight away he asked me what was wrong. He's learnt to read my body language so well that he can always tell when something is wrong with me. I didn't want to say it but it didn't take him long to get it out of me and when he did he went straight to the kitchen and got me some sprite as he'd heard that can help with sickness. I had no idea we had sprite or that he'd researched how to help nausea as otherwise I'd have told him about my sickness as maybe he could help me find something to feel better. He gave me no choice other than to sit on the sofa and slowly drink sprite while he sorted his training stuff out and then made us some food for lunch which he made as plain as possible as not to make me feel any worse. 

Joao's sprite trick really worked within an hour I felt so much better and we could go about our day as normal. When I admitted that this wasn't the first time I've felt like this he made me promise that I won't hide things like that any more. He told me that he doesn't care if I complain to him about any little pain or anything like that as he knows pregnancy is hard and he wants to support me as best he can. 

Ruben:

Sickness has killed me in my pregnancy so far I've never felt worse in my life it's unbearable. There never seems to be any sort of relief the nausea never seems to go away and it never seems to ease either. Every day I feel so sick but as long as I don't actually throw up it's a good day or only throw up once or twice is pretty good. There are times that I've been so ill that Ruben has nearly taken me to the hospital to make sure that I'm ok and could get some medication or just be rehydrated but I have refused to go as I don't want to end up in the hospital.

Ruben is always worried about me to the point that he has done so much research into ways to help morning sickness which I've tried all of as well as any pregnancy safe anti sickness medications none of which have worked. Even though everything I've tried hasn't worked Ruben never stops trying to find new things even if just one person has recommended it he'll have me try it to see if it can help me too. Because none of those things have worked I still have awful sickness but Ruben is by my side as much as he can be. Instead of doing fun things together on his rare days off like today Ruben instead has to sit with me as I sit on the bathroom floor feeling worse than I've felt all week. I feel awful that we can't do anything together but he tells me that he doesn't care he just wants to sit with me until I feel better. From 5am this morning I've been sat in the bathroom right next to the toilet with Ruben right by my side. I tired to go back to bed but I didn't even make it out the bathroom before I felt the need to throw up again. 

For the entire day we sat on the bathroom floor Ruben even brought in blankets and pillows so that I'd be more comfortable. Even though I felt awful and could barely keep down a glass of water Ruben made me feel better as he kept me entertained all day and he had me laughing which is something he's really good at. Without Ruben I think I would have gone insane but he has kept my spirits up and made sure that I don't let all of this affect me too much mentally as he knows that things will be so much harder if I get myself down about it too. It's difficult but having Ruben has made dealing with this extreme amount of sickness a whole lot more bearable.

[lucy90712]

Brother’s teammate

Pablo Gavi. The best and worst thing to ever happen to me. I've known him since I was a kid when him and Fermin both joined La masia but it was only more recently that things changed. A bit over a year ago we started talking outside of when he was over with Fermin or after matches, which of course evolved into more and now we've been dating for nearly 6 months. He's the best boyfriend he treats me so well he's always affectionate and attentive, he's even learnt how to help me with my anxiety which has been useful on many occasions. 

The hardest part is keeping all of this a secret from Fermin. Ideally we wouldn't keep anything from him but we both know that things would blow up if he knew. With us being twins he's always been protective of me which I do appreciate as it's stopped people bullying me in school but it means he will kill Pablo if he knows we are together. Both of us have talked about telling Fermin many times but every time we think better of it as I don't want to ruin my relationship with him or Pablo's as the two of them have been befriends since they are kids. Pablo is also aware that if he falls out with Fermin it could affect the team if they have to play together so we keep sneaking around. Obviously we will have to tell Fermin at some point but both of us are agreed that we wait as long as possible. 

The sneaking around is hard especially now we are comfortable in our relationship and not just going on the odd date. I want nothing more than to just be able to cuddle up with Pablo of an evening when he's over here or kiss him after a good match but I can't. Instead whenever he comes over to be with Fermin he'll sneak off every now and then to see me or he'll sneak kisses when Fermin isn't in the room. If I want to spend the night with him I have to say I'm staying with my best friend who is the only person who knows about me and Pablo so she can help us keep our relationship secret. Sometimes it's fun living in our own little bubble not having anyone disturb us so when we are together we really get to enjoy each other's company. We can't go out for date nights but I still enjoy the time we spend together; we cook together and watch movies and Pablo tries his best to still make it romantic which he's very good at. 

Usually when Pablo comes over I stay out the way so that there's less risk of either of us accidentally letting it slip or Fermin noticing a weird vibe between. However today Fermin insisted I hang out with him and Pablo because I've been really busy with uni work and he wants me to relax and have some fun. What he doesn't know is that I've been more stressed about having to spend the day with both him and Pablo than I have all of my assignments and exams. Originally Fermin wanted it to be just us because we haven't had a day just the two of us in a long time but he already had plans with Pablo so now I'm just joining them. 

Fermin wanted us all to go out for breakfast which meant I had to get up and get ready. I've lost a lot of sleep studying so I was still half asleep picking my outfit. I was so tired I nearly picked one of Pablo's hoodies to wear over my outfit but luckily I realised what I was doing and picked a different jacket. Still I put on the bracelet that Pablo got me for my birthday because Fermin will never notice my jewellery and I never go anywhere without it. By the time I was ready Fermin was already waiting for me downstairs so we got in his car and I stole the aux before he even had the chance to turn the car on. He gave me a look but ultimately let me play my music because sometimes he's nice to me. 

When we arrived Pablo had just pulled up too so the boys did their little handshake then Pablo gave me a quick hug and whispered 'hi baby'  in my ear which made me blush. I tried to hide the blush from Fermin but I just know he noticed which made me nervous that he'll pay extra attention to my interactions with Pablo for the rest of the day. For some reason we were given a table for four people even though there were tables for three available. The hostess places three menus on the table and Fermin and Pablo sat across from each other leaving me to sit next to Pablo. It kind of felt like I was being pranked like Fermin set this up to test if either of us will slip up and give ourselves away. It made me wonder if he already knows that we've been hiding our relationship which has me more on edge than I already was. 

Breakfast went by without any more disasters in fact we didn't even so much as accidentally bump elbows the entire time. The only time we touched was when Fermin went to the bathroom and Pablo put his hand on my thigh and reassured me that Fermin wouldn't find out. After we left the cafe I got back in the car with Fermin so we could go back home where Pablo is going to join us for a pool day. 

Part of me hoped that I could just go to my room and stay there without Fermin noticing but after just 10 minutes he text me asking where I was. To play it off like I wasn't trying to run off I had to put on a bikini with a tie back so I could make it look like I was trying to do it myself the whole time. By the time I made it down to the pool Fermin had disappeared leaving just me and Pablo. 

"Can you tie the back of my bikini?" I asked him shyly 

"Of course" he smiled 

As soon as his hands touched my back I felt goosebumps all over my body. Every time he touches me I feel like electricity is flowing through my body I don't really know why but he always has such an intense affect on me which I now have to hide. He tried to be quick but I could feel him fumbling when trying to tie a bow which I should've seen coming knowing he doesn't even tie his own shoelaces. 

"Hey get your hands off my sister" Fermin yelled out of nowhere 

"I-I'm sorry bro she just needed her top tied" Pablo panicked taking a few steps away from me

"I'm joking man don't worry" Fermin laughed 

"I'm glad you've finally joined us sis I thought you were avoiding us" he laughed 

I didn't even register what he said because I was panicking about what he saw before he yelled at us. Is he testing us? Does he already know about our relationship and is seeing if we'll slip up? Surely he can't know we've been so careful. Apart from the time I left my phone on the sofa and came back to a few texts from Pablo what if Fermin saw. He's going to hate me if he finds out how long we've been hiding this from him, he'll probably kick me out or he won't speak to either of us. We should've just told him when we first started to get serious because now no matter when we tell him or when he finds out he'll be so mad not just at the fact that we are dating but also the fact we've lied for so long. 

"You two are being so weird today what are you hiding from me?" Fermin asked clearly joking but I was too deep into my panic to pick up on it 

I tried my best not to panic but I'd already got in my head and the comments Fermin kept making about us only made it worse. Before I knew it my breathing got out of my control and I was gasping for air which only made me panic more even though I was trying to calm myself down. My eyes were going blurry too which happens when I have a proper panic attack along with my hands shaking which is usually an indicator that it's going to be a bad one that I can't just calm down from on my own. 

Fermin came over and sat on the grass next to me trying to ask me what's going on but I couldn't answer as I didn't have enough air in my lungs. He didn't know what to do because I've never had a panic attack in front of him before; he knows I have them but he's just never been here when I've had one. He tried his best but it just didn't help. The next thing I knew Pablo sat the other side of me and grabbed both my hands and got me to look at him. I then watched as he traced his fingers along the palms of my hands to get me focused on something else. I then followed his breathing until I was a lot calmer and the worst of my panic attack subsided. 

Without really thinking I rested against his chest and let him hold me while I come back down from my panic. I felt safe in his arms like I was protected from the world and all my problems even though my problem was sat right next to me. He pressed a quick kiss to the top of my head which is what brought me back to reality and I realised that if Fermin didn't know before he definitely did now but part of me didn't care at all. 

"So what's going on between you two?" Fermin asked 

"We're dating and we have been for the last 6 months I'm sorry we didn't tell you sooner but neither of us wanted you to be mad at us I know how protective you are of y/n" Pablo explained 

"I want to be mad but I can't, not after seeing how much you care about my sister and how well you know her but I still can't believe you hid it from me for so long that hurts" he said

"I'm sorry we definitely should've just been brave and told you but we just didn't want to ruin everything and I was scared that you would stop talking to me which I didn't think I could cope with" I said 

"Its ok I understand your reasoning and I'll get over it as long as you guys are happy and you are really serious about this I'm ok with it" Fermin said 

"We are I love her more than anything" Pablo said 

"Good but if you hurt her just know you're dead" Fermin said completely seriously 

"I don't plan on ever doing that so that's fine with me" Pablo laughed 

I gave Fermin a hug and thanked him for not getting mad and in return he picked me up and threw me in the pool which for once I didn't care about because I'm just glad he's not mad at me. Now I have the perfect life with the best boyfriend and brother. 

[lucy90712]

Hi I recently discovered you and absolutely in love with your writing. Could I request for a protective bf/fiancée Pedri

"Hey baby how was your first week of work?" Pedri asked 

"It was good most people were really nice and they only questioned my knowledge twice" I joked 

"Only most were nice" he questioned 

"Everyone but this one guy John who I guess was nice but too nice he kept sort of hitting on me" I said 

"Only sort of" he said 

"Ok fine he was hitting on me I tried to tell him I was engaged but it doesn't help that I can't wear my ring with all the chemicals, I just ignored him though" I said  

"I know you can handle yourself but make sure you keep a record of everything he does and tell me so if he goes too far you can tell someone" Pedri said being the sensible person he is 

"I'm one step ahead of you" I said waving a notebook in front of him 

"That's my girl" he smiled 

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"Amor you have to go to hr or something it's not fair that you have to put up with a guy flirting with you all day while you're trying to work" he said

"You won't like hearing that he likes to have his hands around on waist unnecessarily when he walks behind me" I said 

"Ok that's it you have to go to hr he's assaulting and harassing you now" pedri said getting mad but not at me 

"I'll get fired he's the head of the team and I'm the newest member he'll deny everything and call me crazy then I'll get fired and I'm not going to have that on my record or I won't get a good job anywhere else" I said 

"Thats not fair baby" he said 

"Believe me I know but I can't change that I just need to ride it out for a bit longer until it doesn't look like I just quit straight away" I said 

"How long will that be?" He asked 

"Probably a year" I said 

"You'll put up with it for a year" he questioned 

"For my career I will that's more important to me than some dickhead I won't let him ruin my career" I said 

"I admire your dedication you truly are amazing" he said 

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"I'm really not looking forward to meeting this guy I don't know if I'll be able to stop myself punching him if he even says a single word to you" Pedri said as he zipped up my dress 

"Well you'll have to I need to make a good impression if I want the top researchers to take me seriously and allow me to help in further research on my breakthrough" I said 

"I will do my best but I'm not leaving your side for a single second" he said 

"I wouldn't want you to I want to show off my fiancé too" I smiled 

He handed me my jacket which is actually his but over time I've adopted as mine and we got in his car to head to the hotel the event is being held at. When we parked outside I suddenly got the same feeling of dread I get before I go into work, all of it caused by this stupid idiot John and his inability to take a hint. Every time he flirts with me my perseverance diminishes and I get closer and closer to quitting, then I remember I have to keep going for my career. Tonight is going to be a real test, at work I can ignore him and move his hands away but in front of everyone else I can't I have to act like it doesn't bother me. 

Pedri held my hand tightly as we entered the big hall which made me feel better. The first person we saw was my favourite co worker Sally who always helps me when I need it. I introduced her to Pedri and they both gushed about how amazing I am which had me blushing like crazy but it made me feel good about myself. Next thing I knew John was making his way over and I felt all the colour drain from my face and my heart drop, as this is when I find out what he'll do when he finally meets the fiancé he doesn't seem to believe I have. 

My plan was to warn Pedri when John was coming to talk to me but it seems that I didn't need to as before I could say anything his arm went around my waist and he held me close to him. The tension in the air was so thick it was almost suffocating, but that could also be the fact that I think I was holding my breath. John had his usual smug smile on his face as he came over and handed me a drink which I just put down as I don't entirely trust him to not do something to it. For a few seconds he just stared at Pedri and Pedri stared back, it was almost like they were sizing each other up which had me a little worried.

"So this is the fiancé you are always telling me about" John mused sarcastically 

"Yes this is Pedri" I said 

"John right I hear a lot about you" Pedri said 

John offered his hand but Pedri didn't take it which visibly annoyed John. 

"You know I always thought she was lying I mean she never wears that ring I know if she were my fiancé I'd want her wearing it at all times so everyone knows she's mine" John said 

"Well she doesn't want to damage it at work with all the chemicals as it's special to her I mean the ring is custom made so it's one of a kind for my one of a kind woman" Pedri said 

Things were definitely as awkward and tense as I thought they would be but Pedri's arm around my waist made me feel safe around John for once. I was really hoping someone else would come and talk to us and save us from the awkwardness but I have no such luck. He kept going on and on basically admitting all of the things he does to me while at work which I could tell was making Pedri mad. I always tell him everything that happens but to hear it from the guy making my life hell in such a casual way was definitely killing him inside, especially knowing he can't say anything because he promised me he'd stay calm. His grip on my waist only got tighter hearing everything completely unfiltered because I do try and tone it down when telling Pedri so he doesn't go and quit for me. 

I don't really know how it happened but somehow Pedri gradually got taken away from me to talk to other people leaving me alone with John. It took John a matter of minutes before he started getting really flirty with me again even though he's just met Pedri he's just so insistent. As he flirted he came closer and closer until he was stood right by my side then his hand started to slide along my waist like he was trying to be secretive and hope I wouldn't notice. I so desperately wanted to just yell at him to get his hand off me but I can't in front of all these people, but Pedri can so I was just wishing for him to notice I needed help. John's hand then went to my ass and I just froze I should've moved or slapped him or maybe both but I just couldn't I was stuck like my shoes were glued to the floor. 

"Hey take your hands off my fiancée" Pedri yelled from across the room 

John persisted almost pretending that he didn't recognise Pedri's voice.

"Stop touching her I was over here 5 minutes ago you know she's taken plus that's assault so get your hands off her" Pedri seethed 

"What is going on here?" the ceo came over and asked 

"This guy has been harassing my fiancée ever since she started working for your company and now he's just sexually assaulted her in front of everyone" Pedri said standing up for me because he knows I won't 

"John is this true?" The ceo asked 

"She didn't tell me to stop and I didn't know she was engaged" John lied 

"I've told you a million times I'm engaged and you were talking to Pedri like 5 minutes ago and I never ever consented to you touching me I didn't stop you because I was scared but that's not consent" I said not being able to hold it in anymore 

"Let's take this conversation elsewhere" the ceo suggested 

We were taken to different room where Pedri pulled me into his arms and just stroked my back to make sure I was ok. I melted into his embrace and let the tears I've been holding in over all of this go because I finally felt safe and like something would change. I didn't realise that this whole thing had effected me so much until I couldn't get the tears to stop, but Pedri was right there to comfort me and tell me it will all be ok which is exactly what I needed to hear. It finally felt like this nightmare was ending even if it had to happen in front of everyone at the company at least it's over now. 

By the time someone came into the room I'd stopped crying and Pedri had wiped the mascara from my face so I looked somewhat presentable. Still he kept his arm around my waist very protectively like the ceo was going to take me away from him which will literally never happen. 

"Having spoken to John we now have the full story but personally I would just like to know what solution to this you would like" the ceo said 

"At the very least I don't want to be working with John again but I'd prefer for him to be let go so he can't do this to anyone else if this doesn't happen I will be leaving" I said standing up for myself 

"We have already let John go and I would be willing to offer you a raise if you will stay with us and not bring this to the media we appreciate your talent and don't want to lose you" the ceo said 

"I'll have to think through that offer" I said 

"Of course I hope to hear from you soon" he said leaving me and Pedri alone again 

"You're not staying here they just don't want you to go telling anyone what happened they don't care one but about how you feel they just care about looking good" Pedri raged 

"I know I'll hand in my notice on Monday and start looking for a new job in the meantime" I said 

"How about you take some time out you have the rest of your life to have a career but I think you need some time away to let yourself heal from everything that's happened the last 6 months" Pedri suggested 

"You know what I'm on board with that and I can travel the world with you" I said 

"We'll have so much fun together and you'll never have to think about that horrible man ever again" Pedri smiled 

"Thank you for protecting me" I said 

"Thats my job I'll always be here to keep you safe" he smiled 

[lucy90712]

Can you write angst with jude where reader feels insecure and feeling low in general. Jude has been super busy with his career and they haven’t had much time to spend together. She feels pretty lonely in this and doesn’t tell Jude bc she is embarrassed and also feels like he won’t understand. One day, jude overhears her talking about surgery with her friend, as her friend got this particular procedure done. Jude realises and is heartbroken by this and asks reader if this is true? He reassures and tells her that she is beautiful, and apologises for not being there for her but he will always be here whenever she needs to talk. He doesn’t pressure into not getting sure but promises to be supportive whatever she chooses. I think this a bit deep but I like the concept ☺️

I’m sorry but I don’t feel comfortable writing this. I don’t think saying surgery is the solution for insecurities is a good message to send so I won’t be writing this.

[lucy90712]

Can you write angst with Jude where you guys get into a huge argument (maybe something big) and he is in the wrong and he says some pretty nasty things and then maybe you leave your shared house and stay over at a friend’s. Jude realises his faults and comes over and makes it up to you. End with pure fluff please

"What am I supposed to do mum I don't think he's doing anything bad but he just never quite tells me the truth" I said down the phone exasperated at the situation 

"What isn't he telling you?" She asked 

"If he's going out or if he's back late from training he won't tell me where he's going or if he does he isn't telling me the truth because I can see his location plus people take pictures and sometimes he'll tell me he's with his friends but then I find out he's not and he's out on his own" I said 

"Are you sure he's not cheating?" She asked 

"I don't think so when he's at home he's no different to how he usually is he's still affectionate and puts effort into our relationship plus he doesn't hide his phone from me or anything, maybe I'm just being delusional" I said 

"I don't think you are the lying isn't great but if he still treats you right then I would say he's not cheating he never seemed the type to cheat to me" she said 

"I just don't know what to do I feel like I should say something but I'll feel stupid if he has a good reason" I said 

"I wish I could help you darling but it's your relationship I would say think on it and if it really bothers you and continues to play on your mind then just ask him about in a way that hopefully won't start an argument" she advised 

"Thank you mum I'll call you tomorrow" I said 

"Good luck darling" she said 

I was hoping that calling my mum would make me feel better but it really hasn't. For weeks I've been hoping this situation would just solve itself but of course I'm not that lucky. For the first few weeks I thought Jude was sneaking around to arrange stuff for my birthday, but that has come and gone and he's still lying to me about where and who he's with. I really don't think he's cheating on me but that might be because I just don't want to believe it if I don't think about it then maybe it's not true but the longer this goes on the more I have to wonder what he's hiding. The thing that made me call my mum was that Jude didn't come home until after I'd gone to bed last night when he said he'd be home for dinner and it just gave me an awful feeling. I just needed someone to tell me that I'm not crazy for thinking Jude should be telling me what he's up to. 

As I ate breakfast downstairs on my own I saw Jude's phone on the coffee table where he'd obviously forgotten to bring it upstairs last night. I wanted so badly to go through it and get my answer as to what he's been doing but if it really is nothing I'll feel awful and I know Jude would be mad at me for not trusting him. He seemed to get a text every few minutes which was just taunting me even more until I couldn't resist anymore. I told myself I'd only look at the texts on his lock screen and if they were from his friends that would be the end of it. As I was looking through the messages were mostly from his teammates and were all innocent but then a new text popped up which activated my fight or flight. It was from his ex the one he had to promise he wasn't still seeing when we first started our relationship. 

Hey Jude last night was great I'm so glad you liked it 

There was nothing innocent about those words, I couldn't think if a single reason he should be seeing her let alone receiving that text the next day. I wasn't really sure whether to cry or to go and yell at him. I really never thought he'd cheat on me but maybe that was just naive I mean so many people warned me that footballers aren't the most loyal, but I thought Jude was different. We've been together for long enough now that I thought I didn't have to worry about him getting with anyone else, I mean he begged me to move to Madrid with him and stupidly I thought that meant something. 

Before I could decide what reaction I was going to have Jude stumbled downstairs clearly still waking up. Seeing him so nonchalant when he knows what he did made me so angry so before I could stop myself I marched up to him and gave him the best death stare I could. 

"Are you ok you look really mad" Jude said 

"Of course I'm mad not only have you been lying to me about where you go and who you're with for weeks you're now texting your ex" I said 

"I'm not texting my ex" he blatantly lied 

"Don't you dare lie to me Jude I saw the text pop up on your phone, last night was so great I'm so glad you liked it" I mocked 

"You are so dramatic sometimes it's literally nothing" he said 

"How can you tell me it's nothing when you lied straight to my face when I first brought it up" I started to yell getting frustrated at him 

"Because I knew you'd go psycho about it and I didn't want to deal with that" he said 

"You know what Jude just be honest with me are you cheating on me?" I asked 

"I knew you'd ask that no I'm not but I feel like you're projecting your guilt for cheating onto me" he said 

"You have to be kidding me I've been nothing but loyal to you and who do you even think I would cheat with I have no friends because you dragged me away from all of mine like the selfish asshole you are" I retaliated maybe going a bit too far but I was just so mad 

"At least I'm not a bitch like you" he said 

That was enough for me I simply just walked away and left. I didn't bring anything other than my phone and my car key because I couldn't be in that house for any longer. In the driveway was Jude's car, the new car he gave me when I moved here and my trusty old mini which I worked hard and bought for myself when I was 17. I still keep the key for the mini with the rest of my keys so I decided to get in that car as it doesn't remind me of Jude nor does it smell like him like my other car does. Just being in there made me feel free it brought back memories of driving my friends around and blasting music or sitting with the boot open to watch the sunset all of which I did before I even met Jude. Thinking back to those simpler times lifted a slight weight off my shoulders until I stopped outside just about my only friend in the city's place. I didn't call or text her when I decided I was coming here but I know as soon as I tell her what's happened she'll let me stay as long as I need which is exactly the type of friend I need right now. 

Just as I predicted she opened the door and as soon as I said the words Jude and argument I was dragged inside and had a coffee in my hands within minutes. I haven't told her about Jude's lying before so I started by telling her about that then I told her everything that happened this morning. The longer I went on the closer her jaw got to the floor which isn't a good thing as she isn't one to react to gossip or a story like this she usually just nods along and waits to give her opinion. When I met her and told her I was dating Jude she was cautious as she's lived in Madrid long enough to know some people who've been hurt by footballers but once she met Jude she changed her mind now I think we're both thinking her first assessment was correct. 

"You're staying here tonight we can have a girls day to make you feel better then tomorrow you are going back there and ending things with him I'll come with you and we'll get some of your stuff so you can stay here while you figure things out" she said 

"Should I not try and and have a rational conversation with him and talk this through" I said 

"No he's been lying to you for weeks, texting his ex and he called you a bitch you deserve better a beautiful girl like you deserves a man who will worship the ground you walk on not some asshole footballer" she said 

"You're right but lets forget about that for now I don't want to think about Jude for a bit" I said 

"Lets go get our nails done and maybe get massages that'll make you feel better" she said 

"I like that idea" I smiled 

She dragged me out her house and back to my car so we could put the roof down and blast music. Everyone else on the road probably thought we were so annoying but I didn't care I had fun and it helped me forget about everything with Jude. We went to the spa first to see if they had any availability for massages which they did so we both got massages. I didn't realise just how tense I had been recently until there was someone working out all the knots, the person doing my massage even asked if I'd been under a lot of stress recently. Afterwards I felt so much lighter like a weight has truly been lifted off my shoulder. Next I was whisked away to the nail salon which is when I realised that at some point I must've bitten all my nails off as they looked awful but thankfully acrylics exist so my nails turned out great. 

After spending most of the day out we headed back home joking and laughing until I parked my car and saw Jude sat on the front step of my friend's house. I froze still sat in the car not knowing whether I should get out and talk to him or drive away again and just hope he didn't see me. My friend told me she could tell him to leave if I wanted but I couldn’t bring myself to tell her to make him go. 

It's stupid but I really love Jude and want to make it work with him. I also still don't think he'd actually cheat on me despite the evidence being stacked against him, he never seemed the type to cheat and I thought he really loved me. Deep down I know I won't be able to get over Jude if I don't at least talk to him properly without yelling I just need the truth or else I'll aways be thinking about what really happened. Still I'm not sure if now is the right time for that conversation I'm still feeling really hurt by not just what he did but also what he said. If we have to have this talk I need to be the right headspace which I'm not sure that now is that time but I guess the opportunity is right there so I shouldn't really say no. 

After talking it over quickly with my friend I decided I'd hear Jude out so she wished my luck and headed inside her house waiting for me if I needed her. When I saw Jude I could see that he was sorry just by the look in his eyes but whether he was actually sorry or just sorry he got caught is a whole different thing. When I got closer to him he reached out to grab my hand but I pulled away not wanting to let him touch me because I am still hurt by what he did. 

"I'm so sorry baby I shouldn't have yelled at you you were right to be mad I've not honest with you and stupidly I thought I was getting away with it so when you confronted me I freaked out especially when you thought I was cheating because I promise you I'm not" he explained 

"How can I even start to believe you when you admit that you've been lying to me I want to believe you wouldn't cheat on me but with the lying and the text from your ex its really hard to believe" I said 

"There is a reason for everything I've been doing I promise and it will be explained but I can't tell you yet or it will ruin everything I've got planned" he said 

"Jude I want to believe you but what you are saying makes it so hard to I just want an explanation and if there really is an explanation for all of this then we can work things out but it just feels like you are hoping you can say anything and I'll believe it" I said starting to break down a little bit 

"I'm so sorry baby please come home and we can talk more about it" he said 

"Ok but I want an explanation I don't care if it ruins what you've got planned there will be no plans to ruin if you don't tell me because I'm going back home" I said 

He seemed to accept that he had to tell me. Before we both got back in our cars he wiped the tears that has escaped my eyes and pressed a kiss to my forehead which only made my heart ache more than it already does. I couldn't even bring myself to listen to music in the car I just sat alone with my thoughts thinking about what I'm going to do if Jude and I are really over. 

When I got back home Jude's car was already there so I just took a second before getting out of my car and heading to the front door. On the doorstep there was a bouquet of fresh lilies which are my favourite flowers so I picked them up and headed inside. Just in the door there were rose petals on the floor and there was new pictures lining the wall of Jude and I throughout our relationship. Looking at all the pictures made me feel really emotional as I remembered all the great memories we have together and all the things we have achieved in our time together. The years we've spent together have been the best years of my life and until recently I never even thought about spending the rest of my life with anyone else. After the first few pictures of us when we first got together there was little notes attached to each picture from Jude detailing the memory from his perspective. 

All of the notes were so sweet especially the one attached to the picture from a random date we went on where he told me how that night he realised he loved me. Seeing all of it made the lying about where he's going make sense he's clearly been going somewhere to work on setting up all of this. The only thing it didn't explain was the text from his ex but I put that it the back of my mind for a minute so I could just enjoy remembering all the good moments. The last frame in the line was blank and had a note attached telling me to go out to the garden which is when I realised I hadn't seen Jude and he couldn't have got home more than a few minutes before me. 

Out in the garden Jude was stood under the little archway which separates the garden from the pool area which this morning was bare but now has lots of flowers and beautiful green leaves going across it. He looked really nervous rocking back and forth on this feet with his hands in his pockets. It wasn't until I saw him that it really sunk in what he's been doing and what is about to happen which made me feel bad for making him rush and do it when we've just had a big argument. I joined him under the archway and he grabbed my hands before getting down on one knee holding the most beautiful ring I've ever seen. 

"Y/n this isn't exactly how I had this planned but after this morning I realised my sneaking around was pushing you away and I couldn't let that happen any more so here's my big secret I love you more than anything every moment we get to spend together are the best moments of my life and I want it to be that way for the rest of my life so will you make me the happiest man in the word and marry me?" He asked 

"Yes a million times yes" I said without hesitation because he truly is the person I want to be with for the rest of my life 

"I was so worried you'd say no" he laughed as he slid the ring on my finger 

"If you asked me this morning I'd have definitely said no but all those pictures and notes were so sweet" I said 

"Now that you've said yes I can tell you that last night I went to see my ex as she works for a well know jewellers and she helped me design this ring so it's one of a kind only you will ever have this ring" he explained 

"Thank you for being honest it all makes sense now just promise me there will be no more sneaking around" I said 

"I promise I'll tell you everything from now on you'll be sick of how much I tell you" he half joked 

"Thank you I'm so glad we can go back to being happy for the rest of our lives" I said 

[lucy90712]

Hey all I’m back!

To celebrate I’m opening my requests so feel free to send me your requests.

I can’t promise I’ll post every weekend like I did before because I’m still busy with my last year of uni but I’ll definitely post when I can.

Lucy ❤️💙

[lucy90712]

Nooooo the best always get the worst😞 another favorite gone because of stupid anons

Gonna miss you girl 💗💗

aww thank you. I’ll be back at some point hopefully once I’ve finished uni I’ll be ready to come back. 💙❤️

[lucy90712]

hey guys I’ve been thinking about taking a break from here for a bit. I get to many hateful comments on anon and I just don’t want to put up with it anymore. The break might be a few weeks it might be a few months I haven’t decided yet. I will still be posting on Wattpad as everyone over there is a lot less toxic so if you still want to read my fics I’ll be posting over there.

Lucy ❤️💙

[lucy90712]

Can you do something similar to your giving birth post but with Jude pleaseee 🩷

"Are you sure you'll be ok here on your own I can get mum to stay back and be with you just in case" Jude said 

"No don't worry about it I'll be fine the c section is scheduled for next week and I'm making it till then I'm manifesting it" I said half joking 

"Your pregnancy has been full of surprises but if you want to believe that then go ahead" he laughed 

"We're staying put for just one more week aren't we guys" I said talking to the babies 

"I'll see you tomorrow morning baby but please text me if anything does happen I'll find a way to get back in time" he said 

"See you tomorrow I'll miss you" I said giving him one last kiss before he left for his game 

Once he was gone I thought more about what he said and he's not wrong nothing has exactly gone to plan so far in my pregnancy. We knew we wanted a baby but I got pregnant quicker than we were expecting so when we found out at my 12 week scan we were having twins that was hard to come to terms with. At 20 weeks we first found out we were having two girls but then at my next appointment we found out they were wrong the first time and we are expecting one boy and one girl. I still don't quite believe that even though I've seen the scans for myself which is why everything we've bought ourselves so far has been completely neutral even if family have bought pink and blue baby grows I refuse to waste money incase the doctors were actually right the first time. 

To try and avoid any more surprises I have a c section scheduled for when I turn 38 weeks as that's what my doctor thought would be best. It was always unlikely I'd make it to 40 weeks with twins and my doctor didn't want me to get that far as there becomes a point it's better for the twins to come out rather than stay in so we decided a c section was best. I have everything planned ready for that day; my hospital bag is already packed, the car seats are in the car and I've tried my best to mentally prepare for the surgery and the recovery. As much as I've tried to prepare I'm still incredibly scared of giving birth even if it is through c section as I know any number of things could go wrong and with how much has been thrown at us so far I can't help but think something will go wrong during the birth. 

My determination to make it to my c section date was only half a joke as all day I've been feeling slight cramps in my lower back which I know from reading a million books on pregnancy and birth is a first sign of early labour. I know deep down I should've told Jude to stay but I'll feel like an idiot if it turns out to be a false alarm and I make him miss a game for nothing and then have to miss another for my c section next week. However if this does turn out to be the start of labour I will be completely on my own as Jude will be gone and so will his family as they are travelling to watch the game. I would usually be going with them but I'm not allowed to fly and I can't bring myself to sit in a car for the 5 hours it would take to get to the city Jude is playing in. 

The slight cramps turned into contractions quite quickly but they were still quite far apart and not much more painful than the cramps but they were certainly uncomfortable. I should've called Jude as soon as they started but I was in denial that I was really in labour because I'm not ready to give birth yet I was going to have to be ready in a week not now and I'm scared to even think about how difficult things will be with twins. To stop myself panicking too much I decided it would be a good idea to bake some cookies as I'm always craving cookies and baking has often proved as a good distraction for me. When I got up there was a sudden rush of liquid down my leg which could only be one thing and suddenly nothing was going to distract me from the fact that these babies are coming now. 

I have no choice but to call Jude now but he should be getting on the plane any time now so I have to be quick and hope it's not too late for him to come back home. Luckily he always keeps his phone on until the very last second so if he doesn't answer I'll know I'm too late and I'm doing this on my own. I pressed the call button and listen to it ring and ring and ring until Jude finally answered which was such a relief that I let out a breath I didn't know I'd been holding. 

"Is everything ok love?" Jude asked 

"My waters just broken please tell me it's not too late for you to come back home" I said 

"I'm on the steps to get on the plane so let me quickly talk to Carlo and I'll be home as quick as I can" he said 

"Please stay on the phone with me I can't do this on my own" I said 

"Of course baby I'll be right here until I get home" he said 

I heard him run down the steps to the plane and talk to Carlo who let him go straight away then he was trying to talk to me as much as possible while running through the airport and back to the the team bus which luckily was still there and took Jude back to the training ground so he could drive home. The whole time he was helping me through my contractions and doing his best to time them for me as funnily enough I wasn't really thinking about pressing a button on my phone when I was in pain. 

Jude finally made it home close to an hour later and he gave me a hug and a few kisses before running off to get my hospital bag and pack all the last minute things that needed to be packed then put it in my car which has the car seats in. My doctor has told me that if I did go into labour before my c section date I had to come to the hospital straight away so they could monitor both babies and make sure both of them and I were ok so we got straight in the car to head to the hospital. I never realised how bumpy the roads in Madrid were until we went over them while I was having a contraction which only made it hurt more. The traffic also seemed to be awful so it took us ages to get to the hospital but we eventually made it and I was given a delivery room straight away. 

We'd barely put the bags down when doctors and nurses came in the room to get me on the bed and strap me onto what looked like a million monitors. First I had an ultrasound as at my last appointment one of the babies was breech so they wanted to check if that had changed. I wasn't able to see the monitor but there must've been something interesting on there as all of the medical staff left the room to talk outside. I wasn't too keen on the fact that Jude and I were being left out of whatever was being discussed seeing as they are our babies I feel like we should get some say or at least be told what's going on. Everyone they all came back in and started looking at the contraction and heart rate monitors I was attached to. 

"Everything looks good both babies are head down and you are progressing nicely so we will allow you to have a natural delivery if you would like but of course you can still elect to have a c section" the doctor finally explained 

"I don't know Jude what do you think is best?" I asked turning to him 

"That’s not a decision I can make for you it's your body and you're the one that's going to have to recover after" he said 

"I think I'd like to try and deliver naturally" I said 

"Ok we will take a few of these monitors off so you can get up and walk around but of course if anything changes we may still have to do a c section" the doctor said 

"Of course thank you doctor" I said 

Then we were finally alone and I got to just breathe for a minute as I feel like I haven't had a second to really take in the fact that I'm about to give birth. My peace lasted all of a few minutes before another contraction hit and I grabbed Jude's hand and squeezed it so tight it probably hurt him a little but that was the least of my worries. Jude didn't bat an eye he was just there to support me and helped me breathe through it which actually did help. The midwife I suggested I bounce on the birthing ball if I wanted to speed things up and there's nothing I wanted more than for this to be over so Jude helped me up and I sat on the ball while he sat on a chair across from me. 

After what felt like forever the doctor came back in to check on me but before I knew it there was like a million people in the room again and they told me I needed an emergency c section as one of the babies heart rate had dropped. Hearing that was really scary it made me worry about if everything would be ok and because the doctors needed to act quick they took me away from Jude. They told me he was allowed in the room but he would need to prep so he could enter the sterile environment but I needed him now, I needed to hear his reassuring words because he'd know exactly what to say in this situation. I didn’t know tears were falling down my face until one of the lovely nurses wiped them and stayed by my side to keep me company. It wasn't the same as having Jude there but it definitely made me feel a little better. 

By the time Jude made it into the room they had already started the surgery but he stayed calm and took the place of the nurse next to me. Just having him next to me made me feel a lot better, his hands held onto mine and he told me that everything would be ok and as much as he doesn't know that I believed him. His presence helped me forget about the fact that there was a team of doctors cutting me open and taking my babies out which is distressing but his calmness kept me calm too. 

It didn't take long for them to get baby A out which was confirmed as our little boy who they took away to do tests on and make sure he was ok. I expected Jude to go and be with our baby boy but he stayed by my side while the doctors pulled out baby B our little girl. I really thought Jude would leave then as both of our babies will be together getting a load of tests done which will be scary for them but again he didn't. He stayed by my side as the doctors stitched me up and gave me the medicine to reverse what they given me earlier to numb me from the waist down. Only once I was ok and they were sending me back to my room did he ask me if I'd be ok for him to leave and check on our babies so I told him to go and I'd be fine. 

I was exhausted from the whole ordeal I've been through today and I must've fallen asleep when they took me back to my room as when I woke up Jude was back in the room and he had both our babies on his chest. They both looked so tiny but they were perfect. I'm not sure if it was the hormones that were still raging through my body or what but just looking at my little family made me cry. 

"Hey you're awake" Jude said 

"And you're crying what's wrong love?" He asked

"Nothing is wrong it's just seeing you with them I can't believe they are ours they are just so perfect" I said 

"They are and you did so well I can’t imagine how scary that was” he said 

“I couldn’t have done it without you there I don’t know how you were so calm” I said 

“I was freaking out on the inside but I knew you needed me to be calm so I just thought about that and made sure I was there for you” he said 

“Thank you I don’t know what I would’ve done if I you’d got on that plane”I said 

“Let’s not think about that I’m just happy to be here for this moment” he said 

Jude leant over and give me a kiss. He then handed me my babies and I got to hold them for the first time which was so emotional but my heart felt to full. As much as nothing has gone exactly to plan none of that matters now that I have my babies in my arms and Jude by my side, my family is complete and I couldn’t be happier. 

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Hey gurl hope ur doing fine can you do a PABLO GAVI fluff were he comfort the reader after their big argument? Take ur time and thank u🤭>>

Out of all the parts of dating a famous footballer my least favourite part is going to events. It's not him always being away, the missing important things like birthdays or anniversaries or the hate from fans on social media. I can cope with those things as I knew what I was signing up for when I went on a first date with Pablo but I will never like going to events. I did know that going to events with him might be part of our relationship but we agreed that if he wanted me to go I needed to know about it in advance and he had to stick by my side as much as people all night. My reasoning for this is that I hate big crowds of people I always have and always will it gives me awful anxiety and I've been known to have panic attacks if I get too overwhelmed. Pablo knows this and usually he's really good about making sure I feel comfortable at events when he asks me to come with him which he doesn't always do if he knows he can't be by my side for most of the night. 

Tonight is one of the events Pablo has actually invited me to. He told me about it a few weeks ago so I've had time to prepare myself which was much needed as we are going to a very busy event but it's an important one which is why Pablo asked and I agreed to go. There is going to be a lot of people there but Pablo assured me he'd stay by my side as much as he could and he said that a few of the other guys would be there and would look out for me when he's not around. Hearing him say that eased my anxiety a bit but still I've been trying to psyche myself up to go to this event but I never want to let Pablo down and tonight is important to him so I'll be there. 

Most of the time the events I go to with Pablo are just things Barcelona put on but tonight is different there will be a lot of journalists and cameras there. I can cope with that but I certainly can't just wear what I have in my wardrobe like I usually would so I got a dress especially for tonight and new makeup as all of mine is either old or broken as I just don't use it. If I was going to be seen by a load of people I felt like I at least needed to look the part of Gavi's girlfriend even if it's not the real me. I must say that by the time Pablo yelled from downstairs to say that the car was there to pick us up I looked good, my hair and makeup were perfect and the dress I chose fit me like a glove. 

"The cameras are going to love you looking that hot" Pablo joked when I came downstairs so we could get in the car that's taking us to the event

"That was my aim" I laughed 

"Seriously you look gorgeous that dress really makes your eyes pop" he complimented 

"Thank you it's all a bit out of my comfort zone but it felt more appropriate than jeans" I said 

"You are probably right on that one but you know it doesn't matter what anyone else says about you I love you the way you are even if you do look extra beautiful this dressed up" he said 

"Good because I'm never wearing these heels again they are so uncomfortable" I laughed 

"I guess I'll be carrying you home then" he joked 

It wasn't long before we arrived and immediately I could feel the colour drain from my face seeing how many people there was on the red carpet but also filming and interviewing people. I knew there would be a lot of people but I didn't expect there to be this many. My hands were already starting to shake until Pablo grabbed them and kissed my temple to reassure me that he was right there. We walked down the carpet and had pictures taken of us and Pablo did a few interviews before we went inside where there only seemed to be more people. 

Before I knew it Pablo had left my side and was talking to someone I didn't know across the room. I thought I'd just make my way over there as I could see Pedri not far from Pablo so then I'd have two people I'm comfortable with close by. Quickly the gap I planned to walk through closed in around me so I was surrounded by people with no way out. I tried to keep myself calm by focusing on my breathing but that didn't help all it did was make me realise that my breathing was getting more rapid by the second. Before I could do anything else to calm myself it was too late I was having a full blown panic attack. I had no other option than to push a few people out my way and find the nearest exit to get some air and calm myself down. My first thought once I was calming down was to text Pablo but after 20 minutes he hadn't even read my text so I just got an Uber and went home. There was no way I could go back in there and he wasn't coming out to me so I just went home and sent another text to let him know so if he ever remembered I existed he wouldn't be freaking out.

Once I got home I kept checking my phone to see if Pablo had text me or even seen my messages but every time I was disappointed to see that he hadn't. He promised he'd stay by my side all night and somehow he hasn't once noticed my absence. That really hurt me I thought he really understood my anxiety and how it affects me but as it turns out he only seems to care when it's convenient for him. I had to stop myself from thinking about it as I was starting to tear up as I'm already feeling fragile after my panic attack. Finally at just after 2am Pablo opened the front door but even then he didn't call out for me he just slowly took his shoes off and out his keys away. 

"Oh hi love I didn't realise you left" he said 

"I did text you" I said 

"Sorry I didn't check my phone" he said 

"I can't believe you didn't notice I left you were supposed to be with me most of the night" I said 

"I can't stay with you the whole time babe you know that" he said dismissing me completely 

"I know that but you left me and didn't even think to look for me or check your phone I got stuck in a crowd and had a panic attack and you weren't there to calm me down no one was so I had to come home" I said 

"You can be so dramatic sometimes I'm sure you were fine" he mumbled but plenty loud enough for me to hear 

"I'm sorry I'm not the perfect girl you want" I said nearly in tears 

He tried to say something to be but I just walked away as I can't argue with him right now as I'll just break down in tears again. I wanted nothing more than to just go to bed and forget about today. No matter how much it hurts now I know in the morning I won't be as upset and I can talk to Pablo about how what he did made me feel and we can put this behind us. He's usually such a good boyfriend but sometimes he forgets that I'm not used to the way he lives which isn't entirely his fault and usually when I remind him he's a lot more understanding. Just when I thought we'd be done with this at least for tonight Pablo came into the bedroom. 

"You know you don't have to be perfect I just can't babysit you all the time at events" he said 

"I don't want you to babysit me I just want you to understand that I don't do well in crowds" I said 

"Maybe I'll just stop bringing you to events then I can just do what I want without a shadow" he said 

That was more than enough for me I grabbed my book and charged from my bedside table and took it to the spare bedroom. I've never felt like I wanted to just be away from Pablo but tonight I just can't listen to him say things like that and clearly he's mad at me so I had to remove myself from the situation. I locked the door behind me so I was on my own but it felt so quiet and empty in there. I'm definitely not going to sleep well if at all but I just need some time alone to allow myself and Pablo calm down. 

Pablo's POV

Y/n walked out the room and I heard the door to the spare bedroom lock so I guess I'm sleeping alone tonight. I got into bed but then I felt a pang of guilt hit me. I was annoyed at her for being clingy at first but now I realise that what I did was so stupid, she's not clingy she just needs my support when I take her to big events. She's had a panic attack around me before and it was horrible to watch I didn't know what to do at the time but now I've learnt how to calm her down so she can always come to me when she's feeling panicked. I'm supposed to be the person she can go to especially when I take her to events where she feels uncomfortable but instead I left her and because of me she had a panic attack. If that didn't make me feel awful enough already I decided to ignore her and brush her off when I got home. I'm such an awful boyfriend and now that I've realised what I've done I know she won't want to talk to me. 

There was no was I was going to sleep without getting to apologise to y/n so I grabbed a blanket to go and sit outside the spare room so I can be there if she needs me and so I can apologise to her as soon as she gets up. It felt so wrong to be so close to her but not have her in my arms as she slept. We are almost never apart she comes with me when I'll be away for a few days so we always fall sleep in each others arms every night so not being able to do that makes me feel so lonely. 

A few hours went by and I didn't sleep a wink but I didn't hear anything from inside the spare bedroom until around 4am. That was when I heard y/n sniffling and then I could hear her struggle to breathe. I knew straight away that she was having a panic attack which had me panicking as the door was locked and I couldn't get to her. Then I remembered that we keep spare keys to all the door locks downstairs just in case so I ran down and got them and thanked god that y/n labelled them all as I definitely wouldn't have done that. It took me a few seconds as I fumbled around with the keys before I got the door open. 

Your POV

I tried so desperately to get some sleep but all I could do was toss and turn until I finally gave up trying and started scrolling on my phone. Suddenly my for you page began to fill with pictures and videos from tonight. Some of the pictures I saw of me and Pablo were really cute but all that did was remind me of being inside the event and feeling like I was suffocating. Being reminded of that really made me feel those feeling over again so I tried to calm myself down and remind myself that I was safe and at home but it didn't work. The panic set in quickly I went from being fine to not being able to breathe within a minute. 

Just as I was starting to really spiral out of control the door to the spare room opened and Pablo came in and rushed to my side. He sat on the bed and pulled me into his lap and begun to draw circles on my back as that helps to calm me down. After the first time I had a panic attack around Pablo he's been great at knowing how to calm me down he did research on panic attacks and asked me what helps so now he's better at calming me down than anyone else. He knows that getting me to focus on my breathing only makes me worse so he did his best to distract me from my rapid breathing and bring me back to reality which he's so good at. 

"I'm right here amor" he said as I started to come back down from my spiral 

"Thank you for calming me down" I said 

"I should always be there to calm you down I'm sorry I wasn't there for you when you needed me earlier and I'm even more sorry for the things I said after I regret every single word that left my mouth" he said 

"Its ok I know I'm needy sometimes I am trying to work on my anxiety in crowds so I won't need you by my side all the time" I said 

"You aren't needy at all I knew when taking you to that event it would be busy and I didn't do my part of keeping you feeling safe and comfortable if it's something you want to work on I want to be there to help you even when things don't go to plan" he said 

"Thank you hearing you say that makes me feel better but can we just forget about tonight and everything that happened so we can move on" I said

"If that's what you want but just know I'm really sorry and I will make it up to you at some point but for now let's go to bed we both need some sleep" he said 

He picked me and my stuff up from the bed and carried me back to our bedroom where he placed me on my side of the bed. He quickly got in on the other side and pulled me close so we could cuddle. Straight away I began to feel sleepy because Pablo was by my side and I just can't sleep without him. Having resolved our fight also made me feel so much better and like I could finally drift off without anything on my mind. 

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Fight- Pablo Gavi

Every Classico I have been to in the few years I've been with Pablo has been intense it's just the nature of a match between such big rivals. This match feels even more intense though as if Barcelona win they win the league this season so there is a lot on this game. Pablo was nervous about me going to the match as he knew it would be crazy but I never miss a game especially a home game let alone such an important one so I told him I was definitely going and that I'd be fine. Pablo might be worried about me but I'm determined to go and to enjoy the match like I always do he even told me not to wear a Barcelona jersey to avoid attracting too much attention but I didn't listen as I want to be seen supporting him. 

Just like every home game I arrived in plenty of time and sat in my seat ready for the match to start. The atmosphere did feel different this time the usual tense atmosphere seemed to be heightened and there was a sort of uneasy feeling in the air. For a second I thought Pablo was right and maybe this match might be more intense than usual but I put that to the back of my mind as I just wanted to enjoy the match. As soon as the players were out on the pitch the whistling started and the crowd became quite hostile. This only got worse when Barcelona scored the first goal of the game. The majority of the crowd cheered as they are here to see the team win but there was still some aggressive chants coming from the Madrid fans. As the second and third goals hit the back of the net the negative attitude became heavier. A 3-0 loss is awful at the best of times but for Madrid to be losing that badly in such an important Classico it hurt their fans so when in the last minute of the game Pablo scored a 4th I was actually a little scared. 

From the final whistle things descended into chaos rather quickly. A fight broke out between Madrid fans and the home fans a few rows behind where I was sat. It scared me a little but I thought security would handle it and get it under control quickly as I've seen this happen before and usually it's handled pretty well and things don't get out of control. The fight got bigger and started getting closer which is when I realised how bad the situation actually was. There was nowhere for me to go the stairs to leave the stands were blocked and the seats were too high up to get down to the pitch I was stuck watching as the fight got closer and closer. 

I heard people yelling from further down so I looked and saw all of the  players trying to calm things down but of course that wasn't working things had gone beyond that. While looking down at the players I caught Pablo's eye and I watched as the look in his eyes turned into pure panic which is how I expect mine look as this situation is scary. I quickly had to turn away from him when I heard yelling right next to me and before I knew it all the people around me were getting involved in the fight and I was being dragged in. No one seemed to have a care in the world for those who didn't want to be involved they just dragged us into the crowd as we feared for our safety. 

Pablo's POV

Y/n looked at me with a panicked expression before she got dragged into the fight and I couldn't hold back any longer. I had hoped security would take care of it but clearly things have got too far out of control. All of us players on the pitch were helpless we tried to calm things down without getting involved but that didn't work and now it's gone too far. Seeing how violent the fight was I decided I couldn't just stand there and watch because I can't let anyone hurt y/n and even if she doesn't get hurt I know she'll be panicking. They say if you want something done do it yourself and that's what I'm going to have to do no one else is doing anything so I have to make sure y/n is ok. 

I gave the boys a look and they understood straight away they helped me climb up to the stand while people yelled at us to stop but I could care less about the repercussions no one else wants to help and I'm not letting my girlfriend get hurt due to others incompetence. There was so many people in the stand that I had to fight my way through, some trying to avoid the fight others just watching and some wanting me to take pictures but I ignored them all. Luckily for me the fight hadn't got too much bigger and I could still see y/n so when I reached the edge of the fight I was able to grab hold of her arm and pull her out of there as gently as I could while still getting her out the crowd. 

Once I could reach her better I picked her up and carried her to the edge of the stand as she was crying and shaking so she couldn't walk even if she wanted to. I've never seen her in such a state and I feel awful that this had to happen. I know it's not my fault but I can't help but feel guilty I knew this match would be intense so I should've got her a vip seat in a part of the stadium with more security. If I'd have done that then this whole situation wouldn't have happened but I can't change things now instead I just have to make sure she's ok. The boys were waiting at the side of the stand ready to help us both back down so I helped y/n over the barrier and they lifted her to the ground and made sure she was ok while I climbed down. 

Your POV 

The panic set in quickly and I couldn't control my emotions any longer tears started flowing before I could stop them and my whole body started to shake. I wanted to try and get out of there but I couldn't move my feet just wouldn't go anywhere. It felt like it went on forever but realistically it probably wasn't that long before I felt a hand on my arm gently dragging me out of the fight. Straight away I knew who it was so when Pablo picked me up I held onto him as tightly as I could as my body started to calm down from the state of panic I was in. I could tell when we were safe as he stopped walking so I finally looked up and saw that we were at the edge of the stand where he helped me over the barrier and the other guys helped me to the ground. Fermin and Pedri kept their arms around me to make me feel safe until Pablo had got down and could hold me again. 

"Are you ok?" Pedri asked 

"They didn't hurt you did they?" Fermin asked 

"She'll be ok and I don't think she's hurt she's just scared" Pablo answered for me as I couldn't get any words out 

"Hey I'm sorry this happened are you ok?" Jude asked as he came over to check on me

"She will be thanks for checking on her" Pablo said 

He seemed to think that was enough as he grabbed my hand and we started walking off the pitch hopefully to somewhere more quiet so I can properly calm down. Pablo was quick to find a back room in the stadium that we could go into and locked the door behind us. There was a sofa so he sat down and pulled me into his lap just holding me tight letting me let all of my emotions go. It felt good to let go of all my emotions I'd been holding in a lot of feelings as I was just so scared but now that I'm out of any danger it hit me just how terrifying that experience actually was and how much worse it could've been. 

As it turns out Pablo was right I shouldn't have gone to this game and now I feel like an idiot if I had just listened to him I'd be sat at home completely safe and only hearing about the events through social media. I know he's always thinking about my safety and if he was worried I should've listened to him but instead I wanted to be independent and make my own clearly stupid decisions. Thinking about that only made me more upset as I put myself in danger. 

"Hey it's ok you're safe now" Pablo said 

"I'm sorry I should've listened to you and not come you always know what's best and I didn't listen" I said 

"No don't blame yourself neither of us could've predicted this you did nothing wrong by wanting to come none of this is your fault ok none of it" he said 

"Are you ok though you didn't get hurt right" he said 

"No I'm ok I think just a bit shaken" I said 

"Thats ok we can sit here quietly for as long as you need but I want you to know that this will never happen again I won't let it so don't be scared to come to games I'm not going to let anyone hurt you and I can find someone to keep you company for the next few games so you don't feel scared" he said 

"Thank you I think I'll miss the next game but after that I should be ok" I said 

"But if you aren't that's ok you only come when you are ready" he said

His words made me feel so much better as I know he has my best interests at heart and whatever I want to do he'll go along with. I was feeling a lot better but still his hand remained on my back rubbing it gently to soothe me as my breathing still wasn't quite normal. Only Pablo can calm me down in this way no one else has managed to help me when I'm in the state I was earlier and that's one of the many things I love about him. He's such an amazing boyfriend and tonight just proves that he put himself in harms way just to get me out of trouble and I know he will always do that which I can't thank him enough for. 

[lucy90712]

Hello can you make a kenan x reader fic where he feels guilty for breaking up with reader to concentrate to his career?

"Babe we need to talk" Kenan said 

"Sure what's up" I said 

"I'm really sorry but I think we need to break up I need to focus in my career right now and I love you I really do but nows just not a good time" he said 

"I-it's ok I I get it" I said sobbing 

"I'm sorry baby but it's for the best I can focus on my career and you can focus on school to be the best lawyer anyone's ever seen" he said 

He gave me one last kiss before leaving for me to probably never see him again or at least never kiss him again. As soon as he was gone my sobs got even louder as I thought about our time together. We had our one year anniversary just a month ago and I thought we were happy Kenan was doing well at Juventus and I'm happy at university being challenged to learn more. I truly thought we were happy together but I guess I was wrong and now I've got to figure out who I am without Kenan as he taught me so much about myself that I'm not sure if I know what I am when he's not helping me learn. 

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It's been 3 months since Kenan broke up with me and I can't lie things haven't got any easier  I just can't seem to escape Kenan when I look at my phone there's a post about him, when I turn the tv on there he is and when I walk around I see kids wearing a shirt with his name on. I really hoped that over time my feelings for Kenan would go away but that hasn't happened at all I'm still very much in love with him and miss his presence more than anything. For weeks my friends have been trying to get me out of my post break up depression but nothing has worked all I want to do in my free time is curl up and reminisce on the memories I have with Kenan with tears streaming down my face. 

Being without Kenan has impacted all areas of my life my friends have given up on me and I've never spent so much time in bed in my life but I have channeled my sadness into my university work because when I'm doing work that's the only time I'm not thinking about Kenan. Some would say that's a good thing but I know myself and at some point I'll hit a wall and everything will come crumbling down even more than it is already. 

After working on an assignment all day I got back into bed to watch a movie but of course when I turned the tv on the news was playing a clip from the Juventus game earlier where Kenan got sent off. Seeing him so angry as he went for a challenge he knows better then to go for made me sad we broke up so he could focus on his career but as far as I've seen he hasn't been playing well at all. It makes me wonder if that wasn't really the reason he broke things off or maybe he regrets his decision but that's probably wishful thinking. Just as I was about to turn the tv off and feel sorry for myself my phone rang with a call from my best friend so I had to answer it. 

"Hi" I said 

"Do you have any plans for tomorrow?" She asked 

"I mean other than uni work no" I said 

"Great we are going out shopping then we are going to get you a new outfit so you feel good about yourself then we are going to a party and before you say no that's not an option we're going" she said 

"I'll go but no promises I'll enjoy myself" I said 

"We can work on that one I just want you to get back to being yourself and not letting that selfish dickhead take away your happiness" she said 

"He's not a dickhead" I defend 

"He really is he broke up with you just after your anniversary and now he's not even playing well that's a dick move and I know you still love him but you can't honestly think that what he did was right" she said 

"I suppose you're right" I surrendered 

"Thats progress well I'll see you tomorrow be ready by 10" she said before hanging up 

I really don't want to go to a party but maybe it will be good for me to get out and see some other people who knows maybe I'll even meet someone and I'll forget about Kenan all together. That sounds like wishful thinking but you never know stranger things have happened in my life. 

Kenan's POV

Seeing the red card didn't exactly surprise me I knew that what I did was wrong I would never usually do something like that but I haven't been myself the last few months since I made the stupid decision to break up with y/n. I regretted breaking up with her as soon as I did it but I was too stubborn to go back and tell her that I'd made a mistake in hopes she'd take me back. I really thought I needed to work on my career and that y/n was going to be a distraction but as it turns out she is what kept me focused. Ever since we broke up I've not been the same I didn't play well at the euros and I definitely haven't started the season well with Juventus in fact I don't think I've been this unfocused in years. 

After getting sent off I just sat in the locker room thinking about life and all the bad decisions I've made over the last few months until the rest of the guys came in a looking defeated which told me all I needed to know we lost and it's probably all my fault. I didn't want to look them all in the eyes as I know what they are thinking and I don't want to see the disappointment in their eyes. 

"What's going on with you man?" Weston asked taking a seat next to me 

"Don't worry it's nothing" I said 

"Come on man no offence but you've been awful this season something must be going on" he said 

"I broke up with y/n and I regret it everyday everything reminds me of her and I can't get her out of my mind" I admitted 

"If you really can't stop thinking about her then tell her she'll either feel the same way and you can get back together or she won't and you can try and move on" he said 

"How am I supposed to talk to her she blocked me after I left her crying at her place and I didn't think she wants to hear from me" I said 

"If you want her back you'll find a way and if it's meant to be the universe will help you out" he said patting me in the back before walking away 

He was right there is no point feeling sorry for myself and doing nothing about it I either need to get over myself or try and change things. I still have y/n's best friend's phone number so I decided to text her and try and find a way to be able to see her. Predictably the first message I got back was filled with all of the things she thought about me but then she did say that the two of them are going to a party tomorrow so I can go and if y/n wants to talk to me then she won't stop her. That was good enough for me even just a chance to see her and try and explain myself is enough for me. 

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All afternoon I've been thinking about seeing y/n at the random party I'm going to crash at one point I talked myself out of going but then I realised that was stupid as this might be my only chance to see her and tell her how I feel. After convincing myself to go I got ready then contemplated my life decisions again in the car on the drive there. Once I got there I put a hat on so hopefully less people would recognise me as I'm not here to attract attention I only want the attention of one person and she'll hate if I turn up as the centre of attention. 

There was so many people in the house that I was wondering how I was going to find y/n but then I spotted her from across the room. Her best friend was nowhere to be seen but there was some guy stood next to her and I could see from where I was stood that he was trying to flirt with her but she didn't seem at all interested. I can't blame the guy for trying though she looked so incredibly beautiful she had on a dress which clung to her figure in all the right places but it also brought out her eyes making them sparkle like they used to when she was happy with me. How I wish I could see her eyes sparkle like that again as we cuddle while watching a movie in bed. It was only then that I realised I was just staring at her from across the room and I was only brought back to reality because the guy gave up with trying to get her attention and walked away muttering to his friends probably something unkind. 

I knew straight away this was my chance she was on her own and I know she hates to make a scene so hopefully I can convince her to let me have just 5 minutes to talk to her. I'm hoping those 5 minutes will be enough to be able to show her how sorry I am for what I did and how much of a mess I am without her because that's the truth I'm a shell of my former self without her. 

Your POV 

I was ready by 10 just like I said I would be but just like I thought I didn't exactly enjoy myself. We went shopping and I was made to buy a new dress because apparently it was perfect for me but I didn't think I looked that good in it it was just like any other. We stayed out shopping pretty much all day until we had to get ready for the party which I really didn't want to go to but I wasn't going to be allowed not to. My best friend did my hair and makeup for me so all I had to do was put on the dress and get in the car which I managed but I definitely wasn't smiling. 

We got to the party and there was a lot more people than I was expecting most of which I didn't know I was hoping my best friend would stick with me but before I knew it she was gone so instead I just stood over the other side of the room on my own. I was really hoping I could go all night without talking to anyone but of course that idea was too good to be true some guy quickly came over to try and flirt with me but I didn't want anything to do with him so I paid no attention to him. It took a while for him to get the hint but eventually he left me alone and I thought that would be the end of my excitement for the night but I was wrong so very wrong. 

Seconds after the guy finally left me alone there was someone else walking towards me. I recognised him instantly and nearly broke down in tears again as I tried to find a way I could get away. Any route to an exit was far too crowded and Kenan could manage to get to me before I could get away. I was trapped and had to just resign myself to my fate and try not to cry in front of everyone which will be difficult as I already want to cry and Kenan hasn't even said anything to me yet. 

"Y/n will you come outside with me for just 5 minutes so we can talk" he said

"Ok" I replied 

Seemingly without thinking he grabbed my hand and led me through the crowd towards the garden. Feeling his hand in mine had my heart racing if I were to close my eyes and pretend that the last few months hadn't happened I would probably feel happy but instead I'm just nervous I don't want him to break my heart again because I don't think I can handle that. He led me to a quiet corner of the garden where he finally let go of my hand and just stared at me for a few moments. 

"Y/n I know you probably don't want to see me but I have to apologise breaking up with you was the worst decision I've ever made I know you probably don't care but I've been a mess without you I can't focus on anything other than how much I miss you" he admitted taking me by surprise 

"Kenan" I started to say 

"I know you hate me for what I did and I would too if things were the other way round but if you miss me at all please can we give this another go I'll do everything right this time I promise" he said 

"Kenan I really do miss you too I never stopped missing you but you hurt me I haven't stopped crying for months I can't just go back to how things were just like that" I said 

"How can I show you that I'm not going to hurt you again" he said

"It won't just happen overnight but I'm willing to give things another chance but we have to take it slow until I feel like I can trust you again" I said

"Can I kiss you?" He asked 

"Of course" I replied 

He put a hand on my cheek as he leant down pressing his lips to mine. It was in that moment that I realised how much I really had missed him as the kiss felt better than any kiss I've had before even our first kiss together which was pretty amazing. We both pulled away smiling from ear to ear as we finally have each other back after months of being miserable. 

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My valentine forver- Jude Bellingham

5 years old 

"Y/n I want to ask you something" Jude said as we were playing together during lunchtime 

"What is it Judey?" I asked 

"Will you be my valentine?" He asked 

"Sure but what's that" I said 

"I don't really know but my mummy and daddy keep talking about a Valentine's Day and being each others valentine so I guess it's just something best friends do" he said 

"Ok I'll be your valentine as long as you push me on the swings" I said 

"Deal let's go" he said grabbing my hand to help me up 

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"Hey sweetheart how was your day?" My mummy asked when she picked me up after school 

"It was good Jude asked me to be his valentine" I said 

"He did what?" She exclaimed 

"He said its something best friends do and he's my best friend so now we are each other's valentines" I said 

"That's exciting we'll have to talk to Jude's parents about that" she said 

9 years old 

For what feels like the first time in forever it's nice enough for us to be allowed outside at break time. Me and my friends all wanted to play football with the boys as they always think they are so good but we think we are just as good. There wasn't enough of us to make a full team to play the boys but we drew straws and organised ourselves into two teams. I ended up on the same team as Jude which is what I was secretly hoping for as we've played together before and we worked really well together so I was happy to get to play with him again. 

The years of friendship mean that Jude and I are pretty in tune with each other especially on a football pitch. Today was no different we didn't really need anyone else on our team as we both managed to run round the kids on the other team and pass back and forth until the ball went in the back of the net. It was so much fun but most importantly I was glad to make the other girls proud as maybe now the boys will take us seriously and let us play with them more often. Sadly we didn't get to gloat for too long as the bell rang meaning we had to go back to class. On the way back in I went to grab my water bottle but before I could Jude grabbed it for me as his was right next to mine.

"You played great out there you should really join a team" Jude said 

"My mum won't let me she says I can't do both football and dance and I'm committed to dance this year but maybe next year I'll do football" I said 

"Maybe you can join my club and we can play together" he said 

"That would be fun" I said 

"Wait y/n before we go into class I need to ask you will you be my valentine?" He asked 

"I'm sorry Jude I just don't like you like that I like being friends but that's it I'm sorry if that hurts your feelings" I said running off to go back into class 

Jude looked a little sad for the rest of the day which made me feel awful but I just don't like him that way in fact I don't like any boys that way because that's gross. I like our friendship we play together at school and he's taught me a lot about football but that's it nothing else. 

13 years old- Jude's POV 

Come on Jude you can do it. It's not that difficult just say the words. What's the worst that could happen. Well she could say no but she's done that before and I survived but this time it feels different we aren't 9 anymore and dating isn't something to be sneered at anymore. Being rejected now will probably hurt a lot more but I can't be thinking about that or else I'll chicken out for like the 5th time. 

I've had a crush on y/n for years but this past year it's only gotten worse. She's just so beautiful I can't stop myself from staring at her from across the room when we are in class together. I'm not the only one who has a crush on y/n all the guys in our year and even some in the year above are always talking about how pretty she is. I'm not as popular or as attractive as some of the guys who also like y/n but I'm hoping that after our many years of friendship she'll feel the same as me and if I can ask her first then I think I stand a good chance, at least that's what I'm telling myself. 

After school today we have football practice and y/n will be there as she plays with the team when she's allowed as the school doesn't have a girls team. I made sure to get changed quickly so I could be the first one out there so as soon as y/n was ready I could ask her out as we warm up. As she made her way outside she was talking to one of the other guys in the team Jack and she had a big smile on her face which isn't unusual but it did make me a little nervous. 

"Hey Jude" she said as she came over 

"Hi you seem extra happy today what's going on?" I asked 

"Jack just asked me out so we're going to go on a date this weekend as long as my parents let me but they like Jack so I'm confident" she said 

"Oh wow I didn’t know you liked him" I said trying not to give away my disappointment 

"I've liked him for a while but I never told anyone a I only ever get teased for saying I like anyone so I kept it to myself" she explained 

"Well I'm happy for you" I said completely lying 

It really broke my heart that she's with someone else but I really should've seen it coming she's the prettiest girl in school it was only a matter of time before someone asked her out. That doesn't mean it hurts any less but I'll get over it and at least we are still friends even if she can't be my girlfriend I can still hang out with her. 

15 years old - Your POV 

Maybe love just isn't for me. I've been with two guys over the last few years and both have cheated on me with one of my friends so I've lost a lot of friends but luckily I still have Jude. Since all the drama I spend a lot more time with him as I know he won't betray me and there's no drama surrounding him which is exactly what I want I don't care about being popular and having lots of friends anymore I just want true friends. I call Jude my friend but that's not really how I feel about him after spending more time together I realised that I truly enjoy Jude's company in a way I've never enjoyed being around anyone else. I'm not entirely sure when my feelings started to change but it must've been before my last boyfriend cheated on me as it hurt but I wasn't as upset as the first time because I just wasn't as emotionally attached anymore. 

I've had many chances to tell Jude how I feel but I just haven't been able to make myself do it. I'm not stupid I know there was a time when pretty much all of the guys in school had a crush on me Jude included but I don't know if he feels the same now. He used to get awkward around me which is what gave him away but he doesn't act like that anymore which makes me think that he doesn't like me that way anymore. Jude has been such a good friend to me since we were 5 but especially the last few years we are always together whether it be at lunchtime in school or kicking a ball around down the park at the weekend. I value our friendship so much that I can't bring myself to tell Jude how I feel, the possible rejection isn't worth our friendship to me.

I've put my feelings aside for a few months now but as it's approaching Valentine's Day and I hear my friends talking about that their boyfriends are doing for them it makes me a little sad and maybe a little jealous that I don't have that with Jude. In a completely genius move I'm spending the next few days with Jude helping him get some extra training in as he's playing a big match soon and he wants to play well and he likes to test his skills against me. Our plan is to go straight from school to the park where they have football pitch we can play around on until it gets dark. 

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"You're going to do great in that match you are definitely too much for me to be able to keep up with" I said 

"You're still coming back from injury though" he said 

"You still beat me fair and square like a million times trust me you've got this" I said 

"Do you have any plans Sunday?" He asked out of nowhere 

"Thats Valentine's Day right definitely no plans for that day" I laughed trying to make a joke of how sad my love life has been 

"Then would you like to go on a date with me?" He asked 

"What" I said completely in shock 

"That was stupid I'm sorry forget I ever said that" Jude panicked 

"No I would love to go on a date with you the question just took me by surprise I had no idea you still felt that way about me" I said 

"Wait, still you knew I had feelings on you" he said 

"Yeah you weren't exactly subtle a few years ago but now you are definitely better at hiding your feelings I had no idea you still liked me" I explained 

We laughed about it before actually planning our date after texting our parents to make sure they'd be willing to take us and make the reservation at the restaurant we wanted to go to for us as we aren't actually old enough to do that. On the way home from the park I couldn't stop smiling thinking about going on a date with Jude after all these years of friendship and feelings on both sides but never at the same time. When we got to my house Jude grabbed my hand and leaned in to kiss my cheek which made me blush like I've never blushed before but it felt right being with Jude in this way. 

19 years old 

I'd have never guessed that the airport would be so busy on Valentine's Day but I guess it makes sense with people going away or going to visit long distance partners which is what I'm doing so I guess I'm part of the problem. Since Jude went to Germany our relationship has changed quite a lot but we are still just as happy as before. Originally I was supposed to move with him and join Dortmund's women's team but I tore my acl over a year ago and haven't been able to play again since so instead I opted to go to university instead. Last year we couldn't be together to celebrate so we had a date over FaceTime but this year I'm surprising Jude as he has no idea I'm coming. With the help of some of his teammates who I knew well from coming to visit as much as I can I've planned dinner at a nice restaurant and then we are going to a show at a nearby theatre but most importantly I'm going to Jude's apartment to wait for him to come home from training to surprise him with it all. 

My flight landed a bit late but I got through the airport quickly so I managed to get to the apartment with about half an hour to spare before Jude is due home. I spent my time freshening up a bit and setting out the presents I got him on the coffee table. When I heard him opening the door I got up and ran to hide somewhere to really make it a surprise. He came in and saw what I'd left for him on the coffee table and started to read the card which is when I came out from the room I was hiding in and snuck up until I could sit next to him. I managed to make him jump then he just stared at me and didn't say anything. 

"What are you doing here?" He asked when he was able to speak 

"I thought I'd come and surprise you as we didn't get to spend valentines together last year" I said 

"I've missed you so much I'm so happy you're here" he said 

"I'm here for a few days so we can spend plenty of time together but tonight I have things planned for us so we need to get ready in an hour" I said 

"What have you planned?" He asked 

"We are going to dinner at that restaurant that you said is really nice and then afterwards we are going to the local theatre to watch a show" I said 

"That sounds amazing I'm so impressed you've managed to pull this off" he said 

"I had a bit of help so hopefully it all goes to plan" I said 

"As long as I get to be with you it doesn't matter what goes wrong I'll have a good time" he said 

21 years old - present day 

The last year or so has been a rollercoaster once Jude moved to Madrid and settled in I joined him to do my masters degree instead of staying home for another year. Because of all this last year we didn't celebrate valentines at all really as Jude was away for a game and I had exams but this year he's promised me he's going to go all out to make up for it. I have no classes today so Jude booked appointments for me to get my hair, nails and makeup done so all I have to do is pick an outfit when I get home which is already a lot but he made sure to make it clear that this is only the beginning. 

My first appointment was my hair appointment so I just got a trim and got it styled then came makeup which I left up to the makeup artist as she definitely knows better than I do. I already looked so much better just after that but I still had one more appointment. Jude remembered where I like to go to get my nails done so he booked the appointment with the girl I always go to so we got to catch up as it's been a while since I've had someone other than me do my nails. Usually I have ideas of what I want to do but this time I didn't so she suggested some someone French tips so that's what we did. My nail girl is good but today she took extra care in making sure they were perfect and wouldn't let me leave until she was happy but it was so worth it. 

After all of my appointments I felt really good about myself even more so when I got home and got dressed in the dress I decided I wanted to wear. Jude also put on his outfit which he looked so good in so I insisted that we take pictures together before we leave as we never both look this good one of us is always having a bad hair day so we have to take advantage of both feeling good about ourselves. After taking pictures Jude told me we needed to leave as there was a car waiting outside for us which was I was expecting to just be an Uber or something but it was actually a really fancy car. The driver greeted us and offered us glasses of champagne which is definitely not what I was expecting but Jude did say he was going to go all out so I should've seen it coming. 

The car took us to a really nice restaurant which surprisingly wasn't too busy despite it being Valentine's Day. The place was definitely decked out for the occasion as there were candles on all the tables and lots of roses all around including a few rose petals on each table. Dinner was lovely all of the food was amazing and we had a great time but that wasn't all Jude had planned so we got back into the car which took us to this beautiful park in the city. As it was dark no one else was around so we walked around for a bit and then made our way to the big lake in the middle of it. 

I was enjoying the view looking at the reflection of the moon in the water when I felt Jude's hand slip out of mine so I looked over to see if he was ok. When I did I saw him down on one knee holding a ring box. I really didn't expect Jude to propose tonight so I was shocked but also incredibly happy as he truly is the love of my life so getting married to him is something I've dreamed of a lot. Jude grabbed one of my hands while my other one went to wipe the tears that were falling down my face completely out of my control. 

"Y/n since we met when we were little kids we've had a connection that I've never experienced with anyone else and when we started dating I realised I was the luckiest person on earth get to be with my best friend and soulmate now I think it's time to ask if you'll marry me and be my valentine forever" he said 

"Y-yes of course I'll marry you" I managed to stutter out as he slid the ring on my finger

"Thank god I was so nervous you'd say no" he laughed 

"Why would I ever say no" I said 

"I don't know I was just worried you'd think this is too much or a bit corny to do it on Valentine's Day but this day has been important throughout our relationship so it felt fitting to get engaged on the day we had our first date all those years ago" he said 

"Its perfect it means so much to me that you thought so much about it that's what I really care about" I said 

"I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you" he said 

"Me too" I smiled 

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Valentine’s Day

Jude: 

- Jude likes to go all out for Valentine's Day as it's the one day that he can spoil you and show you how much he appreciates all the sacrifices you've made for him without you telling him off at least too much 

- Since moving to Madrid your schedules in the morning never line up so you don't get to see each other in the morning but before going to bed Jude sets out the things you needed for breakfast which made you life a lot easier 

- seeing as Jude made your morning better you thought you'd make his morning slightly easier too by having coffee prepared for him and you prep his usual breakfast so he can just put it all together and eat it 

- as he didn't get to see you in the morning as soon as he finishes training he picks up some lunch and heads to where you work so you can eat lunch together on your break 

- all your coworkers are so jealous that Jude is so cute as their partners never think to do anything like that for them but as much as they are slightly envious they tell you not to let Jude go as you've clearly found a good boyfriend 

- he doesn't like leaving you but at some point you have to get back to work so he leaves you but not before being rather dramatic and giving you lots of kisses 

- once you finish work and arrive home he is telling you to get yourself ready as he's going to take you out to dinner you want to just get dressed and go but Jude encourages you to take a bath and do what Jude calls your fancy skincare 

- after taking longer on your appearance than you ever have you are finally ready to go but before you can leave Jude has to give you about a million compliments on everything from your dress to how your makeup makes your eyes stand out 

- he takes you to a small nearby restaurant which he has rented for the night because he wanted to take you out like normal boyfriends do but he didn't want to have to deal with crowds and people bothering you so he decided this was the solution even if it did cost him a lot of money but he doesn't tell you that part 

- after a lovely dinner you go back home and got yourselves into bed as life goes on and you both have things to do the next day but before you go to sleep Jude gives you the presents he got you 

- he got you some beautiful jewellery which you had been looking at for a while which you are so grateful for but you two agreed not to get each other gifts so you didn't have anything for him so you felt bad but he insisted that it was ok and he didn't need anything other than you 

Fermin: 

- your relationship is very private no one outside of your friends and family knows you two are together and have been for a while and you both want to keep it that way so valentines is always a private affair 

- even though you won't be going out Fermin still wants to do something nice and spend time with you so after he's done with training and meetings for the day he comes straight to pick you up from uni as he knows you'll be in the library all day if he doesn't come and get you 

- when he arrives he texts you and you come right out of the library and to his car where he takes your bag from you and gives you the tightest hug and kiss before getting back into the car and going to his place 

- back at his place when he opens the door for you you are greeted with a beautiful bouquet of flowers and some chocolates which he set up before he left in the morning as he knows you'd love it and thank him forever which you do 

- after a lot of cuddling on the sofa and just talking for hours about a lot of nothing Fermin suggests making dinner together as its something you don't get to do very often and and you can't just go out to a restaurant 

- neither of you are brilliant cooks but you know the basics so you both find a new recipe you want to try and give it a go which comes with a lot of laughs and messing around but that's the fun part 

- as everything cooks Fermin cleans and doesn't let you do any of it but as soon as he's done he his arms wrap around your waist so he can hold you close as you watch over what is on the stove 

- Fermin is usually pretty touchy but he gets even more clingy on days like this he just loves to have you close and show you how much he loves you because even though he does it every day he thinks you deserve extra love on Valentine's Day 

- after dinner you suggest watching rom coms and Fermin agrees even though he hates them but he secretly gets very involved after just a few minutes as he gets annoyed when you pause the movie to go to the bathroom which you have to tease him for but he takes it as he knows you are joking 

- at some point time slips away from you so Fermin asks you to stay the night not wanting you to have to go home so late even if it would be him taking you home plus it means getting more time with you which he will never complain about 

- while in bed you finally exchange gifts which aren't anything fancy just little heartfelt things you know each other will love and Fermin gives you a card which has the most heartfelt message in it that has you on the verge of happy tears because it means so much seeing how much Fermin loves you 

Joao: 

- Joao has to go to training before you get up but he still takes time out of his routine to make you breakfast and bring it to you before he leaves which gets him more than one good morning/ goodbye kiss from you 

- he doesn't like to leave you on any normal day but he especially doesn't like leaving you on Valentine's Day as he wants to spend the entire day loving on you but he can't so instead he just make sure he gets home as quickly as possible from training 

- when he gets home you are still working as you work from home but Joao wants to spend time with you so he grabs a chair from the dining room table and sits with you at your desk to just watch you work 

- if it was anyone else you'd be annoyed at the presence next to you just watching but because it's Joao you don't mind he is also quite useful if you need any papers from across the room he'll get them for you or if you need to remember something he'll write it down for you 

- once you finish work you barely have 2 seconds to shut down your computer before Joao is taking you away from your desk so he can have all of your attention for the rest of the day 

- he suggests that you bake some valentines cookies together as he knows you love baking and it means you'll have sweet treats to eat for the next few days which is always great 

- you look up a recipe for some heart shape cookies but it wouldn't be you if you didn't modify the recipe a bit so the cookies become chocolate chip and you have to use some food colouring to make them red 

- once the cookies are done baking you make some pink icing so you can write on the cookies for a bit of fun you write some really cute things on yours for joao and he sort of does the same some of his say cute things but others say stupid things 

- your evening consists of eating cookies and cuddling on the sofa as that's all either of you wanted to do 

- right before bed you both exchange cards as you had agreed not to get each other any presents as neither of you need or want anything 

- the card Joao gave you was so sweet he had clearly spent a while thinking about what to write which means a lot to you as he's often really busy so for him to spend his free time writing something for you really makes you happy 

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some fluff with Marc casado?? 😸😸

Since Marc's first game this season I've been to every game with him even the away games as I just want to be there to support him he's waited so long to be part of the first team and now he's doing so well I feel like I can't miss a game. I'm so proud of him he's really proved to everyone just how good he is and the fact that I can tell everyone that it's my boyfriend out there making the difference makes my heart swell with pride. 

We've been together since we were 17 but we've known each other since we were kids I've been there for every high and low of Marc's career so far and he's been there for me but now that I have a good job while I finish my degree I need to be there for Marc so that's what I've been doing. He always tells me that his teammates tease him for always having me there but he couldn't care less since I've been going to the matches the team have been doing really well so he always says I'm his lucky charm. 

This week is a big week and tonight is the start of it as the team are playing Bayern Munich who they don't have the best record against in previous years but today is going to be different I can feel it. Marc has been nervous so I drove him to the training centre so I could give him one last pep talk before he had to leave which is sometimes what he needs to go out there and kill it like I know he can. To make him feel better I put on some of his favourite songs which to start with earned me a funny look but by the time we got to the training centre he was singing along with me just like he usually would. 

"You've got this I've seen you play for the last few weeks and you have been amazing just don't think about who you are playing great this like any other game" I said

"I know but it's Bayern Munich and we've both seen that 8-2 match I don't want that to happen again or be part of it" he said 

"And you won't be you guys are better than you have been before you can win this I know you can" I said 

"I suppose as long as I have my lucky charm there we have the best chance" he said 

"That's more like it" I smiled 

I gave him one last hug and kiss before he had to go and I had to go back home to get myself ready for the match as I went straight from a morning of online lectures to bringing Marc here so I'm definitely not match ready. I always wear Marc's jersey and I have been wearing one specific one he gave me from his first match this season as he thinks it's gives him extra good luck and I want to do everything I can to make Marc feel more confident about tonight. Part of me worries that the occasion will get to him and he'll struggle out there and I hate to see that but the other part of me knows that he can do it and that he can rise to the occasion but that doesn't mean I don't worry about him. 

After what felt like forever it was finally time for kick off but as it turns out I didn't need to be so nervous as in the first minute of the game Raphinha scored and the team looked great. Not long after Bayern got an equaliser but they didn't get discourage they just kept attacking and searching for a goal which they got from Lewandowski. Then just before half time Raphinha got another goal but that wasn't what I was focused on I was focused on the fact that Marc just got an assist against Bayern Munich. They were in control from then on so all I did was watch Marc do his thing out there and do it well. 

The minute I could I left the stands to go and meet Marc in the tunnel where he ran over as soon as he saw me and picked me up so he could jump around with me in his arms while I kissed him. I could hear some of the other guys laughing and teasing us but I couldn't care less my boyfriend just got an assist against Bayern Munich and helped his team to a great win. If I want to be spun around a hallway and kiss my boyfriend to show him how proud I am then I will. 

"You were amazing out there" I exclaimed 

"Thank you it felt so good out there I felt like I was on fire everything just went so well" he said

"I told you you'd be great" I said 

"Well I had my good luck charm watching me" he said

"I wouldn't have missed it for the world" I said 

He gave me one last kiss before going off to get changed while Gavi patted him on the back and said something to make Marc blush which I'm guessing means it's about me as Marc always blushes when someone brings up our relationship. 

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After the big win against Bayern the team has been riding the high right into today's match against Madrid. They might be full of confidence but I am less confident it's not that I don't believe in them I do but Madrid are a tough team to play and at the Bernabéu too that's not an easy match no matter how well you think you are doing or how confident you are. My confidence in the team means nothing though Marc felt confident when he left and that's the most important thing. The team all flew to Madrid this morning but I had to drive there so I got on the road once I knew Marc had gone and had to be alone with my thoughts for the entire drive which with the traffic was a long time. I just can't bare to see Marc's face if they lose I've been with him after big loses before and he always gets so upset and blames himself and seeing the pain in his eyes breaks my heart every time. 

I couldn't wear Marc's shirt to this match, I wanted to but he told me not to as he wanted me to leave the stadium alive so I had to admit defeat as he's right they will eat me alive if I'm seen in a barca shirt. So instead I did the next best thing I have one of Marc's hoodies to wear and I have the bracelet he got me on our first date on my waist as it holds a special memory and I wear it when I need good luck so hopefully it will do the same for Marc. 

The first half was long and I was hoping that the team would score but alas they didn't but Madrid didn't either which is good. After half time the guys all came out renewed and were continuing to fight for a goal. Then it happened Lewandowski scored and Marc got an assist the rest of the crowd was silent but inside I was screaming with pure excitement. I could feel Marc's joy even from the stands I'm sure no one else felt it but I did he was proud of himself and I'm proud of him. Things only got better from there one goal turned into two which turned into three and then into four. It felt like a dream I mean 4-0 is a great score line against many teams but against Real Madrid it's extraordinary. 

Once the match was over I waited until the stands were mostly empty before heading down to where I was able to meet Marc who was already waiting for me with a big smile on his face. I held my arms open so I could hug him as tightly as I could before pulling him in for a kiss. Plenty of people could see us but I didn't care I wanted to celebrate Marc's incredible game plus we've posted together in the past so who cares if people know that I still love my boyfriend. 

"That was incredible I couldn't celebrate properly in the stands but on the inside I was cheering" I said 

"It was amazing all of us were confident going into this but the result is incredible" he said 

"And you got another assist I think I was the only person excited about that" I laughed 

"You're the only person I wanted to be excited about that and flick I suppose but mainly you" he said 

"We definitely have to celebrate these last few matches properly when we get home" I said 

"We've been given a few days off so we'll have plenty of time to celebrate and I asked if I could come with you so we can have a road trip back home" he said 

"We are so having a concert in the car I have just the right playlist for the occasion" I said 

"I can't wait but first I have to do my media thing then we'll be ready to go" he said 

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Marc's POV

After having three days off I'm actually excited to get back to training I've spent the three days with y/n going out to dinner and relaxing on the beach it's been a great little break. When I got to the locker room a few of the guys were already there all talking about what they did on their days off so when I said what I'd done a few of the boys tried to tease me especially about the fact that I posted a few pictures from the last few days all featuring y/n. As much as they teased me the more sensible guys in the team talked about how they remember being like us when they were younger and that made me feel better. 

"Ooh Marc is so in love" Lamine teased 

"I just love my girlfriend so much" Fermin joked 

"Leave them alone it's nice to see that they are still happy together after four years right" Lewandowski said 

"Yeah it will be four years at the end of the month but I'm planning to propose before then" I admitted out loud for the first time 

"Wait really?" Gavi asked 

"You're going to propose thats a big step congrats" Pedri said

"Yeah we've been together for a while now and she just makes me so happy I know I want to be with her for the rest of my life so why wait" I said 

"Thats really sweet" Pau said 

"How are you going to do it?" Inigo asked 

"I'm not too sure yet but I'll think of something I'm picking up the ring next week so I'll think about it before then" I said 

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Your POV 

After his training session Marc told me to meet him at the park which was quite out of character. It wasn't just any park either he wants me to drive back to our home town and to the local park there. That park holds a lot of good memories it was where me and Marc first met as kids when we were both at the same birthday party but were left out of the game everyone was playing so we played together instead. We also had our first kiss in that park as teenagers, we'd been crushing on each other for at least a year without knowing although all our friends seemed to know and they set us up to be there at the time which ultimately led us to finally telling each other how we felt and sharing out first kiss before Marc asked me to be his girlfriend. That was nearly four years ago now which is crazy to think about but they've been the best years of my life. 

When I finally arrived I couldn't see Marc or his car so I went to text him but as I did I received a text from him telling me to go to the swing set in the park where we first spoke to each other. I did just that and found a rose on the swing and a note telling me to go the football pitch where we spent countless hours together as kids. There was another flower and another note which led me to the bench where we finally admitted our feelings for each other. When I got there there was nothing waiting for me and I couldn't see Marc anywhere but just as I was going to leave my phone dinged with a text telling me to turn around. 

That is when I saw that Marc just a few steps away down on one knee holding a box with a ring in his hand. There was nothing I could do to stop the tears spilling out my eyes in that moment but they were tears of pure joy. I didn't think we'd get engaged for a few more years because despite us being together for four years we are both only 21 but still I'm really happy and excited. 

"Y/n you are the best thing that has ever happened to me I don't know where I'd be if your friends didn't set us up that day but I'm so glad they did as they've given me the most amazing girlfriend who is always there for me when I need her through the ups and downs which is why I want to ask y/n will you marry me?" He said 

"Yes a million times yes" I said 

He placed the ring on my finger and pulled me into a kiss our first as an engaged couple which I don't think will feel real for a while. It's crazy to think how far we've come from teenagers just trying to find our way in life to both having successful careers and a life together. Now I can't wait to see where we'll be in another four years and hopefully many more after that.