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i don't have the energy to add picture evidence on this post so this will mostly just be a ramble! also not proofreading and i just got done an overnight so idk if it'll be entirely coherent.

sandy as a character comes off very... bland, if you aren't paying attention. her insecurities and issues are subtle. so i feel like she tends to be whittled down to just her role in the comic, when there's actually been a lot of insight into her character. "eternal flame" was definitely what tied it all together, and it is also the chapter that has made me love her.

sandy has a lot of expectations on her shoulders. from her mother, her peers, her work, her schooling, maybe most importantly herself. she conducts herself in a very specific way and holds morals that seem naive or immature, but that's a very no-nuance way of describing sandy. she, of course, IS naive. she is immature. she lives in a "me me me" world, her actions are driven by what i percieve as a need to be self serving. it has to go sandy's way. she has to be the one on top. so, in a sense, she is incredibly selfish too.

from my understanding, this selfishness is actually a coverup for a deeply, deeply insecure and identity-less girl. she is a model before anything else, and judging by how the characters react to her beauty, i'm sure she is also beautiful before she is a person. her appearance and how she conducts herself are very important, she cannot slack on these things. it's her main focus to the point where she does not have time for anything else, much less her own emotional needs.

she lashes out, in "to the top" and several times in "model girlfriend". when she lashes out, it's out of frustration, namely lacking skill or feeling inadequate. if she's so perfect, then why would those specific things be such a trigger? why does she get so upset in situations where she isn't good at something?

because despite the confidence, despite the self-assured attitude she has, despite how much she loves her job, sandy has a deep-rooted fear that's extended and only possibly grown since childhood that she is not good enough. she sees herself as someone who doesn't do enough which extends to the belief that she is a bad person, as she hinted at in "witch hunt" and (in the case of her being a bad person) said in "eternal flame". sandy isn't selfish because she's entitled, she's selfish as a defense for how insecure she is. imo she has everything but feels like she herself is nothing.

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I’d like to think Paulo and Abbey get along better in the future and that Abbey probably directed Paulo to seek Therapy bc of what he shared in time out, and it would b am awkward start to a friendship

But I can dream right

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I’m gonna attempt to do these prompts every other day and upload to here and my twitter, but knowing me and how lazy I am it’ll probably be once a week lol

[lucyism]

i don't have the energy to add picture evidence on this post so this will mostly just be a ramble! also not proofreading and i just got done an overnight so idk if it'll be entirely coherent.

sandy as a character comes off very... bland, if you aren't paying attention. her insecurities and issues are subtle. so i feel like she tends to be whittled down to just her role in the comic, when there's actually been a lot of insight into her character. "eternal flame" was definitely what tied it all together, and it is also the chapter that has made me love her.

sandy has a lot of expectations on her shoulders. from her mother, her peers, her work, her schooling, maybe most importantly herself. she conducts herself in a very specific way and holds morals that seem naive or immature, but that's a very no-nuance way of describing sandy. she, of course, IS naive. she is immature. she lives in a "me me me" world, her actions are driven by what i percieve as a need to be self serving. it has to go sandy's way. she has to be the one on top. so, in a sense, she is incredibly selfish too.

from my understanding, this selfishness is actually a coverup for a deeply, deeply insecure and identity-less girl. she is a model before anything else, and judging by how the characters react to her beauty, i'm sure she is also beautiful before she is a person. her appearance and how she conducts herself are very important, she cannot slack on these things. it's her main focus to the point where she does not have time for anything else, much less her own emotional needs.

she lashes out, in "to the top" and several times in "model girlfriend". when she lashes out, it's out of frustration, namely lacking skill or feeling inadequate. if she's so perfect, then why would those specific things be such a trigger? why does she get so upset in situations where she isn't good at something?

because despite the confidence, despite the self-assured attitude she has, despite how much she loves her job, sandy has a deep-rooted fear that's extended and only possibly grown since childhood that she is not good enough. she sees herself as someone who doesn't do enough which extends to the belief that she is a bad person, as she hinted at in "witch hunt" and (in the case of her being a bad person) said in "eternal flame". sandy isn't selfish because she's entitled, she's selfish as a defense for how insecure she is. imo she has everything but feels like she herself is nothing.

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slapping sandy's name on my kin list like it's my job

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gatekeep gaslight girlboss

manipulate mansplain malewife

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just found a TON of unfinished drawings i'd done for a hypothetical bcb dating sim

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i haven't drawn anything bcb related in a hot minute

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i havent had time for bcb im a chad now

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Attempt 1 to make my handwriting legible

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this bonus chapter really hits me hard because it reminds me of the kind of relationship i have with my mom. their interactions are just so Familiar

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Today on: whos a better parent

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sand castle fun!

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mike has zero reading comprehension!! lucy: how bout you send sandy a cute voicemail and send her a pic of the fun ur having and stop moping!! mike, ignoring everything that isnt attacking him: im not moping!!! >:(

mike needs at least two more braincells!!!!! he only has a half!!! also in all seriousness it does make me really mad that she's Helping Him and he's going to push her away too. mike YOU were the one starving for her help bro

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On todays page. Augustus looks worried... and I cannot believe she's offering yet another incredibly sweet and defanged olive branch that he does not deserve rn and he's choosing to be angry about it.

lucy's giving him what he WANTED FROM THE BEGINNING and he's choosing to nitpick her wording i- mike. please

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if yall like me are impatient and dont want to wait til next monday for the update i HIGHLY suggest getting the $5 tier on the bcb patreon

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huh